|Myah|

I woke up alone, again. I know Shawn has a busy schedule, and so does his parents. He so into music, I am too but he's such a hard worker.

I sighed, all the memories of my mom and dad went into mind. I missed them so much, I felt tears in my eyes as I looked at the empty house that I once lived in.

I got up from the bed, crying and pacing. They would be so happy to meet Shawn and his family.

I fell breaking down of all the memories of my parents, and the guys who tried to rape me.

I remember my album that I finished. I was going to make a new one but I just gave up.

I lightly sang.

I can hear you,
But I can't see you,
You said 'Baby keep me secret'
I agreed too,
Gota system,
NO competition,
Don't gotta worry bout your girl I ain't not victim,
Not a doctor,
Nor diagnosis,
Fucks with me or all my homies  'cause we own this,

[Pre-Chorus]
Pr-promise I won't them win,
But all there words pull me back in,
Fire,Fire, I see red,
I hear voices in my head,

I cried even more, I was thinking of the two things that made me cry in a matter of seconds. I heard the door creek, I knew it was Shawn.

"Myah?" he shouted, I am usually downstairs by this time. But, I wasn't. I couldn't even get up. I cried softly, I tried to keep it quiet.

"MYAH!?" He shouted his footsteps getting closer. I cried even more.

The door swung opened. I was on the floor breaking down, I didn't even want to get up. He was really concerned "Myah, o my God are you okay? What's wrong?" I didn't even say a word, I kept crying.

He picked me up and held me in his lap while sitting down, his cold leather jacket on my warm skin, and my face in the crease of his neck.

"Myah? It's okay." I wanted to smack him, because nothing is okay, my parents are dead, the people who tried to rape are still out there, and here I'm sitting here like damsel in distress.

"Nothing i-is okay." I stuttered like a damn dumbass, but hey I'm crying let it be. "What do you mean?" he simply stated, but in his calm soothing voice. I lifted my face from the crease of his neck, he wiped the tears away.

"My parents are dead, the men who tried to rape me are still out there, they might be doing it to others and here I am sitting here acting like everything is okay, but it's not. I'm broken, like all the other dreams I have." I said still crying.

His immediately squeezed me. "Well at least you are here. You have us, we might not be your parents but you are with us. Safe. All I want is for you to be happy again, I want to take what you are feeling away but I just can't, Myah!" he said holding me there.

I was crying even more, he took off his jacket and put it around me 'cause I was freezing."And all I want is for you to smile happily not with pain, I want you to look at me with happy eyes and for them not to be filled with hurt. Trust me, Myah I want to hurt who ever hurts you, because I love you, dearly." My eyes widened.

I hugged him back, but still crying,harder. "I love you too." I said in response.

I kept crying, his shoulder was wet with my tears. His hand was caressing my back. I wanted this all to go away.

I finally calmed down a bit. I took my face out of the crease of his neck and looked at him with puffy cheeks. And a red nose.

"Come here." He got up and set me down, and hugged me. I had to stand on my tippy toes, because he's humongous.

"Are you hungry?" He asked while looking at me, I nodded. He wiped the last of my tears away and brought me downstairs.

"You know, I have no idea what I would do without you." I stated while sitting on the stool. He looked at me in shock. "And what does that mean?" I shrugged.

"You always protect me and you always help up when I fall down. Your always the one here when I need you the most." I looked down blushing. "Isn't that what I do best? I'm not bragging at all, but you are so worth protecting besides my family." He came over with eggs and muffins, weird combo but who gives a shit.

I smiled and sniffled. "You're amazing, and I'm glad I met you. I honestly wouldn't have gotten off that floor if you weren't here." he chuckled I did too. "Aye, that's what I am here for." He elbowed me.

After we got done I brushed my teeth, my hair and put on some real clothes.

I got back on the piano, and started to play some chords, 'cause why the hell not I'm getting my mind off of things.

I stopped playing the piano. And got up to start singing.

They bring me out
Spotlight's on me while I'm freaking out
Open eyes are trying to seek me out
Flashing lights will show what I'm about
I'm lost without the way that I turned out

Call my name, introduce me to my future fame
Step aside and let me run the reign
I'll entertain you while I'm spinning flame
I'm still the same, I promise I'm the same

[Chorus:]
La da da da da da da dying
Forced to perform
It's me, I'm crying
Make sure you pack your fucking camera
I've got a lot of things to show ya
Circus freak
I am the clown you wish that you could be, you could be
Circus freak
I'll do a number while they torture me, torture me
Set me free
I'm caged inside this shit reality, reality
Circus freak
So buy a ticket, take a ride with me, ride with me
Circus freak

I was dancing while singing Shawn didn't seem to mind, he was interested in the song and me of course because I was into it.

Center stage
I feel them come over me like a wave
I'd rather die than give my soul away (hey)
They're all I have, it'd be another day
And other day, I wash away the pain

I am the show
A walking monster that you wanna know
I'm nothing that you've ever seen before
A contradicting feeling from below
Where voices go, when I'm away from home

[Chorus:]
La da da da da da da dying
Forced to perform
It's me, I'm crying
Make sure you pack your fucking camera
I've got a lot of things to show ya
Circus freak
I am the clown you wish that you could be, you could be
Circus freak
I'll do a number while they torture me, torture me
Set me free
I'm caged inside this shit reality, reality
Circus freak
So buy a ticket, take a ride with me, ride with me
Circus freak

I got done, with tears in my eyes, my song reminds me of what the guys were going to do with me. And me after.

Shawn rubbed his thighs and took a deep breathe because he knew what I was referring too. I was dancing like a stripper tho. But he didn't seem to care he let me do what the hell I wanted to do.

"Wow." I nodded. "I like the song a lot did you write it?" He asked I nodded. His eyes widened.

"I had a music career but I stopped doing music because of my parents. They want me to be a singer but after they died I didn't want to do it anymore, because it reminds me to much of them." I put my head. He came to hug me.

"That dancing though was on point." He winked at me, I pushed him away. "O my Shawn, I didn't mean to dance like a damn stripper it just goes with the song." I giggled, "THAT'S THE LAUGH I WAITING FOR!" He squeezed and lifted me up.

"Okay don't kill me, Jesus. " he chuckled. He let me down and I poked his belly button.  "I win." I snickered. He rolled his eyes while rubbing his stomach.

~Jesus is back people. ;)

Wax your fucking eyebrows.

I can't even. Let me, gotta blast.

Anyways I love this chapter Omfg it's a cute one and a sad one so beware kids. Byeee loves and Jesus lovers! <3