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"It may seem hopeless, but that's when the good starts to emerge."

-Kamoyrocks
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Julia's POV

"Come on guys! The tournament is this week! We can't afford to make the Red eels beat us!" Coach shouts as we play a never ending game of football.

Time came by surprisingly fast and the tournament was just at the starting line waiting for us. There's only one week left of school before we head off for Christmas break.

I sigh. Christmas will forever remind me of mama. I just really hope I can get through this Christmas without wallowing in my depressing mood.

I head for the goal but it was taken away from me by Jace. I try to chase him but he is way faster than me. In a flash, he kicks in the ball in the goal.

"Great job captain!" Coach says and we head to the benches. We all sit down and wait for a lecture and speech that he surely has for us.

"That was a taste of what you will get on Friday." Jace whispers to me.

"You wish green eyes." I playfully push him away.

"Alright guys listen up! I want you all to play at your hardest. I want you all to play like you never did before. Because if we make this, we can go into the finals in January. This is the ticket we have to getting there. We need to do this, we have to. Abs we're gonna win, because you know why?" He pauses and we shake our heads. "Because we are the Golden Eagles! We soar until we reach the top. We soar until we are above the clouds, until we reach the ultimate limit."

We nod our heads at him.

"So what do you all say? All hands in!" We all do what we were told. A tradition we always did. "One... Two...Three.."

"Golden Eagles!" We all chime.

"I'll see you all tomorrow, get some rest."

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"Hello? Dad?" I pace around garden.

"Julia honey." He voice calms me as soon as he says my name. I've missed him so much that its not even funny. I've felt so empty not having him here.

"How are you?" I clutch the phone way much tighter than I should.

"I'm fine baby, now that I'm talking to you. I miss you so much pumpkin." A tear slips down my face and I bite my quivering lip.

"I miss you too dad. I want you to come back." I'm crying now.

"Mi wish mi could but yuh know I can't." He sighs.

"Mi know papa. I was hoping yuh could do something for me."

"What is it?" I hear something in the background like a door opening and he sighs.

"I uh...I want you to come to my tournament this Friday." I cross my fingers, hoping that he would say yes.

"I'm so sorry pumpkin, I can't. I have this deal to go through with Mr. Tantum. I wish I could be there. Tell mi what happen alright?" I frown as my fingers slowly go to my sides.

"Okay dad." My lips press in a thin line. This isn't the first time my dad is saying no to me. But somewhere deep inside of me was hoping that he would say yes.

Suddenly, I find myself getting angry. Why? Because he is not here. He's not here to comfort me and reassure me that despite of everything that has been going on, that he's here for me and I'll be okay. He's barely in my life and the fact that he couldn't even come to my game enrages me.

"Is there anything else you want to tell me?" That's all it takes for my heart to stop beating. Should I tell him that his wife who he thinks is so loyal was screwing a man while he isn't there? "Julia dear?"

The last thing I would want is for him to worry, he does have a deal to work on.

"No." I swallow hard. I want to shout at him, to scream at him. I suddenly have the urge to hang up on me.

"Okay, well I have to go. I'll see you soon princess."

I nearly choke on a sob. "Bye dad." I hang up the phone as I sit on the bench behind me.

Do you have any idea how heartbreaking it is to have a dad but he can never be there for you? And that you hardly see him?

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"Next on the football court are The Red Eels!" The announcer says through the mic. I watch as insanely tall muscular men rush out from the entrance of the football field.

"They don't look like teenagers." Hunter, one of our team mates say.

"We can do this. Just have faith guys." I breathe shakily. I feel a gently touch on my arm.

"You ready for this?" He whispers.

"I was born ready." I say, a new fond of confidence taking over me.

"Let's do this. After all, I'm ready for my kiss." He winks.

"In your dreams." I run on the field along with the rest of my team.

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It's been a hard game. Both teams 2-2. I'm nothing but a sweaty mess. My breathing heavy. I try to focus on the ball as it heads right for me.

Dizziness hits me instantly but I remain focus on it and as it comes, I use the power in my leg and kick it towards the goal.

I let out a sigh as it misses.

"And Julia couldn't make that goal. That could have been the ticket to winning this long game! But now its time for the penalty kick."

I jog to the benches and chug down some water. I grit my teeth. The two scores that our team scored was made by Jace and I. If I miss the ball for the penalty kicks, I would have to kiss Jace.

Don't get me wrong, I would love too but its a challenge and I never lost a challenge in my life.

"Okay guys. We got this. We just have make sure that we don't miss the goal okay?" Coach says. "Make me proud guys!"

And so we head out. The Red Eels managed to miss two balls and we've managed to miss one, by Jace. Now, its my turn.

I look down at the ball. I blow out a shaky breath. I've never felt so nervous in my life. As I watch my teammates look at me with hopeful stares. As the teenagers and parents that are on the side of my team look at me with determination. Maybe because if I score just this one ball, I'll make my team win.

Once a field that loud with cheers have now gone incredibly quiet and I gulp.

I can do this

I swallow hard

I can do this

I slightly jog up to the ball and with every power left in me, I kick the ball.

When it goes in, I fall to the floor.

I did it

I actually did it

Just then my feet are being lifted up in the air and I'm being carried. I open my eyes and on top of the boys as they hold me in the air. And I just couldn't myself by smiling. I felt free.

As I stare at everyone as they cheer for me. Me. The only girl on the football team, the girl they once degraded because I'm black. I'm not smiling because of their final acceptance of me, I'm smiling because I feel, in that very moment that I accomplished something huge. Something that will show how I made my mark on this school.

And for that, I smile, knowing that I've made a difference...

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"I guess I won't be getting that kiss." Jace chuckles as he steals another fry from my tray. I glare at him.

We are that pizza and ice cream shop with the whole team celebrating. It seemed accurate since I won to Jace.

"You just took my-"

"Heart. Yes June, I know." He winks at me. I flush at him.

I stare at him as he does the same. Its times like these where I'm locked in a trance of the boy I've fallen in love for. Where I automatically zone out everything and everyone around me and we're just in our little world.

He changed me. For the better. I'm recovering. And its a good thing. He can't fix me, but he is changing me. My mind and soul.

I've started to eat regularly, I've started to appreciate myself, my appearance, my looks, everything.

Will I ever recover from everything that is still holding me down?

I don't know yet...

But what I do know is that as long as he's by my side, I'll get through it all, despite being broken.

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A/N: Hi guys. I'm deeply sorry if this chapter was boring. For some reason I just can't focus and write the way I wish to. I'm sorry guys, I feel like I have failed you. And I know that these chapters are short but I can't seem to make them any longer.

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Please take care of yourself, I love you guys ❤