Sayuri's POV
  "How are you feeling?" Pain and exhaustion is visible in his emerald eyes. For the past couple days I've been having seizures due to the strong pain. Dr. Sannan had warn me  it was something that would happen. "Am fine, just more tired than yesterday or the day before." He tried to smile, but the tears beat him to it and fell down his face.

  "Its ok Souji." I put my hand over his, and gave it a squeeze. "No...it's not." He looked down and letting his emotions come out. "A-am not...am not ready Sayuri." He pulled me in his arms and hugged me. "I know. And to be honest am scared to...but I can't escape this."

  I pulled away from the hug and looked at Souji. "Am so sorry for causing you so much pain. For letting you see me go through all of this, but am also grateful. Grateful because am not alone. Because when this all ends I won't be alone." Tears run down my face. He hugged me again.
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  Later that I had to meet up with Sanosuke like everyday.  Souji tried and tried to convince me to stay, but not succeeded. Like I told him, I didn't know when it was going to be the last time I was going to see Sanosuke. After I said that he didn't argue back. Instead, said he was going to wait for me near by so I could go home together.

  Seeing Sanosuke everyday was the only thing that helped me forget. Forget all that is happening. To make the last memories of us together. Everyday I spend time with him I cherish. And having bad memories erase by this good memories was something I was great full for.

  "Sorry am late." Sanosuke voice brought me out of my thoughts. I gave him a smile like always. "Its ok. I haven't been waiting long." I stand up and we start to walk. We met in a park near my house just in case I had pain again. "So how have you been?" He looks at me and I try and give him a reassuring smile. "Great."

  "How about you? How's the Chizuru and the baby?" I try to change the conversation. He looks ahead and sighs. "The baby is doing good. And Chizuru, well she's..." I put a hand on his shoulder. "Try and understand her, she's hormonal because the pregnancy. She's going to be extra sensitive so just try to be patient with her."

  He looked at me and put his hand on my cheek. "Am such an idiot." I moved away and kept on walking. My heart wanted to get out of my chest. He always had that affect on me. And it killed me, knowing I won't feel that any more. He followed me and pulled me by my arm.

"Sayuri, I need to tell you something." I didn't dare look at him in the eye. I know what he wants to tell me. And instead of making me happy, it breaks my heart. And I don't want him to suffer. "I-" His phone rings and stops him from speaking.

  "You should get that. It might be important." I say pulling away from him. "No, it can wait. What I want to tell you is more important." I shake my head. "It could be an emergency. Just answer it." I hugged him and started to walk. I could tell he wanted to chase me, but his phone wouldn't stop ringing.

  If only things weren't like they are now. But thats not the case. My mind was filled with so many thoughts and emotions that I didn't even noticed where I was headed. That is until someone pulled me by my arm, that I saw I was walking past my house.

"See and that is why I don't like it when you go and see him." It was Souji frowning. I smiled and walked towards the front steps. "Its ok Souji. I knew from the start that this was going to be hard on me." He sat beside me.

"Just tell him already. That way he can be by your side." "No. I don't want him to petty me. Besides it wont make it difference, and i dint want it to. I want him to be happy." I looked up to the night sky and looked at the moon. "Thats why I didn't want to tell you either."

  "And I would of been mad at you for hiding this from me." I laughed but didn't look at him. Everything was getting harder for me. Dying was something I didn't thing would happen to me so fast. I felt Souji grabbing my hands. Tears fell, and i couldn't stop a sob from escaping my mouth.

  "He regrets it." I said between sobs. Souji just pulled me in a hug. "I know." I hugged him tighter. "Shh, shh, don't cry. Like you said, everything happens for a reason." I shooked my head. "And what would the reason be in this case, if am dying! No matter what, I have to let him go."

  He hugged me tighter letting me cry. "Am so scared. I try to be strong but I cant." Souji just nodded and patted my back. I cried till I could cry anymore. Souji helped me up and went inside. "Here take your medicine. Its already time." He handed me the pills.

