MAHIR

I picked up Bela and Mahira and came back to our home.

"Dadda",Mahira was not leaving me.

"I'm here baby, I'm here",I cooed her when she was sobbing.

"I'm sorry Mahir, she was crying so badly today. I couldn't see her like this so I called you",Bela said feeling guilty.

"No no Bela,it's fine. She is my daughter, she needs me",I said kissing Mahira.

"Are you fine Mahir"?Bela asked looking worried.

"I'm... I'm fine Bela.. just the work pressure",I lied.

"Dad is back from NY,he called me", she said.

"Oh ya that's cool. But I still have to do some work. You and Mahira take rest. I will order dinner",I said.

"We already had dinner Mahir,I will make something for you", she said going towards kitchen.

"No Bela,I also ate. Mahira also slept crying. Both of you take rest. I will come after sometime",I said.

"Hmm OK. Mahir I need to tell you something", she said.

"Ya what is it"?I asked.

"As now Mahira turned one,dad wanted to buy earrings for her", she said.

"What? Earrings for such a small girl? She is not even pierced",I said with confusion.

"Yes Mahir,we need to do piercing for her ears for that. It's a tradition that her mother's dad should offer her first earrings", she said.

"But Bela it will pain. She is so small to bear that pain",I said worrying.

"It won't pain Mahir,it will just take a second. And don't worry, she will be in your arms when they pierce her ears", she said.

"OK... so when are we going to do this"?I asked.

"Umm..after three days", she said looking down.

"Ohh so on our marriage day"?I asked.

"Yeah.. dad told that that day is auspicious for it", she said.

"OK. I'm OK with it. Did he inform dad"?I asked.

"Yes he informed. They will come on that day", she said.

"Oh OK. Go to sleep Bela,I will come soon",I said.

"Ya fine. Good night Mahir", she said taking Mahira from me.

I came back to my room to complete the journal.

Piercing?

My baby is so small for that, why all these traditions are for girls?

"Our baby is going to be pierced Bani. She is becoming big",I said caressing the journal.

And we have to do that on mine and Bela's first anniversary.

Just after the day of Bani's death. I don't have energy to bear all this pain at once.

I sighed and opened the journal to continue.

"Bani, why are you spoiling your happy married life with Mahir because of Bela. She is gone. It's her decision,we have to respect that. She will come back if she want to", my dad said.

I dint expect these words from him.

"Even you are talking like Mahir dad! She is your daughter, how can you let her go"?I sobbed.

"Bani.....she had a reason to go, she left.Think that she left for your happiness, don't spoil that happiness my child", he said.

"Tell me where is she dad"?I asked.

"I don't know Bani. Even I tried to search for her. But I couldn't find her", he replied so easily.

Somewhere I was sure that dad knows about her whereabouts.

"Where have you been these two days dad"?I asked doubting him.

I think he went to meet Bela.

"I...I went to NY for a meeting",he lied.

Even Mahir told me the same. But Vyom told me that he went to London.
And dad...

"Oh so you and Mahir went together"?I asked.

"Hmm ya...ya..I and Mahir went together", he was suttering.

Now that's a big lie. Mahir lied to me,my dad also lied to me.

Mahir has not been to NY, so how will my dad go with Mahir?

"I just can't stop thinking about her dad, and Mahir yelled at me for that",I sobbed in his chest.

"A married life without fights is incomplete Bani.It happens. And you know what? Mahir called me to talk to you. He wants you back", he said.

"I will stay with you for two days dad. I don't want to go now",I snuggled into his arms.

"OK my baby,but at least inform him",my dad said.

"I don't want to talk to him, he told me to leave. I will inform Sumi ma, she will tell him",I said.

"As you say my baby,I just want my daughter to be happy.I don't want anything other than that",my dad said kissing my forehead.

I was pissed at you Mahir!

Firstly,you lied to me.

Secondly,you were hiding it from me.

Third, you told me to walk out when I needed you the most.

But as they say,we can't judge by knowing just one side. We have to always listen to other side of story too.

You,Yuvi,Sumi ma and Andy uncle came to take me back to our home.

I was still not talking to you,but I cannot live without you.

"Bani... I'm sorry...please forgive me", you asked when we entered our room.

I dint reply.

"Bani please,I can't bear your silence",you begged taking my hands in yours.

"I was hurt Mahir. How could you just say whatever you like. She was your best friend,my sister....",you cut me off.

"Bani please.... why are you getting her again in between us. She is gone leaving you and me. She would have come long back if she wanted to, but we have to move on. I want to be with you for all my life. Can't we lead a normal and simple life with out her"?you said.

You were absolutely right Mahir. She would have come back. But she dint. But I wont loose my hope. I will wait for her.

"I'm sorry Mahir. I'm really sorry. You are right.We have to move on",I said kissing your hand.

"Come here", telling that you took me in a hug.

I felt warm and safe in your embrace that day Mahir.

I forgot about all the pain,the lies... everything.

