"Hard times reveal true friends"

-Kamoyrocks (:
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I just can't do it, I can't live in this world anymore. I hate my life and never once have I thought that something like this would happen to me.

I can't learn
I can't be free
I can't speak my own mind

Nothing....

My dad is going away tomorrow and so, I am being left with that sick woman.

I only pray to God that she doesn't hurt me and I plead the blood of Jesus against she and her demons.

I've had enough...

I just got to school by Linda. Well, she wouldn't have done it if my dad was in the car.

She makes me sick to my stomach. Literally.

But I will hold no grudge against her. I'm not like that. Even though what she is doing is wrong and God knows how many times I've forgave her. I can't hold a grudge against her.

She is my step mom and I have to respect her even though she doesn't respect me. I know that I have to give respect to gain respect so, that's exactly what I'm going to do.

I'm not doing this because of my dad. I'm doing this because I'm a good person and even though she hates me and all, I still love her as a stepmother even though she drives me crazy.

I also love the children at my school. Even though they hate me, I love them.

Love is stronger than hate...

I might be black, but that doesn't mean that I'm not a human being like them. I have feelings, I have a soft heart, and I also have my bad days.

But they don't seem to care but what can I do? Its not like I'm gonna go on my knees and beg them to love and care for me. No.

People decide if they want to become care and love you.

Its not all the time in life that people are gonna care about you and love you. You have to accept the fact that not everyone is going to love you for you, and that's okay.

My whole life can be described as one sentence: It didn't go as planned and that's okay.

I just have to keep holding on because better days are coming.

"Does everyone understand?" The teacher asks and I almost forgot that I was in my first class.

"Yes Mr. Doogle." The class replies.

"Okay so, your home work are from pages 12-24. Since it seems so easy to you all." He says. "Class dismissed." The class scurries out of the class in a swift move.

I look at the pages. My eyes widen as I see the math problems that I can barely understand. Oh boy...

I let out a frustrated sigh as I start packing my bags.

"Are you okay?" I familiar voice asks.

I look up from my bag as I am greeted with bright green emerald eyes. Jace

His eyes always seem to have an effect on me. I seem to feel weak and can barely speak when he speaks or even looks at me.

"Ahh yeh mi alright." I say and stand up.

"Oh okay, what class do you have after this?" He asks.

"Um...French class." I

"Oh Great, I'll walk you there." He looks at me but hesitates. "That's okay right?"

"Yeh man"

"Okay let's go then."

...........

I hate French class. I hate Math class. I hate every single class in this school and I don't seem to be learning anything at all no matter how hard I try to pay attention. I listen intently to whatever the teachers say but my brain seems to not gather what they are trying to teach. Is that I type of sickness?

I think it is but I don't think I have that sickness. I just can't understand what they are teaching because I just can't process the information.

This school learning system is very fast and I can't even get a break to turn my head and cough.

It was lunch time and I had to eat something because Linda took away my dinner last night when my dad had finished eating. She didn't even make breakfast for me...

I'm not surprised though. That woman hates me more than I hate oysters itself.

As always, I sat by myself as I watched the popular kids. Bianca and possie, emos, geeks, brain heads etc.

As I observe the teens in the cafeteria, I notice how all of them are white. Not that I haven't noticed this before but seriously.

None are tan, just white. Looking at all these teens, I notice how I don't belong here. I'm like the rotten apple in the bunch, the flat tire on a vehicle, the ugly duckling.

I completely stand out from all these teens. Despite my skin colour, my accent and other things about me, I stand out because I am unique and different. I am special even though no one sees it.

I try to fit in but I just can't. Its hard to because I am not like these people. I never will be. And even if this school had black children, I would still stand out. Its just because I look nothing like these other children, I'm different. And I'm couldn't be anymore prouder.

I feel someone tap my shoulder and I jump in surprise. I turn around to see my friends. No, not my friends, my best friends. And I am proud to call them that.

"Oh my gosh. I am so not sorry." Drake says and looks as if he was about to take a seat beside me when someone pulls him back.

"No man, I don't want you to freak June out." Jace says. I immediately smile at the sound of his voice.

"What? Aww c'mon. You're always sitting beside her. Its not all the time your gonna get Julia to yourself you know." Drake pouts.

"Get over it." Alexander says and taps his shoulder as he sits beside me. "I just saved your butt." he whispers to me and I laugh.

"Thanks."

"Julia! Wassup girl?" Ethan squeals.

"You really need fi come down sometimes." I say to the over-enthusiastic boy. I don't even think that's a word.

"I never can because I love you too much." He says and hugs me. I smile at him and he does the same before sitting down.

"Guys!!" Alex screams from across the cafeteria to us which draws him attention.

"Okay everyone let's just act like we don't know him. Everyone turn their heads to the other side." Alexander whispers and we oblige.

I begin to laugh at my best friends. I love them so much.

