Chapter Twenty
Lust

As the song ended we walked off the dance floor and I felt relieved, my body was aching for his touch as he lets go but it wasn't healthy for me to feel this way.

I needed to get away.

I needed to breathe.

"I need to go." I say before running off and trying to find an exit.

"Wait!" I felt a draft of wind hit my arm but I was much faster, he wasn't able to catch me as I ran through the halls and find a door I could open it.

I closed it shut and I walked towards the balcony, fuck I think this was an office.

I looked around behind me and see how neat it was inside, a clean freak type office.

I shrugged as I looked at the sky, the moon was shining beautifully in front of me. It was calming, I was abke to stay calm for a bit. I just ran away from him.

Shit.

I hope he didn't take it the wrong way.

This was wrong, I didn't think it would go this way. I know I wanted to find someone, but this seemed a bit quick. I haven't felt anything for anyone but maybe that boy when I was young. I've seen relationships happen in front of me, I was given advice before from those in relationships.

I just thought it would feel different.

How is it possible that two different men could make me feel this way?

I like A.L.

Or at least I think?

I don't have feelings for Captain Levi, why would I? I hate him.

But seeing him being nice to me, it felt nice. Maybe that's all what Captain Levi is. I mean, just because you share an intimate dance with someone against your will doesn't automatically mean you're attracted to them.

Yeah.

I like A.L.

Not like in a romantic way yet? He just makes me nervous, I don't know him like that for me to even develop anything for him yet.

I would like to get to know more about him.

Yeah. That's it!

That's how these things usually go? I'm so inexperienced it's painful.

I bet Hange could help! She's good at advice! But should I tell her? What if she gets overly excited and tries to track the guy down? I like the mystery but I want to find it out myself.

Or have him tell me.

To have his trust.

"Hey! Why'd you run away?" The door bursted open and I whipped my head to see him.

A.L.

Fuck.

"You shouldn't be here." I muttered before turning my gaze to the floor.

"You shouldn't either, this is an office that's supposed to be unoccupied. You could get in trouble." He glared at me, his voice getting more intimidating.

"You'd tell on me?" I looked at him with a frown.

"Not if you get out right now." He threatened, he seemed actually upset.

"Damn, did I hit a vein?" I sighed. "But the moon looks very pretty here, I felt suffocated inside the ballroom."

He let out a huge sigh before walking over and looking out with me to see what I was talking about.

"Yeah." He said.

I rested my arms on the ledge of the balcony, I smiled at the sky.

"Crazy enough, I like the feeling this weather gives. It's so peaceful and for a bit it feels like the world is normal." I gushed.

I felt a presence behind me get closer, two arms on the side of my arms and I heard soft breathing on my left side.

I turned to my left slightly and see his face next to mines staring at the sky, oh fuck.

He was beautiful.

Even if I couldn't see what he looks like behind the mask his eyes were beautiful to look at, his skin looked soft and clean. His lips were a light shade of pink and they looked really nice it felt like time stopped.

I looked back up at his eyes to find him staring at me.

"Um, we should get back—" I start but his gaze didn't falter.

He was glued onto me.

"Should we?" He finally said.

"I..." My eyelids flinch a bit as my heart starts racing. "We... We should."

He leans back and stood up straight, he's about to turn around. "Let's go."

Fucking bastard.

Why the fuck would he? What is he playing at?

The way I couldn't describe how my body feel at this moment but I just knew I wanted him.

I needed him.

And he's just going to walk away like nothing? He knows what he's doing.

"Wait." I turned to him and he turned to look at me, I took a hold on his collar and bring his lips onto mines.

Oh god what did I do? I've never done anything like this! What's wrong with me? I'm so nervous even I acted on instinct. I wanted him I had to have him, but this wasn't the way to go about this.

This was inappropriate.

What did I get myself into? This isn't a propery way to act, I made a mistake.

Yet when he kissed me back after 2 seconds it felt like shock went through my body, his lips were soft and I wanted more.

I pulled away quickly and I walked past him. "Now we can."

"Fuck no." He cursed and grips onto my hand pulling me back, he slammed me against the wall and looked at my lips.

He met my eyes before pressing his lips onto mines and grabbing my fingers with his left hand, his right cupped my cheek and I felt the metal part of his ring hit my skin.

"Fuck," I gasped under my breath.

It was overwhelming me, he kept moving his lips more into mines and his tongue finally slipped into my mouth. I felt his tongue exploring my mouth making me release a moan. Something I never expected could ever come out from me.

"You're that fucking horny, huh?" I heard him say before kissing my lips again.

I ignored him as I brought my left hand to his collar and pulled him in closer. I wanted to feel his body against mines.

I felt him grip on my thighs as I jumped on him wrapping my legs around his waist, he brought me to the desk and pushed me down knocking down some papers and pens.

"Shh." I whispered with a smirk as he comes in between my legs and leans down to plant more kisses on my lips.

I didn't expect to feel a rush of adrenaline as his lips attached to my neck, god I craved the contact of his lips on my neck. I never knew that would bring me so much euphoria to feel such contact on my neck.

No one told me it would feel this good.

He left trails going lower and lower down my chest before stopping himself and kissing my lips again. His hands were roaming all over my body meanwhile he grunted into the kiss.

"O-okay, we really have to get back into the ball." I pulled away and pushed him back.

My elbows planted on the desk as he was still leaned into me panting for air, his head rested against mines.

"I don't want to." He panted out. "We're having too much fun."

"But," I opened my eyes and pulled my forehead away making him open his eyes as well. "If we're too loud then someone can—"

He pressed his hands over my mouth with a smirk on his lips.

"Then you should learn to be quiet, how about that?" He replied.

I stared at him as the lust in the room grows, I didn't know where this was going but I wasn't opposed.

I just didn't want to dirty the desk I laid on since it was kept so neat when I got here.

This was so scandalous, doing these things with a stranger in an office away from the crowd.

Hange would've been cheering me on though.

"Good girl." He complimented as he takes his hand off and pulled away. "Let's head back, I've been waiting to dance with you again."

I stood quiet as I got my feet and follow him out, he closed the door behind me and I noticed the front of his suit was a bit messed up.

I placed my hands on his shirt and pushed it in more to make it look smooth and tuck in his tie as well.

In return, he fixed my dress and brushes a few hair strands out of my face.

"Ready?" I asked as I turned to the hallway.

"Come on." He hurried down the hall.

He was quite interesting.

He acted like everything was cool, he didn't take it too far but he did to the point where my stomach did flips whenever I caught him looking at me.

I want him.

And I'm going to get him.