crowds around me, voices echo through the hallways,
I can hear people's laughters, I see classmates smiling, kids running, teachers talking; but my mind is empty.
While I am standing all by myself amidst of all those happenings, as I am being surrounded by literal chaos, contrary to all of this, my mind yet seems to be the loudest of all.
The emptiness inside my head is screaming in the most deafning tone possible; it is desperately screaming for inner tranquility and calmness.
I fiercely wished for silence and quietude, but this won't ever happen as long as you absorbed my very last energy supply to keep yourself alive; to prolong your own happiness.
I couldn't escape your unyielding grasp, which seemed to suffocate me boundlessly.

Or was it never my will to breakout from your fixation, because I wanted to miserably believe, that your posessive grip around my joints was a way to show your care and love for me, while in reality it is the complete opposite?

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03.11.2021