MAHIR

She wants what?

I looked at Mahira with horror filled expression,and Bela too was giving same expressions.

"You...you want new baby toy Mahira?"I asked her.

"I wanna a baby to pay wid me",she said putting that baby doll in my hands.

My face became red after her order.Who told her about babies?

"Um Bela...what is this...I don't understand,what is she asking?"I asked Bela.

Bela's face was crimson red now,she was....she was blushing and was trying not to smile.

"Mahir...just don't mind her...it's Vish..Vish was talking to Mahira like that...just about a baby doll...that's it",she completed with difficulty.

Ohh...OK...I got Vish's signals here!!

Time to play!

"Ohk so Mahira wants a baby to play?"I asked looking at Mahira.

She got down from my lap and brought her story book from her room.She opened a page in which two kids are playing together and their parents were looking at them.

"They are two...me one..I want two",she said pointing it towards that page.

She is thinking that we need to buy a baby for her.Babies don't come like that and how will I tell her now?

I closed that book and took her on my lap.
"It's not an ice cream to buy baby,god will give babies just like he gave you to us",I said.

"I wanna a baby to pay wid me",she said showing her puppy eyes.

"Mahira...what..Mahir..just don't mind her,it's Vish and her stupidity..just don't mind",Bela said.

"It's OK..I don't mind,but how did she understand about what Vish told,she is just a one year old baby",I asked Bela,and she was fidgetting with her fingers.

"Your daughter is a fast learner and a keen listener...she is so fast",Bela replied.

"Ya but baby?And by the way I don't mind having a....I mean I'm sorry for last night if you felt uncomfortable",I said.

"No...no I..I dint...I dint feel uncomfortable",she said looking the other way.

"So you mean...I dint cross my limits right?"I asked.

"No..no you dint..I am just new to all those feelings",she said.

"Oh..but better get used to it,many will be coming in your way",I said winking at her.

Her eyes widened at my words and she looked at Mahira.

"Mahir..Mahira is here..don't talk like that",she said blushing and her red cheeks were inviting me.

Control you freak!!!!

"Dadda...ma baby?"Mahira asked.

"I will give you baby after eating,come finish your food first",I said feeding her.

We had dinner in silence except Mahira's blabbering.

"Mahira don't disturb dadda...come I will tell you a story",Bela said when Mahira was climbing on me.

I was feeling low today,I think I caught a fever.I couldn't eat properly.

I started to shiver due to this fever and the weather was not on my side too.

"Mahir...you are burning",Bela said when she touched my hand by mistakely.

"Ya I think I caught a fever",I said rubbing my forehead.

She checked my temperature and I was really down with fever.

"Mahir just have this medicine and sleep,don't work now",she said giving me a pill.

"It's OK Bela,I will be fine.I need to give these files tomorrow",I said.

"Come on don't neglect your health now,I will call Yuvi or dad and inform them.And yes you are not going to office till you are fine",she said.

"OK mom",I said  chuckling and she went to talk to my dad.

"I informed uncle,he said it's ok and told to take care",she said sitting beside me.

"Dadda..",Mahira was trying to climb on me.

"No baby..go to mumma,or else you will also catch fever",I said.

OK now Mahira was really feeling helpless and she started crying.

"Acha...OK sorry from dadda...we both will listen to rhymes,come",Bela said taking Mahira with her to bedroom.

I made my way towards my room and I slumped on the bed.I can't sleep in that room now,Mahira may also catch fever.

But I was shocked when Mahira asked for a baby.

Baby? Seriously?

Am I ready to go that far again,is Bela ready to go that far?

She will be ready when you tell her about your feelings you fool,my subconscious shouted this time.

He is right..I don't know why I'm still not able to tell her.

I will tell you soon Bela,very soon!

I was trying to sleep,but sleep was far away.I'm not able to sleep without her beside me and this fever is giving me pain.

It was half past twelve when my room door opened,I closed my eyes immediately sensing it was her.

Bela caressed my hair and kissed my forehead.She adjusted the blanket properly and slept beside me.

Aww..she cares for me this much!!

I smiled to myself and drifted to deep slumber.

BELA

I was cherry red when Mahira spoke about baby today.

I will murder Vish for sure if she does this again!!

I couldn't lift my head in embarrassment,I was..I was shy.

But baby? Me and Mahir having a baby?

That feeling was giving me chills,me bearing his child was a thing I had in my mind and heart from the day I started to love him.

But it's fine...Mahira is enough for me.She completed my world along with Mahir.

I felt asleep beside him,I couldn't leave him alone in that condition.

I woke up when I heard Mahira crying,I went and made her sleep again.

I came back to Mahir's room to sleep,I will go back to my room at early morning.I saw a book lying on the study chair when I kept my phone to charge.

It was looking like a novel,I love reading novels.I took that book and opened.

From Bani Mahir Sehgal was the first thing I saw.

I was confused...di?

It's her journal?

I opened it and started reading.My world turned upside down once again after reading it.

My di hated me?

She doubted me and Mahir?

She doubted my love?

And she killed herself to get me back into Mahir's life?

