Walking out the way I did a few minutes ago, brought me back to a few months ago. When Jiyong, walked out of the studio. I brought out my phone in my left hand, as I walk through the hospital doors. I went through my contacts clicking on the only name that mattered at the moment:

Phone Conversation

K: Hello, I'm taking a week's break. Don't worry I won't go far, I packed my stuff and moved into my new place already. No one knows that I left the apartment, I just need time to heal. If it's meant to be then it is, And if it isn't then so be it. I won't force it, earlier today I dropped off a USB and place dit on your desk. It's all of the songs I've been working on since I've signed with you, please for me don't tell them anything. I need to separate myself from all of them, right now it's for the best.

YG: Kai? Oh god, Kai! Jiyong is going crazy looking for you, will you come back and calm him down. N & Kevin and Taeyang had to knock him out.

K: No, I won't. He shouldn't have pushed me the way he did. My pride is hurt more than anything, I don't know if I could come back with my tail between my legs again. I'm sorry forgive me this time, Don't worry I won't leave the country, I just need the time and space right now. I gotta go the nurse just called my name, I'll give you a heads up after I leave to let you know what damage I caused myself.

I hung up the phone, I walked up to the nurse station. "Miss, I need to see a doctor. I think my right hand is broken, I got in a fight with my brother." I held my right hand showing her.

"Damn I would hate to see what body part you managed to mess up, with your hand all bruised and swollen. Come with me, you need to go to the VIP SECTION." She had grabbed a clipboard with a pen along with some papers.

She had directed me to a separate part of the hospital, oh god this is where they brought me when I was stabbed. The familiar doctor stepped up, he took one look at me and hurried over.

"Back again, I see. Self-inflicted or did someone do this to you?" Doctor Kim had said.

"I punched my brother in the jaw, end of the story. I would explain but I can't right now, I don't wish to remember my past it's too sad and I don't feel like being pitied at the moment." I tell him as my head is bowed.

"It's okay Kai, I understand. But if you ever need someone to talk to, you can come here to vent anytime. I know it's not my business, but where is your family? Where is your Fiancee?" He told me to sit on the examination table in a private room.

I hopped up, "Thanks Doc, I think I might just take that up with you another day. I kinda left my family and fiancee, for me to gather my thoughts and heal my heart at the moment. Something major happened and I don't want to be around anyone, that I could end up hurting more than ever." I tell him.

"Well, Kai, you managed to break your first and second knuckle, don't worry once I set it, your healing time will be 3 months. After that you can go back to your normal activities, just remember no using your right hand for anything. I need you to do that, so it can heal the correct way."

I looked down at my right hand, I used my left hand pulling them and popping it back into place. The swelling goes down, it was bruised still. But to me the injury was still the same from all those years ago, it didn't matter Oppa had said it was an accident, but because I'm so stupid I believed it when he had said it. Who knew I would hurt the same two as it did back then.

The doctor just looked at me, a smirk on his face. "Your a brave one, your eyes didn't even twitch when you just reset it." He had said.

"Doctor? Can I ask you a question?" I ask him.

"Sure go ahead Kai, we've got time as I wrap your hand and put on the splints," Doc said.

"If your older sibling, promised to always take care of you. Promised to never leave you behind, to never feel pain again. Then decides to leave without notice and walks back into your life 8 years later, what would you do?' I ask him, I can feel my eyes water already.

"That's a good question Kai, I might actually beat his ass. An older brother or not, I will assume that is what just happened to you. Did you only hit him? Or did you hand him his ass."

"Well to be perfectly honest with you doc, I only decked him and walked away. I had a lot of hardships growing up, you would think the family you have would treasure you. But mine is way different because I was born different. I was treated like trash like I didn't matter. So In saying this, it kinda felt good to hit him, but I also feel guilty because I raised my hand at someone who has supported me with my dreams. I have no idea, what the hell is wrong with me. Like all the anger I had growing up, all dissipated once I hit him. Is that even possible?" I tell him.

