The Drive to exist


Darkness pushed upon me from all sides pulling me in and grinding parts of me off. It was stealing them away, Yet I did not move. Actually, I didn't do anything. Peace had settled over me, calming me before I had a chance to resist. As a result I just laid there in the void as my essence itself was consumed. Images flashed across my mind; of a life familiar yet unfamiliar at the same time, Faces I recognized but I knew no name to. They all slipped through, leaving nothing behind, forever disappearing from my mind. I paid no heed to this, as these were all the memories I cared little for.

This continued on, everything that I knew disappearing before my eyes as it began to scroll across my eyes. A feeling welled up within me contrasting with the feeling of calm and I began to struggle. The darkness pushed harder to suppress these emotions but I resisted all the harder. pulling my most precious memories into the center of my core, I defended them with all I had

The darkness consumed my outer self trying to get to what I held inside myself. No sound had occurred throughout this entire process, this realm being submerged under a blanket of silence. Soon the influence of the darkness could no longer contain me as I was flooded with emotion, I began to panic, the emotion premating the entirety of what remained of me. It meant nothing to what was consuming me, it was monotonous in its rate of which it consumed me, not caring for my struggles, as if this was a task it did on a daily basis.

Pain was all I could feel as something slammed into me, Soon unknown memories flooded into me, merging and distorting everything. With those memories came rage, a rage so unbridled that nothing could contain it, not even this place. My form began to change and grow, into that of a mixture between me and whatever was merging with me. Naturally I did my best to resist merging with the other entity, it was also doing likewise. However, we both stopped when we came to a realization. The darkness was unable to consume us with the same efficiency as earlier because much of the darkness had faded away when it wasn't able to find anything more to connect to. This left large portions of our combined souls untouched by the darkness

Knowing this, we lowered down the walls we had built to defend us from each other. We merged together faster, our memories and souls coalescing. The smouldering rage inside each of us connected and burned even brighter. With this rage came power, power that we used to push back against what was oppressing us. Soon we began to rise, the darkness being unable to hold us down. All around us the darkness became more and more desperate, reaching out to latch onto us. Up above a Light could be seen, as we neared it the darkness reaching for us recoiled as it came into contact with the light. Soon we were immersed in the light, a flash brighter than my surroundings occurred and then I could remember no more.

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When my eyes opened, all that I saw was white. I felt like I was floating, yet I could still feel the ground under my body. Mentally groaning I got my feet underneath me and took a look around. The nature of the mist became clearer to me, as it took on the form of a heavy mist settling all around me. Looking down I noticed a very faint outline of my body, I felt that it looked different from usual but I couldn't remember how it was different. I pushed these thoughts to the back of my mind for later review because I couldn't make out enough to be certain what was different. Looking around the white mist blanketed everything and as far as I could see in about a 10 ft radius the ground was flat. I felt a twinge in my heart which prompted me to go in an unknown direction. Not giving it much thought I followed the feeling and moved in the general direction I felt that I should go. After a few feet I looked down again to notice that I was floating a few centimeters in the air. Not sure what to think about it I continued forward with no specific purpose in mind. The environment was unchanging, just flat ground blanketed by a white mist. I only knew I was going in the direction that felt right because the feeling was growing stronger. It started Pulsating in my chest getting stronger and stronger, I started to move faster as excitement filled me.

Faster, and faster I moved, soon I was moving through the air at a terrifying speed. The thought of getting there overpowered all else, and I could feel a gnawing hunger settle deep inside of me. Within moments what I was drawn to was in sight, It was coming at me in the same frenzy and as soon as it came near I moved to strike. I Swung my hands, tearing through nearly non-existent flesh as it attempted to bite my side. The thing recoiled in pain as my hand came back encased in some type of goo. Lunging forward I fell on top of it, biting and clawing, Tearing into it. It responded in kind, ignoring the pain I felt I brought my teeth down onto its neck, and I tore it out dealing a killing blow.

Standing back I surveyed my kill, it was a being very similar to me in its transparency. I was unable to identify what it was because of this. Suddenly, my actions dawned on me and a sinking feeling arose in my gut and I stepped back gulping in fright of what I had done. I had forgot that I had a chunk in my mouth and it slid down, landing heavily in my gut and I fought back the urge to hurl. Looking down I could see the chunk breaking apart and I felt energy seep into the rest of me. Wherever that energy passed I felt pleasure and I became just a little less transparent, with a more corporeal form appearing in its place. The mist around me began to shift and soon I was able to see in a wider radius around me.

I didn't know what to be more disgusted about; the fact that I had ripped a chunk out of a living being and eaten it, or that a part of me had enjoyed it and it really wanted more. It was a losing battle given that I didn't even know why I was so against it, I couldn't remember any experiences that would suggest that. I only knew that it felt wrong, very wrong. The war between myself raged on within and I was unable to put up a resistance without anything to fight with. Hunger built up inside of me as as rationale was abandoned. Bringing myself down I tore into the lifeless body and piece by piece the body was soon gone.

I pulled myself away when I could no longer find anything to stuff into my mouth. The fervor from my feeding frenzy wore off and nausea set itself in its place. As I was staggering away from where the body was images of me eating it filled my mind and I went to hurl, but found that I was unable to. I stumbled across the ground for a few minutes trying to keep myself calm. This turned out to be to no avail as dread set in. Another twinge prompting me to go had appeared in my heart.

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