CH.12
*Many many years later* Harada's POV
"Dad, we are here." Saki tells me arriving to the grave. "Why are we here mommie?" Saki looks her daughter and smiles. "We came to see my mom sweetie." Her daughter looks at me with a surprised look.
"We come every year during this time. Usually you are at school but since you missed school today that's why you get to come with us." We get off the car and make our way to Sayuri's grave."
"Grandfather, do you miss grandmother?" I smiled and look at her. "Every day." Saki puts her hand over my shoulder and hugs me. "And am sure she misses you too dad."
"My steps aren't like they used to. I'm much slower." Saki smiles. "Its ok dad. Take your time. Here let me carry that. I will go get water. Come sweetie." I see both of them walk away.
When I arrive to Sayuri's grave. There are flowers already on the vase. "I guess Souji already came." I sit beside her tombstone. With my fingers I trace her name. The pain of losing her is still there after all these years.
"You know, she might not like seeing cry." My thoughts are interrupted by my daughter's voice. I wipe the tears off my face. "I know you still miss her. You've always missed her. And to be honest, even though i didn't know her I miss her too."
"You didn't know your mom, mommie?" "No she passed when I was very very small." It was the first time I ever heard Saki talk about Sayuri as her mother. I looked up to see her and she winked at me.
After a couple of hours we were on our way back home. It was a beautiful day. The sky was clear and it wasn't to cold. "Dad, are you ok?" I nodded. "I was just admiring how beautiful the day is." She nodded and continued to drive.
On our way home we passed a park I knew very well. Memories of the last days I saw Sayuri. I can still see her sitting in the bench waiting for me. Her smile that always had an effect on me.
Every year during this time I would remember her more and more. My heart stops when I see a woman sitting on the bench. She turns around and looks at the car and it's like am looking at her. The same image. "Sayuri?"
My daughter looks at me and looks back at where am looking. She stops the car. "Dad, what is it?" I can't take my eyes of that bench. "It's her! It's her!" Saki looks back at the same bench am looking and looks at me.
"Dad, there is no one there. She grabs my hand and I look at her. Then I look back at the bench and no one is there. I can feel my eyes with tears. Saki parks the car on the side of the street and grabs her purse.
"Sweetie go buy some snacks for you and your brother. I'll wait for you right here. Her daughter nodded and heads to the store that is in front of where we are parked. "It was her." Tears fall from my face. Saki smiles and wipes my tears.
"Maybe it was dad. And she only wanted you to see her. It's been very hard on you. You've never told me what really happen between you too. Why you blame your self so much about her passing. But am sure she has already forgiven you."
I close my eyes and tears still fall. How could I ever tell her the truth. It would only hurt her so much. Even about her mother would hurt even more. "Daddy, please try to forgive your self. It is the only way you will stop this suffering."
I opened my eyes and look into her amber eyes. She puts an hand on my cheek and with her thumb wipes the tears falling. "She's been at your side for so many years, and she has probably seen how you suffer. The pain in your eyes. And the tears you have shed for her."
I nod and place a hand on her hand. "Thank you." She smiles and a tear falls from her eyes. "What's wrong?" She shakes her head. "Nothing. It's just your love for her...it's so big. That even after death you haven't stop loving her. And it breaks my heart to know that it had a very sad ending."
I look down to my hands and she takes my hand in hers. "Its ok, I know you have your reasons for not telling everyone your story with Sayuri. And I understand you." I look back at the same spot where I thought I saw Sayuri and it's still empty.
How i wish it could of been true. That she was really sitting in that spot. Waiting for me.
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Later that night, I decided to go to bed early. I was feeling a bit tired, but mainly I wanted to go to bed because I needed some time alone. Lying on my bed I look out the window. The moon shines bright. "Was it my imagination?"
I close my eyes and still with that image in my mind. It plays like if a rewind button was pressed over and over to relive that moment today. Slowly I give in to the sleep and my mind drifts off.
*Play song*
I see my self walking in a path. On both sides of this path there is cherry blossoms. And the wind blows the petals off the trees making the path be filled with them. The sky is dark with the moon shining very bright.
But what makes me stop from walking any further, is the image of a woman with her back towards me. The wind blows her hair. She is wearing a white dress. And she is looking up at the moon. For some reason my heat is beating very fast just by looking at her.
Slowly I make my way toward her. When I'm closer to her she turns around. With a smile she stretches her hand towards me. "I've been waiting for you Sanosuke. Do you know how much I've missed you?" Tears fall from my eyes and I hug her.
"Sayuri!" She hugs me back and I can't help it and carry her and spin her around. I don't know if it's a dream or not but every thing feels so real. I kiss her cheeks, forehead, and her lips. "Sayuri, I've missed you so much."
"If told you I would be waiting for you. And that we would never be apart." I nod with a smile and tears in my eyes. "Please don't leave me Sayuri." "My love, we will never be apart again. I love you so much Sanosuke." She leans in and kisses me.
"And I love you. Always and for ever. My Sayuri. My beautiful Sayuri."
"To see my only daughter grow up into a strong and beautiful woman has been a blessing. And to see her find happiness and have a family of her own has been a gift. A gift that I thought I would never be able to live and see.
I'm grateful for all the things I was able to accomplished. And one of them was being able to be a good father to Saki. It was just as you said Sayuri. I had my second chance. A chance of having a family of my own.
I still remember the day I felt my world crumble under my feet. But you gave me hope. Even if it was the smallest hope, I took it. Of one day to finally see you. And even though it's hard for me to let go of my little girl, I know she will have someone to look after her when I'm gone.
She has a loving husband and two wonderful children that love her so very much. I know he will never hurt her. When I see them, memories of the past come back to this old man's mind. Memories of the time I had the love of my life by my side.
But then again sad memories hunt me also. But have help me cope with this guilt. Many have asked me why I never remarried, that I could still find happiness of my own. But for me part of my happiness was here with all along. And the other part was gone with you.
All this year's my consolation was my daughter's happiness and your letter Sayuri. That letter that I have read so many times. And always made me end up missing you even more. The memories of having you in my arms even for a short moment. However long that hug lasted, it didn't last long enough.
But now I'm close to finally making my one request come true. To finally be closer to you. It might be selfish but I don't care. I've lived long and enough away from you. And now there is nothing that can stop me from being with you...
My Sayuri, I will see you soon..."
"Saki? What's wrong." Her husband asks with a worry heart. It's been a week since her father die. And since then she had been disconsolately. She wipes her tears and hand him the a small journal. "It was my dad's. In there he writes about his life."
Her husband looks at her with confusion. "But why are you crying?" She smiles. "One that small journal, my dad just explained to me all the things I was wondering for years. And I now know why he suffered so much."
She then hands him an envelope. "And this?" "It's a letter from the person my dad loved with all his heart." He puts the book and letter on top of the night stand and sits beside his wife. He hugs her tightly and kisses her head.
"How do you feel about reading all of this?" *sigh* "My feelings toward my dad don't change at all. On the contrary, I understand him more and now I can easily say he is with the one that has always been in his heart."
Saki looks at her husband and laughs. He still has a confused look on his face. "Its a beautiful love story that had a sad ending, but am sure that ending is different now." She hugs her husband again.
Tears still fall from her eyes, but they are not sad tears, but instead happy tears. Because after all these years, her father's request has come true. Now he can finally be with that woman that even after her death, her father always loved her til his last breath.
"And to think everything started with a broken heart's one request."
The end
A/N: I hope you liked the ending.
I want to thank everyone that gave this book an opportunity and read it till the end.
Thank you so much.
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