We were finally getting out of this hellhole as we signed our discharge papers, finally, I can go home and eat real food. Apparently, while we were stuck in this godforsaken place. Which in other words is the worst place ever, I hate this stupid ass hospital. Idols News announced that I won a few awards, I'm still in shock. I haven't said anything since I learned about it. I would eat the nasty hospital food, take my meds, cry and go to sleep. Even when Dr. Kim came in, there was no use. I said nothing, that was until this morning. Mom had given me Tian to change her diaper, I was making funny faces and making small noises to keep her distracted.

I know it wasn't healthy, but the thing about was I had nothing to say. Which I find strange because I'm never quiet. We made our way to the Expedition, I got in the back with my sister. They dropped me and Jiyong and his place, when we got there I wasn't surprised to see everyone there. I just shrugged my shoulders, then walked out onto the balcony.

If I really thought about it, I think its because of all the dangerous events that have happened since going on the show UNDER NINETEEN. I just sort of snapped, going through all the bullshit just after my second audition, being stabbed twice. Being raped, and now getting shot. God must really have it out for me, all these life-changing moments have taken its toll on my mentality, I would often find myself in a daze. I was beginning to scare people, so without no one noticing, I had left. I went to find the voice that I had lost, I know it was bad but I needed the alone time and I didn't want people hovering over me like at the hospital. I couldn't even have a moment to pee in silence, there was always someone talking to me.

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I had watched Kai, from the moment she stepped over the threshold. Her facial expression said it all, I elbowed Mikey, Chanyeon motioning over to Kai's direction. It broke our hearts to see her like this, the pressure was too much for her. So when she decided to leave we let her, we blocked Jiyong from going to look for her. We told him to just let her go, she knows what she needs. We were crushing her space, with us all worrying over her. This wasn't what she needed, she just time to breathe and be away from us. I had noticed it when we told her the news of her winning some awards, she had gone into shock. Her demeanor is what scared me the most, A quiet Kai is just as deadly when she starts to run her mouth at you.

I went to the beach, I sat in the exact spot where Oppa & I sat almost 8 months ago. I thought of everything, the good, the bad, the ugly. Every single thing that makes me different than the old me, I decided to voice my thoughts to Oppa. I placed his photo on a small stand that I brought, I pulled out my phone and turned it over. I took off the back cover, then took out the sim card and battery and placed them in the pit.

I grabbed the clear bottle of alcohol, cracking it open. I didn't care if it was illegal or not, I simply didn't give a fuck at the moment. "Well Oppa, I don't know about you but I have no idea what to do right now. I finally have peace and quiet, but I feel trapped with too many people around me now. I know they love and care for me, but it's gotten to the point where I'm only happy when I'm holding our baby sister Tian. Mom and Dad gave her a cute name. Her initials are T.L.C its adorable, I hope you can help me watch over her when I'm not able to be around her."

I chugged the rest of the bottled and tossed it in the recycling can next to me, I took back Oppa's photo and lit the pit on fire. I know you may be thinking, OH NO YOUR PHONE! But I have a purpose with doing that, I just wanted more silence. When I want them to find me, then I'll let them know. Before I had come here I called up Eunhyuk, I told him not to worry that I was safe and fine. But I truly needed space, but if he can secretly tell mom, dad and Shawn I was okay with it.

I stood up and stretched, I slipped off my sneakers and let my toes sink into the slightly warm sand. I walked down to the shoreline, I say a big walking stick. I picked it up and decided to write down my thoughts in the sand, I guess I wasn't paying any attention till someone tapped my shoulder. "Leave me alone please, I need to think." I heard laughter, I stood up straight getting into a familiar pose.

I turned to see 3 guys and a girl, none of them familiar at all. I braided my hair quickly and put it in a bun on top of my head, I looked at them with a glare, deciding now wasn't a good time to fight but if push comes to shove then so be it. One of the guys grabbed my hair, I tossed the stick into the ocean. I don't wish to kill anyone, I twirled out and caught him off guard by throwing him over my shoulder. Their laughter has gone now, in their places were pissed off looks and a crying girl is all I hear and see.

"I asked you to leave me alone, I won't tell you again." I hear the sound of a switchblade, I shook my head. I was tired and a little tipsy. "Fine you want to fight, let's go." I motioned to the guy with a white snapback and the blade in his hand, I started using my legs to catch him off guard. I used my hands and arms to block, elbowing him in the stomach knocking him on his ass. I straightened up my posture, "Now will you leave me the fuck alone? Or do I have to do more damage than necessary?" I had asked the two that were left.

I walked back towards the hotel, I dusted off my feet and slid my shoes back on. I went in and went straight to the front desk, "Reservation for Lee." I was led to the presidential suite, I went in and went straight to shower, I had closed delivered straight from Magic Mirror Boutique. I about 20 minutes later, I heard the phone ring, "Yes, what is it?"

