Going to counseling makes me feel weak and exposed.

I talked to the dude alone today and told him about all the carp that goes on at home and school.

Tomorrow he wants me and my mom to talk to him...

There's so many things I wanna say to my mom, but I'm afraid that...

When I told her about my depression and thoughts, like the next day she put me in suicide watch at the house.

No sleeping in my own room, showers in her bathroom, get dressed in her room, no earbuds but Bluetooth speaker...
She made me wanna kill myself even more.
She made it worse. She wouldn't listen to my feelings.

And now I'm afraid that if I want to say what I want to say to her tomorrow, she'll make life even more of a hell after tomorrow...

=(

The therapist said not to worry...

Oof.