I made my way up the stairs, I heard my phone go off. "Hello!" I say into the phone.

"Kai? Where are you? Why aren't you at the car?" I ask her.

"Well I got tired of waiting and I walked home, It's not far why? What's going on Oppa? Why do you sound so frantic?" I started to worry.

"Stay there, I'll pick you up. I'll explain when I get there." I tell her
Shit, how were we going to explain that both Kieran and Mikey got hit by a car. One is gone while the other is just barely holding on.

T.O.P Oppa, looked me straight in the eyes. It looked like he was crying.
"Come on, Little one we need to head to the hospital." He pulled me to the car, he drove carefully and he kept looking at me.

"Pull over right now, Tell me now, who got hurt? Your facial expression is scaring me." I asked him calmly.

i gulped, "Your brothers got hit on the way to the house, Kai it's bad I don't the who is gone and who is still alive. Jiyong is there along with both of your dad's and N. I came to get you as soon as I could."

All of the blood went rushing to my head, "Oppa drive please, because if you don't I will get out and cause some trouble, I'm going to tell you this once." I stopped talking at once.

play song

As soon as he pulled into the parking lot, I didn't even wait till he stopped. I hopped out and ran for the entrance, I was blinded by my tears. I saw the boys and uncle, the look on his face didn't look good at all.

I sank to my knees as the tears came forward, I held back my cries. I just sat there on my knees, "Kai, We lost KIERAN." I look at Uncle and shake my head, I whispered out "What happened? How? TELL ME GOD DAMN IT HOW THE FUCK DID THEY LOSE MY OPPA?" I pulled the hands off of me, "Kai, MIKEY is in critical condition, he needs AB positive your the only match." Uncle says.

I nod my head, my body numb as hands helped me to the nurse's station. I couldn't say anything, I couldn't hear anything. It was like the world was silent, even though I knew it wasn't true. I finished giving blood, someone had given me some juice. I don't even remember drinking it, I looked down at my baby brother covered in bruises and he had a cast on his left leg.

I was emotionless, no scratch that I was pissed as fuck. "Did they catch who did it?" I whispered out, you could barely even hear me but they did.

"About that Kai, it was your biological father who was driving. He's in jail now, the police will come and talk to you soon. They want to know if you want to press charges or not." I looked down at my niece.

I see her clench her right hand around the armrest, her whole hand turning right. I could see her muscles flexing, it was strange. Mikey could do it to, even her mom could do that. "Kai, how do you do that? You aren't even fully flexing!" I had asked her.

"It only happens when I'm extremely angry, one wrong move and I could actually hurt someone. I don't plan on crossing that line, I just hope no one provokes me. Don't ask me If I'm okay, or tell me anything about condolences. I really don't want to hear it, I just want peace and quiet. I need to figure out what to do from here on out, I just don't want to be left alone. Leaving me alone means, you...." I try to finish but my throat closes up.

"I need some air, if you wish to come, let's go but I do need someone to stay with Mikey please." I get up and walk out the door.

As soon as I walk past the revolving doors, I trip over my own two feet. Arms on both sides hold me. "Just Hold Me and never let go, I have no idea what I'm going to do without Oppa in my life. I just got him back, why does god wish to punish me this way. We had so much to make up up for, over the years he was gone. Why, do they always leave me behind."

I watched my niece from afar as both N and Jiyong, catch her. Damn first her mom and now Kieran, I look back into Mikey's room seeing him open his eyes. I was so glad he could breathe on his own, no tube necessary. Relief washes through as I see the tears in his eyes, he already knew.

He was full-on crying, "Uncle, that bastard ran us over on purpose. We were only trying to protect Kai, Hyung pushed me out of the way from me getting hit. He took most of the damage, I'm sorry I couldn't save him in time."

T.O.P gave me one look and ran out to get KAI, "Uncle how is she? Does she blame me for what happened to hyung?" He says to me.

I run back in but skid to a halt, I lean against the wall as I hear my baby brother blame himself for that bastard ruining our family. I square my shoulders, I grab both Jiyong and N's hand pulling them with me. I see my baby brother crying on the bed. I whisper softly, "Why would I blame you? You did nothing wrong, you guys followed me to make sure I was safe and out of harm's way. Come on Mikey, you know I'm not like that. You've known me what? Since I was 16, right? While you were 15, I'm not petty! Prideful yes, childish hell yeah I am. That asshole did this to us, he ruined the three of us. But didn't Oppa tell you that you had a family with a shit ton of other brothers?" I softly explained to him.

