BELA

It's been two days since I had my panic attack.The journal...di's journal just shook me to the core.

She sacrificed her love to me!

I thought I sacrificed my love to her,but she sacrificed her husband and baby to me.

She sacrificed herself for me.

She gave her family to me,her everything.I don't know why others dint tell me about that journal,but Mahir..Mahir will never let me read that,I'm sure.

I'm very lucky I read that journal!!

Guilty!

That's the common thing we three experienced here.

Bani di is guilty for coming between me and Mahir,Mahir is guilty for coming between me and my di.

And I'm guilty for  being the reason of her death...yes...she died for me.

She died for getting me back into Mahir's life.

I want to meet my dad today,I need to talk to him.

"Dad?"I called him,he and Andy uncle were discussing something.

"Bela? Come inside dear",Andy uncle said.

They were in Andy uncle's home and Mahira was with Yuvi and Mahir in office.

"Dad I need to talk to you about something",I said.

"What is it dear?"my dad asked making me sit beside him.

"Did you know about Bani di's pregnancy complications?"I asked.

"No dear,we dint have any idea about it",Andy uncle replied.

"Did you..did you people know about di's journal?"I asked.

"Bela..what are you...",I dint let him complete.

"Please dad,not today.Please tell me.I need you to answer few questions",I said and he nodded.

"I knew about her journal,but I dint knew what's in over there",my dad said.

"Di wrote it during her pregnancy period...she...she decided to die",I said.

"Bela...it was her decision...she wanted to have the baby,it's not your fault child",Andy uncle said.

"But I am one of the reason she is dead now",I yelled at them.

The guilt was eating me now,guilt of a child being without a mother,a husband without his wife.

I'm the sole reason for it!!

"Bela...I just want to tell you few things, will you listen",my dad said.

I nodded in agreement.

"Choosing the baby over herself was Bani's decision,her sole decision.She had a chance of getting you back through this decision.You did not kill her.She wanted her baby to see this world",my dad said and I was sobbing.

"We got the news of her pregnancy when I lost my wife,Mahir was devastated.He was back to normal after hearing this news from Bani",Andy uncle said.

"Mahir needed this child Bela.Even Bani needed this child at that time,it was their medicine.Bani cannot let her baby growing in some others presence when she had you.You were her most trusted person and she had full faith on you.Only you can love her child like a real mother.She left for everyone's happiness",my dad said.

"It was just her fate Bela,her life was written only till there.Her health was not supporting her and...and she had a natural death.But you have to move on Bela.She wanted you and Mahir to be happy along with her child",my dad said.

"You are no where wrong in this Bela,everything happens for a cause.Your life is tied with Mahir.You came back to him even after staying apart for two long years.You both belong to each other.Just realize that beta",Andy uncle said.

"I don't want to lie...I still love him and I will always love him,I know that he too loves me...but he dint spoke to me anything about it",I sobbed.

"Bela...you tried to move on from him..did you move on? No.It will take some time for him to move on,he is already in love with you..you also know that,I'm sure he is ready to tell you",my dad said.

"Beta Mahir is my child,I know about him very well,he won't tell anything to anyone until he completely accepts it,completely takes in,just as he did in Bani's matter.He dint share his love matter to anyone of us,he directly told to Bani.Even it's the same now, even in your matter.He is accepting that he is in love with you.He will do everything with whole heart",Andy uncle said.

"Mahir is a gentleman Bela,even I used to curse him for doing this with my daughters.But the pain,the guilt,the love he has for his loved one's,it's just different Bela.The way he shows his love is different",my dad said.

"Thank you dad,thank you uncle...I was just guilty...I know he loves me and I know it even if he doesn't express also.I was just guilt ridden...I had many sessions of pain in my life.I can't bear more pain",I said.

"You will not be in pain when my Mahir is with you child,you will have only happiness in your life",Andy uncle said blessing me.

"Live your life with your love child,be happy and keep him happy",my dad blessed me.

Yes...I know that he loves me..it's OK even if he doesn't express.But the guilt is still inside me.

