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MILD SMUT WARNING GUYS (I call it mild because I can't write smut at all. Lol. Sorry. I'll get better. I promise) :)

"Why wouldn't you let me watch!?" You run after Newt "Ben was just banished and you didn't even watch me!"

"Why do you even wanna bloody see that?" Newt yells.

"I just wanted to be like you..." you whisper.

"And I wanted you to be better." He stops in his tracks,looking deep into your eyes.

"I tried to tell you Newt... but you didn't listen. I'm nothing without you!" You cry,clutching at his shirt "this is all I have. Okay? I'm nothing without you..."

You continue to sob into his chest,clinging onto him for dear life

"It's okay..." he whispers against your lips "I love you. It's okay."

You nod and let yourself be lifted into his arms. He holds you tight agains his body and you barely recognise the feeling of the camp bed as he lays you down. You shuffle so you're turned onto your side,able to face him. You grip his hand and tilt your face up,begging for a kiss which he gladly returns.

You sit yourself up a little and unbutton your own shirt,not taking your eyes off his. You'd done this before with him so it wasn't as scary as the first time. You watch him remove his dirty white hoodie and red vest. You pull him over you and kiss him passionately,tugging at his hair but not too much. You didn't want to hurt him. You feel his hands at the edge of your bra strap and you nod to him,telling him it was okay. He nods back and slowly pulls it away,admiring you like it was the first time all over again.

"You are so beautiful." He whispers,reaching out to run his fingers down your stomach,watching in fascination as the goosebumps broke out at your skin. You lay back an all you could do was smile.

You loved him so much.

He wastes no time taking off both his and your underwear. You feel him press up against you as he positions himself between yours legs. You blow the hair back from your forehead "it's okay Newt," you whisper "it's okay."

He nods "I love you Y/N." he reminds you as he finally enters you. He starts off slowly,letting you adjust. But you urge him to go faster,letting him lift up your legs to thrust into you harder and faster. Your breaths were broken because of the pleasure and you clung to his shoulders. You pull him even closer,letting him fall on top of your body.

"I love you." You whisper to him,raising your hips to meet his thrust "don't forget it though.. please.. newt please..."

He nods,panting softly against your chest "I won't." He grunts,sending you over the edge. Your hands dig into his back as you let out a soft cry. You shake uncontrollably as your body fills with a powerful spasm until you both finish your orgasm. You cling to his sweaty body and hold him as close as you could just as a reminder.

You were okay.

Everything was okay.

You lay with Newt afterwards,wrapped in his arms. You couldn't put into words how happy you were to be like this with Newt. He meant everything to you. You simply lived with his face in your heart all the time, a kind of sweet, hurtful ache. You would have died for him.

"I'm sorry..." he breaks the silence,reaching out to trace his finger softly across your arm. "I'm sorry I didn't let you see the banishment."

"How could you ever do that?" You burrow your head in his chest "watch someone die? Beg for their life?"

"I... I'm not sure Y/N." he admits.

You slowly slowly,trying to understand what he meant. "You're not sorry you saw that?"

"Yeah. I didn't look away."

"Why?"

"Because, when it was happening,I knew I needed to remember it. So when we meet the bastards who made this place... I wouldn't hesitate to hurt them to get revenge for all they did... Ben was my friend. But I know in my past life he wasn't the first friend I lost and he certainly won't be the last."

"Maybe there aren't any such things as good friends or bad friends," you sit up and look into his beautiful eyes "maybe there are just friends, people who stand by you when you're hurt and who help you feel not so lonely. Maybe they're always worth being scared for, and hoping for, and living for. Maybe worth dying for too, if that's what has to be. No good friends. No bad friends. Only people you want, need to be with; people who build their houses in your heart." You whisper softly as you fall asleep safe and warm in his arms.

Thank you guys for reading and if you're a UK reader who is sitting their GCSE's or A levels soon I wish you the best of luck. I hope you do amazing! You all deserve everything you've ever wanted. I love each and every one of you guys with all of my heart❤️

AND WHO ELSE IS EXCITED FOR 13RW ON FRIDAY!? (I totally understand if you don't watch it)I adore all the characters you're supposed to love and I really love Zach (I really hope he chooses the correct side- my wonderful,kind and lonely prince) SO EXCITED!!! #JusticeforHannahBaker #Bryceandajailcellaremyotp