Today it is an off day and the day before the dance.  I definitely don't have enough time.  I've already had my last school day.  I don't want my actual last day to come.  So far today, I made sure to tell my other friends I'm leaving.  That'd be horrible if I was randomly gone.  

I told Liam and now I was afraid to tell Brett.  Liam reacted much more than I thought he would.  He even apologized for ignoring me lately.  God, if I would of known this I would of done a lot differently.  I already texted Brett what's going on but we're meeting in the cafe.  

Finally, he walks in and sadly looks at me.  I run up and hug him.

"Why are you leaving?  We just got to be friends." He said.  

"My dad owns many restaurants and he wants us to move closer to just one...I don't want to go at all!"  

"You'll be at the dance at least?" 

"Yes!" I smile slightly.  

"You won't have problems making new friends, I know it." 

"Brett, you're so sweet I'll miss you." I frown.  

"I'll miss you too.  We have each others numbers at least."  

"GRACE MACKENZIE ROSS!" One of my friends screams.  

"YES?" I chuckle.  

It's Holland of course.  She tells me I have to see something.  I give Brett another hug and hope I'll see him at the dance.  Now what the hell is Holland up to?  

"We have two stops." She tells me.  

I nod confused while she links her arm with mine and walks very quickly.  She leads me towards the boys hallway.  Oh great.  More specifically in front of someones door.  

"What are we doing in front of Harry's door?" I ask. 

"He hasn't come out for a while.  If he's gonna be a baby then you need to go in." Holland smirks. 

I mumble an 'okay' and push the door open.  Shit, she's not gonna come with me... I realize I'm standing by myself in the doorway of Harry's room.  He's on the bed and staring at his phone.  

"Bloody hell!  Grace.." He yells shocked.  

"Holland shoved me in here..." I mumble.  

I die a little because he looks horrible.  Like he hasn't slept.  His hair isn't the same and his eyes are bloodshot.  Was he just planning on staying in his room all day?  I want to cuddle him and tell him I'll stay with him.  I need to push all those feelings away though.  It will never work out anymore.  

"Listen.." Harry stands up.  

He closes the door and walks right in front of me.  Poor baby... he needs a hug.  Contain yourself, Grace.  

"I shouldn't of yelled at you.  Erm, I just don't want to lose you.  And I'm sorry." He admits.  

"I forgive you... I don't want to lose you either Harry." I say as my heart flutters.  

Harry wants me to explain to him why I have to move.  After question after question, he starts begging that I stay with him or something.  Oh god, how I would do anything for that.  It's just not realistic.  I technically won't be going to Brookwood when everyone comes back after Winter break.  I'll be at another school.  A stupid school.  

"C'mon Gracie, we got more to do!" Holland opens the door.  

Harry stares at me with his sad eyes and then looks at Holland.  I truly don't care who I go with at the moment.  I want to spend time with everyone.  

"We'll talk later." Harry whispers and lets me go.  

"Good Hazza." Holland smiles.  

"Bye.." I try to smile at him.  

Holland closes the door and walks down the hall before I can regret leaving Harry in his room.  She's always up to something I swear.  Now we do the opposite.  We head to the girl's dorm rooms.  I don't even try questioning her because I know she won't tell me.  She presses a simple knock onto Eleanor's door then opens it.  I immediately smile seeing all my 'girl' friends in here.  

"Sit down." Eleanor chuckles and puts me in a chair.  

The rest of my friends sit on the ground, next to me, and Eleanor stands on the bed.  It's like a little stage.  

"What the heck.." I laugh.  

Eleanor clears her throat to sound professional and raises a hand, "Grace, hi.  My name is Eleanor Calder and I have a few words to say."  

I shake my head while smiling.  Only they would do something like this.  

"When you came here, everyone got so much better.  I'm not trying to be cheesy.  Seeing you not care about what others think and going for Niall, made me not scared to go for Louis.  I don't know if you were aware, but I believe you did help bring us together.  I always admired who you are and that's why I wanted to help you throughout all your problems.  You also showed me who my friends really are...after Ella.  God, let's just not bring that up.  But we totally turned you into a party animal and I love you girl." 