I don't know how I will face Mahir if he confess his love to me.

It will be whole heartedly from his side,but I will feel guilty.

Actions speaks louder than words!

His actions are a big hint to me,the way he looks at me,the way he cares for me,the way he touches me...everything.

I love you Mahir...I love you.

I went back to home and was waiting for Mahir and Mahira to return.

It was just three in the afternoon,Mahir called me and told that he is coming back home with Mahira.

The door bell rang,I saw Mahira sleeping in Mahir's arms.

"Did she eat?"I asked.

"Ya we both ate,I will make her sleep in the room and come",Mahir said going to my room.

I was standing in the balcony enjoying the warm breeze.I'm happy that he came back,I wanted to see him desperately.

MAHIR

I'm not Mahir..I am a looser!

Bela is not coward,I'm the real coward.

Today will be the last day she will cry...and I expect these tears to be happy tears.

I got freshed and saw Bela standing in balcony facing the other side,her saree drape was flying due to the breeze.

She looks like a goddess in saree!

Come on do it Mahir!

I went and circled my arms on her waist from behind.She shivered sensing me.

"Mahirr",she couldn't speak.

"Shhh...don't talk anything,just listen to me today",I said resting my chin on her shoulder.

"Bela...I know we both were inseparable as best friends,but I realized that I was a stupid.How could I not recognize your love towards me?I realized it after these three years Bela.Why I was so damn effected when you left?Why I was showing my anger to everyone?It was you Bela.It was you...I loved you",I said.

Today I will tell her my point of view from every situation we faced.

"I loved you Bela..I..I realized it.I loved Bani too..but you were my best friend,I couldn't accept it myself that I was in love with you...maybe because we had that tag called 'best friends'.My love for you got diluted due to Bani's love.But my heart was not ready to accept  that you left,and when I got to know that you loved me...I was speechless.Maybe I should have talked to you that time.And my past is past..I don't care about it anymore.My future is with you Bela",I said.

She removed my hands from her waist and turned towards me with tears flowing from her eyes.

"No...no..I don't know weather you loved me in our college time or not..but you loved di.And she is no more because of me",Bela said crying.

"Bela what are you talking...she dint die because of you,you dint...",she cut me off in middle.

"She hated me...I read her journal Mahir...I read her journal.She chosed the baby over her..but somewhere even I'm a reason for that",she yelled.

She read the journal?

Fuckkk!!

Not again...even she is thinking like how I thought before.

I cupped her face and said
"Bela...you can't blame yourself like this.I will tell you one thing.Just listen.Bani's health was not in her favour..she had to die if she gives birth to Mahira.She wanted to have her baby,and she got a chance to bring you back through that.It was not your fault,you dint kill her.Don't make Bani's natural death as a murder Bela,it was written in her fate",I said and she was sobbing.

"I know...everyone are telling this because I should not feel guilty,but..I am feeling it like that Mahir.I did not loose my sister...I lost my mother.Bani di was my mother...and she..and she",she was blabbering.

"Bela...Bela calm down...calm down.I want to ask you few questions,will you answer me honestly?"I asked cupping her face.

She nodded wiping her tears.

"You loved me in the past right?"I asked.

"Yes..I love you even today,tomorrow..until my last breathe",she replied.

"OK,so did I or Bani told you about our love?"I asked.

She shaked her head telling 'no'.

"You wanted to tell about your love to me,but I told about my love to Bani even before you could tell me.So where are you wrong Bela?"I asked.

"You are nowhere wrong Bela..no where.You know I just realized that..that you love me more than anyone else,more than Bani,more than my mom too.I dint understand how I got so lucky getting you in my life.Yes,I loved Bani..but I loved you also...there was an incomplete equation between us,you realized that it was love but..me,I'm a dumb...I thought it was just an attraction",I choked.

"I will tell you frankly Bela,I was always thinking about you even after I got married to Bani.Bani is a brave one,she understood that I loved you...but me being an ass..I couldn't realize.I'm sorry Bela...I've hurted you a lot.I've hurted you in every way..it's my fault.You left your family because of me...it's all because of me.I'm sorry Bela",I sobbed kissing her hands.

