She was wearing a black wrap around that Jake also bought her along with the other clothes when she went back to the sea side where he was supposed to meet her.

Malayo pa lang ay natanaw na niya si Jake. He was still wearing that white muscle tee and green shorts he has on when they went "shopping". Ngayon ay nakasuot na ang shades dito at nakatayo ito sa gitna ng beach habang hawak ang telepono nito.

Damn, he looked so fucking delectable. Her mouth watered as she stared on the exposed skin of his side. He had ripped muscles, nice pecs and a hint of six pack abs whenever the wind hits his shirt from the right direction. He's like a friggin' wine that gets finer and finer with time. She sighed. Napakaswerte ni Sharmaine dito, he's goodlooking, a good provider, a gentle lover, an over all prize catch. At napakamalas naman ni Jules dahil pinakawalan pa niya ito.

Ngayon ay nagkasya na lamang siya sa pagtanaw dito. Mananatiling so close and yet so far si Jake sa kanya. She can never have him. Not anymore. Manghinayang man siya nang todo todo ay wala na ring silbi, dahil sa mata ng diyos at sa mata ng tao, Jake belongs to Sharmaine, his wife.

Napakagat labi na lang si Jules nang mahuli siya ni Jake na nakatitig dito. Dali dali siyang nag-iwas ng tingin at naglakad palapit dito.

When she got to where he was standing, he didn't say anything. Nanatiling nakadikit ang aparato sa tainga nito at nakapako naman ang mata sa kanya. Jules couldn't tell what he was thinking. Natatabingan kasi ng suot nitong antipara ang mga mata nito. Was he looking at her with disgust? Oh my god! Does her body look that bad?

"I'm gonna have to call you back," he curtly said to the person on the other side of the line. Dahan dahang inilapag ni Jake ang iphone sa ibabaw ng puting lamesa na katabi ng beach bed nito.

She heard him clear his throat.

"Do I look bad?" alumpihit na tanong niya. Hindi parin siya makatingin nang diretso dito. She was afraid to see the disgust in his face. Niyapos niya ang sarili upang itago ang katawan pero kahit naman gawin niya iyon ay alam niyang aninag parin sa manipis niyang wrap around ang hubog niya. "I'll go change--"

"Yes! Uhh--I mean, don't,"

Nakangusong tumingin siya kay Jake, nanlulumo. She knew she shouldn't have worn the bathing suit. What the hell was she thinking anyway? "That bad huh?"

"It's not...bad,"

"Eh ano? Slightly bad, ganon? Di pa diretsahin," Naiinis siya dahil pinaparamdam nito sa kanya na hindi kaaya aya ang itsura niya na akala mo naman hindi ito patay na patay sa kanya noon.

Kita niya sa gilid ng salamin nito ang pagikot ng mga mata nito. "Reed would love to see you looking like that, you know him."

"Eh bakit sabi mo nung una, yes?" pinameywangan niya ito. "Ikaw naman ang bumili nito! You told me I would look good on it! Ngayon binabawi mo? Napakapangit ng ugali mo, Jake, alam mo yun?"

Nagulat naman siya nang halakhak ang maging sagot nito. He just shook his head, turned his back on her and went to lie down on his beach bed. Before he did so, hinubad nito ang pang itaas nitong muscle tee. Muntik na siyang maglaway sa tanned nitong balat. May six pack abs talaga ito gaya ng hula niya at bahagyang maumbok ang pecs. Someone's been working out. Julianna shook her head.

Show off.

Halata namang nagpapa-cute lamang ito sa kanya. Akala ba ni Jake maa-attract siya sa panlabas na kaanyuan nito? Akala ba nito ganoon siya ka-superficial na tao? Well, ganoon na nga! Dahil fuck! Hayon nanaman at nagpapantasya ang isip niya na walang asawa si Jake at malaya siyang gustuhin ito. Kahit sa malayo lang.

Bwisit!

She took a seat on the beach bed beside him. It was really made for couples. Kagaya ng kama niya sa kwarto ay may canopy rin iyon at napapalibutan ng kurtinang puti. Ang tanging naghihiwalay sa dalawang higaan ay ang maliit na mesita sa gawing uluhan nila.

"Why don't you get us something to drink?"

