Sayuri's POV
  "Vitals are stable...for now. Keep an eye on her. I have to inform Souji and Harada." "Yes doctor." Where am I? I try moving and opening my eyes but I can't. The beeping sound it the only sound in can hear. Am I in the hospital? I try moving but fail.

  Am I really going...to die like this? I feel something warm run down beside my face. "Shhhhh everything is going to be fine." I hear a female voice beside me. She touches my face and wipes off what ever is running down. "You have two very worry guys outside. I can tell you mean the world to them both." The female says touching my hand.

  I try to remeber what happen before waking up here. The last thing that comes back to my mind is putting the letters on a table. I hear voices down stairs. "Is Souji still awake? Who is he talking to?" I make my way towards the door but the pain starts.

  My vision starts to darken and I can't see what's around me. The pain is insufferable. It's as if my skull is being ripped apart. I fall to the floor and I can feel that my body starts to jerk on its own. "The seizure."  I have no control of my body but I can faintly hear the sounds around me.

  I hear the door being opened and it's Souji's voice that I hear. But then it's someone else with him. "What's happening to her?!" That voice. I know that voice. I hear Souji calm voice trying to get me to calm down. I feel something warm running down my nose but at the same time, the metallic taste in my mouth.

  Souji wipes the warm liquid off my face but more keeps on coming out. Then i hear Souji telling the other person that he needs to call the doctor. My head is lifted and placed on something. The other person touches my cheeks and I hear them trying to calm me also.

  I can feel the seizure is going away. My body finally calming down. I feel like I've been running for along time. I start to be able to breath normal again, but out of no where a strong painful sensation hits my skull. I scream and thats the last thing I remember.

  I try to remeber who's that voice belongs to. It's a voice i know so well, but I can't remember from who. While could that other person be. Why can't I move. My time can't be up yet. I still have to see him. At least one last time. To actually tell him how much I love him, even for the last time.

   I feel someone's hand going to the side of my head and wiping something off. "Its ok. You're not alone." I hear the female nurse say. Suddenly I feel pain again. It's so much worse. I know that in any moment the seizures will start. And they do. But this time they are painful.

  It's like being stab so many times all over the body. I can't find enough oxygen to breath in. I can hear the female nurse calling for back up. And the door being slammed opened. "Give her .5ml of morphine. And someone bring a oxygen mask."

  The other voice i could hear was Dr. Sannan. "Her pulse level is very low. Increase the oxygen and the IV fluid." "What's wrong with her?! Sannan do something!" Is that Sanosuke? "Save her Sannan!"
"You two aren't supposed to be here! Get out!"

  The pain was increasing more and more with each minute that passed. Air...air was harder and harder to get into my lungs. "Am not leaving her Sannan!" Souji yelled at the doctor. "Quick! We are losing her!" The sound of the voices and machines slowly faded.

  "No! Sayuri!" "Sannan do something!" "Get the defibrillator ready!"

  "I love you Sanosuke"

Harada's POV
  "Our time is up." Those words were like a knife being stabbed in my chest. I couldn't breath. "Both of you need to prepare for what's going to happen next. Am sorry. If could do anything to save her I would."

  "Doctor! The patient is crashing!" Nurses ran towards a room and so did Sannan.  "Sayuri!" I ran behind Sannan not caring that it was a restricted area. Filling him inside the room, I stopped on my tracks.  My eyes couldn't belive what I was seeing.

  In the stretcher in front of me, layed Sayuri. She was having the same seizures she had hours ago. My breath was caught in my throat. Seeing her like this again was breaking me inside.

  "What's wrong with her?! Sannan do something!" Her body jerked and blood came out of her nose once again. Nurses holding her down so she doesn't fall from the stretcher, Sannan giving out orders. "You two aren'tsupposed to be here! Get out!"

  I didn't move. I want on planing on leaving her alone. I tried moving toward her but a nurse stopped me. "Sir please, you have to leave. Both of you." I shooked my head. "No. I can't leave her. Not again." Tears ran down my face. The nurse nodded as if she understood what I felt.

  "Quick! We are losing her!" My heart stopped when the machine with her heart beat went flat. "No! Sayuri!" I ran towards her. The nurses stopped me from touching her. Two of them pulled me back. "Get the defibrillator ready!"

  Sannan tore open the gown that Sayuri was wearing an from the chest. "240 volts!" "Ready?! Clear?!" She chest went up and down and the line at the heart monitor was still flat. "Let me go to her! Please! Sayuri wake up! Sayuri!"