It was just you for me. Just you!

That night we made love! It was only you and me,I saw love and longing in your eyes for me that day.

I gave my self to you and you turned me into a women from a girl.

We both were so happy with each other.We were so happy,we enjoyed each and every day from that day.

"Why did you leave me Bani? Why are you reminding me all those memories now"? I sighed rubbing my temples.

She was right! We were happy from that day. I moved on from that pain and was living my life happily with Bani.

I used to make excuses at the office to come back home soon. We used to watch movies,date nights, long drives,outings,our little make out sessions, our love making nights.

"We were happy",I said wiping my tears.

I continued reading.

But as they say,happiness never lasts longer!

We lost Sumi aunty, that was a shock for all of us. You were broken. You needed me.

I tried to contact Bela,I knew you wanted her too.

I knew it Mahir! You could not leave her.

You were trying to contact her,I saw you once talking to Vish about it. But you still acted like you dint care.

But I guess you loved her Mahir. But the difference was you loved me more. Your love for her just got diluted with my love.

You loved her! Otherwise you wouldn't tried this harder to reach her out. You wouldn't lie to me.

You were completely broken after Sumi ma's despise.I need to fix you back. I dint knew how to?

My love was not enough for you to be normal again. You needed her also.

I confirmed it. But I still dint knew why Bela left us. Weather she loved you or not?

I was scared to get her topic in front of you again. I don't want to fight with you because of her.

I was just caring about you and me. I dint care about her anymore. Even I felt like you that she is the reason we are not happy today.

We fought because of her,I dint want her in between us anymore.

I was being selfish at that time Mahir!

I was selfish? Maybe I was jealous.

Because I couldn't see you with any other women other than me. I just wanted you to all myself.

I stopped worrying about Bela from that time.

She was the reason for your anger,I saw the angry Mahir more than the Mahir I loved after our marriage.

She was your best friend, she left, and you were pissed about it.

But you were venting out that anger in our relationship. I couldn't sense that because even I was weeping for her.

I just lost it when you fought with me for her. I couldn't bear that pain.I decided to put you and me away from Bela's topic from that day.

I dint try again to contact her nor I asked my dad.

I dint knew how to make you normal from that pain you were going through after loosing your mother.

But God helped me in it again.

I tested my self for three times when I could sense pregnancy symptoms.

All were positive!

I went to Polo aunty for getting tested again. It was positive again.

I was pregnant Mahir! We were pregnant!

I was on the top of the world,my happiness knew no bounds that day. I came home to inform you about it.

You were sitting in our balcony drinking coffee. I was just staring at you. I dint knew how to tell you about this. I was worried weather you were ready to be a father or not.

Because,if you were still concerned about Bela,I wouldn't share this news with you.

I can't spoil our happy moments,I can't bear this child when you love another women along with me.

I was scared to tell you. But I have to tell you. I couldn't put you in the dark.

You are the father of my baby and you deserve to know.

"What's wrong with you Bani? You dint want to have Mahira? How can you think like that about me"?I was now angry on her.

She doubted me,my love,my honesty,my loyalty.

How can she?

Now I'm feeling the pain which Bela felt when I doubted her love towards Mahira.

I'm sorry Bela. Now I know how you felt. Sorry is not enough.

I told you that I'm pregnant and you were shocked. You were not just you for that ten minutes when I told you. You were happy like no other person in this world.

I was happy that you were happy. This child made our bond more strong. This child dint let you go from me to Bela.

"The fuck is wrong with you Bani? How can you think like that? That child was a ray of hope in my tough life that time. And you thought in this way about it"?I sighed.

I dint knew Bani took it in that way. But she just doubted me about it. Why couldn't she ask me directly?

I'm hurt Bani! Maybe I should say that I'm angry on you.

Yes,I am angry on her!

She dint knew about what I went through, what Bela went through. I thought I was being selfish,but Bani was the one being selfish from that time.

I know you must be cursing me right now Mahir. I know. You are cursing me because you loved Bela.

And no one can change that truth. You just dint realize that time.

Our whole family was happy with my pregnancy news. I was happy that everyone were happy because of our baby.

But I was guilt ridden when I went to inform my dad about it. I can never forget that day in my life Mahir. Even if I die, that day will haunt me.

"How are you now Bela?Are you taking your medications properly"?I heard my dad talking in the phone.

I dint want to evsdrop,but I had to when I heard Bela's name.

I was more scared than being happy. I was scared that she may come back into our life's. I dint want to loose you.

"Bela if something will happen to you,trust me you will see my dead body. I can't loose you my child",I heard my dad sobbing.

What happened to her? Why is he crying?

"Bani di is fine. She is happy just as you wanted Bela. She and Mahir are happy together",he said.

This got tears in my eyes. My little sister still cares about my happiness.

Now it's enough,I need my dad to answer. I started hating Bela for no reason. I can't hate her just like that. Some where I could feel that Bela left because of us.

