•Dedicated to≈ LaZahriya001 ❤

Okay yeah so my birthday is almost here (October 2) ;)

Also, you don't have to, but the authors note at the end is rather very important to me, please do read it :)

Thanks for the 19k reads and 2k votes my little bunnies ❤
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"I'm not really the best person to give advice to people, but I try. I try to make someone know out there that they're not alone, that yes, other have it worse than you but you go through a whole lot. I try to make that certain person who needs that extra courage to know that your gonna be okay, it might not be today but someday."

-Kamoyrocks (this is not a quote, I just felt like I needed to say this)
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Julia's POV

"What do you want Tanya?" Jace asks as he pulls away from me. I'm still trying to regain myself from everything that just happen a few minutes ago.

The fact that Jace can easily kiss me and I'm left breathless is scaring the living crab shells out of me.

"What do I want?!" Tanya, the girl I've been dreading to see or even hear from shouts.

"I came here to surprise you! In my head, I'm saying, oh, he's alone. Maybe we can get to spend some time alone together. And I find you making out with your escort! She doesn't even seem like an escort to me."

"Your right." Jace surprises me by saying. "This isn't just an escort but so happens to be my whole world."

I smile when I hear him say that.

"She isn't just a girl, she's the girl. The girl to whom I wished I'd met sooner. She's the love of my life and honestly, everything I ever hoped for. So I'm sorry if its inappropriate to please her in the way I choose."

I look at him in complete awe.

That was hot..

Or maybe its just the jacuzzi

"I can't believe this! That means, you too are...together?" She says wide eyed. I mentally face palm my forehead. No we're business partners...

"Yes, and we couldn't be happier. I don't know what it is that you must have said to Julia the other night but its not going to happen. We're just friends and if you can't accept that, then I can't have you in my life."

"But..." She seems to be having a battle with herself, because the look on her face proved it. "Fine."

"Good." Jace turns to me and I gulp when I see Tanya glaring at me. "I think you owe my girl an apology."

If looks could kill, this girl would have killed me.

But the thing is...

I didn't give a damn.

As long as I have Jace, I've already won. And I'm convinced in a way that once I have him, I have everything.

"I'm sorry J-Julia." Her words have no sincerity but with pure bitterness.

"Its okay." I say sweetly, narrowing my eyes at her. She screams stomping away.

I let out a small chuckle.

"Your so childish." I hear him say deeply. I smile at him, wrapping my arms around his neck.

"I know." I giggle. When his eyes go dark and I can't see the beautiful orbs of his that were once green gone, I gulp.

"Now, where were we." He says lowly and wraps my legs around him. I gasp at the sudden tingle that runs down my spine.

He claims my lips once again as we enjoy each other's presence together.

...........

"I'm going to miss you guys when you leave." Celine whines.

"Mom, aw don't do that, we'll come back." Nadine chuckles.

"I want you to stay." She pouts. I try my best not to sing the ding by Rihanna with that same line.

"Well, since you guys are leaving tomorrow, I have something to say." She adds.

"Jace, this is a very beautiful young lady you have chosen, do not let her leave. She's worth keeping. And I don't want to hear that you've upset her. Treat her like the queen she is, do you hear me?" Jace chuckles but agrees with his grandmother.

"Now, moving unto you Kathy." The whole erupts in laughter when she turns beet red.

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"Tell me, from a scale of one to ten, how did you enjoy this trip?" Jace asks as he strokes my back gently. I sigh in comfort as I wrap my arms tighter around him.

"Ten." I smile up at him.

"What made you say that?"

"I got to kiss you." I say softly. "I always wanted to. I was just...scared."

"Well, you don't have to be afraid of me. As long as I'm here, I won't let anything hurt you. And I want you to express anything your feeling with me. Either sad or happy because I love every little thing about you."

"Yuh just always know that right thing fi say don't?" I chuckle.

"Not all the time but when I'm with you, I just..know." He looks up at the wall as if he's wondering something. I chuckle softly at him.

"Well, I'm glad."

"And I need you to become comfortable with me. I don't want you be shy or insecure."

"But I'm not."

"I'm not talking about that way." He smirks. The familiar glint in his eyes I know all too well. "I'm talking about when we were in the jacuzzi yesterday."

"Oh." I say flushing, looking away from him while trying to get away from his hold.

"Nope." He pulls me back. "That's exactly what I'm talking about. I'm gonna fix that." He positions himself so that he's on top of me.

"What do you mean?"

"I'm going to make up for the years I should've been kissing you." He whispers and kisses me with a promise, with love, with desire, with passion slowly and affectionately all over my face and neck and when I meet his eyes, I'm just amazed.

Amazed by this angel

Amazed by this miracle.

Who somehow found me when I was a mess and is making me better in more ways than one.

This boy, who has changed my life and has done everything to make me happy, or just to see me by the least bit smile.

I don't feel like I deserve him.

But somewhere in my broken heart I know I do.

And he might not be able to fix me, but he is there. He's helping me as I heal myself. As I try to bring what's left of me back together.

He's here to be my encouragement in case I fall, he's here to pick me and tell me to keep moving as I continue to trudge on in this cruel world and this unbelievable devastating life.

He's been there for me even when I wasn't even there for myself.

He's known me even when I don't even know who the hell I am.

And despite everything I've put this boy through, he's still here and he still loves me for me.

I don't know how I would have made it without him, I'd probably be dead.

But he saved me.

And I might not recover now or for years to come but there's on thing I know is that as long as this boy remains in my life, and the love he has for me has me believing that somehow, despite how hard life gets...

I'll make it someday...

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A/N: Okay guys so here's the reality.

I have school. And since I do, I have to study so I won't be able to update as often as you guys would like.

The thing is, I'm not as smart as you guys would read about other characters in other books. I'm not an A+ student and so, I have to at least try to succeed where my future is concerned.

And the second reality is, I'm not good in expressing how I feel. Yes I feel many things and I'm sorry if I don't make you guys feel anything when you read each chapter. Lets just talk for a moment. Can I tell you guys a secret?

I sometimes feel rather sad. You want to know why?

Because I feel like I disappoint you guys. I feel like I've failed you guys. Because when I read other books (not comparing them to mines though) I just feel so ashamed and sad that I can't make you guys feel as hard as other writers would do on this app. I feel so angry that I can't place my feelings when I'm just writing but to be honest you guys,

Sometimes a blank page expresses how I feel most of the times.

I apologise from the deepest depths of my heart. I love you all and I hope you guys excuse my lack of emotions.

God bless you all my loves.

~Kamoyrocks.