God no....why everything is happening like this with me?

All the images were playing in front of me....

Me and Bani di caring for each other,me and Mahir meeting,Mahir confessing his love to di,me leaving to London,depression,anxiety,panic attack.

Panic attack......

I couldn't breathe properly,my vision was getting blurred..I started sweating...I could feel my body getting cold and tensed.I slowly got up and placed the book in the desk.

I stumbled while coming back to bed..I couldn't see anything properly..I could only see Mahir sleeping peacefully.

I took the water jug to drink water..but it slipped from my hand and was in peices.

I saw Mahir getting up and coming towards me worriedly.

"Mah..Mahir..",was the last word I said and I passed out.

I saw I was in a hospital when I opened my eyes.

I'm in hospital?

Yeah,I had a panic attack last night..but Mahira?

"Bela",my dad came rushing to me.

"Bela how are you my child...what happened again",he asked hugging me.

"I'm fine dad...it's nothing,I was just not well I guess",I said massaging my head.

"You had a panic attack last night,did Mahir say something to you",he asked.

"No dad he dint..he was down with fever..where is he? Where is Mahira?"I asked feeling tensed.

"Relax Bela..Mahir is waiting outside and Mahira is with Vish and Yuvi at home,she is fine",he said.

"I need to go home dad,I need to see her and Mahir is also not well",I said.

"Calm down beta,Mahir is fine now,I will call him,talk to him OK",he said leaving.

"How are you feeling now dear?"the doctor asked me.

"I'm..I'm fine..just my head is feeling heavy",I replied.

"Do you remember when did you have your last panic attack?"she asked me.

"I dint get them in all these months and I stopped using my medications",I said.

"Oh Ok, don't worry.You are fine dear,I will give you a pill,have it once in a month.You are completely fine now...maybe you were in anxiety yesterday,is everything fine?"she asked.

"Ya everything is fine...I'm good.Can you please call my husband?"I asked.

"Yeah sure dear...your discharge papers are also ready,you can leave in an hour",she said leaving.

I took my tablet and the Mahir entered looking at me with worried face.

"Mahir...",I said and he came running to me,taking me in a bone crushing hug.

"Bela...I was so scared yesterday...but nothing will happen,you are fine...you are fine baby",he said clutching me tightly.

Baby!Baby!Baby!

Did he just called me baby?

"I'm fine Mahir...yesterday I was just stressed out..that's it..I'm fine now",I said holding him tightly.

"Don't overthink about anything Bela..I'm always there with you,I won't leave you alone",he said kissing my forehead.

I rested my head on his chest,
"I'm sorry Mahir,I'm sorry for scaring you like this",I sobbed.

"You never scare me Bela...I was...you are fine now",he said.

"I want to go home Mahir...I want to see Mahira,she must be crying without me",I said.

"Bela relax,Mahira is fine..she had her food just now,we will leave in an hour,OK",he said.

I saw Mahira crying sitting on Yuvi's lap and Vish was trying her best to make her quite when we enterd our home.

"Mahira",I called her and she looked at me with her tear filled eyes.

"Mumma",she came running to me and hugged my legs.

"I'm here baby...mumma is here..I just went to meet dadu",I said taking her in my arms.

She can't be without me..she just can't.

"Mumma I lobee you,dadda Maiia lobess you",she said pecking my lips.

"Mahira see mumma is back baby,mumma needs rest...you go and play with Yuvi and Vish",Mahir said taking her from me.

"No mumma",she clutchted me more tightly.

"It's OK Mahir,let her be.Thanks guys..was she crying so much?"I asked.

"It's fine Bela,she started crying because she dint get her cookie today,just now Mahir bhai called and told me that it's her cookie time.We were about to give her and she started crying",Yuvi said.

"Yeah she cries when she doesn't get her cookie",I said smiling.

"She was searching for you in the whole house Bela,but she started crying suddenly",Vish said.

"It's OK,it's OK,Mahira come let's have your cookie",I said.

She was having her cookie resting her head on my chest and Mahir was caressing her hairs.

"I guess this girl can't stay without you at all,she can stay even without me but not without you",Mahir said kissing her forehead.

"Yeah..maybe",I said giggling.

"You are fine now Bela?"Vish asked.

"Ya I'm fine Vish,I was not just feeling well,I'm perfectly fine now",I said rubbing Mahira's back.

"Mumma..eat",Mahira said putting her cookie in front of my lips.

"Thank you baby, I'm fine..you have it",I said kissing her forehead.

"We will stay with you today Bela",Yuvi said.

"Hey it's OK Yuvi,I'm fine now.Mahir is there with me and I'm completely fine",I said.

They both left after some time and Mahira was playing with her dolls.

"Mahir how are you feeling now?"I asked checking his temperature.

"I'm fine Bela,the fever's gone.Just I need to take rest for sometime",he said.

Mallika didi prepared lunch,and we had our lunch feeding Mahira.

We three were sitting in our balcony taking a sunbath,the sun was in hibernation all these days.All were enjoying this today,I could see everyone's terrace filled with people.

