2 YEARS LATER

I was back in Seoul, I had a different outlook on life. First things first I went to get my hair chopped and dyed, a cherry red with silver highlights. I had them spike up my hair like I use to have it. After that, I headed to Magic Mirror Boutique, I walked in just as I was dressed in my Cammy's.

No one knows where I disappeared too, that was good for me until the last week of military service. When they had gathered all the idols who would be going home, my Sargeant stood there with his mouth going up and down like a goldfish. I've never laughed so hard in my life, the others in his command all knew who I was. But I had told them, at that moment in time I wasn't the famous Idol. I was just a 21 yr old woman, doing her service for her country.

- Yesterday -

I was called up on stage, I whispered to the MC before he was going announce who I was. I had asked for a face mask. He gave me one look with awe, his face though was just like my Sargeants. I giggled into my hand, I was given the face mask. I was handed the mic when I first joined a lot of misunderstandings happened.

I cleared my throat, "Hello! First off I would like to clear up some misunderstandings. I know a lot of people questioned why I enlisted when I'm not even Korean, but I came to Seoul at the age of 15 ready to fully accept my fate as an Idol and citizen. Yeah, I know race says a lot but, to be honest with you, I see no difference in our nationalities. I only see differences in our genders. Of course, I have received a lot of discrimination towards the choices I've made. A few even try to bully me, thinking they would have the upper hand. I've been bullied a majority of my life, I truly despise bullies. I hate it, so when I fought back those who tried gave up. But the one person I would like to thank is my commanding officer, you never gave up on me. You pushed me harder than everyone else, thank you without you pushing me to the next level. I don't think I would've made it this far to make this very speech, right now. I hope you enjoy the song that made me who I am, today."

[ play song above ]

I bowed at the last note of the song, it was like a flashback to when I was 17 when I first performed it. But I didn't expect to see a few familiar faces of the directors from Under Nineteen, I jumped up and ran too Solji. I was so happy to see her.

"So this is where you've been hiding, I knew you didn't go completely missing. But no more disappearing, I don't think we could handle it. Your uncle here spilled the beans, he brought us here. Everyone is so worried about you, but as I can see for myself you're perfectly fine. Come it's time to send you home." I tell Kai.

- Present -

I stepped into Magic Mirror, I didn't expect to see 4 out 11 brothers standing in front of me. I stood there, I watched as all of them turned towards me. "Hi! Bye!" I yelled out as I turned and hopped the counter, running out of my store. I ran out of the revolving doors, I skidded to a stop to see the last 3 people I would expect to see.

"Kai, wait we're sorry!" I try to talk to my baby sister.

I looked over my shoulder, "Fuck your sorry, I can't and won't deal with you right now! I'm going to see my mom and dad, Shawn you are relieved of your duties of being my bodyguard. I don't want it anymore nor do I need you holding me back." I looked at my family members.

I walked off to nowhere particular, I found myself in front of YG Entertainment. I really didn't want to go in but I guess I stood out like a sore thumb, it's when I saw him with T.O.P, Daesung and Taeyang Oppa. We stood there for a few minutes, then I just walked away like I didn't see him. I walked off to the side of the building, going towards the back door. I took out my key and went through there. I went up the private staircase, I went through the secret door located in Appa's office. I stepped in when about 15 heads looked up at me, I stepped up not wanting a confrontation.

"You've got to be fucking kidding me! Call me when you don't have visitors, if you don't plan on being alone then I can't tell you about the news of my sister. I'm going home, well if mom and dad let me come home that is."

I cleared my throat, I was starting to get very angry right now. "So who wants to start? I haven't seen her in two years, once you had word she was back you decide to crowd her. I don't think she deserves you guys doing this to her, Eunhyuk had told me she enlisted because some idiot blocked her in joining the police academy. I don't want to hear your selfish ass reasons, but if you stop her one more time and I hear about it just know we are going to have some major problems. NOW GET OUT!"

I was so pissed at them, once everyone left I opened the secret door.
"You can come out now, they are gone." I brought her in a hug, but man she had filled out a little more.

"You know, you shouldn't treat them like that. They just want to see me. It's just three of them are on my shit list right now, I don't know f I could hold back all the anger I have when I see them each and every time. In my eyes, it kinda feels like they backstabbed me, but in all honesty, I'm thankful to them, I'm not mad anymore. I want to thank them, but I'm scared. That they would be mad at me, that I had left. I was angry and I took my anger out on them. But besides missing you, I hired a private investigator. I didn't get an exact location, but she's in china somewhere. Apparently, my sperm donor was going to trade her for money, but he ended up not doing it when I put the word out to all of my gangster friends that I had a non-existent hit on him."