In my head, I was thinking about what my cousin had told me. About a girl he recently adopted as his little sister. I grabbed my pager when I hear it go off. "Excuse me a second Kai, I need to make a call. I'll send a nurse in with a snack and a juice, you are not allowed to leave till I see you take some meds for the pain. You got that?" I tell her.

I kept thinking about why she looked so familiar, I called my cousin. Once he answered, "Whoa, whoa calm down Speedy Gonzales. Take a deep breath, now release it and talk slowly."

"Please tell me that you have a patient by the name of Kai!" The voice on the other end had asked.

So it is her, I knew all about her. You see even though we have different last names, Joy is my sibling but my dad married her mom. This also brings me to a member of BIG Bang, T.O.P hyung was also my cousin. "You know I cannot confirm or deny if I have a patient by that name. You know hospital policy. No matter who they are to you, I can't give out that information. Bye Cous I'm hanging up now." I tell him.

I run back to the room Kai was in, "We've got a problem, my cousin aka your adopted brother T.O.P knows that you're here. So let me quickly wrap his and go out the back okay, call or page this number if you need anything. And Kai, I know everything. T.O.P has told me, you know he loves you as a real sibling should." I smile at her and push her out the back door.

I laugh quietly as he shoves me out the door playfully, Just maybe coming back to vent won't be so bad now. I possibly had a new friend/new family. Great more family members.

I walk towards my new home, you would think I would leave the building. I couldn't leave that far, I knew they would worry about me. Worrying about, if I'm eating or sleeping well. I walked towards the familiar convenience store, I walk in buying a few snacks and water. I pulled a beanie out of my bag, and a BTS hoodie putting it on, it's when I notice someone staring at me through the glass. A smile placed on his face, he shook his head and walked away.

I grabbed my things, going out the back way up towards the back of our building. You would think, I needed more space. But I have come to realize, all this time they were apart of me and no one could tell us anything about it. I walked slowly, I stiffened when Jiyong walked passed me practically running up the stairs.

"She better be home Hyung, or I'm going to be really pissed. Why the fuck did she leave like that?" Jiyong shouts back at his brothers.

"Oh, I don't know, maybe cause you shoved her to the side. You know her face had a look of anger and not hurt, no tears were shed or anything. You need to calm the fuck down and think if she isn't here where would she go?" T.O.P had shouted to Jiyong.

I stop and stiffen, when I almost fall on my face. I had closed my eyes out of habit, "Damn your still so damn clumsy, where are you going Kai?" Taeyang had whispered in my ear.

I grabbed his hand, pulling him the rest of the way. I peeked out of the stairwell, I pointed to the door across they're apartment. His draw dropped, "You're teaching him a lesson, aren't you?"

I shook my head yes and no, "Just take care okay Kai, I'll be checking on you." I heard a lot of yelling and things being thrown around in the apartment.

I heard crying, "Hyung she left me?! I didn't mean to push her. Oh God, what have I done? My songbird is gone!" Jiyong had said in his Hyung's embrace.

I ran out of the building, I opened up messenger and sent a message. "You're stupid, did you see the envelope on your bed. I technically didn't leave you, I just moved out and got a place of my own. I'll find you later, I'm late for work. (ㆆ▃ㆆ)"

I walked down to the garage as I opened my car door, I slid in, turning on the car and peeled out of the underground garage. I put on my shades and made my way to YG Studios. I went through the back exit and made my way into his office. "I would like to collab with an American boy group named Kai, I'll be my other persona though. I've already made arrangements, with their label and they will arrive in 2 days' time. This song should give him some reassurance that he hasn't lost me, hopefully, he will listen to the voice of reason. I've always wanted to collab on songs, but they have to be into what I like and vice versa. I hope you won't fault me, for jumping ahead and making arrangements without your consent."

he looked up at me, "It's fine Kai, You deserve the best but next time give me a heads up so the company can make the necessary arrangements for you so you won't have to come out of your pocket. So where did you move too?" YG Appa asked me.

I gave him a cheeky grin, "Right across from them, plus the former tenant Yuna. So you know, I got a good deal. I didn't have to pay much, they didn't know who I was. SO that helped me a bit, she did recognize the name but not my face. I'll see you later, I need to go and buy some furniture."