We both slumped on the floor facing each other.

"Don't be sorry Mahir...your not at fault..I...I realized that..no one is wrong in this matter.We three were in a fix,we three are correct from our perspectives.Don't be sorry",she held my hand sobbing.

"I'm such a fool..I'm such a fool.I just let my happiness flew away to states so easily..I never thought I would be in pain after you left.I'm the one who should be guilty in this fasico..not you or Bani.I don't know what have I done to get you both sisters in my life",I broke down.

I was letting my pain out,I will wash it out today.I can't let the pain and guilt eat me.

"I'm lucky to have you Mahir..di is lucky to get you as her first love...we are lucky",she too sobbed.

"OK,I wanted to tell you these words from many days...but I was being a coward.I need to tell you",I said.

She nodded sobbing.

"I..I love you Bela,I fucking love you so much,everyone could recognize that I loved you,but me being a jerk couldn't understand it.But I would not feel that heavy when you left if I was not in your love.Bani would not be that suspicious about me being in love with you...I...I love you Bela.I love you",I said cupping her face.

"Please say...say...it again",she choked.

"I love you Bela,I love you so much.The past is past,I don't want to go back to past again.My future is with you..I will be with you till my last breathe.I love you Bela..I love you so damn much",I joined our foreheads.

"I want to say something Mahir",Bela said.

"I love you Mahir..I love you so much..I've been dying to tell you these words daily..I told you once,but I was not a good state that time.But now I'm telling you again..I love you...I love you so much,don't leave me again,I can't bear it this time",she said hugging me.

"I won't leave you...never.And I love you so much..so much..now I can't think my life without you Bela..I can't",I said hugging her tightly.

I cupped her face and she was still sobbing.I wiped her tears and looked at her.

"There is a lot to talk with you Bela...we have so much time right?"I asked her.

"We have a lifetime now",she said smiling, looking into my eyes.

I cupped her face and looked into her eyes..I was about to slam my lips on hers but she kept her hand in between.

What...why?

"Others are watching us Mahir",she signalled me too look around.

Fuck!

Everyone were looking at us from their balconies.

Shameless people!!

I held her hand and moved to our lobby closing the fucking balcony door.

I want  to propose her properly
"Bela Sharma..I love you.Will you be Mrs.Mahir Sehgal..will you grow old with me?"I asked.

She was chuckling wiping her tears
"I am already Mrs.Mahir Sehgal..and I will grow old with you my love",she said helding my hand.

My love!!!!

I kissed her hands.She was smiling still tears flowing from her eyes.We both went to sit on our couch.

I settled her on my lap and joined our foreheads.

"Bela...I need to tell you one thing,I don't know how you will feel..but Bani dint talk to me for a whole day because of that",I said playing with her fingers.

"What is it Mahir?"she asked.

"I...I once spelled your name...spelled your name while making love to Bani",I said.

Fuck yes..I did that and Bani dint spoke to me for a whole day due to this.

That's why she got to know that I loved Bela more than her.

"You.. what?What..you..you said my name..while..god..what the?Why did you say my name during that time?"Bela said sitting beside me now.

"I..I don't know myself about it..I guess I was..I was thinking  about you that time",I said rubbing my nape.

"Seriously..at that time.That's so weird,what did di tell after listening about it?"she asked.

"She was also shocked like you, even I was shocked..and I slept on couch for a whole week",I said.

"No wife will allow you to sleep beside her after you spell some other women's name,I don't know how di felt.But listen to me Mr.Mahir Sehgal..I will not tolerate it.You cannot spell some other women's name while making love to....",she stopped scolding me,she realized what she said.

Quiet possessive!!

"Why will I spell some other women's name when you are in my mind and heart,and yes I will spell your name more while making love to you",I said huskily pulling her on my lap.

"Mah..Mahir..I mean..I..I was just saying that...I..",now cat caught her tounge.

"Shhh...I know what you meant",I said putting my finger on her lips.

