"Kai, there's a whole squad outside, looks like a girl is the leader. They said to tell you that your granddad and grandmother sent them, they apologize for being late." I looked at Taeyang Oppa as he told me the message.

I looked up, I pulled Channie and had him go out there pretending to be me. I exited out the balcony, climbing up on the roof. I stayed in the shadows, making sure they did not see me. I could hear Channie tell them that they would perform out here for him and he will see what he can do, he might make an exception. It only depends if they do a good job at their own performance.

[ Introducing Yeji Kim as Mina, Kai's older cousin, and her dance crew ]

I ran jumped down and totally fucked up their choreography, I smirked at them. "You're good but I'm better! How about you show me the best you got, and only you, If my boys decide you're better than me than your in, no questions asked. I will give you keys to a house and access to Kai's cars. Deal?" I put my hand out and she shook it.

"You first!" I bowed in respect. She was damn good and I could tell some of the boys would be falling for her easily.

[ Mina ]

I watched her from my spot not moving one bit, "Vote after we bothe dance, that way it's fair also I think it would be a good idea if you team votes as well. I believe in equality, I don't cheat, I don't steal and I don't lie, I also hate bullies the most. To be honest, you damn good and I think Kai would love to have you on her team." I looked at the boys and winked at them.

"Give me a water bottle please!" I pulled out my beanie and took off my long sleeve, I was standing in a turquoise T-shirt. Some handed me the water, I opened it and poured it on my head. The pink and red disappearing changing into my black as night hair color, I pointed to Taeyang Oppa. "Give me your hoodie, please. Oppa, don't be jealous you know I love you." I ran my hand through my hair a few times and shook out the excess water, my bangs soon started to flare out. I put the hoodie on and pulled down the face mask, I was still facing my boys. I gave them the nod to play the song, I did a corkscrew backflip, facing the other crew.

I got in position, as my body hit beat by beat, I could hear the gasps from the other team. "Shit, it's her! She's not what I expected, at all. I wonder why she chose to go against Mina, instead of all of us." Ben had said.

I danced up to the guy who spoke, "Easy when I see someone who has the potential and the drive to be great. Granted you have it, but she has that fire in her eyes. Plus it wouldn't be far if I asked my boys, who are all idols already now would it? I want to give you a chance, once upon a time, someone gave me a chance, only because of the hope I had and the dream to have my voice heard. I didn't always have this girl tone, it took me 17 years to finally have my true voice but its also a burden when I love my original voice as you heard earlier."

I walked to Channie, I whispered in his ear to have them sign it. I walked over to Mikey, whispering in his ear give them the keys and please guide them to the house. "All important numbers are listed, along with your work phone please make sure you put me on speed dial. I'll see you later after you rest, Deuces!" I told them as I walked back inside.

It just so happened my phone rang again. I let out a loud sigh. I swiped up and pushed the speaker button.

Phone Conversation:

K: Yo It's Kai! How can I help you?

Unk Caller: Hello this is Idol Radio, we would lie to have you on our show tonight.

K: Sure, why not? Is there anything you need else? I'm kinda busy hosting auditions, Just tell me the time I have to be there. I'll make sure I'm punctual.

Unk Caller: Actually Miss Kai, could we just have your female persona tonight and not the male, we would like to discuss the release of your album that hit stores and online two hours ago.

K: What? Oh well, that's kind of impossible because I have both personas on the album. If you don't like then you can...

The phone was snatched out of my hands and a hand covered my mouth.

K: This is G-Dragon, she'll be there with more respect and lest attitude.

I didn't mean to but her attitude was getting on my nerves, I could see the look of hurt in her eyes as I glared at her. "You can't be like that Kai, what the hell is wrong with you?"

I removed his hand from my face, I walked away. "If you don't see what my problem is, then ask someone who does know. You heard them, they had asked me to leave the male persona at home, and only to bring my female one. That's like telling me not to breathe, in my eyes that was total disrespect to who I am." I glared at him. I didn't hold back this time, but I let him have it, "It's like asking me to take a break because your brothers want a chance with me. It's like telling me you no longer love me because you lost interest. It's like pushing me away, because of your honor and loyalty to my brother. It feels like fucking betrayal Jiyong. I'm out, Channie tell them they all made it and to move them to the new house. I'll be there later, I have to get to this stupid ass show now." I kick open the door, hearing the glass shatter.

"What the fuck Jiyong, we all heard it. Why are you getting mad at her for them making a mistake, N told you to stop making her cry. I can't help you anymore if that's all your going to do." I snap at my maybe, maybe not brother in law.