I saw him crack a smile, "Yeah, You're staying with us till your 100% and completely healed. Plus your sister is right across the hall, don't worry nothing will happen to the two of you any more we will make sure of it as well as all the other brothers." I tell the two siblings as I held my fiancee's hand.

---- Time skip because I'm lazy (fast forward 2 months later) ----

"Kai, I know you're in there. Open up please!" I bang on her door again for the 10th time today. "Where the fuck did she go?" I ask myself.

I hear my phone go off.

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"Hey dipshit, wrong studio! I'm next door the one with the silver door. I think your video games have killed your brain cells again!"

I go inside the correct door and see her in the studio again, "Hey aren't you filming your MV tomorrow morning?" I ask my sister.

I pull off the headphones, I step out from behind the glass. "Yeah, remember your coming with me. I don't want to hear it either. You'll be making your dancing debut, I want you in and it was oppa's final wish, I plan on fulfilling it. okay?!" I ruffle my little brother's hair.

"Come let's go check what your Oppa's are up too." I link our arms together as we head to the dance studio to see 4 idiots and my soon to be husband, next month is when we tie the knot.

We watch as all five of them act all childish and what not. I click play on the remote in my pocket as me and Mikey, give each other a nod. We both run in a do a few flips, I end up right in front of Jiyong, while Mikey lands on N. I bust up laughing, I end up tripping over my own two feet and go into a forward roll.

I hear laughter by the door when 1THE9 come waltzing in. "Damn, after all these months your still clumsy as hell." I hear Grandpa Yongha say.

I stick my tongue out, "At least I can dance circles around you, you need 9 to beat me while I only need 1 to beat you." I say crossing my arms.

"Kai, don't overwork yourself. You film your MV tomorrow!" Mikey pulls me back away from the challenge.

"Let me do it, I'll sub in for you this time!" He says to me and looks at his older brothers from 1THE9,

I shake my head, "I bet all my money on MIKEY, TO WIN HANDS DOWN." I say with a smirk.

"Hold on, a lil dancing won't hurt me. How about this, 2 songs and loser buys dinner deal? How about me and Mikey each do a solo and then one together? You game GRANDPA?!" I say to him.

I look at my members and they agree wholeheartedly, fucking traitors. "Fine but I choose Yum Yum to be my partner for the one together," I tell KAI.

I watch Jiyong and Taeyang laugh in the corner, "You guys want to battle too so me and my little brother can shut you up too." I cross my arms and smirk at them.

"Jiyong, Handle your wife. She's just as egotistical as you!" Taeyang complained.

Jiyong raised his hands in surrender, "Nope, count me out I'll just watch thank you very much." I watch Taeyang cross his arms and pout in the corner.

"Alright, Mikey Your up first!" I click on the remote in my pocket as the music starts to play.

https://youtu.be/Im20UXpnq8M

I watch the door as more of our family members come in, settling themselves along the walls. I cheer on Mikey, he isn't like he was before. He is worse than me, he picked up my bad habits. His part was over and it was my turn, I hand him the remote. I gather my bags and put it in a ponytail behind my head.

https://youtu.be/NudWE8T-JQA

I start moving, I don't think they were ready for what I had been practicing over the last month. I added the facial expressions, everyone was cheering me on. Appa walked through the door with Jay and Sik-k.

"Looks like its a battle! I don't think it's a good time to disturb them, sir." I hear Sik-k say.

"We only came to watch and see what all the noise was about, looks like a family reunion. That's good Kai and Mikey needed this, besides Mikey making his dancing debut tomorrow. Kai has been holed up in the studio since we buried Kieran." I tell the boys.

I grab the remote from Mikey and hand over to N, "Just press play, the song is already loaded and ready for Yongha and Yum Yum's destruction." I grin at the other side.

https://youtu.be/o_2pq1RCIfg

We get into position, waiting for the beat to drop. As soon as it does we were on the move. I lift my top over my head, not taking it off completely, I wink at Jiyong and the boys in our corner.

"Oh shit, no she didn't. Fuck your screwed Yongha, you might as well give up now. Claim you lost, no point in continuing." I hear Taeyang yell out.