I need to know it.I can't hate her and doubt Mahir's love for me.

I'm already guilty that I doubted Mahir's love towards me and my baby. I can't doubt him more without knowing the actual story.

I need to know it!

"Take care my baby. Should I come around this month ending"?I heard my dad asking.

"OK Bela. Take care and please call me when you want to talk",my dad said and he hanged up.

His face was drained out of colors when he saw me. He was sweating profusely.

"Bani"?my dad said looking at me.

'I'm caught'that expression was there on his face.

"How are you my baby? When did you come"?he behaved normally.

OK first,I need to tell him about me.

"Dad I want to...I...want to say something",I said.

"What is it Bani"?he asked being worried.

"Dad I...I... I'm pregnant",I said.

His face became normal now. He was feeling relaxed.

He took me in a hug,he was happy. So happy.

"Really? My Bani is going to become a mother"?he caressed me.

"Yes dad, and you are going to be a grandfather soon",I said kissing him.

His happiness had knew no bounds just like us. But I need to talk to him a lot today.

"I'm so happy for you Bani. I'm so happy. You deserve all happiness",he said kissing my cheeks.

"Dad I need to ask you  something",I said.

"What is it Bani"?he asked.

"Are you in touch with Bela"?I asked.

He was trying to look for an answer. But he couldn't speak when I uttered the next sentence.

"If you are in touch with her, tell her to stay out of mine and Mahir's life",I said.

I was guilty even while uttering those words.

I dint knew how I uttered those filthy words from my mouth that time.I was not thinking like her sister. I was thinking like your wife that time Mahir.

I'm sorry Mahir!I dint knew how I grew these many insecurities within me,doubting your love,putting Bela away from us.

I just don't know!

"What? What did you say"?my dad asked.

"I..I said that if you are in touch with her....tell her to stay...away from me and...and Mahir",I said.

"Yes I'm in touch with her. Tell me why should she stay away from you and Mahir", he asked with anger.

"I...I don't know why she left from here,but I feel like I will loose Mahir if she will be back.I..I don't want to loose my family because of her",I said looking away.

"Bani.....you took care of Bela like she was your child right? Why are you suddenly feeling like this, and you are doubting Mahir's love"?he asked.

"Dad no... I'm.. I'm not doubting anyone's love. I love Mahir and I love Bela too....",he cut me off in the middle.

"You used to call me daily to ask weather did I know anything about her right? And now you don't want her to come back"?my dad asked.

"Dad I'm feeling like Mahir loved Bela also. I dont know about Bela,but if Bela comes back I....I feel like I will loose Mahir forever",I sobbed.

"Oh! So now you think that Mahir is cheating on you"?he asked with disbelief.

"What? Dad no. I can't think like that. It's not what you are thinking.I don't know why Bela left,but Mahir was in pain from the day she left. I could sense his love for her",I said.

"They were best friends back then,friendship is the first step towards love. If Bela comes back...it will be end of me. I will loose Mahir. Mahir will fall for her again",I sobbed.

"You think that Mahir will leave you even after knowing that you are bearing his child"?my dad asked.

"This child is the only reason we are together I think,if I would not be pregnant... I'm sure Mahir would still search for Bela.And if she comes back....I will loose him",I said crying.

"So you are thinking that Mahir also loved Bela? And you think Bela is a home wrecker"? he asked.

"Dad..I..I dint mean that...I was telling that...",he cut me off again.

"Now you feel like Bela is the reason you people were unhappy all these days. You don't know why she left but you don't want her to come back? You don't want her to spoil your happy family",my dad was telling.

OK he was taking it too far. He is getting all wrong.

"You know what?Bela gifted you this happy family to you. You are having a happy family because of her. Your husband,your in laws... all,she gifted you this family", he spatted with anger.

"What do you mean by she gifted me? Why will she gift it to me"?I asked feeling confused.

"You are now leading a happy life because she left. She left for your happiness", he said.

"She left for my happiness? How"?I asked feeling low.

"She loved Mahir",he said.

My mind was numb.I couldn't believe it. I was feeling like the earth was spinning around me and I blacked out.

I threw the book with full anger at somewhere in my room. My face was radiating heat due to my anger.

How can she think about her own sister like that? She loved me, then how could she think like that about me?

"Why Bani? Why? You thought that I would cheat you over Bela? And you accused her for my behavior"?I punched the wall with my fist.

I dint expect this coming. Bela is innocent. She don't know anything. And I hated her all these years for no reason.

I went to Bela's room running. I saw Mahira sleeping in her crib peacefully. I kissed her and went to bed.

I saw Bela  sleeping snuggled into her self. Tears started pouring from my eyes when I looked at her.

She went through a lot of pain for us. And what did Bani think?

I settled beside her getting into the covers. I hugged her to my chest and started sobbing. She almost ended her life for me.

I can't stay away from her anymore. She snuggled into me hugging me tight.

I kissed her forehead and closed my eyes to get some sleep.

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