Next up was Team Performance, I smiled happily watching the screen. I sitting in the way back, away from everyone, so I wouldn't disturb anyone who doesn't approve of my fangirling.

I turned to the mirror that was next to me, I had no worries at the moment. I took out my make up bag from the drawer, at the moment I had pulled my hair back separating it nice and quick into two pigtail braids. My hair had grown fast since I last chopped off my hair, my bangs were so long now that I just left them to hang off the side over my left eye.

I did a quick time check, seeing I still had a good amount of time. 15 minutes exactly to fix what I needed to. The only reason the Make-up Unnie isn't doing my makeup is that I didn't trust anyone near my eyes or doing my makeup, plus I also had to put in my eyebrow piercing.

I felt a tap on my shoulder, looking up into the mirror. I see Yong-ha, a.k.a Grandpa. Shh don't tell him, but that's what we call him. I do like the guy just like he was apart of my family. I smiled when I see him, he began unbraiding my braids.

"Come on Kai, you need to hurry we still got 10 minutes. Oh and Suren is up, you better watch or your going to miss your Oppa on the screen."

I put the finishing touches on my makeup making it look fun and I drew a red heart right below my lower right lash line. I looked at Hyun, he was still in a foul mood. I made my way towards him, "Hyun oppa, cheer up yeah we gotta place first. I need your help along with everyone else."

I tilted my head upside down, as I scooped a hand full of gel. I spiked it as much as I could. Carefully picking out the dyed stripe of red was placed neatly. Satisfied I looked up just in time to see Yum Yum on the screen looking cute as ever.

I placed the black mask over my face, I walked up toward the front. "Let's Get It, we can do this. Remember no matter what don't panic and just relax, we got this. If not, there will always be a next time."

As we took our places on the semi-lit stage, my mind going over what has happened since I became a trainee. My confession, of who I really am. The never-ending friendships, that will last me a lifetime. We've all gotten closer, sharing stories about our life before becoming trainees.

[[ Remember Kai took Soo Bin's spot, this is my ff and I wanted to see if I could actually do a story like this. Thank you to the show Under Nineteen for the idea, just little twists and turns nothing too major. Soo-Bin is in the front on the right side blonde hair, pretend he has black spikey hair like the picture above and is also wearing a black face mask ]]

Just following the choreography was fun as hell, you have no idea all the things that were running through my head as Hyun was dropping his verse. That guy had me totally fangirling like no other, I guess if I'm being totally honest the main three. They had a place in my heart and I felt different about each one of them.

I slipped up to the front busting my verse, trying to act cool tossing out finger hearts and winking at a few of the fans. The boys spread apart as it was my turn for the dance break, I looked at the directors to the left and the music changed with a dramatic pause. My team members acting like a bunch of little kids. You could say I kinda cheated by added little parts of GO TOMORROW and WE ARE YOUNG, the two songs that were previously sung by the other teams. I looked at the directors, a few of them points at me. I laughed at their faces, my eyes full of mischief and I just shrugged my shoulders.

I walked towards the front, showing my swag as I grabbed the mic shouting, "TEAM RAP, IS THE BEST!"

I looked at the directors again, as soon as the beat dropped we dabbed on the beat. I pointed to Yongha Oppa and tossed him a finger heart, He pretended to snatch it out of the air and pocket it. I walked to him shaking my finger no, He put on a sad face and took out the finger heart I gave him and added a flying kiss towards the crowd, which made them wild as hell.

Yongha and Sungwon looked at the directors, putting the mic to their lips shouting out: "IF YOU DON'T KNOW, NOW YOU KNOW!"

They did an epic pose as we filled the formation up to the very last beat, they dropped their mics.

Sungwon running towards me holding up a heart with both of his hands, while I took my right hand and made a cute finger heart.

He pinched my cheeks, right before I turned and did a corkscrew backflip. I started to pop lock with a few of the guys and the others were acting all silly like.

I was going to do another corkscrew flip, but I flaked when I decided to finish with my signature suicide flip tossing up the deuces. Its when I felt it landed into the ending pose, is when my side tightening up. I kept my face happy like, willing the pain to go away. But just like it was meant to be, I stepped wrong and ended up going into a forward roll right in front of everyone.

I felt arms go around me, slowly lifting me up with care. I looked back to see grandpa. "Kai, you need to chill next time. No showing off anymore, you're going to end up permanently injuring yourself."

I winced, "Yongha, make sure you take care of Sungwon. Be sure you debut. I have an inkling that I might not make it pass this round.

"I swear to god Kai, say something stupid like that again. I'm going to put your happy ass in the corner, and leave you there. I swear you say the dumbest things at the wrong times. Later when you are feeling better, you and I are going to sit down and have a long ass talk."

