*Katelen's p.o.v.*

"Stress......much.....panic....attack....harm....talk...relief...something....past..."

I could here faint voices but couldn't makeup what that they were actually saying. I try to stir but my body did the opposite. It felt like I was paralyzed or something. I knew Kyle was right beside me, I could feel his presence but I could neither make any noise nor open my eyes. It was so frustrating. I could feel my body lay.

Is this what sleep paralysis feels like?

Soon I felt the voices getting more clear. I could differentiate the voices. I figured everyone were in the room. Along with some stranger. He seemed to be talking to Kyle.

"So doctor is she gonna be okay?" I figured it was Kyle's voice, which became more and more clear.

"She will be fine. Just make sure she takes the medicine on time and make sure to talk to her. Let her get a little opened up but don't force her. Talk about something she is comfortable of and let her talk to you on her own. Gain her trust. The trust that will let her open up to you." The anonymous voice said.

"Sure. You can leave now." Kyle ordered.

"As you wish your majesty." With that being said I heard the door open and shut.

I felt Kyle taking my hand on his and kissing the back of my hand. His warm and soft lips felt good on my skin. But unfortunately they didn't last long.

"What are you gonna do now?" I knew it was Kira. I felt a dig next to me on the bed and a hand slowly running their hand on my head. It felt good. I sensed it was Kira.

"I don't know. Probably wait till she wakes up and wants to talk about it." This time I sensed concern in Kyle's voice.

"Honey. She is too weak. Don't you think we should postpone the wedding. I don't think she can intake it all." Kira suggested.

I felt Kyle move a little probably trying to speak but he was cut off by Edward. "Love. You were the queen for 67 years and you know better. Plus it's the Scarlet Century. The century that comes after thousands of years. It is when the Blood Moon shows up and the century when the Eve is born. If Kyle wouldn't have found his mate it would have been okay but now that he has his mate he has to mate with her and the Full moon that comes once every year is the best time for them. And you know the consequences if not."

"But-" Kira was cut off by Kyle.

"That damn Eve thinks she can hide? But she has to come out. She has to show up. Not for me but for my mate. Her blood will not only make out clan stronger but also my tiny beautiful mate. If I make love to Kate with her blood in me, Kate too will share half of her power along with me. Making her the strongest queen of all time." He stopped and soon I felt soft trembling lips on my forehead as he sharply inhaled my scent. "Please wake up princess. I promise we will talk about it. Please I am doing all these for you, for us." He whispered near my ear.

I wanted to respond so bad but I felt my limbs growing numb. I felt his soft lips on my cheeks before the darkness took over me.

~

I groaned slowly trying to move and surprisingly I was successful. It felt really good being able to control your body. I felt something holding on to my hand I successfully opened my eyes after a lot of trouble I looked down to find myself in our room and Kyle holding my hand with his head resting on our intertwined fingers.

"Kyle..." Voice barely came out of me. He whipped his head towards me. I could see his eyes softened.

"Princess! You finally woke up. Oh! How worried I was." He exclaimed.

I tried to respond but my throat seemed so dry that it hurt. I try to gulp but it seemed to be more painful that a tear slipped out.

Kyle seemed to understand as he quickly grabbed a glass of water for me. He held me up a little so I could drink it. I felt life coming back to me as the cold water slide down my throat. After I was done and satisfied Kyle lay me down.

"How are you feeling?" He asked.

"Better." I murmured. "But what happened."

"You had a panic attack or you can say a nervous breakdown."

"Oh." I nodded. It's not like it's the first time though.

"Princess?"

"Huh?"

"Is there something you are hiding? Something you should tell me?"

I gulped. Wondering if he was asking what I was thinking.

"Princess?"

"I-I..." I stuttered starting to pant again.

Ugh! Not again.

"Princess. Shh....it's okay breath....breath...." Kyle rubbed my back trying to calm me down.

After awhile I did calm down. My head rested against his chest cowering in his embrace and his hand slowly stroking my hairs. I felt some sort of relief every time I was around him. I just loved savioring these moments.

"Why did you panic?" Kyle asked calmly.

I stiffened. I never really told him about it. I don't know if I want to either. So I didn't respond.

"It's okay if you don't want to talk about it. I will wait." He kissed my forehead.

Suddenly an I felt the urge to spill out everything but I knew not to. I know telling him nothing will only make him more restless but I had to do it. If he expects me to tell him about my problems he needs to learn to share his with me.

"When are you planning to telling me about it?" He asked.

"Let's not talk about it."

"Why? Why didn't you tell me about it before princess?"

"Kyle. Please don't push the button. I just don't wanna talk about it."

"Listen here princess. We are getting married in no time and so I wanna know the woman of my life. Just open up and I promise to take care of you."

