Killua P.O.V

It's been week since Gon and I got together and its been amazing, laughing in the halls, the little hinted flirting. He told me on day that I should stop acting shy infront of him, because we friends. He winked after friends though. Our secret relationship is so exciting, I get to make out with him in private and act like we friends in public, Gon said he hates PDA, but he is gotten more and more comfortable each day. I can't wait to be able to kiss him in the halls, Just today Gon dragged me in the hall right after my next class, and now we in the janitors closet, for the fifth time this week might I add. Everything is good. Everything is great, I am in bliss.

"Mmh~ Gon, I really need to get to class" I whisper as I tilt my head backwards granting Gon even more access. I know I am a hypocrite, sue me bitch. Gon chuckles against my neck, causing me to shiver. "You don't really seem like you want to go Cottonball."

I grumble at the nickname and flick his forehead causing him to laugh even more. He then kisses me swiftly and leans against the wall. "You may leave then." I give him one more kiss before opening the door. I look back at him and wait for him to follow. He waves me off simply. "You go on ahead, imma head to the bathroom first." I nod and rush off to class.

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Pika, Zushi and I are walking to the cafeteria as Pika groans and grabs my shoulders. "Come on Kil, don't you find it a bit weird that he hasn't kissed you in public once! It's been a week."

I simply roll my eyes. "He just isnt into PDA Pika and aren't you the one who was rooting for him?"

Pika scoffs and rolls his eyes. "Firstly that's not the point, secondly not into PDA!? Mans had his tongue down Retz throat not too long ago in the hallway." My heart sinks remembering that, but I shake my head.

"You're being paranoid." I mutter. Just as Knuckle comes and grabs Zushi's face kissing it all over. Pika looks at me, then at Zushi and Knuckle. "Perhaps you're not being paranoid enough. Look at those two!"

I scoff and laugh. "Really you can't seriously compare me to those horn dogs."

Zushi pouts. "Hey we're not- mmh~" Zushi is cut off by Knuckle sucking on his neck. "Knucle cut it out I am trying to say we not Horndogs!" Zushi grumbles out, Knuckle simply chuckles. "My bad baby, go ahead tell him we not horn dogs, I will kiss you when you're done." Zushi huffs and folds his arms.

Ikalgo walks down the hall with a sandwich. "Pika the only single one left, thank God you're here, yesterday when you left me alone with them to once again talk to Leorio....It had me dying, they were too mushy." He groans.

"See! That includes Gon and I!" I say proudly.

Ikalgo shakes his head. "Nah y'all were timid compared to them." Pika gives me a 'told you so' face.

"Whatever, let's just go sit." We sit at the football table, Gon nowhere in site. I scrunch my face in confusion as I look around. Conversation goes on around me.

Soon Lunch is halfway and still no Gon. "I gotta go to the restroom, meet you at class if I am not back in time." Pika nods and continues talking to Leorio. Atleast they seem more stable then last time where they were yelling at each other cause we bumped into Chrollo and Leorio saw them and tried avoiding him again.

I walk into the bathroom and use the loo, going into one of the stalls, I simply hate using the urinals because I see people's dicks and that's not something you would want to see as a gay man. Random douche dicks. Gross. Especially since everyone knows I am Gay and tends to hide their dicks like I am going to suck them off after they finish using the bathroom, like calm down fucker I wouldn't want that gross thing in my mouth anyways. Especially after you pee, what am I an animal!?

Laughter fills the bathroom right when I am about to flush. That's when I hear Pouf, "Dude are you seriously friends with Killua? I get Zushi, Leorio and Knuckle they are on the team after all, but those other three?"

I scrunch my face in confusion wondering what's going on. And who he is speaking to. Gon scoffs. "Please that fag? No." He chuckles and I feel my heart sink as all his friends laugh.

"So what's up with the recent best friend attitude?" Meruem asks with a hint of confusion in his voice. Youpi scoffs. "You're one to talk, you used to be close with him." Meruem growls and a smacking sound is heard. "We all were! Its just because Nick's sister was his friend. That was my reason."

Theres a silence before Gon speaks again. "If you must know Killua has been helping me with school work so I thought I would throw him a few bones", All the football players laugh once more. And I feel my heart shatter. Fag? Throwing me a bone? I place a hand over my mouth to keep in the sobs attempting to break free, the tears rolling down my cheeks.