Eleanor jumped down and curtsied.  I held a hand dramatically to my heart and blew a kiss.  El was always there for me.  When I had all my Zayn problems I went to her.  

I couldn't stop smiling while my gym buddy, Kathryn spoke.  Then Kirsten's was really cute and thought out, being the writer she is.  They weren't making me sad as much as they were making me happy.  Now Chelle got up and I prepared myself.  This could be hilarious or cheeky.  

"To start this off.  My roommate before you sucked and hated me.  So she switched rooms.  I was pissed but now I'm fucking glad since you were my 'new' roommate.  I was so intrigued with having a 'new' student and I was determined to make you love it here.  I remember telling you-- you would have so much fun here and I'm pretty sure you did.  We did." Chelle stopped to see if I was listening.  

Of course I was.  I nodded at her.  

She continued, "I don't want to get into cheesy shit but after you leave I won't know what to do.  You brought us all closer than ever.  I watched Harry go crazy over you.  I watched more people become friends with us because of you.  I watched so much happen and I'm glad you were my best friend throughout this.  You are seriously amazing for that.  Love you lil Gracie." 

I had to hug her after that.  She did so much for me too and I have to let her know before I leave.  If Chelle wasn't my roommate I wouldn't be where I am now.  Holland broke our hug apart though.  

"Hold up!  I still have to go you little shits!" She winks.  

"How lovely." Chelle jokes.  

I hold up my hands in defense, "I'm listening." 

Holland jumps up onto the bed and turns on her phone.  She holds up an embarrassing screenshot of me from snapchat.  I hide my face and burst out laughing.  Everyone else thought it was hilarious too.  Oh I have pics of Holland I will whip out soon.

"This is Grace, if anyone didn't know." She points to the picture and chuckles herself, "Americano, god I love you.  You're like me in a strange way and I never expected that. No one wants to put up with my shit as a joke...but I doubt they really do.  I'm kind of crazy which you figured out.  But you always went crazy with me and laughed with me.  What really entertained me was how different you got since the first week you came here.  I mean...I saw you at that Halloween party grinding it up-" 

"Okay okay I get it!" I laugh.  

"Ahem.  Anddddd...I'm sorry if I ever was too insane around you.  Like pushing you out of the bushes to talk to Zayn.  Like ditching you since I wanted you to talk to a boyyyy.  Like yelling that you want the D...the list goes on." Holland admits.  

I giggle and continue listening.  

"But I don't want you to leave.  It's going to be so boring here.." Holland's voice gets quieter and quieter.  

Suddenly she covers her mouth and starts crying.  Oh my God... She literally never cries.  I watch as everyone's mouths turn into O's.  Quickly, I jump up on the bed and wrap my arms around her.  I can't help it when my eyes water.  I don't even understand how I can cry more.  It's like such a normal thing lately.  

"I'm sorry." She laughs and wipes her eyes.  

"Hol, it's okay we've all cried." Kirsten says.  

"And we've got eachother for this kind of stuff." Kathryn smiles and joins our hug.  

Yeah well not me for long...shit this is so depressing.  We all start to hug eachother since we knew deep down everyone was so sad.  

"Thank you guys...what you said was so sweet." I half smile.  

"It's true." Eleanor squeezes me.  

"Thank you." I repeat.  I can't thank them enough.  

Later at night. 

No one wants to admit it but tonights our last night together.  All of us are sleeping in Chelle and my dorm.  We've hung out the entire off day and it's been so nice.  It's pretty late though and some of us are half sleeping.  

Secretly, I was slightly shaking.  I still had so much to do in such little time.  Maybe moving won't be as bad as I think.  I can visit a lot?  On the weekends could they visit?  Hmp.  To hell with that, it will still suck.  Being with my dad freaks me out.  My life will be silence and strict. I've been with these girls all day and there's a certain boy that can make me feel better.  

"I'll be back in a little bit." I whisper to Chelle.  