"Hes running over guys." Drake says and when Alex almost falls, he says,"Dufus"

"Guys! I was calling you! Didn't you guys here me?" He looks at us as we turn our heads away from him. "Oh I see, you did hear me, you just didn't want to get caught up in my glory."

"How are you even my brother?" Alexander says as we all turn.

"You just are, deal with it." He sits and takes out five envelops.

"What are those?" Ethan asks.

"The envelops to my dad's ball that he is having this Saturday. Well, its technically a business occasion but, he said to still invite you guys."

"And you shouted from all the way over the cafeteria for that?" Drake asks.

"Nope, I just love shouting." He shoves a few French fries from Lucus's plate and pops it in his mouth. I laugh. Its not like Lucus is gonna do something anyways, he hardly speaks. I didn't even know that he was here.

That guy is so attached to that phone more than Bianca is attached to Jace.

And that's saying something...

"Well its mostly everyone coming to the ball, even Bianca and her crew." Alex says and I hear Jace groan. "Especially Brook." Alex finishes.

"Why are you so obsessed with Brook? You know she's never gonna like you right?" Drake says.

"Not with Bianca as her leader." Alexander scoffs.

"That girl got issues..." Ethan drawls and I laugh at how dramatic he is.

"Would you guys quit it? Brook is different. She's not like Bianca. Why can't you guys get that?" Alex flushes.

He twin brother nudges me and says,"He's got it hard for her you know." I nod my head. I can see why. From the first day I could tell that Brook was different. She seemed different and never had anything to do with Bianca's schemes.

"Okay sir." Drake says. "Have fun at the ball with little miss different"

"Stop it!" Alex pouts and we all laugh. That reminds me.

"Mi cyah mek it to di ball." I say.

"What why?" Jace asks and it was only then that I realise that he was staring at me for the entire time that's why he hasn't spoken.

"I have to study. Mi a have one hard time wid di school work and mi need fi juss se-down and try unda-stan. Plus there's a upcoming test"

"Oh but I really wanted you to come J. P" Alex whines.

"Boy quit cha whining." Ethan scolds him.

"Oh wait, we could help you. And what subjects do you have trouble with?" Alexander asks.

"Math, French, Chemistry, Music, Art, Science and English Language." I answer.

"Oh I could help you with French and English Language." He suggests.

I look at him curiously. "But how yuh know bout French and yuh speak British?" I ask.

"I have my ways." He says mischievously.

Mhmm...

I hear a phone ping. "Oh Lucus says he will help you with Science." So he can't talk but he can text on his phone all day- you know what? Somebody needs to take away that damn phone from him or else he will just live off the phone. He might as well marry it.

Lucus looks at me, for the first time in forever as if asking for an answer and I nod my head saying 'yes'. He puts a thumbs up and returns to his phone.

That's the first I've ever seen him move his hands from his phone...

"Oh I'll help you with Art J." Alex says and chugs down Lucus's milk. The guy still doesn't move.

"I'll help you with Music Julia girl." Ethan says and I shake my head and smile at this guy.

"And I'll help you with Math and Chemistry." Jace says as his eyes lingers on me.

"I- thanks." I say and turn my head away from him.

What the hell is this guy doing to me...

"That's crazy." Drake says as he stares at Jace and I.

"What is?" I ask.

"Nah, its nothing, don't worry about it." He shrugs.

"Yeah, I'll get it out of you later." Jace says.

"So Drake, how comes you haven't volunteered to help Julia?" Ethan asks and the juice that Drake had been drinking spilled and went all over his face.

"Because you all insisted to help with a damn subject already." He wipes his nose.

"Mi Jeez, look pan him nose how it red." I say and we all laugh.

"It isn't funny." Drake grunts.

"No it isn't." Alex pause. "Its hilarious." He laughs and soon we are all in this bundle of laughter.

"Okay then Drake you'll help Jule Jule with her clothes and shoes that she is gonna pick out for the ball, and get her hair done. That's if your going Jule. Are you?" Alexander asks.

"You guys aguh help me so yeah mi have to." I answer.

"Yes!" Alex and Ethan exclaims. I just laugh. Which seems to be what I do lately while I'm with these guys.

After a while we just started talking about the most random about things

"Its true, you have to be warm for a girl so that she doesn't get cold and-" Drake's voice is lost when I hear a voice to my ears.

"I'm so glad your going to the ball with us." Jace whispers and entwines our hands and I smile and stare at his bright emerald eyes as he does the same.

**************************** Hi guys! Here's another chapter for you. I feel really good about this book because to me, it is heading in the right direction. Things are just about to get interesting *rubs hands in delight*

I'm gonna start doing reflections on some of my chapters from now on so here.

Reflection: if someone has trouble at school learning or is weak in a subject, don't think about just you, help them.

So yes, their not long, its just sometimes they will be. Some of my quotes at the beginning of the chapter can sometimes relate to the chapter, sometimes they not, for those who were asking.

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