I woke up alone. I was confused, but I realized that Shawn went to work on music. Which is going great.

His mom and dad had to work, and Aaliyah went to a friends house for the weekend. So I was here alone.

I got up and went downstairs to get cereal. After I was done I went back upstairs to change and do my makeup and brush my teeth.

After I was done with that jazz, I got on the piano and started to play Nikki cause I was working on it from home. I finally got it done. It took like forever to break it down, but it's worth it.

I started to play the chords, and the song reminded me of someone, but I just don't know who it is yet. I started to sing.

I feel you in my lungs, feel you in my veins,
Bloodstream, the only way to make it to my brain,
Tried some others but man they're not as good as you,
Going crazy cause I only feel this good with you,

Maybe I'm just not as strong as I once was,
When we're together I don't feel a buzz,
I'm addicted to this shit like it was hard drugs,

I heard the door open I knew it was Shawn, but I kept singing because I fucking love this song.

Oh yeah, yeah
Nikki baby I love you but I gotta go,
In the end what happens you already know,
Wonder where I've been, I been laying low,
And I am wondering what I'm paying for,

I heard footsteps coming into the room, I chose to ignore it, again. I love this song and I wanted to get my emotion out. I work on this for so long trying to use my vocals and the piano but I had make it, so I could play it on piano.

All these other bitches on my dick, but I can't fuck with that,
You're the only girl I need, I gotta have you back,
Even though you turn my lungs black,
Tell me where you've Jack,

I heard him in the door way, I felt like he was watching but I wasn't giving a fuck.

I know shawty that goes by the name Mary,
I used to fuck her way back when I didn't know a thing,
Skipping school with all my homes on some truancy,
But I ended things with her it was just you and me,

Doing me good, that's what I thought at first, Me and you together swear to god I saw that work,
Away from you though man it's just so hard to work,
My heart is hard at work,
We been together like ten years, goddamn took me as young man,

Everyday I wonder who I am, who will I be, where will I go,
What will they write upon my grave,
A free man born as a king, who died as a slave,
But everything I'm doing is for nothing though,
Oh no I can't fade that shit I gotta let you go,
You got me tripping like a flight to Vegas
All this shit you got me doing man it's outrageous,
I'm living the life I never would,
Finally let you go, I thought I never could,
Don't get me wrong can't forget the times shared,

Seem like everywhere I go I always know you there,
Tried to run but my legs won't,
I look away but my head don't,
I love it when you're fresh,
I love it when I take your top off, and we share the same breath
I hate it that I need you, Nikki
But I love it when I feel,Nikki
I hate that I bleed for you,
You're everything that I need, oh

I'm a king, you're my Coretta,
But lately I been feeling like a Slave for the nicotine,
Slave for the nicotine,
Slave for the nicotine,

I immediately stopped after, he shouted. "Holy fuck, what the hell, where's your dick? I didn't know you were a guy." I chuckled.

"Um I don't have a dick, but okay nice entrance you gave their, I knew you were watching me." I peered at him. He just laughed. "Damn you have vocals, who's this Nikki?" I shrugged "You never heard Logic?"

He shook his head. "Welp, I have been working on this to play out my vocals and play it on the piano, so I take pride in this piece even though it's not mine." his eyes widened. "Well, you really should do music."

I chuckled even more. "I do, but I quit ever since my parents died I don't want to do it anymore, it's more like a hobby for me now." He crossed his arms.

"So, you're a quitter? Because, you seem to give up." I sighed and got up. "Listen, I am not a quitter, I quit because I didn't want to do it, I wanted my parents to be their, by my side when I went up to stage." I stopped.

"And all the things I have been dealing with, is not helping anything. That's why I love this song, because it reminds me of someone I can't get rid of." he looked at me. "Well, I love this piece and I am glad you sang but you don't have a dick, are you hiding things from me?" I laughed again.

"No, dumbass, I would never. I always tell you what's up. Also I just got my period and I couldn't find tampons so yeah, I need those ASAP!" he looked at me wide eyed. "I am just kidding. God did you really think I would tell you that."

He nodded. "Yep." he said popping the p. I rolled my eyes. "I have the song stuck in my head." he laughed. "Me too." I walked out.

"Where are you going?" he asked still smiling so innocently. "Getting some lunch. Why?" he shrugged while I was racing down the stairs.

I opened the fridge. "What do you for lunch, Mr. Mendes?" he chuckled while sitting down. "A sandwich would be nice." I got out lunch meat and cheese and the mayo.

"Frick I forgot bread and a knife." He got up. "I'll get it." he smiled again. "Okay, thanks." We put it together. And finally sat down with our lunch.

"So, how was the music going?" I asked impatiently. "Going great. I have a new song coming out pretty soon." I gasped. "Oh my god speaking music, fuck I forgot it. Oh well." he shrugged. I was down eating and so was he.

I was sneaking out the door when Shawn caught me. "Where are you going missy?!" I smiled. "Eh,to the park." he picked me up and carried me to the couch. "Um no, I don't want you getting hurt, you can get raped by those guys."

I hate that word so much. I blushed at the fact that his jaw clenched when he said 'those guys'. I pouted, "But Shawn?!" he looked angry but yet calm.

"No! I want to keep you safe, trust me I want you to g o out there. But I just can't." I finally gave up. "Fine, Shawn I get you want to protect me and all and its very sweet of you but I want to get it over with. I am tired of being afraid!" he huffed and put his head down.

"I know, but just let it be. I'll deal with it." I just wanted to punch him because he was being so kind, but he has to realize that I am capable if protecting my self.

I thought to myself.

I am sneaking out when everyone is asleep. I want to find those guys and try to protect my self.

I looked straight at him. "I am sorry for trying to go out, I just wanted to help fix my problem." he nodded and gave me a hug.

He sat next to me and put on the TV. We were watching Harry Potter his favorite movie. He got so excited, but I am not really into the Hogwarts, Hufflepuff, Griffindoor, stuff. (Girl if you don't get out of here 😂)

His mom and dad got home after 9 and we were still watching the movie series. I got tired and yawned a little bit. I fell asleep on his lap. He fell asleep as well.

Well I guess I will wake up really late to sneak out.

~Holaaaa, loves it's another update for ya. Please this cover is everything and Myah is so amazing!! I hope you like this chapter maybe tomorrow I will update again on three of my books but yeah! BYEE LOVES!!!❤❤