Chapter 15: Guilt•

Rosa's Pov

I stared outside the window, watching the city running like it always had. There's never a day when people aren't running around getting to where they need to be. It continues even if something horrible had happened.

That morning before what happened, I had gotten ready to go to Hugh's house so that his family and I could go to the mainland together for the weekend. It was a generous offer and his mom was more than happy to take us with Jenny, who was the most excited since she never traveled before.

I left my house and wasn't even aware I was being followed, but I was pretty sure it started as soon as I turned to his street. Team Plasma had spotted me and followed me, probably thinking I was heading home from somewhere.

Everyone was ready to go and I was having a conversation with Jenny on the amazing places she gets to see while we travel pass Castelia city and towards Nacrene City. All of a sudden, a group of 5 guys in black stormed into the house and trashed everything.

Hugh tried to make sure we were safe away from the ruckus and promised to take care of it, but Jenny's Purrloin intervened and tried attacking without an order.

Things took a turn, Jenny tried getting Purrloin out the way when a grunt was coming towards us. Seeing that the grunt was about to harm her with a knife, I took the attack and was thrown back after the blow. I was still conscious then, and I watched Purrloin getting even more mad and aimed to attack the grunt, but ended up getting stabbed on its side. Before I was blacking out, Hugh jumped him with his bare hands and knocked the guy out.

After I fell asleep, a warm pair of arms held me in a hug, embracing me with love and affection... Their voice echoed in my ears, but I couldn't hear who it was or what they were saying. Next thing I knew, I woke up in a hospital and was told by the doctor what happened. From then on, I knew I couldn't forgive myself.

"It's my fault..." I said to myself, still staring out the window with tears running down my gown "I can't even face Hugh now... It was my fault they came and I didn't even notice" I cupped my face "It should had been me... now I lost both of them" I sobbed "I'm so sorry..." I shook my head "I'm sorry I couldn't be more help. I'm so useless... It's all my fault" I flinched when I twisted my body too much and looked at the bandage by my collar bone "I could say I'm lucky to be alive, but I wish I could just die" I stared at the ceiling "I ruin everything I touch..." I closed my eyes "Should I just end it now..?" I looked back at the ceiling "I can't ever face him... The last friend of my childhood. I ruined everything..."

"That's not true!" I sat up in a hurry, ignoring the pain on my chest, and saw Jenny crying by the door "If it weren't for you being there, I wouldn't be here" she rushed over to my bed, putting her arms on top since she couldn't reach "He doesn't hate you! Hugh doesn't hate you!" He should... If he knew I was the one that brought those criminals in, this wouldn't have happened.

All I did was pet her head and offered her a smile "Thank you... Jenny. The biggest question is, how are you doing?" She frowned.

"Purrloin is getting treatment. Mommy said she's going to be fine soon" I held my heart "She got injured pretty badly, but it's curable!" I sobbed.

"That's good... That's so good..." I cupped my face "I'm sorry... Jenny. I'm so sorry..."

"It's not your fault!" Yes it is... I'm sorry! I'm sorry!

"Ms.Rosa" the Doctor walked into the room "I'm glad to see you awake. You have a list of visitors who want to see you" he handed me a clip board to show me a bunch of familiar names "Please circle the ones you can accept while I check on your wound. Not all can come at once. I recommend three at a time" I nodded.

"Jenny, please go find your mom. I don't want you to see this" I said. Jenny nodded and ran off while the doctor removed my wrap to apply some medicine that made me want to scream.

"Sorry, but it won't hurt for long" he put a new bandage back on "You're lucky to be alive with how much blood you lost" I handed him back the clipboard "Only 1? But there's-"

"I don't want to see anyone else... Restrain anyone from coming to see me" I looked down "I can't face anyone right now" he nodded and walked out the room, later coming back with the visitor I allowed to come see me. She sobbed at the sight of me in this bed and came to hug my head instead of my body.

"I'm so glad you're okay..." Hilda cried "I was so worried..." I closed my eyes and cried with her.

"I'm anything but fine..." she let go to sit in front of me and listened "It was my fault it happened..."

"How could it be your fault!? Team Plasma-"

"Followed me..." I looked down "but I wasn't paying attention. I'm sorry for lying to you, Hilda, but..." I bit my lips "they were the one that broke my ankle." She quickly stood up in shock.

"What?!" She cupped her mouth "No...No! Don't lie to me!"

"I'm not lying... They mess with me a couple of days a week when I get off work. Why do you think I've been losing so many bags" Hilda sobbed and dropped to the floor. I didn't want to look at her.

"I'm sorry I couldn't protect you... I'm the reason why they mess with you. Why didn't you tell me?!"

