Dear Diary,

It gets really dark sometimes. My thoughts start taking over,
And all I can do is sleep to calm myself down.
I don't know how i'm even alive anymore.
I guess its all in the energy conservation.

Mara.

Lilly's POV

I am extremely lonely. Daniel seems to be fine though. I don't think he realises that his sister may be gone forever. I tried to explain to him how I, as a private detective can even work the case for him and all I needed was for him to sign a contract but he wouldn't have any of it. I even persuaded him to let me do it for free but all he says is,"Forget about it if you love me."
Sometimes, It's almost as if we don't have any trust in our relationship whatsoever.
No deep connections, It's almost everytime that I want to talk to him he says we're "just dating" and brushes it off as if nothing happened.
Daniel and I have been dating for 8 years now. All through high school and college, But it never feels like how it used to anymore. I wish Mara was here, she always sorted through the emotional stuff and I dealt with the practicalities, but these days I just feel alone.
I guess I'll just have to do something myself...