Napatingin siya rito nang bigla itong magsalita. Tumuro ito sa bar sa likuran nila. Umikot ang mata niya. Kung kailan nakaupo na siya ay bigla itong mag-uutos. Gusto niya sanang ipukpok dito ang magazine na hawak nito ngunit naalala niyang empleyado nga pala siya ni Jake at boss niya ito. She curled her lips at him after making sure he couldn't see her before getting up. "Sure, boss,"

Nag-order siya sa bar sa tapat ng beach ng dalawang tequila sunrise. Dadalhin na sana niya pabalik sa cabana nila ni Jake nang may maisip siya. There was a handful of people at the bar and maybe around twenty frolicking at the beach. Maraming babae na nakasuot rin ng swimsuit, yung iba ay mas revealing pa kaysa sa kanya. Hindi naman lahat sa mga ito ay maganda ang katawan pero hindi sila nahihiya na gaya niya. Napakagat labi si Julianna. Inilapag niya pabalik sa mesa ang dalawang inumin na hawak at hinubad ang suot niyang cover up.

Ngumisi siya. Unti unti niyang ibabalik ang confidence ng dating Julianna. If she grew stronger from all the pain and obstacles she have been through, she could be confident, too.

Medyo gumaan ang pakiramdam niya. She knew men were eyeing her as she walked over to their cabana in just her cheeky swimsuit. Inilapag niya ang inumin at walang anu anong humiga sa kabilang lounge bed.

"What are you doing?"

"Enjoying my vacation, boss,"

"You are not on vacation."

"What? Hindi ko pwedeng pagsabayin ang trabaho at pagrerelax? It's been a while since I last went to a beach." dumampot siya ng magazine sa lamesita sa pagitan nila ni Jake at nagsimulang basahin iyon.

"People are ogling at you." he hissed.

"I know," she smirked. "because I'm sexy, smart, beautiful and confident. Is Reed watching?" are you watching?

Hindi agad ito nakasagot. Siguro ay iginagala nito ang paningin sa resort.  "Yes," he whispered.

"Good." I hope you are, too.

Nasa kalahati na siya ng article na binabasa niya nang marinig niyang umangil si Jake.

"Get up," utos nito.

"Why?"

"Just fucking get up, Julianna." he growled. "Lumapit ka dito sakin,"

Kunot noong sinunod naman niya ang utos nito.

Nagulat na lang siya nang hatakin siya ni Jake palapit dito. Naitukod niya ang tuhod sa ibabaw ng kama nito to prevent her fall pero hindi pa ito natapos doon. He tugged on her once more hanggang sa tuluyan na siyang sumubsob sa dibdib nito. Fuck!

Her breath got caught in her throat when Jake suddenly wrapped his arms around her. On the corner of her eye, she saw him grab his beach towel and draped it around her butt.

"What are you doing? Akala ko ba--"

"Hindi lang si Reed ang nakatingin sa pwet mo." seryosong sambit nito.

"Ano naman?"

"Shut up, Julianna," mas lalo siya nitong hinapit sa katawan nito. Lihim na napakagat si Jules sa labi niya. What was he doing? At bakit nakakakilig? "If were going to act like a couple, we're gonna act like real ones. And you know me. Ayokong pinagtitinginan ng iba ang dapat sa akin lang."

What. The. Fuck? Her heart fluttered like crazy! Tangina kinikilig na talaga siya. Hayop ka, Jake!

"Comfortable?" he then asked.

Tumango lang siya dahil hindi na niya alam kung paano magpo-focus. She's getting cozy with her ex! What the hell!

"Selosa si Sharmaine, but she doesn't have to know," bulong nito sa tainga niya bilang sagot sa tanong niya kanina rito.

Fuck! Napapikit siya. She shouldn't be feeling this! Dapat ay tumayo na siya ngayon at lumayo kay Jake kung talagang importante pa sa kanya ang katinuan niya. But instead she said, "What? What she doesn't know won't kill her?" she whispered back.

"Exactly,"

"Then put your hand on my butt at hayaan mong manggalaiti sa selos si Reed,"

He did what he was asked.

She wanted to sigh with pleasure when she felt his big, warm hand on the bare skin of her butt. Samahan pa ng amoy ng hubad ring dibdib ni Jake, lalo nitong pinagtindi ang pagnanasa niya. Wala na siyang pakialam kung may bigla mang humigit sa buhok niya dahil isang malaking kasalanan ang gustuhin niya ang lalaking ito. She wanted him for herself. At kung sa ganitong paraan lamang niya mararamdaman na kanya si Jake, ay susulitin niya ito.