Pouf nods. "That makes sense, just be careful he doesnt try and kiss you." Meruem sighs. "Just drop it, we have gay people on the team, dont let your homophobic energy show."

Pouf scoffs. "I only tolerate them cause their on the team, just like I tolerated Killua back then, cause Nick was our homie." Homie!? Are you kidding, Nick hated you guys. I see why now.

"Who is this Nick guy? And what does he have to do with Killua?" Gon asks, his voice sounds hard. The guys just chuckle. "Let's get going." Says Meruem. Once I am certain they have left, I open the door and rinse my face, I look at the mirror, my face is puffy and my eyes glass over, I sniff and and rinse my face once more.

I walk out of the bathroom, feeling like reality has slipped out of my hands. I was an idiot, I realize that now. I walk the halls, feeling like a zombie, my vision blurred by tears once more.  I walk past the cafeteria, and look inside, seeing Gon them have joined the table. I then make eye contact with Pika and he immediately stands up and follows me, Ikalgo looks confused but stands as well, aggressively tapping Zushi who gets dragged along, followed by a confused Knuckle and Leorio. My eyes glance over Gon who looks at them wanting to stand it seems but Pouf holds his shoulder and seems to tell him a joke, I shake my head as Gon laughs.

Deciding to go sit back by my tree, my sanctuary, feeling real shit about myself because of what Gon said. Kurapika sits on my right and Ikalgo my left. Everyone else circling around us. "Hey casanova done with them already?" Asked Kurapika joking. I chuckle slightly, then sniff as tears fill my eyes again. "Kil what's the matter?" Pika asks immediately.

"G-Gon called me a fag and said he was throwing me a bone..I overheard him." I whisper. Pika grits his teeth. "I am going to kill him", muttered Zushi. While Kurapika already stands up, about to storm there. Everyone following suit "No leave it alone." I beg, tears glistening in my eyes as I sniff and look up at them. Everyone looks at each other and nods as they sit back down.

"We won't kill him, but get in here." Iklago says as he pulls me in for a hug, everyone joining. I sigh in comfort. "Can't we kill him a little?" Whispers Leorio. I chuckle and snuggle more into the hug, everyone murmuring in agreement.

"I love you Assfucks." I whisper softly. They are like my family. Its quiet for a bit, before Knuckle ruffles my hair. "Don't go soft on us Kil." He jokes, we all chuckle.

"We love you more Assfuck." Zushi whispers after the chuckles die. I scoff "Yeah right." I whisper jokingly.

Later that day, I am walking down the hall, when I feel a hand latch onto my wrist. "Where'd you disappear to?" Gon gives me a smile that is evidently fake, like our whole apperant friendship, our whole secret relationship. I shake my wrist out of his grasp and he scrunches his face in confusion.

I look Gon dead in the eyes, "I think you've improved well with your grades, you no longer require my assistance." Gon gives me a confused look and let's out a nervous chuckle. "Didn't I tell you, you could act normally around me...we're friends aren't we?" Gon places a hand on my shoulder, which I instantly shrug off, as I shake my head, taking a step back, "I don't think we are."

Gon gave me a look of hurt. "Killu-" I raise my hand and shake my head. "Gon just leave me alone." I then turn and try to leave. However Gon grabs my hand again. "Killua talk to me, what's wrong?" He glances around the hall, then cups my cheeks. I chuckle dryly, of course. Gotta make sure the coast is clear. "What are we then? Mmh to you?" Gon blinks, looking confused, he gives a short chuckle as he smiles. "Like I said we're frien-"

"That's what I thought." I step backwards and walk away.

When I get home, I rush past everyone, not wanting them to see my puffy face. "Kil-" Illumi starts, but I am already upstairs and close my door, my phone buzzing. I check and see messages from the assfucks group.

BESTFUCKINGFRIEND😌🔥🥵💅❤ REMOVED GON😉😄 🙈FROM 'ASSFUCKS😌🔥'

ZUSHI ROLL🥺🔥: GOOD FUCKING RIDDANCE

KNUCKLES🤭🔥 : I STILL SAY WE MURDER HIM

OLD MAN🧐🔥 : AGREED LETS PLOT IT NOW

IKAHOE😏🔥 : IDIOTS! WE CAN'T HAVE A PHONE TRAIL

BESTFUCKINGFRIEND😌🔥🥵💅❤ IS TYPING...

