#3 Months Later#

"Jungkook stopp, I can't breathe!", Song laughs as he tickles her into oblivion.

"But I love it when you laugh.", Jungkook says, kissing her on the belly, Song running her fingers through his dark brown locks.

"Why are you filming?", Song asks, the camera moving, Jungkook appearing in the frame, kissing Song, smiling his bunny smile at the camera.

"I want to capture these moments forever. That way, we can look back at these moments in a few years when we are a little more grey and these two are a little more grown.", The Jungkook on the camera says, Song smiling, telling Jungkook that his idea is brilliant.

The video cuts off at that moment, Jungkook sighing as he looks at the thumbnail of the video on his phone, a few tears dripping down his cheeks.

How could everything go so incredibly wrong so quickly?

A knock at the door.

Jungkook gets up, wiping the tears from his face, his expression falling to a stoic facáde.

He walks over to the hotel room's door, checking through the peephole, seeing that it is one of the people he works with.

"Clair, what do you want?", Jungkook asks in his perfect English as he opens the door to one of his colleagues.

"Well, Jessica and I thought that perhaps you'd want to come out to dinner with us, we want to get to know you better. You haven't spoke  all but 300 words with us in these past few months.", Clair says, Jungkook contemplating the decision in his mind.

"No thank you, I'm fine, I'm tired. Enjoy your dinner.", Jungkook says, closing the door in Claire's face, not in the mood for senseless flirting from his female colleagues.

He's never going to be interested in any of them like that anyways.

He walks over to his bed, plopping down on the mattress, letting out a big sigh.

It's already been just over three months since he left Seoul.

Things with the business has been going well.
His life has grown grey though, with not a lot of things making him happy anymore.

He's been throwing himself into his work so much that he's even fainted a few times.

He doesn't care though, as long as his mind doesn't drift to Song and his life back in Korea.

He stares at the ceiling, his expression blank, a few stray tears slipping down his cheeks, Jungkook not even noticing this anymore as result of how many times he's cried in this time.

His phone pings, Jungkook looking at his lockscreen, seeing that it is Jin that has messaged him.

He feels really bad. He has been ignoring all his hyungs for a few weeks now, not having the guts to talk to them.

He silently apologises to Jin as he turns off his phone, throwing the device towards the other side of the bed.

He groans, getting up from the bed before undressing, getting his workout clothes and a towel.

He quickly gets dressed, heading for the door, looking back at his phone on the bed, contemplating if he should take it with him.

He decides against it, instead grabbing his Ipod and earbuds, before heading for the gym, ready to sweat his sadness away.

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"He still isn't answering?", Namjoon asks, Jin shaking his head, very close to tears.

"I'm worried, Joon. He never waits this long to talk to me. Did I do something to upset him?", Jin asks his boyfriend, Namjoon looking at him with sadness in his eyes.

"Maybe he just needs time alone, to think about his life. I wouldn't worry that much if I were you.", Namjoon says, hugging Jin, feeling really bad for his crying boyfriend.

Namjoon knows for a fact that Jungkook is far from okay.

He had been called all the times Jungkook fainted, and ended up in hospital. Jungkook had begged him to not tell the others though, Namjoon agreeing, knowing deep down that this would break Jin inside.

He can't let that happen.

He has carried this with him though, his feelings starting to eat him up inside.

Jin breaks away from the hug, wiping his unfallen tears from his red eyes, before getting up.

"I have to get ready, Song is coming over for a lesson today.", Jin says, Namjoon remembering the appointment.

Yes, Jin has kept his promise of teaching Song how to cook some hearty home made meals.

This would be their fouth or fifth lesson.

"Are you sure you're going to be able to handle it? I'm sure Song wouldn't mind if you cancelled.", Namjoon says, worried about the well being of his boyfriend.

"I'll be fine, I can't cancel on her again. It's rude.", Jin says, heading up to their room to take a shower.

'If only you cared more about yourself than others...', Namjoon thinks to himself before also getting up to get ready for his hang out with Yoongi and Hoseok.

(3 hours later)

Ding Dong.

Jin runs down the stairs, knowing that it must be Song.

He heads for the door, looking through the peephole just incase.
He sees the six month pregnant Song waiting for him to open the door.

He puts on a smile, opening the door to the smiling female.

"Song! I'm glad you could make it! How have you been?", Jin asks, Song smiling a tired smile at him.

"I've been good, although I'm getting little sleep because these two keep kicking me.", Song says with a chuckle, Jin noticing how thin she had gotten.

"Song, are you eating good? You've gotten thin.", Jin comments, Song looking away, Jin seeing tears form in her eyes.

"I have been trying to do better, the doctor prescribed some vitamins to help me and the babies to get more nutrients from our food.", Song says, blinking her tears away.

"You know I'm always here for you, day or night and I'm not just saying that.", Jin says, Song nodding, trying to smile a sincerely as possible.

Jin has helped her so much during these six months, and even more in the months since...

She feels the tears coming back at the thought of everything that has happened in these past months.

How Jungkook has missed every doctor's appointment, every major goal.

Their first kick, the first time she could feel them moving around inside her.

He wasn't there for any of it.

"I'm sorry, I just need to use the restroom.", Song says, excusing herself, while Jin readies the kitchen for their lesson.

Yes, Jungkook has basically missed her whole pregnancy. The most important parts, that is.

Jin, however.

He has been there for everything.

For the first kick, midnight cravings, unexpected hospital visits, morning sickness, to name but a few.

Carefully documenting every big event with his phone.

He has taken pictures of her every month for his scrapbook, documenting each month's progress.

She would be so lost without him.
Without all her friends actually.

Her father has let her stay in the family house during the pregnancy, so she wouldn't be alone, incase something happened.

Bam Bam has kept up with her mood swings, her fits of anger and her crying almost every day, always being there to comfort his little sister.

She feels guilty for it all.

Her friends and family have their own lives, their own struggles.
They have their problems and are mostly tired when they get home from their jobs.

But somehow they always find the strength to keep up with Song and all her things. They make time in their busy schedules for her, to take care of her and keep her company.

So, yeah, she feels guilty for bothering them, even though she knows they don't mind it.

She loves everyone around her, so much, but something has always felt missing.

She knows it's the pressence of Jungkook.

Loneliness has been following her around for months, she hasn't felt complete in so long.

She knows it's her own fault for chasing Jungkook away, but at that time, she was only doing it to protect herself and her babies.

After finding out that she had wrongfully accused Jungkook of cheating, she had begged Jin to call Jungkook, the male always refusing, telling her that this was for the best, even though it hurt in the moment.

She knows he's right, but the hole in her heart has been growing bigger as the time passes.

She misses him.

She misses Jungkook...

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Hey guys!!!!!

Long time, no see😣😣

I hope you guys enjoyed this chapter, I tried my best to write as much as I could, knowing that I haven't been able to post in a while.

My life has been kinda crazy with school and life and I want to apologize for not posting more frequently.

I have good news though.
In a month I'll officially be done with my preliminary exams, which means I'll have more time to write for you guys, which is something I want to do very badly.

So, I promise, by the 23rd of September, I'll be writing as much as I can, maybe finishing this book in the process.

When this book is done, I'll be working on my other BTS themed books for a while, while also continuing to write my non-fandon novels (I'm really excited!).

So, until then, I hope you guys stay safe, and love yourselves!

~litchii♡