V E R A

I ran. I ran as fast as I can, I don't care if I can't breath right now, I don't care if I already have wounds in every part of my body, all I want now is to escape this person who's chasing after me. I'm not even sure if he or she is really a human, and I don't really know why he or maybe she is chasing me.

My heart is beating so fast, I saw a blinking light not too far from me, I'm starting to lose my strength, as well as my consciousness. I know… I know that anytime now, I'll pass out, but I don't care. I need to reach that blinking light, I need… to escape.

"Help…" I whispered as I lost my balance and my consciousness.

Before everything went dark, I saw and felt someone held and embraced me, he even carried me. I know it was a guy, I felt it, in his arms. I don't know but I felt safe… I felt… at peace… for the very first time in my life…

All my life, I never experienced love, any kind of love, maybe that's the reason why I'm longing for it. The reason why I'm trying so hard to fit in, to fit in circles that I don't even belong to, to fit into people I don't even know that much that I'm trying so hard to treat as my friends.

I hate it, I hate my life, everything about it. It's so hard to live this life, it's so hard to be in a world where no one wants me, where no one really cares about me, where… I'm alone… and where everything… and anything is nothing but black and white.

If given a chance, I wouldn't choose this, but I wasn't given any, so I had to live this life even how much I hate it, even how much I don't want it. Why is this world so cruel to me? Am I a bad person in my past life? If I am, then, I'm already paying all my wrongdoings, my mistakes, and pains that I might have caused other people before.

If my life is a game, I'm sure, no one would ever want to play with it… or even with me. Because if I were in their positions and I'm given the chance to play a game with myself and my life, I'd rather live my life than suffer… suffer here.

I'm suffocated, I'm tired. I don't know how long I'm going to run. I'm so tired from running… I can't catch my breath anymore…

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