Chapter Forty

Sobredosis

     "You.." I breathed out as my eyes widened like I saw a ghost. "That's not my name."

     "I can explain." He got closer to me and held my hand but I pushed him away.

     "No! No!" I retaliated and kept my hands up in front of me. "Don't get closer to me, I don't trust you and I want nothing to do with yo-"

     His hands quickly cup my cheeks and he lands a soft kiss on my lips which I couldn't even enjoy. I stood there in pure shock as he pulled away, his lips parted, and waited for what I would say to him. I took this chance to hesitantly place my hands lightly on his mask, I tugged the straps and as they came undone it all felt in slow motion. The mask was now in my hands and quickly on the floor, I stared at the man in shock.

His eyes, his skin, his lips, his nose, his face. Levi Ackerman.

Levi.

     "Levi," I breathed out in a whisper, I took a couple of steps back. "You— You're A.L?"

He stared back at me with a hopeful look on his face that crumbled because of my reaction, his eyes were soft and his hand fell back to the side of my face.

     "My initials backward." He explained and stared deeper into my eyes I knew many thoughts were wandering inside of him and I wasn't mad.

Well, maybe a little pissed.

     "You fucking bastard." I pushed him away again. "You didn't think to tell me this?"

     "The point was to be anonymous, god." He facepalmed and sighed loudly. "I can explain in my office."

I had no choice but to follow him to his stupid office, I could punch this fucker right now but my feelings were conflicted.

Once the door was closed I collapsed onto the chair in front of his desk and for once he was in front of me sitting on his desk, I thought he didn't like sitting on his desk.

     "I would like to start with an apology." He started and turned his gaze towards me, his mask fell onto the desk along with mine. "This looks bad, I know." 

     "Bad?" I snorted and crossed my arms rolling my eyes. "I haven't felt this betrayed since Reiner and Bertholdt." 

His gaze turned cold for a second before he shook his head, his hands ran through his hair so effortlessly. "I'm nothing like them,"

     "Of course, you're not! You're still alive for some odd reason." I scoffed. "How could you keep this from me? I feel embarrassed just thinking about having two sets of feelings for two different guys only to find out it's only been one person?"

     "I know, it was wrong to do-"

     "No, Levi!" I stood up in front of him with a frown. "You had two different lives and I had to live my life for a few months not knowing who I actually truly had feelings for!" 

     "Please," He took my hand and I felt myself melt under his touch, I didn't want to but my emotions were riding above my brain and I found it hard to believe this story.

     "It'd be different if we both didn't know but you knew this whole time," My voice quivers due to his touch.

     "I was afraid," He confessed. "Please, Athena." 

     "I just-" I stopped and chuckled sarcastically before sitting next to him on the desk. "Go for it."

      "Right," He shook his head and began. "When I first met you at that ball I thought you were stunning," 

My cheeks heat up at the memory, I remember when he defended me from those stupid cadets who didn't know what the fuck they were saying. I didn't need him to defend me but I did appreciate it. 

     "You defended me," I nodded. "I really appreciated it, not that I needed it-"

     "You were outnumbered," He scoffed. "At first I didn't care much but when we shared a dance I felt something inside of me I've never felt before. Maybe it was because I didn't have much experience but I craved that feeling again. That's why I showed up again, I noticed it was you when you talked about your parents and your dresses. I couldn't believe it was you who I danced with."

     "Never imagined the same," I snorted staring at the ground as my legs dangled. "You hated me until that dance," 

     "I didn't hate you," He protested and his eyebrows furrowed.

     "You did too!" I groaned and turned to him. "You didn't like me, you always pissed me off."

     "I thought you were... Incredible." He confessed causing my eyes to widen, there was no way this was his initial thought of me. He's gotta be joking.

     "Incredible?" I questioned, I felt my heart melt even if I was still confused I still accepted the compliment in my mind.

     "Yeah," He turned to look at me as his lips twitched up. "I've seen the way you fight, maybe you had no idea who I was but I admired how strong you fought. You were just like me, strong, fast, smart. I thought you'd take my title as being one of the best soldiers in the scouts which is why I was so hard on you, I didn't want you to grow weak."

     "Hmm." I hummed and nodded my head along to his words, I was starting to understand him a lot more and even if he was a dick I think he's grown a lot from when I initially met him. He just wanted to keep me grounded and not wind up acting like Floch. Levi seemed to share the same hate I shared for Floch, figures.

     "I'm really sorry," Levi apologized again. "I didn't want you to know who I was because I felt embarrassed for falling for the person I was so hard on, the one I insulted, and now I know even if we end up together we can still be seen as the strongest soldiers here." 

He closed his eyes and I saw his eye smile as he continued to talk, "I'm really happy when I'm with you."

I smiled at him as well resting my head on his shoulder, "You're cute." 

He straightened himself up before his lips turned into a frown, "I'm not cute."

     "You are," I looked up but he didn't even look at me, his arms were crossed and I could tell I bruised his ego just a bit. "It's okay to be cute, Levi."

     "No," He got off the desk and stood in front of me, his hands cupped my jaw so I looked at him in awe. "You're cute." 

     "What-" I started but he cut me off by placing a soft kiss on my lips. 

     I felt my right hand land on his cheek gently, and my happiness grew more and more every time he touched me. The way his lips moved against mine ignited a spark in my heart I never knew was possible, when a moan escaped my lips he pulled away and I felt like I could die of embarrassment.

But there was something in his eyes, there was lust filling inside and I suddenly fell into the same mood he was in. I pushed away the embarrassment as my left hand pulled his collar in so I could keep kissing him.

Our lips kept moving in sync slowly, I didn't care for the air I needed to breathe I just felt like I didn't want to leave his side ever. He started picking up the pace and his kisses became more deeper and desperate.

And I was beginning to grow desperate too, the thought of us together that one night at the ball was engraved into my mind. The way he held me, his touch, his lips on mine. I admit it was inappropriate to act in such a way at his office but I wanted more.

I've always been wanting so much more.

"Levi." I gasped as he began leaving kisses on my neck, his hands gripped on my waist.

"Mmm?" He responded not stopping and god I didn't want him to stop, I've been waiting for this for a long time but logically if anyone walked in I wouldn't be able to live with that knowledge.

"We can settle this in my room." I chuckled but his lips were latched onto my neck not letting go.

A familiar feeling, a feeling I craved every day.

"Levi." I let out a soft moan. "If we start now."

"What?" He stopped and met my gaze with his lustful eyes, it was as if he was daring me to stay.

"I won't be able to stop." I looked at him wondering what my choices were.

"Fine." He stood back up and fixed himself, he placed his mask back on. "One last dance?"

"One last dance?" I smirked. "Fine."

He took my hand and we both headed to the ballroom again.

This was a fun night.