  "Get some rest. Last night you didn't sleep at all. Ill be fine." I told him. "I know, and I will, but until you go to bed and sleep." I nodded and walked towards the stairs. "Ok, I go to bed. So go to sleep." He nodded and headed to his room to.

Once inside my room, I search everywhere for paper and a pen. Souji was right. Sanosuke needes to know the truth about everything, but not at the moment. When the time comes he will know.

Harada's POV
  It was as if fate was against me and Sayuri. I wanted to tell her how i fucked up, and that i would try anything for her to forgive me. But my damn phone interrupted me. I didn't want to answer it but Sayuri insisted and then left. When I looked at the screen it was Chizuru.

  I wouldn't be surprised she did this on purpose. "Hi sweetie." I didnt even responded to her. "You know, you look so cute when your mad." I started to look around me. "Are you spying on me?" She laughed. "Nope, I don't need to." "Then why the hell are you calling me. I just dropped you off from the doctor's office, what else do you want?"

  *sigh* "I need to talk to you. I promise, I won't say anything to annoy you. But it's important for me." I sighed with annoyance. "Fine. I will call you to met up." And with that I hung up. I was trying not to express sincerely how I felt towards her.

  She knew I was going to see Sayuri and decided to make an appointment with the doctor just to make me late to meet Sayuri. Remembering what Sayuri said about having patient's with Chizuru was something I was losing fast. That women had everything well planed, to the extent of using the baby against me.

  And thats what she did in the end. Just remembering what she said made me madder. How can someone threaten their own child's life just to keep an man by their side? Even though she's just a couple months pregnant, I don't want her to lose the baby.

  And making those threats just made it clear she didn't care for the child growing in her womb. If only things were different, and Sayuri could be the mother of my children. How wrong I was by doing all those things to Sayuri. If only I could tell her.

  Realizing that I was walking towards what used to be our home, I decided to try and tell her again. I know she figured it was something like this that I wanted to tell her. And that the call was just in perfect timing to stop me to continue. But its still not to late.

  Am determined to let everything out. To beg her if I have to. But am not going to give up on her. The only thing that consoles me right now, are the memories of us together. Her black eyes that every time I see them they remind you me of the night sky. They way she can think positive of the situation even when we've lost hope.

  And what I love the most is, she isn't selfish. She rather think of someone else's happiness instead of hers. I miss having her in my arms at night. To touch her soft skin. And to listen to her say how much she loves me. And not being able to do that, hurts alot.

  Why was I so dumb? Why did I have to hurt her so much? She trusted me, and I broke that trust. Instead of trying to get her forgiveness for my affair, I pushed her away. I blamed her for things that were my fault. And she never fought back.

  I never told her what I was supposed to say. Instead, My selfishness and ego hurt her in so many ways. I can only hope now that she believes me. That she can see that I do love her. And that I can't live with out her in my life.

  My thoughts were interrupted by the voices of people talking. It was Sayuri's and Souji's voices. I was thankful that the neighbors decided to put a fence to divide their property. I hid behind it and listened.

  I know its not right to do that, but she's crying. Am trying not to run up her and take her in my arms and take that pain away. But instead I stay here and hear that Souji is the one to confort her. To have her in his arms. I cant take it anymore, just standing there and not do anything. Am about to move towards them when I here Sayuri say "He regrets it".

  I don't move. I know she's talking about me. My hands are fits now. Why knowing that I regret everything is causing her so much pain? I could hear Souji trying to calm her. I moved my head where I could see them better. Souji had her in his arms, and she was crying. Then as if Souji saw me, I moved back and hide again.

  "Shh, shh, don't cry. Like you said, everything happens for a reason." "And what would the reason be in this case, if am dying! No matter what, I have to let him go!" With those words my heart stopped. "She's dying?" I looked back at where they were sitting and Souji looked me in the eyes, then looked down..."No."

  a/n: few chapters left...like maybe 2 or 4 don't know yet. Let me know what you think of the story so far. I would really like to know your thoughts about it. Hopefully I will update soon and not wait a whole week to update. 🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