MAHIR

Fuck! I fucked it really bad this time. She is crying. That means she loved. And it is me just as Yuvi and Vyom told me. She loved me! But she din't tell me. What must be the reason that she din't tell me?

I could feel her still sitting near the door and sobbing. My heart was really aching looking at her condition.

"Bela..I know you can hear me. Please open the door", I said expecting her to open the door.

But I can still hear her sobs.

"Bela! Please open the door. You can share with me. Did you forget that I'm still your best friend"? I asked.

"You...you told that we are no more..no more friends", she said sobbing.

Fuck. I messed it real hard.

"Bela..that was just out of anger. Please don't mind those words of mine. Please come out. Don't be embarrassed. There is nothing wrong in loving someone. Please", I was pleading now.

I heard the door unlocking sound. She slowly opened the door and looked at me.

Her eyes were red and puffy due to crying. I can see dried tears on her face. Her body was still sweating.

My heart was really feeling heavy. She is still suffering.

"Bela"? I called her.

She was looking at me still sobbing.

That's it. It's time for me to cross my limits.

I pulled her into a tight hug. I hid her face in my chest and she started crying like a baby. I was rocking her back. She came out of the hug looking down. Din't she like me comforting her?

But at the next moment she hugged me with full force due to which we both stumbled back. She hid her face in crook of my neck and started sobbing. I was still caressing her back.

Nearly after ten minutes she calmed down. I was still holding her tight. She came out of the hug and looked at me. I wiped her face with my hands and kissed her forehead.

"Just get fresh and come, I will be waiting for you with a coffee", I said .

She nodded and went back to her room.

I went to kitchen and made coffee for both of us. I went to hall and placed the cups on the coffee table. I checked on Mahira. She was still sleeping. I kissed her and came out waiting for Bela.

She came all fresh and sat beside me. I gave her coffee.

There was thick silence in the room. I thought to start the conversation.

"Who told you about my love Mahir"?she asked.

She was looking at me with her red eyes.

"You...you loved me"? I asked her.

I thought she will get mad at me for asking this question but she just gave a sarcastic smile looking at me.

What does that mean?

"You din't answer my question Bela"? I asked.

"You too din't answer me", she said.

"Ok Yuvi and Vyom told me. But they din't tell anything more", I said.

"You loved me"? I asked again.

She wasn't answering me. Now I was getting pissed off.

"Answer me Bela. Don't test my patients", I said rubbing my forehead.

"I...I did", she said without looking at me.

"Then why din't you tell me"? I asked.

She wasn't answering me again. She was mute again. We heard Mahira crying and we went to my room to take her.

"Mahira..what happened baby? Mumma is here na, don't cry", telling that she was rocking her back.

Mahira was crying very badly today. Bela was touching her forehead.

"My god Mahir, she is burning with fever", Bela said with worry.

I took her in my arms immediately and checked her forehead. She was really burning and was crying continuously.

"Mahira it's ok baby. Dadda and mumma are there with you. You will be fine", I said rocking her back.

"Bela call Polo aunty. Let's take her to the hospital", I said.

She went to call Polo aunty.

"Mahir Polo aunty is available now. Let's go to the hospital", Bela said taking Mahira in her arms.

"You take her and go down. I will get her reports and come down", I said getting tensed.

We went to the hospital and they did quick check up on Mahira. My baby was still aching with fever.

Me, Bela and Mahira were waiting in Polo aunty's cabin. She came and checked on Mahira.

"She is on high fever Mahir. I will give her a injection and prescribe some tonics", she said.

Mahira was still crying aloud. I was holding Mahira tightly and telling her sweet words.

"Mahira see mumma and dadda are here baby. Don't cry", Bela was caressing her.

I gave her to Bela and went to get injection for her. I came back and saw that Mahira became more loud after looking at me.

I took her immediately and kissed her. Polo aunty was preparing her injection.

"Mahir hold her tight so that she can't move", Polo aunty said.

I was looking at her with tension.

"It's ok Mahir. She will be fine", Polo aunty said looking at me.

Bela kept her hand on my shoulder and looked at me.

"It's ok Mahir. It's for her good sake only", Bela said.

I nodded and held Mahira tightly. Polo aunty gave Mahira her injection and Mahira  bursted out crying more. The whole hospital is going to collapse due to her sound.

Mahira was looking at me and crying more. My eyes already started pooling looking at her like this.

"Shh..it's ok baby. You will be fine", I said caressing her.

She was clinging on me more tightly. We came out of the hospital. I gave Mahira to Bela so that I can get the car.

I got the car from parking lot and Bela hopped inside with a sleeping Mahira.

"She slept"? I asked.

"Yaa.  Maybe due to the injection", she said kissing her.

"It's ok Mahir. It's just a fever. The weather is changing, we should be more careful", she said assuring me.

Mahira was sleeping in Bela's arms clinging to her. She cannot stay without me or Bela. She is used to us.One day I took Mahira with me to my office. She enjoyed that day but started crying at the middle of the day for Bela. 