"Miss Lee, there is a young lady and gentlemen down at the desk asking for you. They had told me to tell you that their names are Jay & Zion!" The front desk manager had said.

"Tell them they have the wrong person! But tell them nicely, I don't want anyone disturbing me."

"But Miss Lee, they said it's urgent. Your Parents, Mikey, and your husband Jiyong. They had a huge car accident and they said your little sister is missing. A man in a face mask went inside your family's vehicle, and took Tian Lee out of the car."

"WHAT?!" That was the only word out of my mouth, till I ran out the door grabbing my wallet and hotel key card.

The elevator was out of service, so I ran to the stairs. I tripped down a few flights of stairs, but at the moment the pain didn't matter. I could only think of my family's welfare, I got up the pain in my ribs and back hurting worse than ever. I think I hurt my ankle, I limped towards the lobby coming out of the stairwell. I fell to my knees, crying out from the pain. The world was tilting, the pain finally catching up to me as the lobbies color was spinning and I saw dancing stars.

- 2 hours later -

"WHAT IN THE ACTUAL FUCK HAPPENED? WHAT DO YOU MEAN YOU DON'T KNOW? SOMEONE BETTER TELL ME SOMETHING!"

I woke to a scream as I sat up a little too quickly, I held my ribcage as it felt like someone gave me a swift kick. I blew out the breathe as I hissed for the pain to ebb away, "Where are my mom and dad? Are they okay? Where's Mikey? Where's Jiyong? Did they find the asshole who took TIAN?" A set of arms helped me up, I looked at N and Channie as one picked me up and placed me into a wheelchair.

"Mom, Mikey, and Jiyong have minor scrapes and bruises. But Dad is still in surgery, it's bad Kai. When he saw the car running the red light and not stopping, he... he... took off his seatbelt and jumped in the back seat protecting Mikey, Jiyong, and Tian." I sobbed into my hands as I tell her about Dad's condition.

"Take me to dad, please. Maybe if I wasn't doing what I did,.... this wouldn't have happened. Maybe Tian would still be with us, maybe if I wasn't being selfish. FUCKING SHIT!!" I explain out of heartache and frustration. "Give me a phone, I need to make a call."

I thought of one person, that was Kris's cousin who worked at the precinct. "I need your help, I know I'm supposed to wait 24 hours, but someone kidnapped my baby sister while they left my family in their current situation. I'll text you a picture, I'm at Seoul Nation University Hospital. I would come down, but they won't let me be discharged. There's only one person I know that would be capable of doing this. He is angry at my mother and me." I explained to him, he said he would be here in 10 and bring the officers who are looking into the case already about my dad.

I turn to them, "The Captain said, the kidnapper left a note. He will bring it so we could read it, there are fingerprints on it. He said my dad is known for doing some shady ass shit, they will do their utmost to help us and they will send someone to the companies to explain everything." I put the breaks on the wheelchair, I stood slowly making my way to the wall. It felt like I was going to fall, so I leaned on it so it can keep me from falling over.

About 10 minutes after my world stopped spinning, the light went off from surgery. Out stepped Dr. Kim and another Dr, they looked at me. I couldn't read their expressions, I stood up straight, "How is my dad? Is he okay? Just give it to me straight, no beating around the fucking bush." My temper was sky high, I was clenching my fist so hard. I smelled the stench of blood, but I didn't dare look down.

"Easy Kai, you don't need any excitement. But your father is perfectly fine, something punctured his liver. But we were able to get to it in time, he will wake up in a few hours. How about you let me see to both of your hands, then I will personally escort you to his room." I tell her as she gives me a deadly look, nodding soon after.

I try to take a step towards Dr. Kim but me being me I trip over my own two feet, I just let it go I was too tired to even go into a forward roll. "Thanks, Dr. Kim for everything you've done for me," I tell him as he catches me from hitting the cold tiled floor, I felt my world go black again. This wasn't good, but at that moment I needed to know the damage I had caused for trying to pursue my dreams. Maybe if I never even had the dream of getting my voice heard, no one but myself would be hurt. I was going in a downward spiral, I had made the decision to leave and find my sister myself and not drag anyone else in my mess that I had created. No one can tell me any different, nothing else mattered but my little sister finding her before she goes through what I did.

- 3 days later -

I left the hospital, I went straight to the salon. I chopped off my hair, I had told them my reason for joining. I didn't expect any special privileges, I told them to make training extremely hard for me. I wanted to push myself to the extreme. I sent a message to the Captain, I sent him an image of what I was doing and I would see him in a few months. I told him my family knew nothing of what I was going to do, and they should not be informed of my whereabouts. As soon as I stepped through those doors the room got quiet, I froze in my tracks till I heard a voice I thought I would never hear again.