I ran out of the Caffe, to see a now bleeding Kai getting on her bike. I catch her before she hits the ground, I open up my phone. I leave a voice note, "I need your help, my little sister is hurt come to pick us up at the park a block away front of the Caffe."

I carried her bridal style, I didn't know the whole story so I decided to wait for her to tell me. I looked down at her face, her tears were still falling. "From everything our little brother has told me, you have been through so much. I'm sorry I came to late to protect you, but I'm here now I promise nothing else with hurt your heart. I'll protect it as if it were mine." I swiped her bangs to the side as I dabbed at her tears.

I saw the car pull up, I got in. "Hu torry take me to the new house, Mina is not going to like this at all."

- at the new house -

I slammed opened the door, "Mina! Get the first-aid kit, hurry we have to get the glass out of her arms before it gets infected." I move to the side, your probably wondering how I know Mina. We are childhood friends, I had told her about my new adopted little sister. She was so happy about it and wanted to meet her, I told her about a K-Idol was holding and told her to ask her great-uncle and great-auntie. To send her to Seoul, and that my new little sister is the same idol hosting the auditions. I had told Kai about it on the plane, she already knew of Mina and her crew. Yep, she's related to Kai, some how I'm not going into the specifics. What I didn't know that Mina, had already known who kai was and they were rather close. It's just Mina had to go back to Beijing because her mom got sick.

"What happened to Kai? How the hell is there this much glass?" I yelled at Chan-Chan.
"I know it isn't your fault but how the hell did this happen, tell me now so I can beat their asses." I tell him in a stern voice.

"She received a call from Idol Radio, they wanted to discuss her newest album that was just released. But they think they could just tell Kai to be one persona and not the other, but that's just who Kai is. It made Kai angry. She was about to tell them off but Jiyong Hyung said she would be there and more respectful. In Kai's eyes that was being totally disrespectful towards her, I guess they have some drama which I have no idea about but we will get there when it's time to." I had explained to Mina as she was busy wrapping bandages around Kai's arms.

Dammit, what the hell. I could feel the beginnings of a migraine coming, I called the boys watch over your new boss and my cousin please. I'm about to beat some ass, I grabbed the bike keys on the rack. I revved the engine and peeled out of the garage. No one hurts my familiy intentional or unintentional. I had texted Chan-Chan to send me the photos and parked in front of the door. I walked towards the back and hopped up the wall and climbed up to the balcony. I walked in to see some guy yelling at some dude with a very mad expression on his face, I clenched my hands in fists.

"Which one of you is Jiyong, My little cousin's Fiancee." I yelled out loud and crossed my arms, waiting for a response.

"I know I've only known her for what? Since she was 16, but us Lee's are hot-tempered and unless we get knocked out it's very easy for us to get hurt. I don't know what happened between you too, I know it wasn't your intention. But Kai is at the house, bleeding all over the new couch. She's going to be very pissed that she ruined a nice ass couch, I suggest you find away to ask her why she is still holding a grudge for hurting her the way you did. Maybe she hurt you, but it was never intentional. Do you even know why she has anxiety attacks? Do you know why her anger is so unstable? DId you know that she loves you so much that her whole fucking album is songs she wrote for you?" I looked at his face, I slid the CD towards him and walked away. "I really hope you figure it out, I don't want my little cousin to give up her love she has for you." I look at him one more time and went back out the way i came in.

- Deuces Manor ( The house she had built for everyone going on tour w/her ) -

I woke up as the sun was still in the afternoon sky, I sat up slowly. I looked up to see Mina hugging Channie, they looked like the perfect couple. I secretly took my phone out and took about 10 pictures, with special effects. I looked around, I looked at the blood that stained the couch, "fucking bitch I just bought this couch." I pulled myself up slowly, I flexed my hands into fists to test out how damaged my arms were. Slowly and quietly I walked towards the kitchen, I see the white board. On the left side was my neat hand writing, on the right side someone had written down the names of everyone in the house. I leaned against the dining room table, I opened up my contacts and imputed each and everyone in. I also took pictures sending them to my email for backups then I deleted everything.

I stretched my arms as my back popped into place, I looked at the time. I guess, girly it was today. I went upstairs and straight to my room, I grabbed the hair extentions and bobbing pins, I made sure everything was nice and pretty and in place, I grabbed a fake tattoo sheet from my closet and placed it on my forearm, after that was done. I searched within my whole closet finding the off the shoulder romper and my long wool coat. Jiyong better appreciate it that I trust him with everything, I hope he doesn't take it heart about what I said, and understands I was mad. I found my black lace up thigh high boots, I sat down at the vanity and started to do my make up. I made the tough decision of not wearing a mask today, I took a picture and sent it to MINA & Mikey.

