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Newt was quiet today. Y/N knew she knew who he was. Newt was generally kinder than many other Gladers, though he could still be rough when he had to keep order. He always tried to look out for his friends. He was a good person and Y/N just wanted to give him everything he deserved which was something nobody could ever give that boy. But Y/N sure did try.

She walked up to where he was,leaned against a tree close to the Deadheads "you okay Newt?"

"You still want to be with me? You used to love me and you don't even know who I am."

"I do. I do-"

"I don't know who I am half the time. You don't owe me anything."

"I love you." She declared.

He scoffs "what the hell does that even mean?"

"It means we take care of each other other."

"I don't want you sitting around,worrying,watching me. Waiting for me to jump back off that bloody wall."

"Newt, I love you. For all you are. What's happened,what the shuck is wrong with you!?"

"Too much! Too much is wrong with me. That's the problem isn't it? Too much is wrong with me. And you can't do anything about that. You can't change it. You can't fix me because I'm not broken,I don't need to be fixed. Okay? I'm me!" You watch the tears glisten in his brown eyes which burn into yours. He was the first one to move away, shaking his head as he stuffs his hands in his pockets before wandering off into the gardens. She just stood there numb,begging herself not to cry. She understood why things had to happen this way. She understood his reason for causing you pain. But mere understanding does not chase away the hurt. It does not call upon the sun when dark clouds have loomed over you.

Newt tried to convince himself just one thing- he can love her and still let her go.

Y/N walked away, the tears streaming down her face. She walked into the Maze,just like she'd do every single day. She just figured the other Runners had left without her as she was pretty-darn late. But that didn't matter. This was a chance to prove she could do this on her own. She knew where she was going, she knew how close they were to getting out of this place. She was exhausted but she thought of Newt getting out of this place and seeing his family and being happy... that's want kept her going. She wasn't mad at him, all she felt toward that boy was love.

She ran until she heard a deep metallic growl and her heart started screaming. She ducked behind a wall because she new what it was. It was what any runner feared because it was death.

"Newt..." she whimpered, a quiet plea for her to rescue her. But he obviously wouldn't hear. Nobody did. She took a step and didn't want to take any more, but she did.

The Griever stood before her. It didn't seem to look at her but it knew she was there. It was a hideous, bulbous, dark creature, with many appendages such as spikes, shears, and rods. It was he face of death and everything a person could be afraid of.

"Newt... I love you." She could barely hear her own voice over the sound of her heart but she was certain she had said it. She was sized by one of the rods of the Griever as she shrieked in fear. The spike was jammed into her stomach,spurting out blood. She was then thrown hard against the Maze wall,knocking her limp body to the ground. The odd thing was it that it didn't hurt.

After the Griever left she lay there in silence,unable to move. She knew that Newt would blame himself. He'd convince himself that he cost Y/N her life because he was afraid to love. her. But it wasn't him. He did everything he could Usually we walk around constantly believing ourselves. "I'm okay" we say. "I'm alright". But sometimes the truth arrives on you and you can't get it off. That's when you realize that sometimes it isn't even an answer--it's a question. Even now, she wondered how much of her life is convinced.

Minho saw her first,then Thomas.

His heart dropped at he stood numb. Thomas sprinted to her,pulling Y/N close,pressing on her wound to try and stop.

"You're okay..." he whispered,shaking her gently "you're okay. Wake up. Y/N wake up!"

Minho leant over and scooped her up "please..." he cradled her in his arms "get back to the Glade now. Get Clint and Jeff!" He commanded the other runners who obeyed and sprinted off ahed. Minho ran as fast as he could,holding her tight against his body. His mind was a mess. He knew he'd forever be haunted by what he had seen. Once he reached the Glade there was a large crowd,Clint and Jeff at the centre,clutching onto dozens of supplies which could maybe save this poor girl's life. Minho lay her down on the grass as Newt dropped to his knees,cradling her in his arms

"Newt..." Minho's voice was broken and laced with fear. Newt saw the tears in that poor boy's eyes as he clutched Y/N tighter against his own body. "Newt... I didn't mean to let Y/N down."

He knew. He knew it so well. It wasn't Minho who let Y/N down it was himself.

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Newt stood there and allowed himself to close his eyes. Y/N was dead. That was hard to believe even though it had been weeks. The builders dug a hole to bury her body and Zart picked flowers for Newt to scatter over where Y/N was.

On this particular day, Newt stood over the body, a few Gladers behind him. Minho had suggested having a funeral and had managed to convince Newt who eventually agreed and requested for only Y/N's true friends to be there. So at this request,behind Newt stood with Chuck,Zart and the rest of the runners (who were Y/N's fellow colleagues and some of her closest companions). Minho stood among them and took the time to lean before her grave and lay down her Runner's harness. "Thank you..." he whispered to her before getting up and standing next to the other Gladers.

"Newt..." Minho's gentle voice broke he silence "do you want to say something?"

Newt just nodded,trying to think of something to say. Along the lines of how sorry he was,how he hoped Y/N died loving him and how he never stopped and never will stop loving her.

"She came up in the box..." he started "she was so beautiful. Like nothing I had seen, no one I'd ever met. I loved her. I love her so much. I wish I'd never let her down, I wish the world didn't let her down. How I feel... I know that hurt won't ever go away, but there will come a day when I don't feel it every minute, and the anger won't be so hot; and the other feelings will fade and I'll be left with only love. Y/N, I love you and I know you know that. I'm gonna miss you. And I hope wherever you end up that life is kind to you and that wherever you are now you feel peace,you feel safe... in a way you never did here. Wherever you are Y/N, I hope you know that I love you."

Newt wouldn't allow himself to cry. Instead, he casted a glance at the open Maze doors, the last place he saw Y/N before she died. Her shadow stood there,giving Newt a gentle nod and smile. In return to Newt's words, she whispered- "I love you too." As she slipped beneath the maze walls never to be seen by Newt again,to exist only in his memory for all eternity.