hi is anyone actually alive on wattpad

kinda thinking no but anyhoo

letter from newt in his death!!!

Dear Tommy,

This isn't my second letter. Turns out my 'first' letter wasn't actually my first, and I used to sneak letters under your door when we were in the WICKED compound when we were young. I remember our late night chats when we thought we were being so bloody clever, but in reality we were just naive and stupid. That was mostly you, though, Tommy.

I told you I wasn't scared. I'm still not, of course; I'm better than I'd ever be in the Glade or the Safe Haven. Well, mostly. You're not here with me, and, to me, that means I can't enjoy Paradise as much as I should be able to.

Doesn't matter. You'll be here eventually, and for now, I have the memories of you - no, us - that circle around in my head. 

I'll always remember you, and your mole-dotted face, and your big, brown doe eyes that widened when in shock, and fluttered closed when I kissed you on your forehead. I'll remember your gorgeous lips, and the way they parted when you furrowed your brows. I'll remember your disgust when first trying Gally's recipe, and Frypan's stew.

I hope they both make their own stupid recipes when they're here.

I still don't regret anything. Not to be overly philosophical, but, well, everything happened for a reason, and I don't think I'd be able to cope at the Safe Haven with everyone tiptoeing around me, anxious about saying the right thing.

Anyway, enough about that. Teresa and Chuck are here. 

Chuck's still adamant he's better than you. He met his parents, and he tells them everything about you, even though I'm sure they already know.

Teresa... well, Teresa's Teresa. She's still got her own, very strong opinions - I doubt she's ever going to crumble under peer pressure, and I admire her for that - and she seems to have taken Chuck under her wing. They both say they used to be a trio - you, Teresa and Chuck.

Kind of like us and Minho. Tell Minho I hate him. Affectionately. I miss his dumbass.

Alby's here too. He thanks you, just like I do. I missed him.

Winston still has acne.

Ben wants to apologise. He says he's sorry for attacking you, but then I told him off for apologising because it wasn't his fault, so now he just says 'hi'.

And me? Well, I'm here, of course, and you already know how I feel about you, darling.

I loved you since you ran into that shuckin' maze, and I'll still love you when you run through the gates into my arms.

You deserve happiness, and, Tommy, I'm not the only source of it.

See you soon, my love.

Newt.

this is bad but fuck u dont comment on how incoherent it is

im doing dofe!!! yay!!!