I could see the two siblings, having so much fun. "Kai you know we have one whole day to film, right? No mistakes." I tell my adopted daughter.

"Appa, what the fuck? No spoilers, please. Oh shit, come on Mikey before Kevin skins us alive for being late for work. Bye guys come bye later, everyone is coming for a visit." I run out the door with Mikey in tow.

We laugh because we almost got caught. I texted N to keep Jiyong, occupied we are throwing him an early birthday party. I can't be with him tomorrow because I'll be filming all day. My phone goes off as message after the message goes off, I just hand the phone to Mikey to answer because I was driving.

"Kai, The Kuya's are here along with their families. Joy says she brought Crude Play to help out. Jhope can't make it, because he is filming his new MV so he is sending Jungkook, Jimin, and Yoon-gi. Ken and Kai are already there helping and Crush is at the bakery ordering the cake." Mikey repeats every text.

"Mikey call, Crush tell him to not buy one, I already finished making Oppa's cake and it's in the Caffe's fridge already. Thanks, you have no idea how hard it was but I finally got it right after the 4th try. Some asshole refilled salt into my sugar dispenser, a little birdie told me it was the both you and Taeyang Oppa. That's some fucked up shit, you know."

I laughed at my sister, it was both me and hyung. Messing around in the kitchen while she was trying to make Jiyong's cake. She was ready to call up the bakery till T.O.P and Daesung caught us, we noticed a very sad sight that my sister was in tears that she couldn't make the cake the right way.

We cleaned up all of her mess and fixed what needed to be fixed, I made her dinner while hyung went to go and buy her milk tea. We didn't say anything to her that it was us, but this morning we figured it out she knew it was us. Both me and hyung's shoes were filled with saltwater, it was horrible and disgusting.

"What's wrong are you thinking about all of your shoes that I ruined? Serves you right for ruining the cakes I was trying to make for Oppa. What happened? Did someone make you feel guilty? Or did you feel guilty? That I almost gave up and cried myself to sleep last night.

I answered both, "I'm sorry Kai I hope you can forgive me and Taeyang hyung we really didn't know you were trying to make cakes for hyung's birthday tomorrow. We thought you were bringing them to work for the staff and other artists to have." I bowed my head guilt is all I felt.

"It's fine but next time, find out first if it isn't for a birthday then you can mess me up and we can give the disaster to your other brothers. Deal?" We shook on it as I parked with my left hand since the jerk wouldn't let my right hand go.

We got out and hurried in, N said they were going to the house to get ready and they would be on the way give or take 3 hours he could give me. I ran into Kevin on the way in, "Here this came in the mail for you, I forgot to give it to you on that day."

I looked at Kevin, then at the small box in my hands. I grabbed the utility knife attached to my keys, A letter sat upon an even smaller box. It was Kieran's handwriting, I walked towards the karaoke setup. I opened the letter.

Hey Lil Sister,

I know you must be going through hard times, I'm sorry I can't be there for you and Mikey anymore. There were so many things I was supposed to tell you, but I lost that chance when I pushed Mikey out of the way. You're probably wondering how I'm writing this. I had uncle help me, this isn't the first time the bastard tried to harm us either. Ever since I came back and out of hiding.

I didn't want you worrying about us, you had enough on your plate already. Just remember your promise to have Mikey in your first MV and to always care for my best friend Jiyong, I hoped and prayed, that you guys would find each other. Ever since you fell in love with BIG BANG"S BLUE, I knew you guys were meant to be.

I thank you for all the memories, you have given me by being in my life again. I promise if we meet in the next life, that we won't struggle and be apart. I hope you are doing well, just know I love you and Mikey to pieces. I made something for you and Jiyong for his birthday. Its a few videos from when were serving together, and when we reunited. And yes that is the song you wrote for Jiyong playing in the background.

Take care Always your forever big brother Kieran Lee Santos.