  "300 volts! Ready?! Clear!" Again no response. I felt as everything was moving in slow motion. I could only see her lifeless face. And how her body jerked with every shock the gave her. But she wouldn't respond. I looked over to Sannan and he looked over at me.

  "Am sorry. She's gone." The nurses let go of me and I ran towards her. "No no no no! No! She can't!" I grabbed her in my arms and held her tight. "Baby wake up please. Please don't leave me." Sobs came from my mouth. "Please Sayuri. Am sorry! Am so sorry I hurt you! Places please open your eyes!"

  Sannan put his hand on my shoulder. "Harada, am sorry." I didn't want to listen to anyone. I wanted to be alone with her. "Shhhh...she's going to wake up. You'll see. She's just sleeping. Right Sayuri? Baby right you'll wake up." I held her body tighter as if someone might take her away from me.

  "Time of death-" "She's not dead! She's asleep! *sobs* She's going to wake up soon." "Harada you have to be strong. Please don't make things harder for you." He pulls me away from her. While a nurse tries to take her away from me.

  "No! Leave me with her!" I try as hard as I can to get away from Sannan's grip but am pulled away. "Don't act like you are suffering!" I turn around and see Souji looking at me. "You didn't think twice on giving her the divorce and now your here crying her death! Your a hypocrite!"

  I push Sannan off me and go towards Souji. "Shut up! Don't you think I know it's all my fault! This is my punishment for what I did to her!" Sannan gets between us. "This is not the time nor place." Souji looks back at Sayuri and sobs.

  "You left me...again I lose you." Sannan walks out with the nurses. "She might of forgiven you, but I hope you live with this pain and regret for the rest of your damn life." Souji says looking at me and looking at her on last time and walks out.

   I move towards her again. I grab her hand. "I know it's late for all of this. And Souji is right. Am going to live with this for ever. *sobs* Please forgive me." I hug her again. "Please wait for me." I kissed her on last time.  And with that kiss my heart stays with her. "This is not a good bye, cause am sure I'll see you again, my love."
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   I don't feel anything. My body is numb. Her face is in my head. Her smile. The way she looked at me. Those eyes that I will leave never see again. "Sano." I look up to see Shinpachi standing in front of me. "She's gone...It's my fault."

   Tears fall from my eyes, hitting my hands on my lap. "Sano, it's not your fault. Don't blame your self." He grabs my arm and pulls me up. "Come on we have to leave. They need to take her to the morgue. Sannan called me to get you home."

   I shooked my head and grabbed her hand. "I want to stay with her. I want to go with her." Shinpachi shooked his head. "Snap out of it Sano! You have to be strong. Come on we have to go." He pulled me out of the room.

   I don't even remember getting in his car or even out of the hospital. But now am at the house me and Sayuri used to call home. "Sano, I'll help you with all the ceremony preparations. Kondou just texted me. He said he will also help with anything you need."

   I didn't respond to anything. I just looked around the house. It felt empty. I stood up and walked towards all the pictures on the wall. Pictures of the happy times. Her smile on every one of them was like a stab in my heart. I grabbed one of her pictures and held it tight over my chest.

  "Sano..." I ignore what Shinpachi was saying and walked towards the bedroom. Opening the door I walk in and look around. I could still hear her laughter. I walk towards the bed and sit down. "Am such an idiot. If only..."

  I look towards the night stand beside the bed and see all the containers on it. It all the medications she was taking. How much had she suffer?...Alone. Beside a bottle of pill, were two envelopes.  I picked them up and looked at them.

  One had my name and the other had Souji's name. I put Souji's back on the nightstand and looked back at the one destined to me. It was her hand writing. This was the last thing I had of her. A letter.

  "How am I supposed to live with out you? You were my everything and it took a damn mistake to realize how much you meant to me. How much I love you." The only thing I could do now was cry. And blame my self for what I had not done for her.

   The pain I felt in my heart was like no other. And was so easy to blame everything to my self. I look back at the envelope. I stand up from the bed and walk towards the door and lock it. I don't want to know about anyone and anything.

  I make my way towards the side of the bed and sit on the floor. Still with the envelope in my hand, I put my knees in front of my chest and let my feeling come out.

  
 
A/N: Ok so this was kind of hard to write. Mainly cause some pains are very hard to describe in words. Especially when it's the pain of losing someone you love with all your heart. I apologize if this chapter sucks. Let me know what you think.