I woke up early showered, I wore a black big bang hoodie and beanie and a silver mask. Black jeans and some silver and black timberlands. I made some soup, I wrote a note and left telling them to eat. I walked the little bit to the car, but I went into the convenience store first I grabbed a shit ton of snacks and Gatorade and water.

I went to my car I got in and headed to YG studios, I bowed to everyone when I went in. I heard my name somewhere on my left, "Kai, I would like you to introduce you to JYP's Jay Park."

I gave YG a knowing look, "Sir, I'm sorry but I have song making to do. Please excuse me as I go first." I bowed again, but I didn't want to appear disrespectful so I soon turned around.

"Hello, I'm Kai 17 from Ulsan. Rapper, Dancer and Singer. It's a pleasure to meet you." I say and left again, running toward the stairs.

I looked at the artist who practically ran away from me, I was kind of shocked I liked his voice it was nice. You could do a lot of things with a voice like his. I pointed towards the trainee, "Do mind if I go have a chat with him?"

He nodded, "But let's go together, Kai is a special case you see. It's not my story to tell but, Kai will surprise you. Did you listen to the track I sent you about the American rapper?"

I nodded my head, "WAIT! You don't mean?" I was shocked. "That was him wasn't it?"
YG only nodded. "Jay, Kai is a girl! Like I said she will surprise you. It's the reason I am calling all the big dogs to work with her. The ones I know that wouldn't judge her too harshly."

We made it to the dance studio first, Kai was in there with some of the dancers. I totally forgot about her dance number.

https://youtu.be/fqrNw-cNMVI

[[ Crystal Kay - Kiss ]]

They were already wearing the wardrobe she had created and the props and girls were doing good. I left Jay at the door with his mouth hanging wide, Joy and already told me she had cut ties with her boyfriend due to his stupidity. But I liked her better when she was happy, this Kai isn't the one I want but. I promised I would help her, for now, she just wants to help produce songs.

I watched as Kai jump as she was going out, "Good job girls, I'll see you later." I saw her spin around Jay and rush towards the other studio.

"How... What... Ah, Shit... I think I'm in love. Does she only do Japanese?" I had asked YG.

"No from my understanding, she does English, Japanese, Korean and Thai. Not only sings but she can rap in those languages as well. Wait till you see her rap and sing in her main voice. You know she hid her features and auditioned as a boy for the show UNDER NINETEEN. It was going good till one of the trainees got kicked out for trying to poison her."

I was at the dry erase board, my beanie, and mask in place again. It's bad enough I ran into another artist, I hope he doesn't judge me too harshly for my circumstances. I don't know if I can take it anymore, but this song was for him. With T.O.P Oppa, Jiyong Oppa and Taehyung Oppa, I believe I'll be fine without him

I got to work on the lyrics for my performance.

LYRICS
I'LL REMEMBER
I'LL REMEMBER YOU

I'LL REMEMBER
I'LL REMEMBER YOU

I'LL REMEMBER
I'LL REMEMBER YOU

I DON'T REGRET
THAT WE DIDN'T LAST
I DON'T REGRET
THAT IT HURT SO BAD

COS EVEN THOUGH
WE RAN OUT OF TIME
I'M STILL GLAD
YOU WERE MINE

I DON'T REGRET
THAT WE FELL APART
I DON'T REGRET
THAT I BROKE MY HEART
COS EVEN THOUGH
IT'S HARD TO LEAVE IT ALL BEHIND
GIRL I'M STILL GLAD
YOU WERE MINE

I WASN'T RIGHT TO BE SO ANGRY
AT YOU
I WASN'T RIGHT FOR BLAMING
THIS ALL ON YOU
I WAS HURTING DEEP INSIDE
WHEN YOU RAN AWAY
BABY, NOW I REALIZE
AND I WANNA SAY

I WAS SO WRONG
I NEVER MEANT TO
HURT YOU
THEY WERE SO RIGHT
WHEN THEY SAID I DON'T
DESERVE YOU

NOW I CAN'T
BELIEVE THAT YOU'RE GONE
YOU GOT ME HERE ALL ALONE
GIRL IT'S BEEN HARD TO MOVE ON

YOU'VE GOT ME SAYIN
OOH
BABY, I WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT MY
FEELINGS WERE TRUE
AND I WOULDN'T KNOW HOW TO LOVE
IF IT WEREN'T FOR YOU
IF I COULD DO
IT ALL AGAIN

I WOULDN'T CHANGE A THING
I WANT YOU TO KNOW
I DON'T REGRET
THAT WE DIDN'T LAST
I DON'T REGRET
THAT IT HURT SO BAD
COS EVEN THOUGH
WE RAN OUT OF TIME
I'M STILL GLAD
YOU WERE MINE

I DON'T REGRET
THAT WE FELL APART
I DON'T REGRET
THAT I BROKE MY HEART
COS EVEN THOUGH
It's HARD TO LEAVE IT ALL BEHIND
GIRL I'M STILL GLAD
YOU WERE MINE

I'M TIRED OF THINKING ABOUT
OF THE THINGS I COULD HAVE DONE
I'M TIRED OF THINKING ABOUT
THE WAY I GOT IT WRONG
COS IT AIN'T GOING TO BRING YOU BACK

GONNA LET IT BURN
GONNA LEAVE IT ALL BEHIND
EVEN THOUGH IT HURTS
COS I REALIZE
THAT IT'S TIME TO MOVE ON
I WANT YOU TO KNOW
THAT I AIN'T
MAD NO MORE

I'M PUTTING IT ALL IN THE PAST
SORRY THAT IT COULDN'T LAST
I HOPE ONE DAY YOU'LL UNDERSTAND

GIRL, YOU GOT ME SAYIN
OOH
BABY, I WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT MY
FEELINGS WERE TRUE
AND I WOULDN'T KNOW HOW TO LOVE
IF IT WEREN'T FOR YOU
IF I COULD DO
IT ALL AGAIN

I WOULDN'T CHANGE A THING
BABY YEAH.