"Dadda...see woody iz not paying wid me",Mahira said looking at Mahir.

"I will play with you Mahira,let woody rest",Mahir said putting her toys in box.

Mahira was yawning for every minute and she was rubbing her eyes.

"Mahir at what time did you take me to hospital and when did Mahira woke up?"I asked.

"I took you to hospital in the night only,Vish and Yuvi were there when Mahira woke up,I was with you in the hospital",he replied combing Mahira's hairs with his fingers.

"Ohh let's take a nap,she is looking sleepy.Even you also should take rest",I said.

We went to our room to take a nap and Mahira was fast asleep.I too slept snuggling close to her.

MAHIR

She again had a panic attack.What troubled her again?

I just got a mini heart attack after looking at her in that condition.I spoke to the doctor and she told that it was just a low blood pressure.

But panic attack?

Mahira and Bela were sleeping peacefully,and I was just looking at them.

My fever was gone..but I was still feeling low.

Last night I remembered Bela coming to my room...oh no!

Did she read the journal?

Fuck...no?

I rushed to my room and saw the journal was there at its own place.

I breathed a sigh of relief...she should not read this...no she should not.

I don't want her to feel guilty like me!!

And this journal is the last thing I had of Bani,I removed all traces of her in this house and it was difficult for me to do it.

I took the journal with me and went to terrace,I started tearing each page of it with tear filled eyes.

"I'm sorry Bani...I need to do this to keep Bela happy,I need to move on like you wanted me to",I said tearing each page and they were in air like kites.

The only page I kept with me was she addressing herself as Bani Mahir Sehgal.

I kissed that page and kept it in my pocket.

"I'm sorry Bani...I'm sorry...I love you so much...but I even love Bela now.I miss you Bani..I need to push you away...I need to..I'm sorry Bani.Love you always",I said looking at the clean sky.

Bela should not read this,she already had so much pain because of us.I don't want her to go through the same pain again after reading this.

I sat there thinking about how my life changed,the moments I spent with Bani,her pregnancy time...her love,her smile..everything.

Some people come into our life making our life beautiful...and they leave us making sure that we are still happy.

She left me,but I got the same love again...Bela filled all the voids of Bani.

Bani came as rainbow,filled my life with all colors...but even the rainbow will disappear after some time.

Even she disappeared just like a rainbow!!

I went back and slept kissing both my lifelines.

I woke up when I felt someone hitting me on my face.

Mahiraaa!!

"Dadda...see rain",she said waking me up.

I looked at other side and saw Bela was not there.

"What happened baby...what rain?"I said waking up.

It was half past five in the evening,and Mahira was jumping on the bed looking at the rain.

"Mahira..you will hurt yourself baby..come let's go out",I said taking her and went to lobby.

I saw Bela sitting in the balcony enjoying the rain,she should always be tension free like this.

"Mumma..",Mahira shouted looking at her.

"Come here Mahir..take her and come",Bela said.

I sat putting Mahira in between us,I tucked her with her warm hoody.

"Nice weather right?"Bela asked looking outside.

"Ya it is...the rain and sun is a great combination",I said looking out.

"Dadda see..red..mumma gee",she was telling about colors.

"Bue..yello..red..",she was telling about colors.

We both looked at out... and it was a rainbow.

Rainbow...Bani!!

I was feeling like Bani has come to see us,my eyes welled up.

"Yes baby..that's a rainbow.Say rain bow",Bela told Mahira.

"Rain...bow",Mahira repeated.

"There are seven colors in a rainbow..how many?"Bela asked.

"Seven",Mahira shouted.

We three were laughing,enjoying the rain.

It's high time now...I need to tell Bela.I need to tell her that she is being loved back.

I love her!!

I need to tell her...I will tell her tomorrow..for sure.

Bela and Mahira were playing in the hall and I came to my room,to clean some memories.

I cleared all the things related to Bani already,only her red saree and the paper which I tore from the journal was with me.

My album which contained all my memories was kept safe in my closet.

I sat on the floor resting my back against the bed.I took out the paper from my pocket and kissed it.

"Why did you make it complicated Bani..why did you put me in this situation"?I asked hugging it to my heart.

"I realized that I loved your sister,but I loved you more Bani.You are heartless for leaving me like this",I spoke to myself.

"But you right Bani,Mahira will get a step mom but not a mother if I marry some other women.But Bela is more than a mother to Mahira.She is so selfless,she always thinks about Mahira before thinking about herself",I said.

"And guess what?Mahira loves Bela more than me,she can stay without me but not without her",I said chuckling.

"I give you another promise today Bani.I will never let a tear fall from your sister's eyes,never.I will take care of her just like you took care of her.Both Bela and Mahira...I will never let anything happen to them",I said wiping my tears.

"I lost enough people in my life,I can't loose more..I can't.I learned to be happy again",I said getting up.

I freshed up and stood in front of the mirror.

Everyone say that men don't cry...crying means showing their weak side.

But these tears are not of fear and I'm not ashamed of crying,these tears showed me my actual life.

And yes remember...tears are not weakness of anyone.

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