I made my way into the bathroom, grabbin the liquid tape of my skin color and covered up the cuts on my arm. Making sure to use a beauty blender so they couldn't tell just in case I ended up taking off my jacket. Doing the final touches on my lipstick, I walk out my bedroom and down the stairs.

"KAI? WHAT THE IN THE FUCKING HELL ARE YOU WEARING?!" I yelled from down stairs.

I looked down at a very frustrated Channie, "These are called clothes dumb ass! Don't ask stupid ass questions, oh and you aren't allowed to tell me what I should and shouldn't wear. You got that? Mina, lets go your coming with me. Boys behave CHannie's in charge with Mikey, I ordered food since I didn't have time to cook tonight." I looked at Mina, I shook my head and got in the car. I opened the glove and handed her a pair of Versace Sunglasses, that matched mine. I put in the one earring I had gotten from Unnie Yuna, my hair tucked behind my ears and ready to go.

I drove over to the Caffe first, I had to deposit money for a new door or Appa will skin me alive if I don't. Plus I needed some milk tea, "Hey Mina, can you tell that I am Kai?" I had asked her.

"No you look like a very asian version of Ariana Grande!" I tell my little cousin, she truly and honestly didn't look like the kai from earlier.

"Perfect, lets go I'm buying milk tea for us and for the radio show. You didn't tell Jiyong anything about my album, did you? Nevermind, what which one did you give him?" She held up the blue labeled CD, "That's my next one to release, you gave him the All-star's songs."

"Atleast I didn't give him the real CD, the one with all your love songs." I tell Kai.

"You gave him my mixtape, stupid that's even worse than my actual CD." I calm down, "Dude if we weren't related I'd toss your ass off the fucking balcony, Please next time you want to trick him think of something else please." I tell her as I sigh

I look at the front entrance, of the Caffe to see my brothers cars and Jiyong's as well. I pray he isn't near the door, Mina opens the door and tells me to go in. I have my hand covering my mouth as I walk in swaying my hips back and forth, I make my way to the counter to see Kevin Oppa. I pull down my shades, and whisper in his ear. "I swear if youhave thoughts of tattling on me, I swear I'll tell your girlfriend all of your dirty little secrets." I put my shades back on, I order me and Mina's drinks.

Out of the corner of my eye, I see 3 people walk up and try and get my attention. i just ignore them, the short idiot also known as Taeyang Sunbae. Tries to drop me a pick up line, my response was nothing

"Hyung, please don't hit on her, Kai is going to kill me if you make our V.I.P guest mad. She's famous from California, a famous singer." I glared at Mina, "笨蛋 ( stupid ass, idiot )" i grab our drinks, "If you can have that order I placed and sent to the Idol Radio studio, I'd appreciate it. Kai said that even though she's hurt she will try her hardest to keep the promise that her fiance had made to the studio. I pulled out 350,000 won and left, keep the change." I was chanting in my head, for them not to recognize my voice.

"You do realize she just called you a stupid, right?" I hear N tell my brothers.

"Mina, Run." i toss her her drin as she catches it.

"Taeyang I'm telling Jiyong you tried to hit on Kai again." I hear Mina yell from the balcony as I see her jump down.

I turned and waved at them, I saluted and took off. But I skidded to a halt, when I see who was at the door already. I sipped my drink and waited for him to budge, but he stepped towards me. I took off my jacket, because it was getting rather warm.

"Let me see baby girl, what damage did you get when you shattered the door." I said to her as I took a step forward as she took a step back, "If you show me, i'll pretend you never said those things earlier." I backed her into a corner.

My head was bowed, "You're mind might forget, but the heart always remembers." I felt a few tears leak out. I turned and stared at the wall as I clenched my fist, I punched it once. He stepped in front of the wall, preventing me from hitting it. I swung with my other one, I stopped inches from his face.

I felt something cold going up and down my arms, I hissed out in pain. I held back my sobs, biting hard on my bottom lip. I could taste the coppery taste of blood on my tongue, I clenched my fists again. "I'm sorry, I should have said those things to you. But what they said made me mad, how could they ask me that when that voice is the reason I am here. It almost made me start to to believe what is tattooed on my back." I whispered, not even having the power to fight as he puts disinfectant on me ansd re-applies the makeup on my arms.