We were all laying down and talking, besides the people sleeping.  She nodded and understood.  She knew there was still other people I needed to spend time with.   Even though I want to spend as much time as I can with her.  I grabbed my phone and tiptoed out.  It's around midnight.  Well great.  I will be tired tomorrow but it's okay.  

Sitting down in the hallway, I fumble to get Harry's contact.  Harold ur bestie.  I smile and press call.  It barely even needs to ring.  

"Hello?" He picks up.  

"Um...hi." I bite my lip. 

"I was literally just going to call you." He says. 

I love the way his voice sounds in person and through the phone.  It comes out a little gravely and it can either be cute or sexy.  I smile picturing him laying in bed trying to decide on calling me. Gracie, it doesn't matter anymore.  I can't forget that. 

"Harry..I...I can't picture my life without you." I whisper.  I didn't even think about what I'm saying.  

"Shit, I need you in my life." There's scuffling in the background. 

"What are you doing?" I worry.  

It was just so quiet a couple seconds ago.  I sigh against the wall and hug my legs more.  

"I need to do something." More scuffling, "Fuck."

"Go to the front of your dorm area." He whispers even quieter.  

"Oh-kay..." I whisper.  

I can't forget people are sleeping and it's late.  Wait, but it is Friday.  Whatever.  I sit down on one of the beanbags and listen to whatever is going on on his side of the phone.  He keeps mumbling 'one second' 'just wait' and all that kind of stuff.  

"Bye." He hangs up.  

I scoff.  There's no time to think because the doors open revealing him in a cute Jack Wills sweatshirt.  Suddenly, I find myself running towards him.  Our grins are both wide.  Once I'm close enough, he grabs my waist and whispers, "Close your eyes."  

I squeeze my eyes shut and don't understand why I have to.  It sounds like he's still standing there.  I stand there for about ten seconds.  

"What the hell, I'm just opening my eyes." I chuckle.  

I dramatically open them and throw my hands over my mouth.  Oh my god!  Harry is down on his knees and holding a little rose.  Where did he get that?  I will never know with him.  I was beaming at the sight of Harry smiling at me on his knees.  

"I wouldn't go with anyone else, except you.  So will you be my date for the winter formal, love?" Harry sweetly asks with a smile.  

"It's a little late.." I joke and pretend to think.  

"C'mon the rose has to win you over." Harry winks.  

I step closer and he hands me the rose.  So he's not so low to the ground, I kneel down to his height.  When i say yes, I will have a date to the first and last Brookwood dance I ever go to.  I'll always remember Harry Styles as being my date.  

"Yes Harry, I will be your date.  I really thought no one would ask." I reply.  

"I'm glad no one did.  I knew I would at one point, now come here beautiful." Harry reached his arms out.  

Harry held me protectively in his arms.  It wasn't a goodbye hug, a friend hug, or an awkward hug.  It showed who he really was.  A sweet, caring, and passionate British boy.  I wish I could go back to when people called him a douchebag or player.  I'd be the first person to tell them off.  I hope no one ever thinks that of him again.  

"We could of been like this all the time." Harry whispers in my ear, "I wish we could."  

I squeeze my eyes shut but that doesn't keep the tears back.  We could have dated.  He could of helped me forget about all my problem and we'd just be happy.  But there'd always be Niall.  There will be memories of Niall everywhere I go.  I don't know how to make it stop.  It's just..he started everything.  It's too hard to explain.  

I rest my head in the crook of his neck.  The tears on my cheeks don't even matter.    

"Don't ever forget about me." I hear him sniffle.  

I pull away quickly and grab his cheeks.  Why would he even ask that?  I will never, ever forget about him or anyone here.  

"I won't ever forget about you Harry, I promise.  You'll always be a part of my life." I admit. 

The tears on his face make me break more.  Seeing my friends crying that don't usually cry is tough.  His thumbs press to my cheek and wipe my tears.  

"Erm.  You'll be out living life, I know you will.  I'll just be here at Brookwood still.  For a while." He explains.  

