It was 3 am when we came home and showered, N and Taeyang Oppa carried him into my room and tossing a blanket on him. Instead of leaving tho they fall peacefully on the bed with him, I grabbed extra pillows and blankets from the hall closet and covered them. 

I leaned over Jiyong giving him a kiss, I walked out in the outfit for today's filming. I stretched as I see half of my brothers still awake and chatting, everyone that was coming was just my brothers and the kids. The wives and girlfriends have a day off, with some convincing I had asked N's fiancee to be a tour guide this time. That's right he asked her last week on her birthday, I rummaged the fridge. Deciding to make 3 pots of hangover soup, because the idiots were drinking. The only non-drunks were Mikey, T.O.P, and Kevin, I was called out of my thoughts with a flick to my head.

"Morning Noona, you almost ready to go? Daesung hyung should be almost ready to take us, the kids will be there in about 2 hours they're getting fitted." I tell my sister.

"Yeah, I.. I was thinking about Oppa. I miss him so much, that's all." I hug Mikey. "It's cold outside, make sure you bundle up!" I remind him.

"I know it's cold, but look what you're wearing. I can't believe you would walk out the door in ripped jeans, sneaks and a tank top with no problem." You're a brave and strange one.

I leaned over the counter ruffling Mikey's hair giving it that roll out of bed look, I smiled as he swatted my hands. The front door opened, "Let's you two, boss man says if he gets there be for us we get punishment." I grab my wallet, house keys and phone, and my beats.

We rush down the stairs and into the carport, and into the warm ass car. "You ready Mikey for the day, to notice you? You know I'm proud of you, as a sibling should be. Oh before I forget, make sure everyone eats before they come to the set." I tell one of my many older brothers.

https://youtu.be/uxXj1_fhDSQ

I could hear everyone's comments, wondering what the hell was going on. Today we are filming two versions, American and Japanese. I watch from the side as it's Mikey's turn to start. I see him struggle, then taking a breath and working at it again. Next up was Melody, I could see Leo start to worry. I walked up cause my dancing bit was coming up.

"Alright That's a wrap, everyone please get the fuck out. Kai, we film again edition in 2 hours." I hear the director say from his perch.

"Meet us by the Caffe, we chose a warehouse than a school. It will just be the singing parts and please bring with you Zion and Aimee and Aaron please." I just nod my head and walk over to where the girls were, I see Aaron talking up a storm with Jiyong and Taeyang Oppa.

"Alright let's go, it's your time to shine. Director-nim said 2 hours tops and you can go an play after deal? Let's go grab Aimee and Zion, then we can head out." I walked away from my husband and brother.

"YAH! Where's my kiss?" I hear Oppa yell out.

I shrug my shoulders, turning around and walking away.

--- In the Car ---

I put the phone on speaker, "Yeah hurry all the others are in place, I can't believe you had me lie about a Japan edition. But at least they get to know why you love the song FXXK IT."

I was smiling super big, so here's the deal "Oppa had arranged it for a few of our brothers to perform FXXK IT for them, top it off we are wearing the exact same outfits they wore on the comeback special."

I sped off towards our destination, I'm glad the weather was still cold. Because if it were hot, I think I would faint due to the Jacket that Jiyong had worn that day.

We pull over and jump out heading into the warehouse that looked exactly like the set from the comeback special, we ran to make up as fast as we could and changed our clothing. "YAH! why do these smell like OPPA?!" I had yelled out. 

"Oh, we got replicas of the ones they used and sprayed each one with their own cologne." The Unnie stylist tells me. I see Secretary Kim run in out of breath. 

"Kai they are here and they are pissed! What do I do?" She asks me

I get up and walk over to her, "Tell the four if they don't calm the fuck down, I'm busting some knee caps. Oh, you know what, watch out." I opened the door I yelled out, "IF THE FOUR OF YOU DON'T CALM THE FUCK DOWN, YOU WON'T EVER KNOW WHAT FXXK IT REALLY MEANS TO ME LIKE EVER!!"

I hear a bunch of sorries and we will stop, "BIRTHDAY BOY, I HOPE YOU ENJOY YOUR SECOND HALF OF YOU BIRTHDAY GIFT!!"

I giggle, I see YG run over towards me. "KAI, you should have seen their faces when you yelled out the first time. They actually looked scared, Omg you guys are like two peas in a pod, I understand now why you love to dance to this song. I should had see this coming, have fun and Kai I can't wait to make Jiyong my son in law." I watch as he walks away holding back his sob, I shake my head.

"Alright, guys places everyone." We go behind the hidden wall on the other side, sits the 4 that I love dearly and each one holds a special place in my heart. I lean back in the spot I'm in. They couldn't see me but I could see them, "So the reason I love this song so much is when I fell in love with Jiyong when you guys did the MV and the comeback special. I was there at the venue, well I was one of the backup dancers. The only difference is I was 16 at the time, My adopted father Leeteuk got me the part when YG came and saw me dancing in the studio at the CAFFE. SO I think it's fate that we ended up together and you guys ended up adopting me. That's why I love to dance to this song so much."