I looked up at Appa, "Can you go with me to go and see mom and dad? I'm kinda scared, I'm tired of the misunderstandings." I tell appa as I let out a sigh, I was tired and hungry and I was homesick.

"No Kai, you have to do it, I won't hold your hand on this one. Come on your an adult now, plus you have to go see your company. A lot has happened since you've been gone, come give me a hug and go out the correct way no more hiding, got it. Once everything is settled down, let's have lunch."

I got my bearings, I put up my hood and opened up the office door. I knew they didn't leave, damn fuckers. "Let's go to the Caffe and get this over with, then we need to go see mom and dad, I've got some news." I ducked when they tried putting me in the elevator, I backed away running towards the stairs. They don't know this but i'm claustrophobic, I don't like elevators because of what my sperm donor did to me. Well only N, Kevin and Mikey know, I made them promise me not to say anything to anyone. I walked down the stairs slowly, because of what happened last I went down the stairs.

I reached the bottom to see them all waiting for me, I stared up into the eyes of my husband. I was about to say something till I feel him lift me up and twirl me around, I just held on to him tightly. I felt better, my anger gone but I was anticipating everything. I let out a giggle, which turned into a laugh. I was set down on my feet, everyone's face that had worry now had smiling faces.

I was led outside, "Can we stop by my company first, I need to drop my USB off. Plus a few artists need me for something. I promise it shouldn't take longer than 20 minutes tops, and if it does I'll just leave." I looked at them as I bit my lip in nervousness. My USB snatched out of my hands, I let it go. They could wait until tomorrow, "Nevermind, I think reuniting with my family should come first."

A car pulled up in front of me as my boss stepped out of his car, along with a few faces I recognized and 2 others I didn't. I waited at the curbside, 13 men varying in ages lined up behind my boss. He had stepped to the side as they did, their greeting. In my head, I was thinking about what the fuck was going on. They had stepped to the side as the other two stepped up and introduced themselves. "Alright what in the fuck is going on?"

"Kai, sweetie I thought if you could you know get to know them. They like your style and wished to collab with you, plus your husband took the initiative and he added them as your adoptive brothers. They know of you but not the whole story." I had told my niece, I waited for her reaction.

I held my hand out, my USB was placed back in my hand and I handed it over. "While I was enlisted, I sent my work to a friend and they helped me put all the songs I've been working on. If I'm not mistaken there's about 3 albums worth plus a mix-take on there, call me if you think they should be dropped it doesn't matter. I'll come up with choreography when I have a chance, but finding my baby sister comes first I'm letting you know now. I've made a lot of friends, who said they will help me out when I need it all I need to do is call and they would help me no doubt."

"Alright, I'm craving for some blueberry waffles and a milk tea. Let's go to the Caffe and then to mom and dad's after. "We'll do introductions later, and you stop staring at me. Take a picture it will last longer." I pointed to one of the two guys that stepped out of Uncle's car.

- At The Caffe -

Once I stepped into the barely lit shop, all the lights flickered on and a sea of faces greeted me. I crossed my arms, I looked around when I see a very guilty Eunhyuk, Crush, and Solji. I let out a sigh, "I should've seen this coming, whatever let's get the celebration going. I've lots to tell you."

We laughed, cried, rejoiced and played around. I was leaning against the wall observing my family. It felt great to be home, but my thoughts went over the news of the investigator told me when I first stepped out of the airport. I might as well get it over with right? I hope no one gets mad, though at my decision. I pulled the manilla envelope out of my back pocket, I grabbed the mic on the counter.

I cleared my throat, but only a handful looked in my direction. "YO SHUT THE FUCK UP! Damn, ya'll need better sense, I have good news and bad news. The bad news is I'm leaving again, let me explain before you go bat shit crazy on me. Granddad has passed me LOUD RECORDS and FILM STUDIO, so I'll be moving to Beijing. The good news is my information on my baby sister, I've got a location but I want to go first. Just in case the information is wrong and I don't want to get your hopes up."

I waited a minute or two, everyone was silent. I put the mic down, turning to the espresso machine I made my specialty. I felt arms go around me, "I know I just got back, but I have to do this. Can I go? I promise once I have the news, you can come and join me. Appa says you go on tour soon, I don't want to interrupt what was already planned. You better do my songs justice," I closed my eyes and slapped my mouth. Shit, they weren't supposed to know. "I mean you better do a great job I mean." I turned and ducked under his arm.

"YO! Can I have everyone's attention, please? It has come to my attention that BIG BANG'S NEWEST ALBUM, has been written and produced by my wife MRS. KAI LEE KWON!" I announced as my band members and brothers all stood up at once, "She ran into the V.I.P room, GRAB HER!"

