Jai is reflecting on what he did for the Earth.

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What would you do if you died today? Probably regret not doing so many things. Well lets just say you knew when you were going to die, then what would you do? Probably try to make a mark on this Earth.

I never wanted to be known as famous, it just kinda happened. Things happened, one thing led to another and my brothers along with my two best friends were known as famous. When we started to gain popularity we never knew it would ever become what it became. People would tell us that what we did was foolish, and that all we wanted was attention. But my twin Luke said to a reporter, "We like to make people smile."

It was a beautiful day outside when I died. The sun was shining, birds were chirping. Nothing could have gone wrong. Its not a pleasant feeling to drown. The taste of the water filling your chest, it doesn't stop. People here say that they couldn't feel a thing when they died, but I did. I felt the water slide through me, the loss of air easily recognizable.

Lets not dwell on that too much, its hard to think about even after three years. Everyday I sit watching my brothers. Sometimes I even send them a sign that I'm watching, Luke would sometimes notice. Beau however believed they were a coincidence. I look at the world they live in and wonder how we changed it so much. That book I wrote because I was bored saved so many peoples lives. Who knew one persons boredom could lead to another persons life.

We take everything we have in life for granted. Our lives are precious and we waste them away. Some people drink, others do drugs. But what we all have in common is our ability to be imperfect. No one in this world is perfect, it may seem like it but its false. We all have failed in some way.

I failed in so many ways. I failed to save people's lives, I failed to keep everyone I love safe. Despite it not being under my control I let them down. They don't deserve the hurt I put them through. I couldn't save them. The demons took over them and made their lives horrible.

Age 25 I died. What in the world could a 25 year old do for the Earth. Well for some its helping eliminate plastic water bottles in a school or cleaning beaches in Thailand. I did neither, I didn't do anything close. I made everyone miserable. I was a terrible brother. A terrible person. A terrible liar.

Don't end up like me. No one should be the person I was. Be the better you. Learn to fight your mistakes. Safety pin the pieces of your broken heart back together. Fix your wrongs. Save those you love.

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A short little piece for everyone. I just felt like I needed to post something and this was sufficient for now.

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Love you all :)

-Nikki/Frostleaf