"I didn't want to worry you..." she quickly stood up and leaned on my bed.

"I'll make things right!" I took her hands.

"You have a whole career ahead of you. I'm sorry I wasn't careful before, but don't throw away something your passionate about because of me!"

"But-!" She softened her expression when she looked at mine.

"I can't bare to be the cause of someone else's life changing... Please" I cried "I've hurt Nate... I already hurt Hugh and his family... Please. Don't make me be the reason why..." I put my cheek in her hands I was holding "I won't be able to live with myself..." she placed her head on mine.

"Alright..." She sniffled "as long as you promise me you'll take better care of yourself. I don't want you walking alone anymore. Do you hear me?" I nodded.

"Yes..." Hilda's phone buzzed in her pocket. She looked at her screen and bit her lip "What is it?"

"Calem, Bianca, and Hilbert are here... They heard what happened"

"Let them come" she looked surprised "It's okay if they know... after all, you all handled Team Plasma before" I smiled. She nodded and left the room to talk to someone. I softly held the bandage on my chest and sighed, wondering who was holding me before...

In no time, Hilda and her friends came into my room. Bianca was the first to come to my bed "oh sweetie! I'm so happy you're okay!" She frowned "I can't believe what Hilda told us!"

"Team Plasma entered Hugh's home after they followed you in?" Hilbert asked.

"What were you doing so early on a Saturday that you had to go to Hugh's house?" Cheren asked, placing some flowers on the table beside me.

"I wanted to go to the mainland... and I told Hugh about it, so he offered to take me with his mom" I explained "you know... since I don't have a trainer badge"

"You had told me you wanted to talk to Doctor Fennel, but she was always unavailable, so the other way to get your information was by getting it from the library in Nacrene City" He leaned on the wall.

"You wanted to talk to Professor Fennel? What for?" Bianca asked.

"I did the thing you told me to do with the Dream Mist, and I got to see Victini" I said. Bianca gasped excitedly.

"You did!? It worked then!" She softened her smile "but what does this have to do with..?"

"I wanted to know what I can do to wake her up!" I frowned.

"Rosa, do you have no fate in this hospital?" Hilbert asked "they're trying everything they can to help your Pokémon"

"But I want to know more! I can't just stay around waiting for my Pokémon to wake up! I've done some studying and scratched off the possibility that she might need a lunar wing. That's not what it is, so I wondered if there was a piece missing that this hospital can't figure out" I looked at my lap "I can't just sit here and wait..."

"Professor Fennel can't give you the answer" Bianca said "She works in all hospitals to analyze the patients sleeping patterns in their coma so she can find a way to help them. Everyone is trying the best they can" Hilda held my hand.

"You don't have to push yourself so much... I know you miss Victini, but you have to be patient" I shook my head, thinking about Kris and how much her coma was making Ethan the way he is. I can't... I can't just sit here and watch people suffer!

"I can't..." I shut my eyes "Please don't let me stay here to wait any longer... I know everyone is trying, but at least let me learn what's happening. I can't stand to let this keep going on" Hilbert leaned on the foot of my bed.

"Is there more into the story you lend on?" Everyone looked at him "You're so impatient about a hospitals process that you feel like you have to take charge, but what's really the problem here?"

"There's a patient here that's also in a coma..." I admit.

"Let me stop you right there" Hilbert said.

"Hilbert!" Hilda furrowed her brows, not liking his tone.

"Comas are caused by a injury to the brain. Rosa, there's nothing you can do about it! Victini's condition is different, but the reason why someone else has a coma is never the same. How can you push yourself so far to think you can do something?"

"Once I help Victini, I will become successful!" I raised my voice "I made a lot of people suffer! I want to at least help those who can't be helped! I know that doesn't make sense, but I feel terrible enough as it is!"

"I'm not trying to make you feel bad..." he replaced Bianca next to me "Don't push yourself to do something you can't do. You'll only make yourself suffer even more..." I bit my lips.

"So I'm suppose to just sit here..?" Hilda took my other hand.

"Please... All you need now is rest. You lost a lot of blood" I looked down and let them help me lay back down.

"We can't do much to take care of Team Plasma, but remember when I said I would find someone who can escort you?" Cheren asked. I nodded "he would be happy to do it if you really want to go, but I told him that you'll need to catch a Pokémon first. Once you're able to leave the hospital, come back to school and wait to meet him on the weekend" I smiled.

"Thank you so much..."

"Who are you talking about?" Bianca asked. He whispered in her ear "What a great idea! Nobody can do a better job!" Hilbert and Hilda looked at each other confused before Hilda placed my blanket over my body.

"Get some rest. I was told that some food was coming"

"Hospital food sucks!" Bianca whined.