[[ The song is Stevie Hoang - No Regrets if you wanted to know]]

Before I knew it, I was full-on sobbing. This was how I felt though, I wasn't mad at him at all but he should've known what N said was wrong, I went into the booth as I sang my heart out, putting everything I had into this one song that was about him.

I just sat there as I played it, I wasn't paying any attention but someone came and sat next to me.

"You okay? Because if you answer your fine, I know in my heart you lying? You want to talk about it?" I sat next to her, Something was wrong and it was tugging at my heartstrings.

"I know we don't know each other well, but your a great producer and dancer and don't let me get started on your rapping skills." I smiled at her

"From looking at the lyrics on the board to your puffy eyes. I would guess you had a bad break up or something. You can slap me if I'm wrong." I stared into her eyes, I saw a small smile.

"You know if my Oppa comes in here and sees you this close to me, he is going to be pissed as hell," I tell Jay.

"I'm not scared of one's brother, please who could hurt this face?" I smile at her.

"Well, my adopted brother T.O.P could!" I tell him with a smirk

"Really I want to see that happen, Well anyways I have to leave I'm going to collab with some artists at your company. If you want to check it out, come by and see if you can help me. I could always use the help." I waved goodbye and walked ou oft the studio.

I ran into none other than BIGBANG, "Your sister is pretty cool, but I think you should try and make her happy. Her eyes are puffy looks like she's been crying." I walk away whistling.

I look at my members and rush into the studio, "Where the hell are you?" I look and see her curled up on the couch with a BIGBANG hat covering her face. I blew out the breath I was holding. I picked her up, in my arms. "Come on I'm taking you home." I see her point to the laptop, where I see a Pikachu USB sticking out.

"It doesn't sound good, I need help on it please." I look at them they just nodded and said to the house we go.

All I remember was being carried out of the studio, my arms being wrapped around someone's neck and snuggling into them because they smelled good. I must've been more tired than I thought. I got up quickly, I looked around to see where I was at. I blushed when Oppa, walked in with no shirt on his tattoos on full display. I let out a squeak of surprise and fell off the bed, I started laughing so hard. I couldn't even stop blushing, I think I said the weirdest and confusing things ever. In my head, I've never seen anything more delicious than that.

"Your tattoos are beautiful, Oppa!" I counted on my hand, I have 5 to be exact. "Wait, why am I in your room?" I was still on the ground laying on the floor, just chilling. It was weird because, for some reason, it's where I find comfort.

"Well I carried you out of the studio, you wouldn't let go. You really have a strong grip for a girl, I was able to tickle you and just let you sleep here. That reminds me we went over your song, we think it's perfect. Why do want to change it?" He says to me.

I shrug my shoulders "I don't know, maybe because it's my goodbye to him. Now I just have to record figure out what I will sing when I unmask myself. You know what sucks the most, that this was my first love, but I don't feel as bad as I thought I would. I think I have feelings for someone else, but I'll cross that bridge when I get there, I guess. Oh, I met a rapper from JYP, Do you know Jay Park? The way he came in, reminds of the day you came into the studio but the only difference is, I could tell you were sincere and but him his vibe or aura didn't want to get to know me, he just wanted to use my talent. I don't ever want to work with someone like that, it makes me feel so weird. Just because I'm young doesn't make me stupid, I graduated top of my class, I'm book smart and street smart."

I looked up from my spot, to see Jiyong Oppa just staring at me. I could feel my cheeks start to heat up, "You want to see one of my tattoos?" I ask him. He nods, I lift up my tank top just below my bra. 

"Without struggle,
there'd be no progress"

He was going to reach out his hand, but I guess he changed his mind. But before he could pull it back, I grabbed it signaling it was okay. He didn't touch the tattoo, but he traced the scars around it. I felt the tears leak out of the eyes. The next thing I know, I have an Oppa sitting next to me. He pulled my shirt down, pulling me up. "Don't worry, nothing bad will happen to you here. You can trust me, I won't let nothing bad happen to you."

I pulled back, I kissed his cheek. I think I shocked him more than I shocked myself "Thanks Oppa, I... shit... I.. mean. I don't see you as a brother, I perhaps see you as something else. I'm going to go shower and die of embarrassment now bye."

I ran out of his room like the devil was chasing me.

I laid back on the spot, she just vacated. What the hell was wrong with me, she's not even an adult yet. I guess the guy that she broke up with it, didn't hurt her as much as I thought. Sitting up at the realization of what she said to me, Am I the one she has feelings for? She just kissed my cheek and told me she doesn't see me as her brother. Fuck, Hyung's going to kill me, I smiled to myself at the little secret. I put on a tank top and walked out the door, I see Taeyang looking at me, giving me an evil glare. I put my hands up in surrender, "I didn't do anything!" I tell him.

He grabbed me by my arm, signaling me to be quiet and to follow. I could hear Kai's voice, she was telling Hyung everything. My eyes widened as I squirmed in my spot. "Oppa, would you be mad if when I turn 18 and like one of your members? I'm just curious about your thoughts on this. You can try to forbid me all you want, but I'm telling you now that if you do. I'll pack my shit and leave."

Me and Taeyang, couldn't hold back our laughter at her fierce attitude. It was so darn cute and adorable. 

"Also Oppa, if you try your older brother card on your members. i'll never forgive either." Taeyang pushed me forward knocked and ran away, I ran the other way down the stairs and hopped over the couch. Pretending to look just lay there with my arm over my face.