NAGMAMADALING PUMASOK SI JULIANNA SA LOOB ng kawarto niya at ini-lock iyon. Her heart was still racing as she leaned her back against the door.

Nang sa tingin niya ay bahagya na siyang kumalma ay saka siya lumakad patungo sa salamin kung saan muli niyang tinitigan ang sarili. Her face and chest were still flushed. She was still heady from desire. Oh god! She wanted Jake! She wanted him so bad, she's actually plotting things on her mind. Which is bad!

Hindi niya alam kung anong klaseng pakiramdam ang lumukob sa kanya kanina habang magkayakap sila ni Jake sa cabana. It was like Jake was still hers and she was his. It was like nothing has changed, like the seven years that had pass did not exist. And goodness! The sexual tension was almost palpable. It was electrifying.

Para bang panandalian na nawala sila pareho sa sarili. Kanina ay hawak hawak nila ang mundo sa mga palad nila. It sounded poetic but there's no other way to explain it. It really had felt that way.

Napapikit siya na tila ba nararamdaman parin niya ang balat ni Jake sa kanya. Kung hindi lamang tumunog ang telepono nito at narinig niyang banggitin nito ang pangalan ng asawa nito ay hindi siya babangon sa tabi ni Jake. Hindi na niya nagawang magpaalam dito at basta na lang siya bumalik sa kwarto. Nakasalubong pa nga niya si Reed na balak sana siyang kausapin ngunit mabilis lang niyang nilampasan.

Lumapit si Jules sa lababo ay naghilamos. She needed that to get her shit together. Pagkatapos ay hinubad niya ang biniling swimsuit ni Jake at nagbabad sa dutsa.

You are stupid, Julianna! Isang palabas lang ang lahat pero bakit nagpapadala ka?!

Pitong taon! Pinaubaya na niya sa iba si Jake. When she saw on a tabloid that he was getting married, she became really sad. Nagkaroon siya ng panghihinayang, minahal niya noon si Jake, pero hindi rin naman niya maipagkakaila ang sakit na dinulot niya rito. She thought that he deserved to be happy. And whatever she felt at that time--the devastation, the jealousy, the pain--she deserved all that, too!

Gusto niyang pigilan ang sarili sa nararamdaman kay Jake. Oo, una ngang naging kanya si Jake, but she couldn't just claim him anymore just cause she want to! Magiging kontrabida siya sa mata ng lahat!

He was mine first!

Hindi sapat na dahilan iyon para magpakababa siya. She could easily get someone who is unattached. Someone who is available. Someone who will be hers and hers alone. Hindi iyong makikihati siya!

She closed her eyes as water poured down her naked body. She could still feel the electricity. She could still feel Jake's lingering touch. Mayroon parin silang spark. At iyong spark na iyon ang tila gumising sa natutulog niyang pagnanasa. It had been so long since she last had sex with someone. Matapos nila ni Jake, nagkaroon pa siya ng isa pang nobyo, ngunit hindi rin naman sila nagtagal. That was three years ago. Her last sexual intercourse was three years ago and she felt so starved.

Julianna's hand crept towards the cleft between her thighs. She gasped when her body reacted instantly to her hand's caress. The water from the shower head, dripping down her nakedness added to the sensual feeling as it tickled the reddish buds of her breasts. She brushed her clitoris in circular motion and her eyes slid shut in ecstasy.

She could feel the building pressure on the lower part of her stomach. Her fingers slid inside her, stretching herself. Napaigik siya sa sakit. It had been a while since she last touched her self, this needs some getting used to.

Nang pakiramdam niya ay nakapag adjust na siya ay saka niya iginalaw ang daliri. She was all wet and her finger slid in and out of her arousal as she imagined her ex-fiance. Naitukod niya ang isang kamay sa dingding ng banyo at saka dinagdagan ng isa pa uling daliri. It didn't take long before she was consumed by an orgasm. Her thighs were quivery when she got out of the shower.

She took one white robe and wrapped herself with it. Her head was still cloudy with her orgasm when she heard a silent knock on her door.

Hinigpitan muna niya ang tali ng malambot na roba bago sinilip ang peephole.

Fuck!

What is he doing here?!