The journey to the training centre was awful. I sat, eyes barely open, clutching a large black coffee in the hope I would survive the rest of today. Dean sat in the passenger’s seat texting Paige and giggling at his phone and Roman just sat in silence, keeping his eyes on the road and his mouth shut. My phone buzzed in my pocket and I pulled it out, seeing I’d received two messages – one from Paige and one from Seth.

Paige: Hey babe! Thanks again for helping me out. It’s all going great. I’ll fill you in when I see you. Mark wants us to sort out our rivalry match and wants it on RAW!!! OMG!!!

I squealed with excitement and replied back quickly, my hands shaking.

Lucy: Paige you better not be joking me right now! That’s amazing!! Speak to you soon, should be there in about 10 minutes!

My hands still shaking from excitement and nervousness, I opened the text from Seth.

Seth: I need to speak with you when you get to the TC.

My body immediately lost all happiness and stopped shaking. It filled with anxiety and fear. The smile on my face faded instantly. What could Seth possibly have to say to me as soon as I got to the training centre? Was it to do with last night? Once again my head filled with things to think about and I was overcome by them. Do I reply? What shall I say?

“Lucy?” I looked up from my phone to see Dean and Roman both looking at me, parked up in the training centre.

“Yeah?”

“We’ve been sitting here talking to you and you were just in your own little world.” Roman said, the look of wonder on his face. I hope he didn’t think I was telling someone about Mila.

“Sorry! I’m so tired, I don’t know if I was half asleep or something. I had no idea you guys were talking!” I panicked. I hope they don’t think I’m just rude and ignoring them!

“It’s alright. I just said we’ve arrived here before schedule…” Roman said, a cheery grin on his face. “So I’m going to make a phone call and Dean is going to see if Paige is here. Training starts in twenty.” We all got out the car and Roman and Dean walked off in different directions.

“Great.” I mumbled to myself. “Roman’s gone to talk to his girlfriend, Dean’s gone to see his and lonely old me is going to do what exactly?” My phone vibrated in my pocket and I jumped, pulling it out and answering a call from Seth. Seeing his name made me nervous and I knew that I’d spend the next twenty minutes talking to him about whatever thing it was.

“Seth?” I questioned just in case it was Leighla.

“I’ve just seen Dean so I assume you’re here?” Wow. Whatever he wanted to talk to me about was obviously too important for a ‘Hi Lucy how are you?’

“Yeah I’m standing outside like a loner.”

“Where’s Roman?” Seth said, making sure I was alone.

“Dunno.” I lied. “He walked off talking on his phone.”

“Meet me at the entrance.” He said and hung up the phone before I could even come up with a reply. What on earth was bothering him? Why was he being so uptight about everything? I made my way to the entrance quickly and stood in the hallway looking for him. A black and blonde head caught my attention and I rushed over to Seth, leaning against the wall clicking the lock button of his phone over and over again.

“Alright?” I said, not sure of the best way to greet him. He looked up from his phone and then behind me, checking no one was around. He grabbed my arm and pulled me into the room he was standing next to without a word. “Seth?! What the hell’s gotten into you?”

“I just wanted to make sure we weren’t going to end up on twitter again…” Seth shrugged.

“So…” I said, finding it more difficult than normal to talk to him. “What was so urgent?” He sat down on the two seater sofa in the room and sighed.

“I need some advice.” He said, the look in his eyes changing to one of fragility. I immediately sat down next to him and put a hand on his shoulder.

“Whatever it is, I’m listening.” A small smile broke out on his face but was gone in seconds.

“I just need some advice about relationships.” Seth said quietly. “I don’t know why, but I thought you’d be the best person to ask.” He looked into my eyes like he did last night and I was hooked.

“Well, I don’t know much about you and Leighla but-” I started but he interrupted me.

“It’s not about Leighla.” He said, looking away from me in shame. “I think I have feelings for another woman.” My mouth dropped open and my eyes widened. They were such a close couple only a few days ago and now Seth is saying this?

“I don’t quite know what to say to that.” I said, still speechless from the news. Why do these guys just like springing random news on me at inappropriate times? “You have a girl who loves you right there, Seth. She’s stuck by you through everything and doesn’t even mind that you are away from home all this time. She’s made friends with all your friends and doesn’t have a bad word to say about you. So what’s made you think about other women?” He ran his fingers through his two-toned hair.

“She’s just too paranoid. The twitter thing was the last straw. She read one thing on social media and instantly thought I’d cheated on her. It was terrible; I didn’t even think we’d make it through that. I was ready to give up!” He said, opening up to me. “It’s not been the first time and I doubt it’ll be the last.”

“But you two made it through all that.” I said, not quite getting what he was saying.

“We did but my feelings didn’t. I don’t look at her the same now… This other girl is just the breath of fresh air I needed when times were tough. I don’t know if she likes me but I feel like she does. I want to ask her but I don’t want to scare her away because she’s a pretty good friend to me at the moment.” He was pouring his feelings out to me and I didn’t know what to say. How could I tell him he should go against the girl he’s loved for so long?

“You’ve been with Leighla for a long time, at some point you lose the spark you had at the beginning of the relationship but you just work at it and get it back. Just because there’s a new girl in your life doesn’t mean you love her.” I tried to emphasise.

“I don’t like this girl because of her looks, I genuinely connect with her. When I’m with her I couldn’t give a crap about Leighla!” I gasped at what he had just told me. How could a girl make him feel a way that made him forget about his long-term girlfriend? “When I’m with her, my feelings are in a mess. I want to kiss her but I hold off because I know in my heart of hearts it is wrong because I have Leighla…”

“You’re feelings are strong enough that you want to cheat on your girlfriend?”

“This has nothing to do with sex Lucy!” He spat angrily. He sighed once more and looked into my eyes again. He spoke softly again. “I’m sorry. I just want you to understand what I’m going through. This is a very confusing time for me and I don’t know what to do. My feelings for Leighla are dying off every second I spend with this other girl. I want her to be my girlfriend, I want her to be mine. I want to take her out for meals or sit on the sofa and watch movies together. If she finds someone else I’ll be broken.”

“But- She- Look…” I was lost for words. How could I tell him to stay with Leighla when he feels so strongly for this girl? “Tell Leighla the truth. Break up with her if you want this other girl. There is no point in trying to have both of them. Sit there and work out who is better for you. Will this girl love you like Leighla does after the same amount of time? Once you’ve left Leighla you can’t get her back. Do you understand?”

“Yes. I’ll see how it goes.”

“Maybe go on a date with Leighla, see how you two act around each other and then go out with this other girl and see how different it is.” I suggested, hating that I was going to upset a girl I had become close to recently.

“Thanks Lucy. You’ve been a great help!” Seth smiled. “I think my mind is made up.” My phone vibrated in my pocket again and I pulled it out, answering a call from Dean.

“Sorry Seth. Give me a minute.” I whispered to him as I pressed the answer button.

“Dean? What’s up?”

“I don’t know.” Dean said, sounding in a panic. “Roman’s not himself. He came back from that phone call all pissed off. Can you talk to him?”