"I'm sorry to make you wait all these years Bela..I'm a dick,I couldn't take it and realize",I said.

"Shh..it's OK,I never complained about it though...you gave me another reason for me to live today Mahir",she said.

I rubbed her lower lip with my thumb and she shivered due to my touch.

I cupped her face and connected my lips with her,it was a slow kiss without no hurry.

Only love!!

I nibbled her lower lip and I tasted metallic taste,her lip was bleeding.

She too bit my lip with same hunger and love,my hands were moving all over her sides and she was playing with my hair pulling me more close.

I kissed her jaw,dragging my lips all over her face and making my way towards her swan like neck.

I bit her neck and she hissed helding me tightly.

I started making circles on her waist which was exposed due to her saree,she started giggling.

"Mahir..stop..",she said giggling.

OK let's play now!!

I started tickling her now.

"Mah..Mahir...stop..I can't...I can't",she was laughing loudly now.

I too started laughing along with her,but I continued tickling her.

"Stop it you...you idiot...it's hurting..I..I can't laugh more..please..I..I beg you",she was laughing like a possessed women.

I made her lie on the couch and hovered over her still tickling her.

"Say Mahir...please stop",I ordered laughing along with her.

"I won't plead you jerk..stop...stop it",she was laughing.

Her eyes started to water now.

I stopped tickling her and she was still laughing.

"OK..OK relax..calm down",I kissed her temple.

She was catching her breathe now.

"I'm sorry..but you are so ticklish",I said resting my forehead against her.

"I know",she said curling her hands around my arms.

I kissed her lips again and entered her mouth exploring her taste.She was rubbing my back to control her moans.

I kissed her until we both were breathe less.

"You make me insane Bela...I loose my control when I'm around you",I groaned.

She was blushing,she was cherry red now.

I kissed her temple,her eyes,her nose,her cheeks,her lips...I was giving feather lite kisses.

"Mahir..",she moaned clutching me tightly.

"Yes Bela..",I groaned.

"Don't tease..tease me",she said catching her breathe.

"Am I teasing?"I asked.

She smacked my hand and hugged me tight.

I was inhaling her scent...and damn I was turned on.

I slammed my lips again on her,she was shocked at my sudden action...but gave up.

I slowly unpinned her drape near her shoulder,she clutched me tightly sensing that.

I removed her saree drape and I kissed her near the swell of her breast.She clutched me tightly throwing her head back in pleasure.

I wanted to do more things with her...but there is a lot of time for it.

I interwined our fingers together and blew some air near her ears.

She shivered!!

I was kissing her neck like a candy,she just closed her eyes feeling the pleasure.

"Bela...open your eyes",I called her.

She opened her eyes feeling shy.

"You are mine Bela..and I'm yours",I said and started kissing near her breast.

I was filling her neck with love bites.

I felt a third pressence when I was kissing Bela..I turned to left and saw Mahira.

Mahira!!!!

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Hey Guys!!Finally the wait is over,he confessed😅.Your comments make my day guys,the amount of love you give me is filling me with happiness.I had tears in my eyes while reading some comments.Many people just read it on one go,I'm happy that you are liking my writings.Trust me,I'm nothing without you all.

Mahir:It took you 32 chapters to make me a good person?

Me:Geez calm down,everyone loves you,don't get hyper.

Mahir:Really?You almost made me the villain.But see I again became a hero..you little girl...dare you mess with my character😏😏

Me:Excuse me Mr.Mahir Sehgal, don't try to scare me.I will not write any romantic scenes..did you get that?😠😠

Mahir:Arey I'm not scaring you...you know Mahira asked for a baby..so I need to be romantic..plz don't cut my romantic scenes.I will not mess with you😅😅.

It's a regular banter between us, don't mind😅😅😅,I won't cut any scenes😉😉.

But please vote na guys,votes are decreasing with every chapter.I'm not even giving a target.I'm updating when ever I'm getting time.

And I'm feeling sad to say that the story is coming to an end,only few chapters are left🤧🤧.

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