I smiled up at him, I couldn't help it but I answered him anyway.

"Yes, Grandpa Yongha. I'll try to stop my over-analyzing self from thinking the worst things will happen to me. I forgot that you are my protector now, please forgive me."

I looked out towards the crowd, I thought I was hearing things. The fans were shouting my name, and a few others. my jaw dropped.

"Kai Oppa, Saranghe.
Kai Oppa, Marry me."

I winked at the two girls giving them a finger heart each.

The host was asking a few of us questions, I didn't think one of the questions would have been towards me. "Miahne, sometimes I think I was born with no sense at all." I hear a few of my team members mumble, but couldn't understand them.

"Excuse me, can you repeat the question? I couldn't hear you over my mumbling teammates." I looked at her and smiled.

"Kai, your fans as you can hear them, they want to know when will you unmask yourself? Why the mask?" So-hyun had said.

"Well, to be perfectly honest with you guys, without my mask I am super shy and I end up having anxiety attacks. I feel like a superhero behind this mask. It gives me the courage to stand up here and the strength to move towards the next step of the path that directing me to my fate, but I want to give a shout to all of the Under Nineteen Trainees. Thank you for giving me hope and your understanding Saranghe. Well, I will unmask myself to the world at the end of the show when the top 9 becomes the next k-idol group."

I was leaning against Grandpa Yongha and Sungwon, I guess I was getting heavy. Because I know for damn sure I weigh more than most of them. I was brought into a group hug, what I didn't like was the hand that was rubbing it my butt. I didn't like it at all when I looked back and saw whose hand it was I was pissed as fuck. I never moved so fast in my life before, I dragged him to the team room we were in before we went out on stage.

As soon as both of us entered, I put him in a headlock. I didn't bother to see if the others followed, I didn't care who heard. I do not agree anywhere to have my body being disrespected and manhandled by anyone. "You know I call you Oppa, out of respect. But you pull some shit like that again I will not hold back and I will break both of your knee caps. You got that HYUN!"

I didn't care who was around, but I was thankful that the camera man moved the camera to face the wall.

"I looked at Hyun again, don't talk to me for a while. I'm letting you off with a warning, only because we are friends. But do something like that again, I'll toss your ass off a balcony and walk away. You don't have any rights to touch me like that, You're a FUCKING JEREK HYUN. I FUCKING TRUSTED YOU, NOW WE ARE NOT ANYTHING!"

I grabbed my things and stormed out of the room, leaving the team with their jaws on the floor. I see a few of the directors running towards me as their lives depended on it. "Why are you yelling Kai? We could hear you all the way from the stage, the fans have all left. You need to explain what is all this noise is about."

I took a step back when CRUSH took a step forward, he did it again. But the second time, he did it I ran behind Solji Unnie and hid my face in her hair.

Unnie turned and pulled me up by my chin gently "Kai, look at me!" Solji said.

I shook my head left to right as the tears started to fall, "Kai what happened? Tell me, sweetie, why are you crying? I cried even harder at her endearing words. My head was still bowed when a pair of arms encircled me from behind, I turned to cling to him like I haven't seen him in years.

I mumbled quietly, "I want to go rest, I can't be around everyone right now but you and yum yum. If anyone else comes, I'll end up going ape shit again. But this time I'll end up hurting someone, and I don't think I will hold myself back either."

I nuzzled my face into the crook of his neck as he held me, just as I was. Yum Yum came running towards us, I gave him a slight grimace. He frowned at me as he tried to make me smile, but nothing he did worked. He gave him a worried look, he just copied Jinsung holding me like he had held me earlier when EDDIE pulled that bullshit.

Yum Yum, pulled both of us away from everyone. He held the other side of me, as both of them continued to comfort me.

I felt yum yum let go, "I'll be back, they are calling all the groups together. Jinsung you stay here with Kai, Solji said you have permission to go with her. I see yum yum pull Jinsung away,

I leaned against the wall as I slowly feel the pain ease away, as I continue to massage it.

----- A few doors down from Kai -----

"Jinsung be honest with me will you? You like Kai, don't you?" I looked at him as he shyly nodded as his cheeks turned a light shade of pink.

I looked at Doyum, I was hesitant. But its not like it isn't obvious that I like Kai, I wake up and go to bed with her in my mind.

"I do and I plan on telling her, after I finish talking to you."

"Hyung take care of yourself and her, I will see you two later."

----- Goting Back to Kai -----

"Kai, come on let's get something to eat. I promise you will feel better after your stomach is full. I also have someting to tell you, I really want your full attention when I say what I want to say okay?!" I finished talking as she stares into my eyes.

I just hope and pray, she feels the same as me. I would most definitely be embarrassed if she doesn't, I don't know what I would do if I couldn't hug her anymore.