I feel like I've lost control of my life.

So far, my grades have fallen because I get distracted too easily, I'm starting to snap at my friends and family, and I just feel like that one idiot who asks the most obvious questions.

I don't watch Supernatural. I don't get many sports references. I do not understand why "21" or "Deez nuts" are funny; They're just dumb things that idiots laugh over. I'm that one girl who gets nothing but some anime and video game references.

I was bullied at my old school, but only when the teachers weren't around. Almost everyone there either treated me like trash or ignored me when I talked to them. They all ridiculed me except for my old friend, and she ended up going to a different school.

At my new school, I was hoping for a new start, something to wipe away any past suicidal thoughts I had gained since the end of second grade. But apparently, I slaughtered millions in my previous life, because karma hates me.

I feel more disconnected when I talk. I think the people I talk to half the time think, "What is she talking about? What a weirdo." If not that, when I ask about something I don't know, they give me a look like, "You freaking dumbass. Everyone knows this, why don't you?"

Have people stopped to consider that maybe, maybe I'm not completely clueless?

Because I'm not. I can do a lot of things.

By the way, Hetalia is just one of the reasons I feel better.

Those guys up there.

I love them so much.