"Why? Why does it imply on me while not on you? Why don't I have the right to know the man I am soon to marry? It's just not you in this relationship alone Kyle I am in it too. You never open up to me. Then how am I supposed to you." I almost yelled. Honestly I am just tried. I don't of what but I just am. My body is begging for a break.

"I told you I will tell you when the time is right so-" I cut him off.

"And I will tell you when I am ready. So leave. I wanna take a nap." I frustratedly buried myself in the pillow. I heard him sigh.

"I will be back. Take some rest." He said kissing me head and left. I really wanted him to stay and pamper me, a little apology.

And I don't even know why am I having mood swings. And for some reasons I don't even feel guilty for acting like a child. If it's a sin trying to know the man you are marrying then I am a sinner and I don't care. I wanted to cry so bad but I eyes were too tired. And they chose to sleep instead.

~

I wake feeling my bed really warm. And someone stroking my hair. I slowly open my eyes to find myself in Kyle's embrace. I wanted to stay a little longer but I knew I couldn't so I slowly pulled away. He soon snapped and sat up. He opened his mouth to say something but before he could I turned to the other side facing my back towards him. He sighed heavily.

"Princess? I am really sorry."

No response.

"Please don't be mad. We can talk it out."

No response.

"I should have considered your feelings too. Please forgive me."

No response. I am actually enjoying the attention. He soon lay next to me pulling me into his embrace. I try to push him away but he seemed to be too strong for that.

"I know princess you are mad. And I will do anything to make it up to you. I promise. Even if it means to tell you the whole truth. But please don't be mad." He cooed near my ear. I wiped my head I look him in the eye. I then narrow by eye suspiciously but when I was sure of his sincerity I jumped up and crossed my arms around my chest with a frown.

"Speak." I demanded. He sighed.

"Where do I start from?" He asked.

"From the beginning. The very begging. Tell me everything, everything. I wanna know you, completely."

"Fine." He paused slowly taking my hand in his, "But I want you to keep your faith in me. So please, please don't hate me. Don't leave me. Call me a coward but just stay. You can call me a monster but please stay. I can't afford to lose you. I will die." He said cupping my cheeks. I could see his eyes looking glossy.

"Shh...hey. I am right here. I am not leaving you. I never will. I love you. I want to accept you. All of you." I pecked his lips.

"You know Oliver, Amy and I weren't the only siblings. We had more. We were totally 13 siblings. Joshep, Gabrial, Samuel, Carter, Anthony, Jared, Dylan, Henry, Andrew, Isaac, Oliver, Amy the only girl child and I" I gasped. "Where are they?"

"Dead." He said coldly. I never knew one word could run a shiver down my spine.

"H-How?" I couldn't speak. It was like I was choking.

"It happened when I was 13. Like 10 years ago. I was the first son, then came Oliver and then Amy. The rest of my siblings were between the age of 0-9. Carter was the youngest of all. He was only a month old. Oliver and Amy where in boarding school while I had to stay here and learn about the kingdom as I was to be the King in future. It was a stormy night. Mom and Dad were out for some emergencies. I was left with my 10 younger siblings to take care off. It was till I learned there were attacks on the village on our territory by the enemy kingdom. They were killing people like it was a game. Those fucking bastards didn't even spare the woman and children. Dad was out so I was partially the incharge, even though I was just 13 I was skilled enough to fight to a particular level. I had to do something. I just couldn't let my kingdom drain away. So I left for the village." He paused. "Big Mistake." He let out a heavy breath. I could see slight glimpse of tears in his eyes.

"I did leave people to take care of them. Protect them. So I had a bit of assurance that they would be fine. After an hour or so of war we finally got rid of those warriors of the enemy kingdom. I was really happy that I won my first battle and not to mention at the tender age of 13. I really wanted to surprise everyone I was too happy that my feet's weren't on the ground. But seemed like life itself had a surprise in stored for me. I guess when you fly too high you fall on the ground too bad. Guess that's what happened with me. I came home to find out a pool of blood painting the every inch of the palace red. My heart stopped when I saw the guards dead. I ran in to only find every single person in the palace dead...." He gulped shut his eyes letting out a painful and trembling breath. It pained me too much.

"Shh....you don't have to continue. It's okay. You don't have to. If you-" He cut me off.

"No princess let me tell you everything. Don't stop me today. Please. If I don't tell you today I don't know if I will ever be able to. So don't stop me." I just nodded.

"All my brothers were dead. They all were lifelessly laying on the cold floor. They all were just kids. They were 9 to 1, Katelen. They had nothing to do with this cruel world. Yet they were killed ruthlessly. Carter that baby h-he was t-torn apart....i-into pieces...." then he broke. The last thing broke me too. He hugged me tight like his like depends on it.

How could someone do this? How can someone be so cruel that they didn't spare a mouth old baby. How?