"You haven't went to a hospital since we were 10. What would you know?" Hilbert sweat dropped "it's actually pretty good now. I'm sure you'll enjoy it" he smiled at me.

"Thank you, guys" I looked at Hilda "Are you going to tell mom?" Hilda smiled.

"You're going to be okay, so there's no point in making her worry" I agreed and watched everyone leaving the room.

Hilbert's Pov

I nearly had a heart attack when Nate called me about what happened. He was so calm before when we saw him yesterday at the studios when he broke up with Yancy, a famous idol, and to hear him panic about what happened to Rosa and Hugh almost made me react the same way.

Because I was with Hilda, discussing a script idea, I told her about Rosa and we abandoned everything to come and see her. We haven't gotten the chance to talk to her until three days later when she woke up.

We came so often to see if she would wake up. Nate and Hugh was with us every time with Hugh's family. I'd watch Nate holding her hand and stare at her before he'd argue with Hugh about something I didn't know about.

It had turned out that when Team Plasma came to Hugh's house due to following Rosa, thinking she was going home, Hugh changed drastically and kept trying to leave school to search for the ones who harmed the ones around him. Nate gave him every warning possible, but Hugh just wanted to leave and couldn't wait until graduation to find them.

Eventually, Hugh calmed down for awhile and agreed to keep going to school until it was time to leave. He blamed himself for not being able to protect everyone, and kept apologizing to Hilda for what he could had prevented.

She didn't blame him at all, and what shocked her and me was what he told us about Rosa the day before she woke up.

"She won't forgive herself..." I had always knew that Rosa was insecure, much like Nate after what happened in their childhood. I've known what Nate has done before Hugh knew, I knew what Rosa felt because Rosa told Hilda. Hilda and I were the only ones who knew their secret, and hearing what Hugh said before, I knew he was right.

Rosa was never going to forgive herself... She will blame nobody but herself. She felt like she was a source of disturbance and bad luck towards the ones around her. It's the reason why she rather be alone. She didn't want to ruin anyone else's life.

I wish I could come up with a solution for how Rosa was feeling, and instead of trying to compromise, she started mentioning something completely different. She wanted answers. She wanted her Pokémon back. The Pokémon known to be the victory Pokémon. She didn't want to get another Pokémon, not because of Victini's ability, but because she didn't want to get a replacement.

Her soul purpose currently is to find a way to wake up her Pokémon and another patient. I had known Rosa since she was a baby. She was always driving to help other people and make others happy. Anything that prevented that would make her feel hopeless. It's exactly why she blames herself for Nate's change... but that's not even the case.

"You okay?" Hilda asked.

"I should be asking you that" I said. She chuckled.

"Got yourself a script idea from all that?" She shook her head "so many things happening all at once"

"Don't worry, I already asked a good friend of ours to come and escort Rosa to where she wants to go" Cheren said beside Hilda "He'll help her catch a Pokémon too"

"I don't think that's going to happen" Hilda said.

"Why not? It's better off if she has one" Bianca said.

"It's a bit more complicated than that. She won't settle for another Pokémon unless she gets back her own. That's how it's going to be" Hilda explained.

"If her Pokémon doesn't wake up soon, her training certification will be delayed and all her classmates would go on without her" Cheren said.

"She's a local. She doesn't mind waiting" Hilda said. Cheren sighed as we entered the waiting room with all of Nate's friends. Nate had left once everyone was told Rosa had finally woke up.

"How is she?!" Dawn was the first to stand, all concerned like everyone else.

"I'm happy Rosa has a group of friends that care about her so much" Hilda smiled "Even if she doesn't claim you, you still come"

"Of course!" May said "We want to let her know that there will always be others who will help her with anything she needs, because she's that great of a person!" I smiled at this.

"Thank you, everyone, for coming and waiting patiently" Hilda held her hands low to her body "But she's not taking visitors"

"What?!" Serena gasped.

"Why not?" Brendon asked.

"Come on!" Hugh stood up "Jenny told me she was awake! Let me talk to her!" Hilda raised her hand to stop him.

"She doesn't want to see you" Hugh frowned "Please... She feels worse enough as it is, thinking it was her fault"

"No..." he looked down "But she wasn't! I couldn't protect her!" Hilda patted his shoulder.

"Don't make things so rash. Calm down, and I'm sure eventually she'll have the courage to talk to you again. She will try her best to avoid you for now. At the moment, she has other plans"

"Other plans?" Calem asked.

"We don't know much about it, but just be considerate that she's in pretty bad shape right now, and not because she was wounded" I said. Everyone looked disappointed and begun packing up to leave. Dawn and Hugh remained seated. My friends and I looked at each other, knowing there wasn't else we can say and walked out the hospital.

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