( Video is up above: Pretend N is Taeyang, Kai is G-dragon, Yongha is T.O.P, Mikey is Daesung and Kevin is Seungri)

The revolving wall slid to the right as the lights landed on N, I laughed out loud when I saw his hair and clothing. I waved from my perch at the boys, I see them point up at my blonde hair and all. It was my part, as I looked down at them I slid down the rail and landed next to N. The choreography that I made was used in this. It was Yongha's turn I could see the boys, smile and point. I was more fierce tho I was dancing the whole time. Mikey came out actually singing this time brave as ever. I went near the little cart, pulling Kevin. Everyone doing their parts. we all lined up just like the comeback special as all the dancers came out of the woodworks.

I looked at them, "Hold on we haven't even started yet, we have 1 more song and then we can go play and do whatever." I backflipped off the stage landing in the splits.

"Hey Jiyong can you do that?" asked Daesung

"Pabo, I have a nut sack if I did that I can't have babies with Kai." I hear him whisper shout.

We run and go and change. I take off the blonde wig and fix my now black hair, I no longer use permanent dye I use instant now only difference I need about 10 bottles. I laugh at loud when everyone comes out.

https://youtu.be/vFTYx20Sees

( The same order of listed a few lines up )

I see all the black curtains raise and cover all the windows, the lights go dark as we hurry to the middle we were on flat ground. Same level as them, my glow in the dark shoes squeaking against the warehouse floor. "I hope you're ready, and you enjoy this."

I checked our formation, everything was all good. One huge spotlight turned on, I could hear the gasps and oh my fucking gods from our position. I tried to hold it in but I almost choke. "I'm good my bad."

I was having fun, I don't know about everyone else. I could see the boys all stand up and even dance with us, just for the hell of I changed up the choreography, I even twerked some. we went back to the original choreography. N and I even switched parts I didTaeyang'ss little solo and the backflip since I knew he couldn't.

The song changed, no singing this time. we only mimic the song. I was getting tired. I sat down, quickly and laid back breathing hard. "Turn off the music now please, I'm done for now." I watch as all of the others collapse right along with me.

I turned over and did a few one-handed push-ups, then I hopped up. "Let's go I'm hungry," I tell them. I strip off the white hoodie, not only remembering I was hearing a halter top where not only 1 tattoo is showing but 3 others are visible. No has ever seen them, I laugh at their faces.

"Quit staring they are just tattoos, I've had all 5 four about 3 and a half years now." The pixie girl on my forearm says Delicate, The words bite me on my collar bone, I have a gdragon symbol on my other forearm, then I have a tribal heart with Kieran and now Mikey's name on my shoulder.

"Wait, How come we've never noticed these?" Jiyong asks me.

"Easy, it's called makeup plus. I was told to hide my tattoos when I was on the show. The only one I didn't was the one on my abs." I tell him

"Where's the last one?" Taeyang asks me excited.

I pull my sweats off, it started at my ankle bone and trailed upwards. "Flower Road" was tattooed in Japanese and Korean on the sides of my calf following a flowery path. It ended mid-thigh, I had four names tattooed there. I pulled it down and walked away, I needed some air because it just became 100 times tense in the room.

I stopped right before I exited the warehouse, "Your music changed my life forever, It gave me the courage and the right to fight and to survive. I thought you had the right to know just how much you guys mean to me. You're my family, why would I think anything. I don't need to be pitied or babied, but I will cherish those moments when you did. Because it's you that saved me from myself and stopping me from walking a lonely and dark path."

I continued to walk, I sat on the trunk of my car. Everyone else had left to meet up at the Caffe, I didn't feel like going at the moment. I wanted a relaxing atmosphere where it was just us, I was thinking and spacing out. When I heard a throat clear, I jumped in fright yelping when I banged the back of my head on the back window.

"Next time give me a heads up, that way I can prepare myself and stop being so scared or frightened please." I sigh in relief as I rub the spot.

"Let's chill just the 5 of us." I looked at Taeyang Oppa.

I was going to nod and accept but Daesung said he was out cause he had to catch a plane. I looked at the rest, who are waiting for my answer. "Sure, we haven't done that in forever."

I slid off the trunk slowly, I was pulled in a hug when I noticed the 3 get in the car. I stop and hand the keys to Taeyang Oppa, I went in the back and sat in Jiyong Oppa's lap. My legs were pulled to the side and I laid there resting my head on Oppa's chest.

I was getting sleepy when my stomach made itself known. I almost cried in embarrassment, the guys laughing. I pouted, then 3 other stomachs made themselves known. "Who's cooking?" I ask softly I didn't hear who had answered as I slowly drifted off to sleep.