I yelled out for Mikey, I sat at the laptop watching it. There was even a message, at the beginning "Hey Kai, you probably hate my guts for leaving you the way I did but know that I had to. For your safety and my own, your new stepbrother N will take good care of you. Watch out tho his ego is just as big as his big fat head. My gift to you is my best friend Kwon Jiyong, he is also your favorite member of BIG BANG. I hope you guys find each other in the future and have a love that's everlasting. Also, mom lied to us about our little brother, he is very much alive and well he is living with mom's only living relative Lee Eunhyuk, his name is Mikey Lee Santos. But uncle got his name changed to Mikey Lee, it sounds so much better than Santos. Take care of him and yourself and all of the people who come into your life that choose to stay by your side. You have my acceptance and my support for the career you have chosen. I'll see you soon Lil one, I love you."

I held back my sobs as I looked to my left to see Mikey, teary-eyed just like me. "See Mikey, he does love us. Even though this must be years old but he does care." I tell my little brother.

We sat there for about an hour until it was time to get ready. "Hey Kai, are you going to perform that song for Jiyong Hyung?" I ask my noona.

"Yeah, I wrote it for him. after I turned 18. This song is special." I tell Mikey.

I closed the laptop and turned around, "What song is special?" I looked up at T.O.P Oppa.

I fall backward, at the last second Mikey catches me. "Are you serious right now? Oppa you almost gave me a heart attack. Jesus fucking christ."

"Kai? What song is special?" T.O.P Oppa asks again.

I give him a deadpan look, I got up and walked away going to the employee lounge. I change into something very familiar, I take the beanie off my head as my red hair comes tumbling down. I tie my hair back and put my burgundy hoodie on, I fix my makeup, putting in silvery contacts on and grab Oppa's gift from my locker.

I walk out and run into the back of someone, I look up and smile whenNu-uhe Oppa staring down at me with a huge smile on his face. I placed the gift in his hands, I pecked his lips. I was going to walk away, "Nu uh baby girl, since this you planned a birthday party for me I plan on taking advantage of those gorgeous lips of yours."

I lean down and captured her lips in a heated kiss, I pulled away. "Is there any thing you want to tell me?" I ask her.

I shook my head and quietly say no, Come on everyone is in the vip room. I place him in front of the doors, just as they swing open everyone screams out "SURPRISE", "Happy birthday sweetheart, everyone is here and when I say everyone I mean everyone."

I call giving you me and Kieran's gift first, I walk to the stage and grabbed the mic. "Hi guys, I just want to thank everyone for the effort in helping me celebrate my husband's birthday today. SInce I have an MV tomorrow to film, but my gift is a two in one. I want to ask which one should I give him first? Mine or Kieran's?" I ask everyone but the birthday boys.

"Baby girl, let's see what Kieran gave me. Then you can go after." I tell my wife, I like the sound of that.

I handed Jiyong the remote and moved his chair facing the wall that was cover in a huge white screen. "Mikey hand out the tissues quick!"

I pressed play, Wait?! What?! Hand out the tissues?! What the Fuck?! Kai sat beside me holding my hand, I felt her squeeze my hand as she told me it was okay to cry. I watched the whole video, I was laughing and crying when I saw the special message to Kai. I listened to the music in the background, that's the song Kai wrote for me!!

I look around to see Kai standing in the center, My chair was lifted and placed on the miniature stage.

https://youtu.be/D3N2R0Z_C0Q

It was that day all over again, she was glowing with confidence and so beautiful. I watched her look at me with adoration and a sincere heart as she sang to me, like that day. She pulled me up and we stepped down as a clip-on mic was placed on her. She didn't need it but she wanted to every one to hear her love through this specific song.

She pulled away, I knew what was coming. I watched her with awe as that high note gave me goosebumps all up and down my body. I smiled I wrapped my arms around her as she continued to sing not only for me but for Kieran and everyone in the room.

The song was now over and applause could be heard all over the room even outside on the balcony."Also Oppa, I would like to know if you would like to spend your actual birthday with me tomorrow on the set of the new MV. Actually, everyone is invited and the teenagers get to take part in it, well if your parents allow it that is."

I could see Melody, Aaron and Aimee jump up and down, asking their parents.

I tried to step away, "Anything else you want to give me?" I ask kai.

I smile and turn around, "You already have my heart and my love, I would give you the world if you asked for it." Cheesy I know.

"I never took you for someone being so cheesy, and those are my lines, Miss Lee. How dare you?" I smile as I lean down.

"Oppa, people are beginning to stare," I tell him as I cover my face with my hands.

"Let the young woman breathe, Hyung. Plus you're putting her on the spot." I hear N and Kevin say together.