"Baby girl, can I ask you two things? After that, I won't ever ask again." I ask Kai as she gives me a nod. "What happened when you were 16? Why do you have anxiety attacks?" I whisper in her ear.

I pulled him to the balcony and sat him on the love seat outside, "It was the day after I got to perform on stage with you guys, back then I was really quiet still and kept to myself. The only one out of everyone who actually saw me struggle was Daesung, he had saw me fall and he caught be a little to late when i landed on my the still healing stitches. He was one of the few people, who encouraged me to continue to fight for my dream. The accident had me where I couldn't walk for 9 whole months. It took a lot of work, but I was able to start walking and dancing again. During the whole process of healing though, many people whom I thought cared for me, they would just come and see and always told me I should just give up and to start finding something else to do with my life. Theraphy didn't work, but one day at work I was having another anxiety attack. Daesung just so happened to come in that day and put on the song FXXK IT, the memory of my Dancing on stage with you guys helped me that day and it still helps me." I explain everything to Jiyong.

"So you do remember me than, the only difference you have more confidence in yourself and your a chatterbox. I always knew you would achieve your dreams one day, I had hoped and prayed for you. I believe this is yours." I looked at Daesung wen he handed me a small box.

I opened it, I sobbed into Jiyong's chest. There laid on a red velvet cushion, was my best friends bracelet. "My bestfriend had let me borrow it before the concert, but when she had picked me up for school we got hit on both her door and my door. I've been looking for this for 3 years, I didn't know that I lost it on stage that day."

I stood up and hugged Daesung, "Thank you for all you've done for me, back thena nd even now." I looked at, "Come on let's go before I'm late, they have a stage ready for me to perform. I have to be there early to get the run down, after that let's go home so I can cook dinner. Oh, and before I forget give me my mixtape back please, Mina gave you the wrong one on purpose but she wasn't lying about all the songs either."

I was in the backseat of the car, it was just me and Mina. "Mina after today, don't meddle with my relationship okay, I don';t need anyone making it any more worse thasn it is."

I watched my little cousin, sob and hold back her tears. "I will, my bad but I don't want it to be like last time. I had lost Myst, I'm not about to lose you either. I will try not to okay." I grab he hand in mine and place it on my shoulder.

We had parked the car, I had gotten out slowly. I looked up when a hand was placed in front of me, I see a bouquet of calla lilies in front of me. How did he know my favorite flowers, I've told anyone about.

"I guessed from your fake tattoo on your arm, this is the reason I didn't ride with you. i'm sorry I was just so mad and I snapped at the wrong person." I said to her my tears slowly falling down as I help her out of the backseat.

I just nodded my head as we were rushed inside, I fanned my face to fan away my tears. I was handed a bass guitar. They placed a mic on my and made sure everything was in place. I walked out on stage and was offered a stool, I happily sat down. The on air sign went on and it was starting.

"Anneyeosaheyo, Ni Hao, Kumasta Na, Hola and Helo Kai-inmida. Please take care of me." I said to the audience.

"Alright, before we start. We would like to formally apologize to you for being rude to you on the phone earlier. We didn't mean to say that earlier we hope you can forgive us here at Idol radio." The host said.

"I would like to apologize as well, I was rather rude and you did not need that from me. You were just doing your job. If you look under your seat, you get a LIMITED EDITION KAI HOODIE AND SIGNED COPY OF MY ALBUM. I looked to Jiyong and everyone else, "You guys yours is in the car, don't worry. I would also like to sing two of the bonus tracks that can only be found on this CD."

I stood up as I see the musician, give me the nod. The stool was moved, "This is to my fiance, I love you!"

I sang in the mic, then I let it rip as I played the guitar. I laughed quietly as everyone's jaw dropped, I think some of my party fainted again. I started singing and hopping around the stage, dude I knew making this song was so totally out of the box. I was having so much fun, till it was finally over. I bowed as everyone got on their feet and was clapping so loud.

It went straight into the next song, some one and came and took the guitar away.

What no one knows that on the CD that I had given out, came in 6 different languages and not only english. I switched up the language as I sang it in Chinese, then Korean, then in Thai, then back English. I sang the last note and walked off the stage, I walked into the dressing room and sat down. I was burning up and that meant I was going to get sick, fuck just what I needed.

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Hey everyone, I hope you love this book just as much as I do. Jiyong and Kai, have alot of drama. But relationship doesn't. The book will be ending soon, there will be a book 2 but Kai will be making a cameo's. You don't have to read it tho, The book will be called D2D, DARE 2 DREAM.