Bela was covering Mahira with her saree drape. Maybe she was feeling cold. I decreased the ac temperature. Bela looked at me and gave me a smile.

We reached back home and Mahira was also wide awake now. Now the difficult part comes here. Mahira should eat her food and have her medications.

Bela was mixing her food and Mahira was playing with me. She was not active as she was feverish. It ached to see my baby like that.

"Mahiraaa....mum is ready to get into your tummy", telling that Bela came with her food bowl and Mahira started burying her face in my stomach.

"Mahira see mumma got food for you, if you eat now we will play on the swing", I said making her face towards Bela.

Mahira was sitting on me and Bela was sitting on the chair in front of us.

"Mahira say aaa...", Bela said .

Mahira is so stubborn just like me. 

"Say aaa...Mahira", I said and she did open her mouth.

"Ok so you are dadda's girl", telling that Bela shoved another spoonful of food in her mouth.

She had her food while playing on the swing and roaming around the whole house. She is really a brat. She was crawling so fast now. Her toys are scattered everywhere.

"Mahira you are so fast and you are becoming more stubborn these days", I said while Mahira was making us run around our house.

"Genes", Bela said giggling.

I gave her a sharp look and she was hiding her luagh.

"See Mahira your mumma is laughing on us. Don't be stubborn like me", I said and Bela started laughing out loud.

Mahira was enjoying while having her food today. Bela cleaned her mouth and wiped her face.

"Mahir just hold her, I will get her tonics", Bela said I nodded taking Mahira in my arms.

Bela came with the tonic bottle and sat beside me.

"Mahira say aaa...", Bela said while forwarding the tonic spoon near Mahira.

Mahira pushed it with her hand and the tonic fell down. She was whining alot.

"Mahira..that's wrong beta, you have to take the medicine", I said but no use.

It's really a task for every parent to give medicines to their brats. As there is no way now I and Bela looked at each other and hold Mahira tight so that she can't move.

I held Mahira tightly and Bela shoved the tonic in her mouth. I closed her nose for a second so that she can gulp it down. She started crying after drinking that.

Bela came back with a cookie in her hands for Mahira.

"Mahira see what I bought for you", Bela said gaining Mahira's attention.

She saw the cookie in Bela's hands and started jumping on me. Oh god my baby is jumping on an unexpected place and I started wincing in pain.

"Mahira baby slow down, don't you want siblings", I said wincing in pain.

Oh no. What did I say?

Bela looked at me shocked. Now I was embarrassed. 

Shit. Where are these thoughts coming from?

Mahira got down and started having her cookie. Bela was blushing. No she was trying to hide her blush.

Mahira had her cookie and came back to me. She was playing with me and Bela sat beside me playing with her.

She was playing with my buttons and pulling my beard.

"Mahira don't pull my beard my baby", I said setting my beard.

"I guess she don't like your beard", Bela said looking at me chuckling.

"Yess I guess", I said and suddenly Mahira throwed up her stomach contents on me and she started crying.

Bela took her immediately and took her inside to clean up. I was sitting there drenched on my baby's vomit.

I was going to move from there but Bela stopped me.

"Mahir please don't move", she said in swift motion.

"You just wait here I will come in a while", saying so whe went inside her room and cleaned Mahira.

"Bela I'm waiting", I said .

"I'm coming Mahir. Just hold on a second", she said.

She came after a while and I was standing there with that drenched shirt.

"Remove your shirt Mahir", she said.

I was looking at her hesitantly.

"Come on Mahir remove your shirt, or else the shirt will get stained", she said.

God she and her OCD.

I removed my shirt and stood their half naked. She came with water and a sponge to clean me up.

"Are you going to clean me up now"? I asked  and she nodded hesitantly.

BELA

I hesitantly started cleaning Mahir's torso with the wet sponge. I could feel his muscles relaxing at my touch. I was trying to complete the task as soon as possible.

"Did Mahira sleep? Is she alright?" he asked.

"Yaa..she....she slept", I said going back of him to clean.

"It's fine Bela..I..I will take a shower", he said and nodded.

I cleaned the lobby as I cannot withstand dirt in front of me. Yes I have OCD. Mahir came out looking fresh and his body smell is still same. Just intoxicating. I was trying my best to avoid that topic again.

"I think we both should sleep together", he said and I snapped my head in his direction.

"I mean...we both should look after Mahira today. She will be needing us", he said.

Man! This man is gives me heart attacks with his words sometimes.

"Yaa..you are right", I said and we had our dinner in silence.

We heeded back to my room and laid Mahira in between us. Mahir  was observing my each and every actions.

"What is it Mahir"? I asked feeling annoyed.

Your love staring at you give butterflies. But too much staring makes you annoyed.

"We din't complete talking Bela", he said.

"It's not the right time Mahir. Not now. First let Mahira get stable", I said and he was smiling.

"You are a great mother Bela", he said.