I heard Jiyong tell everyone, I laughed and went out the balcony. Running along the edges, I hopped over landing in a crouch. I looked up and whistled at them, "You guys are getting kinda slow, if I come up there you have to promise not to question anything." They all promised, but as soon as I climbed up. I was lifted and told to sing one of the new songs, I grabbed Taeyang Oppa. I whispered the song title and he was the first to freak out it was hilarious as ever. I then decided to work my way around the rest of BIG BANG MEMBERS, I grabbed T.O.P and Daesung Oppa whispering in their ears a song title, they freaked out as well. I made my way towards my husband, I made him sit in a chair as I climbed on top of him.

I sat on his lap, wrapping my arms around his neck. I whispered the song title in his ear, not only did he not freak out but he held me closer and started grinding into me. It caught me by surprise, I held back my moan as I hid my face into his neck. I got my bearing and got away from him before I started to rip his clothes off. It didn't help when he was doing his signature lip bite, I had to close my eyes and walk away. I had fanned my face and went to another corner of the room to get myself in order.

I waited till my cheeks cooled down a bit, I looked around to see everything back to normal. Laughing and goofing off, the members of Seventeen all fitting in. It brought a smile to my face, I made my way towards the small stage. I smirked when I see my equipment already set up. I heard a throat clear and I looked behind me, to see one of the new guys I believe his name is Aron.

"I don't think your suppose to be up there messing with someone's equipment, I don't want you to get into trouble, Mrs. Kwon!" I told Jiyong's wife, I didn't really know her. I've never heard of her, but I do know her uncle and all the artists in the room. They were all tied to this young lady, I just didn't know-how

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"It's Aron right?! Well Aron, welcome to my family's Caffe. I can't wait until we could collab, Uncle has been telling me you're rapper am I correct?! Let me ask you an honest question from an American Artist to another, what do you think my forte is? Rap? SInging? Dancing? I'm just curious, enlighten me please if you will? Hold on let me get my family in here so they can hear your answer." I ask him, I think I surprised him with my questions. I laughed when he said he thinks I'm just a dancer.

I walk to put my headphones down and went to the double doors, "Yo everyone please come in here for a second, our new friend Aron has something to say to me and I want you to hear it." I turned and walked back in.

I bowed and pointed to him giving him the go head, "You're just a dancer right?!"

I watch as all my brothers laugh, I watch the other guy I think his name is JR stand next Aron and agree. I put my hand behind me, I felt the face mask being placed in my hands. "I dedicate this song to all of my new Seventeen Brothers and the two Oppa's who only think I can dance. Enjoy yeah, and you're like Jhope Oppa I suggest you sit your ass down and not hurt yourself."

https://youtu.be/JF4YS3GjUX0

I let it rip, I heard a few bodies hit the ground. I shook my head as I made my way up the stage, I feel my beanie being taken off. They tried going for my mask, but I broke some ankles on that one. I would've done Hope but I didn't want any unwanted emotions, so I went for stuck up mode today. Once the song was over, I grabbed my beanie from the floor and placed it on my turntable. I was still tired from my flight, so I decided to sing. I thought long and hard when I got an idea, I laughed quietly to myself.

https://youtu.be/EcUJCbXVna0

I shook my hands out as I grabbed my guitar, I played the song from memory. I thought of Kieran Oppa, I missed my older brother so much it wasn't fair that he got taken from me and it still hurts. I remembered what today was, it was the anniversary of his death. I figured it out when I overheard N & Mikey giving me secretive glances and I heard Kevin being told to watch over me. I went back to the task at hand, as I sang my heart out. I finished singing, the tears pouring down. I heard a few people run up to me when I see N Oppa I flung myself at him as he held me and calmed me down. I pulled away slowly, "Please forgive me, I just figured out what today actually is. It's been two years since my older brother was killed by my sperm donor and Oppa's stepdad. Oh and Aron and JR, don't take it personally but you did assume first. I don't have it in me to dance so if you wish to see that, ask one of them to put on my dance when I was a Trainee."

I walked out of the Caffe, and into the arms of my Dad. He held me close, as I clung to him. "Daddy please take me home, I wish to go home and sleep."

I looked into the eyes of my eldest daughter, she looked tired even after these two years. I picked her up and told Jiyong, we'll be staying at their house for a while. We had only come to visit, we came yesterday after Euhna got the news of Kai taking over the family business. She'll be the director of the newest drama, that I'd be starring in. I couldn't wait to work with my daughter again, it was fun the last time. She made sure none of the female stars harassed me, while me, Shawn, and Soso kept everyone away from her. There was an incident when some girl was groping Shawn and Soso, which made Kai so mad I kind felt bad for the girl.