I smile at my phone, before sobbing into my pillow, Illumi knocks softly and walks in with Hisoka and the whole family trailing behind him. "Hey...what's wrong?" I shake my head and hug Illumi as I cry, everyone joining the hug.

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Gon P.O.V

Killua has been avoiding me, he won't answer my messages anything. Kurapika even removed me from the Assfucks group. I don't understand why he is acting like this. I am walking down the halls trying to spot one of Killua's friends, who I thought were my friends too. I spot Kurapika walking down the hall, I sigh relived "Kurapika!" I yell. He glances over his shoulder and gives me a glare as he walks off, I blink. What the fuck. I catch up to him. "Please tell me why Killua hates me, I thought we were hitting it off g-"

Kurapika glares at me "Gon, please refrane from ever being in my presence." Kurapika than shook my hand of his shoulder and scoffed as he walked off. I stand there blinking in confusion, just then Leorio and Zushi rounds the corner and gives me a sad look, hidden with anger as they brush past me after Kurapika. "Zushi!? Leorio!?" I shout. They ignore me. What the fuck? I look around then, trying to find anyone in the group who will speak to me, I see Knuckle leaving the bathroom. "Knu-" he raises his hand. "Firstly, keep my boyfriends name out of your mouth, and mine. Secondly fuck off Gon." He scowls before rushing after the three who are waiting for him at the end of the hall. What is going on? What did I do?!

I look down and walk the other way. That's when I see Ikalgo with a take away coffee and a beanie on his head, sunglasses in his hand, he notices me and rolls his eyes, he puts on his sunglasses. I internally pray he speaks to me. I open my mouth, but before I could say anything, he raises his middle finger while sipping his coffee and keeps walking past me. I stand there blinking my mouth opening and closing.

It continues like this for a whole week, glares, scowls, flip offs, Killua not even glancing in my direction, or atleast not when I look at him. And I can't stand it. I hate not talking to them. To him. Seeing his smile, hearing his laugh. Seeing his beautiful eyes look into mine. I miss everything about him. And I don't even know why can't see him. Why he won't look at me. Why all his friends, people I considered my friends look ready to kill me. It happened out of nowhere. I miss my friend.

"Oi what's wrong with you?" Pouf asks as I stare out at the tree from the table. Trying to see them. See him. I shake my head and mutter "tired". Pitou chuckles and nods. "You should sleep more...hey loverboy look it's your girl." I shake my head and look at Pitou confused before Retz waltz in. She was off on vacation with her family. "Gonnie!" She squeals. I cringe. She sits on my lap and kisses my cheek, I look out to the tree again and see Kurapika glaring at me, as well as a hurt and pissed Killua. Fuck.

I have to talk to him, I take Retz off my lap and rush out, my friends yelling after me. I make it to the tree. Kurapika scoffs. "You know Kal it's funny, I could've sworn I told spike over here to not be in my presence." Ikalgo sighs and takes out his lunch. "What a dick." He mutters before eating, not even looking at me. Leorio  stands infront of me, with Knuckle. "I think you should go." He says.

"Can someone please tell me what's going on!?" I look to Killua who looked down, Ikalgo passes Killua his glasses and nods. Killua shakes his head and Ikalgo just shrugs and puts them on. I keep looking at Killua. "Killua please just tell me what's wrong?"

Killua looks up at me then. I get to see those beautiful eyes. But they aren't sparkling at me as they used to. And my heart sinks. "You really wanna know?" I nod, Killua gives me a sweet smile. He stands and walks up to me. I look into his eyes searching for answers. He is silent for a while. 

"Maybe this fag is done catching bones." My eyes widen as I feel my heart beat rapidly, no no no. "Kil-" he chuckles dryly. "I am not in the business to get used, but I promise if I have an appetite for bones you will be the first one I go to." He then walks off, Kurapika them following. Pika gives me a death glare. Zushi, Leorio and Knuckle all bump into my shoulder, me stumbling back each time. While Iklago once again walks past me with his sunglasses on and middle finger up, instead he is eating a burger this time. I blink and bite my lip. I deserve that. What do I do... I didn't mean it. I was just scared of them finding out, I just- I was an idiot.

A/n IKAHOE Is a foodie so mans will be eating a lot of different food in this.