Just a few months ago he was not ready to accept me as Mahira's mother and now he is complimenting me. He is changing. I can sense it from past few days.

"Good night Mahir", I said and he too told me and started to doze off.

Sleep is far away from me. Mahir got to know about my love for him. No doubt it's Yuvi and Vyom. But he din't get mad at me after knowing about my love. Maybe he din't knew how to react. I know there is no use of telling him about my love to him now.

He already have someone in his heart. I cannot make place in his heart when he is having my own sister in his heart. I am not mad at him or Bani di for not telling me about their love. We three were in different situations.

I was madly and deeply in love with Mahir and Mahir was with Bani di.

Bani di herself was in confusion. I cannot blame them because even I din't tell Bani di about my love for Mahir.

It's like we three were in a fix.

Mahir had feelings for her and he told her. But I was late in confessing my feelings while he was a step ahead.

I don't know what he will ask me about all those matters. It's in the past. Why do they still care about it?

I was lost in my thoughts and heard Mahira crying. I turned towards her and started rocking her back to sleep. But she was no where near to sleep now resulting Mahir to wake up.

"Mahira...dadda got you baby. I'm here", telling that he laid her on his chest.

"It's fine Bela. You sleep, I will take care of her", he said cooing her.

"It's fine. I'm not sleepy", I said.

"Daddaa...Maiiaa...wants to pay", Mahira said grabbing her rabbit pillow and shoving it on Mahir's face.

I started giggling looking at them.

"Mahiraa..you are not well now love. You have to get some sleep", he said putting her rabbit pillow aside.

"Daddaa you bad...mumma Maiiaa wi pay", she said shifting towards me.

Thinks like my baby is having her mood swings now.

"Mumma..Maiia wants to pay", she said settling on me.

"Which game Mahira wants to play"? I asked settling her hairs to side.

"Maiiaa wants to pay wid rabbi", she said showing me her rabbit.

"Ok now the rabbit and Mahira will play bff's", I said hiding her rabbit behind me.

She started clapping her hands in excitement. 

"My god she is really so stubborn", Mahir said shaking his head in disbelief.

"Yes, just like you", I said giggling.

"Excuse me, you should not talk about stubbornness I guess"? he said looking at me.

"You are stubborn than anyone in this world", I said muffling my laughter.

"Same goes to you", he said.

"Mumma daddaa both are bad. Maiiaa iz angy", she said crossing her hands.

We looked at her and she was looking really angry.

"Mumma and dadda loves Mahira..", Mahir said taking Mahira to himself but she was protesting.

"Mahira..you should sleep now baby. It's not your play time", I said.

"Maiiaa knows youuuu", she said.

Knows you in her language means she hates it.

"Ok so Mahira is not sleeping, so mumma and dadda will sleep", Mahir said gaining her attention.

"Mahir she is already angry, don't make her more angry", I said.

"Shh...just play along with me Bela", he said.

Ok. Now what is he going to do?

"Come Bela, today we can sleep without Mahira in between us", he said moving close to me.

My lips parted at his words. What is he doing?

"Today mumma and dadda will sleep without Mahira", I said and looked at Mahira who was looking confused.

"Yes, we both can sleep peacefully", telling that Mahir took me in his embrace and wrapped his hand on me.

My body is numb now. From top to bottom it's not in my control. I was looking at him with my wide eyes.

"Just close your eyes and act along with me. She will get jealous" he whispered indicating Mahira.

I closed my eyes following his command. I'm having a butterfly park in my stomach now. The hair on my body raised with his touch. His hold on me was tight.

There was no reaction from Mahira. She was still sitting with her hands crossed. I looked at Mahir and gestured him to see Mahira. He glanced at her.

"If you don't mind...put...put your hand around me", he whispered.

He will be the death of me one day.

Hesitantly I wrapped my hands around him and he scooted me more closer.

As I closed my eyes Mahira jumped in between us and settled.

"Only Maiia hugs you", she said looking at Mahir.

Man. She was really jealous. Mahir grinned at her.

"It's ok, Mahira can play and we both will sleep", I said looking at her.

"No. You both ony hug Maiiaa", she said looking at me.

I and Mahir started laughing looking at her. 

"Maiiaa lobes you mumma", she said turning towards me.

"Aww.. I too love Mahira", I said kissing her.

"And me"? Mahir asked.

She was thinking for an answer and pecked his nose.

"Maiiaa kissii you daddaa", she said giggling.

"No love exchanges for dadda"? Mahir asked while tickling her.

Girls are always dadda's princess. She gets jealous looking at me and Mahir like that. It's first time we did something like this in front of her. She is not used to us like that. Of course I'm just her mumma but not her dadda's wife.

Soon Mahira slept after playing. Mahir was still awake and he was thinking something.

If the beans are spilled it has to be spilled properly. He needs to know the whole story. I cannot leave him with cliffhangers. But I need some time to gather the courage to tell him.

Yes Mahir! I will tell you about my feelings to you.

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