That's so true.  They will all be at Brookwood.  They're not going anywhere, while I am.  When everyone goes to college or to get married it will be so confusing.  They won't be around eachother every day like they are now.  Who knows, maybe Chelle will get married to one of the boys.  Or Eleanor and Louis will get married.  If Harry was to marry anyone besides me, it'd be Chelle.  They both deserve eachother.  I'd hate to see Chelle date some weirdo just because she thinks she's not good enough.

"I'd rather be here, okay?" I say honestly.  

"I know you do." Harry sighs, "We'll find a way to eachother."

I grinned at that.  We have so many memories just at school.  Imagine life with Harry outside of a boarding school?  There's so much that could happen.  

 When we both stand up I hook my arm around him.  I don't want to let go.  

"We're staying together tonight." I order. 

Harry smirks, "My pleasure, love."  

We walk back to my dorm.  I quietly open the door just in case everyone is sleeping.  Chelle snaps her head towards us and raises her eyebrows in surprise.  Shit, we probably look like we just cried.  Well we did.  I forgot I was holding a rose too.  

"We're eachothers dates to the dance." I tell Chelle and squeeze Harry tighter.  

"Awh.." She claps her hands.  

Harry and I join everyone on the millions of blankets.  I was at least happy for now.  I get to share my last night with both of my best friends on my sides.  It slowly started to get quieter and quieter.  Harry and I were the only people awake.  

I turned face on to him and watched him closely.  His eyes flickered back and forth all over my face.  I blushed, since I was being literally examined by him.  I was doing the same to him though.  I was so lucky to be close to this amazing boy.  The way his jaw is shaped, the way his eye browns crease while watching me, just the simple things are such simplicity.  

Harry's foot nudges mine and I quickly snap mine away.  His eyes are squinted shut and he's trying not to laugh.  Then he strikes again, he makes his fingers 'walk' up my arm.  I giggled and hid my face in the pillow.  I could feel him shaking since he was trying to contain his laughter for the second time.  It grew quiet and I wanted to trick him.

After about thirty seconds I nudged my foot on his.  He made a weird noise and grabbed me.  Don't scream, Grace.. don't.  This is such a moment when I would but thank the heavens I didn't.  

His minty breath was on my face and he smirked, "We'll have time to do this tomorrow." 

"Oh god." I roll my eyes and turn my back to him.  

"Well, if you want to spoon why didn't you just tell me before?" He whispers cheekily.  

"Harry!" I giggle.  

This is what I'm gonna miss.  The way he is around me only at certain times.  It makes me blush but I love it.  He doesn't treat it as a joke though.  Slowly, he pulls me against him and wraps his arms tightly around me.  I smile at how comfortable this actually is.  I hold onto his warm arms. 

"You're so comfy." He mumbles. 

"Is that a complement or what?" I smile.  

"Hmm." Harry moves closer to my ear, "Complement."  

I try to ignore how much it tickles when he does that.  

"Goodnight, love you." Harry says and practically chokes out the ending.  

He tried to make it casual but I knew it meant much more.  I should tell him back.  That was my issue with you know who, you can't be scared.  You can't be scared to say you love someone.  You can't be scared to move away from your best friends.  Because life is waiting ahead of you.  It will suck when you hit a bumpy path but embrace it.  Something better always comes out of it.  That's something I believe.  Harry and I can't be laying here like this to leave eachother.  We'll find our way back to eachother.  

"I love you too.." I say bravely.

He nuzzles into my neck and sighs happily.  At how close we are, I wouldn't be surprised if he could feel my heart pounding.  His had to be too.  

I repeat myself, "I love you so much Harry." 

 "I'll save my heart for you, Gracie." He whispers.

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Authors note: Everyone seems to be confused on why she thinks of Niall when she's with Harry.  Grace loves Niall.  She feels like she has this special connection with him.  Which I think they do:) But, yeah, of course she loves Harry too!  He's so sweet and there for her.  Niall feels as if he lost her though...you'll have to find out if he ever tells her he loves her though:) 

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