"Shh...it's okay. Shh...I am right here. Yoh are alright..." I tried to comfort him.

"It's my fault. I shouldn't have left them alone. If only I stayed maybe, just maybe they would have been alive. Enjoying their life. I would watch them find their mate, live happily. But I just had to leave them..." he murmured his face buried in the crook of my neck. I pulled away cupping his face and looking straight in his eyes.

"No! It's not your fault. You have nothing to do in this. Are you listening? You did what a brave future king should do. You become the king the moment you chose to fight them fearlessly. You are an example to the whole world Kyle."

"But I failed to be a brother. An older fucking brother. Everyone looks up to their older siblings for protestion. A-And I failed them. FUCK!!" He snapped.

"Shh....Kyle, Kyle. Look at me. Please baby look at me. You did what you could. You did not leave them alone. You just tried to save your kingdom those people who killed them where ugly and coward who attacked the weak. They don't have the guts to come infront of you and play fair. It's not your fault." I let him lean his forehead against mine.

"But why would they attack your siblings. Like they have nothing to do with it. If they attack it should have been you. You were the future king. Then why?" I continued.

"Because they knew to me my family was my first priority. And not to mention my siblings were my strength. And it was nicely set trap. If I stayed in the palace they would have destroyed my kingdom and ruin my image by saying I was a coward who hid in the palace. And when I felt they took advantage of my absence and attacked my family saying I couldn't save my own family." He said coldly.

Never have I ever heard him speak in such a cold tone. At least not infront of me. It only shows how hurt he was. How broken he was.

My Kyle was broken...

"How cruel?" I murmured.

"I am no saint either." He chuckled. I gave him a confused look.

"I didn't let them go. I didn't spare them either.  I took my revenge." He hissed.

"How?"

"I didn't spare a living being in his kingdom. I killed them all. All of them. I didn't care who they were I just killed them." He hissed, more like proudly and continued, "I know you must be thinking what kind of a monster I am. If I am so be it. But if you are planning to leave then too bad cause I am not letting you go. You see the monster's eyes is on you and he is not letting go what is his." His eyes help passion. A passion that will make you fall on your knees. So authorized.

"You are a monster." I said. He chuckled looking away. I cupped his cheek and turned his head towards me. "You are a monster. But you are my monster. The monster I wanna love. I wanna cherish. The one I can't breathe without. The one that completes me. I love you too much to hate you. And I don't care if you let me go or not but I have no intention on letting you go. So guess what Mr. Monster. You are stuck with me for the rest of your life. And if you are a monster then I am you bratty little princess who is not letting go off her monster." I giggled rubbing the tip of my nose with his.

He stared at me with amusement but soon his lips widened into a smile.

"Hmm... Guess there is no helping in it then.  I guess we both are stuck with each other." He smiled brightly.

"But I have afew question."

"Go on princess."

"Is this the reason why your relationship with Kira and Edward, like this?" I asked more like awkwardly. He just nodded.

"But they seemed to still love you." I said.

"That's the problem. They keep saying it wasn't my fault. That I did what a great king would do. It was just fate that was wrong. They treated me like I was some kind of a kid who can't handle himself. They pretend like they were fine and trying to take care of me. Fuck! I hated that sympathy." He continued.

"And that woman lost her 10 kids in a single day yet she wasn't blaming me. She kept saying that it was okay. And that it wasn't my fault. She was showering me with her love while crying all night behind those closed doors. She thought I would never know how much she was hurting. Ugh! And that old man he stayed strong the whole time. He couldn't even cry for his kids. He had to bury them with his own hands. He had a wife to take care of. A son, to whom he always said that the death of his siblings wasn't his fault. I hate them so much for showing love to me." He ran his fingers through his hair and pulled them in frustration.

"You know why she isn't blaming you?....Because she loves you with everything in her. Your father, every time he sees you even a blind can tell how proud he is to see his son so successful. Kyle. She already lost her kids in a single night. Don't let her lose the one she has already. To a mother her kids are her everything. And there is no denying about the fact that she loves you too much to ever hate you. Edward and Kira are not you random coward parents who would blame something on someone just to satisfy their heart. They are smart and they know who is right and who is wrong. They need their son Kyle. They need you. Please don't take that away." I pleaded.

He just kept staring at me with emotions I couldn't explain. He then cupped my face and kissed my forehead.

"How do you do it princess? How?" He asked.

"Do what?" Now I am confused.

I mean what did I do now?

He just laughed pulling me into his embrace. But I knew this wasn't over yet. I have alot more questions and have to collect my courage to tell him about me.

"So you mentioned we met before. And I "saved" you. When? Where? And how?" I asked.

"Huh? It's gonna be along night. But remember you have to tell me about yours."

He remembers! It really is gonna be along night!!!!

(PART 2 ————>)