I regret coming to the boat party as soon as I arrive. I thought it was a good idea, but I'm too distracted to party. It irritates me that I can't stop thinking about Blade. I am not the type to fall so quickly and intensely. The scenery is stunning, bright lights decorate the outside of the boat, the water glimmering off the moon. I'm relieved to see the pearly white boat is ginormous and full of life. The energy is high, precisely what I was hoping for. I walk onto the boat, telling myself that no matter what I have to do, I'm going to enjoy tonight. I look around for any familiar faces but I don't see any. I make my way to the mini bar and order a Martini.

An obviously drunken guy gives me a lopsided grin as he stops in front of me. "Great party, huh?"

I give him a tightlipped smile back. "I can't answer that question fairly, I just got here."

"Well, we can leave here together if you want." He puts his body weight against bar, trying to look cool. He doesn't though, the way he's leaning over looks like an old man.

I look away to stop myself from smiling. "Where would we go?"

He leans closer to me, his breath reeking of alcohol. "I was thinking my place."

"How are you planning on getting laid, you can barely stand?" I take a sip of my drink.

The man looks at me through glassy eyes. "Who needs to stand?"

I point my finger at him. "You better not be driving yourself home."

"You can always drive me home."

This guy won't quit. "Why don't you go lay over there on that couch and maybe you'll get lucky and I'll stop by."

He liked this. "Okay, I'll be over there."

He takes off to the couch and sprawls across it, his bright blonde hair messy and his shirt slightly lifted, exposing his abs. He wasn't bad looking, but I wasn't in the mood to waste my time, he'd forget all about it tomorrow.

I chug my drink and order another. I can already tell it's going to be a long night. I hate to break it to this guy but there is no way he's getting any girl to sleep with him in his condition and I won't be stopping by until he's passed out. Better than that, I'll probably just tell the host to keep an eye on him.

"Hey girl, guess who's here!" Janessa says walking over to me.

I already knew who she was referring to, Shane. Shane was a guy in most of my college classes that all my friends knew I was crushing on. I'm in no mood to talk to or about Shane though, not with Blade haunting my mind.

"Thank you for the heads up, but I'm kind of over it." I shrug.

Janessa groans, making a pouty lip. "Already?! Are you sure, he looks so cute tonight!"

I sigh and grab my drink. I know that Janessa, like most of my close friends, really wants me to settle down.  "I'm sorry, it was nice of you to bring him for me, I just can't tonight. Let's not let it kill our mood though, we came here to party, right?"

"Right! Let's dance and get drunk!" Janessa grabs a drink.

I'm already swaying towards the dance floor as she speaks. We dance and drink nonstop for about two hours before the alcohol starts to hit me. Out of nowhere, I feel dizzy.

"I should go sit down." I point to the chairs closest to us.

Janessa nods. "Okay, do you want me to go with you?"

I shake my head. "No, you're still having fun, don't let me stop you."

"Hey girls!" Shane comes up behind Janessa. She was right, he looks great in his black button up shirt and blue jeans. His big doe eyes meet my gaze and I look away.

Janessa's face lights up. "Hi Shane, I'm so glad you could make it!"

"Me too, thanks for the invite!"

I glance between them, picking up on the tension. "Hey, I'm going to go sit down, but you too should talk."

Shane looks from me to Janessa. "You want to dance?"

Janessa looks at me, making sure I'm okay with it. I assure her I am.

"Of course, she does!" I smile and push her towards him, walking away.

I lower myself into a seat, feeling lightheaded. I play on my phone for awhile and when I look back up Shane and Janessa's lips are intertwined.

"Good for them." I mutter. I'm not jealous of them because I want Shane, I'm frustrated because it reminds me of Blade. I stand up and walk off the boat. I decided I'm going to find Blade and kiss him. I'm too drunk to pretend I don't want him.

As I get off the boat, I realize I'm way too drunk to drive. I decide to walk, praying I remember how to get there. After I walk a few blocks, I call Niki.

Her sleepy voice comes through. "Nikayla speaking."

"Niki, hey!" I pick up my pace, checking behind me to make sure nobody is following.

"What's up? Are you okay?" She asks.

I turn left. "Oh yeah, I'm good. I was just wondering if you're awake."

She chuckles. "I am now."

I hear another, deeper voice in the background. "Hey, Blade wants to talk to you."

I giggle. "Okay."

"Maya?" He sounds worried.

"The one and only."

He is silent a moment. "How's the party?"

I can't stop myself from giggling again. "It's great, I'm having so much fun! We're dancing."

"Nice! Are you going to need a ride home?" He questions.

"Nope, I already made plans to get home, don't worry I'm not going to drive."

He sighs. "Okay, let me know if anything changes. I can pick you up whenever."

I trip a little on the sidewalk. "You're too kind. I appreciate your offer, but I'll be okay."

"So, are your friends going to hang out with you for a while?

I somehow made it to the front of Dream Apartments. "I'm going to let you guys go, get some sleep okay?"

"Umm, Amaya..." I hang up before he can finish his sentence.

I walk up the stairs, miraculously staying on my feet the whole way to the sixth floor. I am determined to get to Blade.

When I finally reach Niki's apartment I knock lightly. "Blade." I whisper.

"Amaya?" Blade cracks the door open, wide-eyed. "How did you get here? I thought you were at the party."

I lean my hip against the doorway in an effort to look sexy. "I lied. I didn't want you to stop me from walking here."

"You walked here alone at dark?" He said, dumbfounded.

I grab his hand. "Is Niki awake?"

He looks behind him. "She just went into the bathroom, why?"

"Come with me." I tug on his hands.

Blade starts to follow me, then stops suddenly. "Let me just tell Nikayla I'm stepping out. I'll be quick."

I nod. "Okay, but hurry."

He squints at me. "Okay, I'll be right back."

He walks to the bathroom door and yells into it, "Hey, I'm going to step out really fast, I'll be back."

"Alrighty." Niki yells back.

Blade walks to me. "Where are we going?"

"My apartment." I say, making my way to my front door.

He follows behind me. I open the door and turn to him, grabbing his hand again. I kick the door shut behind us. "Finally." I jump up in to his arms and kiss him with everything in me, instantly feeling relief. He kisses me back pulling me tighter against him.

I soften the kiss and put my legs down so I can stand. "I'm sorry, I had to." I say, not sorry at all.

"I'm glad you did." He looks me over. "It's been on your mind too, huh?"

I throw my hands in the air. "So much so I couldn't even think straight."

"I know the feeling."

I place my hand on his chest. "We have to keep doing this. It's driving me crazy."

He laughs. "I'm down."

I clap my hands together. "Great! Okay, so we'll just keep doing this on the downlow for as long as we need."

Blade puts his hands on my waste. "Whatever you say.

He pulls me in and kisses me, making me feel amazing.

After a few minutes he steps back. "We should go check on Nikayla before she starts to worry."

"Fine, but we should see each other again tomorrow night."

"Absolutely." He moves his hand up and down my arm gently then turns around.

I move behind him, following him out the door. "Maybe she's sleeping."

He turns to face me, a passion in his eyes. "Maybe."

We open the door and Niki runs over. "Thank God! I was so worried about you." She wraps her arms around me. "Don't scare us like that again!"

"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to worry you. I just wanted to come back here and I was curious who was still awake."

She nods. "You two are staying here and getting some sleep."

"Fine." I mumble.

"Okay, you take my bed." She motions towards the bedroom behind me.

"Thank you." I smile and shut the door. I wake up in the middle of the night and go back to my house, texting her I left and am okay.