Fuck my life right now, I placed my snapback on my head after pulling my hood off. I took my hoodie off, as I cracked my neck a few times. IU had stepped in front of me, "Oh look boys fresh meat, this is going to be really fun. I hope you don't mind, when I heard you were coming to the academy I asked the Captian to put you in my command. This going to be so much fun, I can't wait to see you break little one. Let's just call it payback, for embarrassing me on the show with you husband. I wonder if he knows your here, maybe I should call him and brag to him that you are finally in my grasp."

I scoffed in her face, "You go ahead and do that, just remember my warning to you from the show. You fuck with me, I'll put you in a body bag. I'm not here to play IU, I'm here so I can find my baby sister who was kidnapped 3 days ago. So if your done making a fool of yourself, then I suggest you run back to where you crawled out of. But if the Captain can do me a favor, lets fight first that way you can see how serious I am in completing my training and graduating sooner."

I was taken aback, by what kai had said. So it was true, her baby sister was missing. The captain's boss, my father was the head in the investigation. I wanted to tell her, but she wasn't one of us yet. I raised my eyebrow at her when she asked to fight me. If she wanted a death wish, then I guess I'll have to give it to her. "Let's go little girl and see what you got."

I lead her outside to the ring, I took off my hat. "Rules anything goes except scratching, pulling hair and biting. No weapons of any sort, but don't worry I'll go easy on you rookie." I smirked at her, who knew I should've kept my mouth shut.

As soon as she said she would go easy on me, I pounced on the bitch putting her in a hold and knocking her unconscious. "Next time read my file before you decide to try and take me on, I'm skilled in most things. Especially fighting, I just don't show all my cards. I still have a whole deck, try me again when you wake up."

"You, in the hat. Follow me the Lieutenant wants you, let's go. Can someone please take IU to the infirmary please, let me know when she comes to." I tell the rookies, that was outside. "You show promise, just try to reign in your temper. Otherwise, it will get the best of you, in the worst situation you will face." I tell the girl.

"Listen here sir, I know what I'm supposed to do in any given situation. Like I told Sargeant IU, read my file then you will understand my temperament. My cousin-in-law already informed me of my do's and don'ts, so please don't try to lecture me it won't work and you're wasting your breath." I sighed following the idiot directing me to her dad.

"Lieutenant Mrs. Kwon is here!" I opened the door shoving the girl in. I felt bad, she was about to get kicked out for fighting already.

"Mrs. Kwon, it's a pleasure. I've always wanted to meet you, please don't tell my daughter but I'm a huge fan. Here's the thing, the hire ups don't think you will follow procedures here. I'm sorry but I'm going to have to ask you to leave."

I raised my eyebrow, "Sir, I understand but you guys aren't moving fast enough. You say your a huge fan, but that means nothing to me. My sister is a baby for fuck sake, I know where I'm coming from. But what would you do in my situation, would you just sit idly and let that person get away with what he has done. I would give up everything I have to get my baby sister back, I'll retire if that's what it takes. I don't care, I just want her back where she belongs. I don't want her growing up without any sort of protection, without her real family. I don't want her growing up, having to experience what I had went through. You say your a fan, I'm not the famous Kai at this moment. I'm Kai Lee Kwon, married to G-dragon. Daughter of Euhna Kwon, stepdaughter of William Chan. little sister to N, Kevin and Chanyeon and Noona to Mikey Lee. I have another way, trust me but this would be faster. So what will it be?" I crossed my arms over my chest, as 3 other people step into the room and they don't seem to be very happy with me.

"Are you kidding me, Kai? You're seriously going to do this? There's no turning back once you get that badge, you know that right? No fucking around, are you really gong to give up being an Idol so you could be excepted here?" I was disappointed here, but I understood exactly how she was feeling. When Kris called me earlier, I was shocked to find out she snuck out. "If this will make you happy, then do it. I just don't want you regretting anything."

I looked at everyone in the room, I shook my head. "Whatever, you losers go look for her. Just keep me out of it, and stay out of my life. I'm fucking done, don't let me see you on the streets because I'll literally beat the shit out of you. I guess in your head, me being an Idol is more important than finding my little sister" I moved out of their out stretched hands and walked out the Lieutenants office, I side stepped the guy who brought me here.

"Fine, if I couldn't do it this way. Then I guess, I'm about to go travelling alone, I think it was for the best, to distance myself from them. I will regret telling them that, but so will they. I walked to dad's room, I left him a letter telling him I'm leaving and I won't be back till I find her.

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The epilogue is next once it hits 15 reads. Thank you to everyone who has read my book, from the bottom of my heart I truly appreciate it the most.

- Luna ♥♥