Warning, ang programang ito ay rated SPG. Dont judge. They deserve a brief steamy moment of relief. Also habang magbabasa kayo, try niyong isabay sa mga music na toh:

https://youtu.be/bNKbeV3wM84

https://youtu.be/gwlGajiNczs

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Dulce's POV

Mag-isa na ako ngayon sa kwarto ko, pinupunasan ang kamay ko na puno ng dugo ni Ruth. 

My mind isn't really on her or on anything she said. I just needed an outlet... because... It's been like an hour since I found out na ako ang anak ni Helena... 

I can't... I can't just accept it. Ang hirap...  Yes, she has been so kind to me noong nagtatrabaho pa ako sa mansion pero... nasanay na ako na kaaway ang turing ko sa kanya.

Sinisi ko siya sa mga nangyari sa akin. Kinamuhian ko siya. Pinabagsak ko siya. Tapos sa bandang huli, wala pala siyang kasalanan. Sa bandang huli, mali pala ang ginagantihan ko. At ang masaklap, ina ko siya.... Hindi ko alam kung paano ko tatanggapin ang balita...

Tanggap ko na na walang kasalanan si Helena. Tanggap ko na na hindi siya kasingsama ng inaakala ko... Pero hindi ko matanggap na pinarusahan ko ang sarili kong ina... 

Ayokong tanggapin na ina ko siya dahil nasasaktan pa rin ako. Galit pa rin ako. Ang hirap burahin ng isang bagay na itinaga ko na sa bato... At hindi lang ako galit sa kanya... Galit ako sa sarili ko... Nahihiya ako sa sarili ko dahil nagpagamit ako kay Regina... Galit ako na hinayaan kong lamunin ako ng galit ko kaya ngayon miserable ako...

At ngayon, maging si Lola ay tinakasan na rin ako... Hindi ko alam kung dapat ba ako maging masaya dahil at least hindi siya patay, at least ligtas siya? Dapat ba akong masaktan dahil tinalikuran niya nanaman ako? Dapat ba akong magalit dahil sinira niya ang tiwala ko? O dapat ba akong mag-alala na baka nasa panganib siya? Dapat ko pa rin ba siyang mahalin?

Gusto kong umiyak... Pero hindi ko magawa... Gusto kong ilabas ang lahat but there's no time for weakness in the midst of war

Knock knock

Someone's knocking. I didn't bother to answer. Pumasok na siya anyway. It's Clarke

"If you're wondering if I killed her, you can very much sense a pulse from her bleeding wrist. Now if you're here to lecture me, leave."

"I didn't come here to judge you. I could never hate you... It's just that... natakot ako... not for Ruth... but because I've never seen that side of you... that rage... that ruthlessness---"

"A monster."

"No. At least not yet... I dont wanna stop you from doing the necessary for the greater good... But I also want to save you from being that one thing that you arent."

"It's too late for saving Clarke. I'm broken beyond repair. I have long unleashed the monster in me. I am mot your fragile little porcelain doll. I'm stronger. You dont know what Ive been through in the last 6 years."

"I know the hell you've been put through... but is that enough for you to kill?"

"Ruth wouldn't be my first murder..."

"What?"

I could sense his confusion and disappointment. But he deserves to be enlightened and to know exactly who he is getting in bed with.

"3 years ago, part of my training and test was to join Regina's henchmen in a mission to infiltrate Luciana de Martel in Italy and put the snake's head on a spike. I tried to avoid the kill... but in battle fields, there is no middle ground. So I killed her..."

I gave him a few minutes to let that sink in.

"The mob world is tough, Clarke. If you wanna survive, you either kill or be killed... And I thought you might understand that given your brother's reputation in the syndicate."

"WHAT? Anong ibig mo sabihin?"

"Your brother was part of the syndicate. Regina killed him."

"I... I didn't know"

"I expected that. They wouldn't put their faith on someone who couldn't fathom murder... Now if you cant accept that part of me, you can very much leave."

"Dulce, I'm not here to fight with you or to hate on you. I love you... I'm here because I know you're going through a lot... and before someone else turns into a punching bag.... please talk to me... Let me help you..."

"I just... wanna shut down..."

He sighed and sat beside me. Hinawakan niya ang kamay ko and I felt so much better.

"It really is a lot to take in... I understand you... but you can't just give up... You don't have to use anger as your mask of deceit... We can win this war without killing--"

I know what he's gonna say... Alam ko na susubukan niya akong iinspire pero hindi eh. It's just not going to work. His encouragements are turning into pressure. He's adding to the list of things I have to put up with! I cant live up to that portrait of a perfect saint he drew of me in his mind because I am no angel! He keeps on talking at napupuno na ako!!! So I stood up.

"IT'S NOT THAT EASY CLARKE! MY LIFE IS A FUCKING JOKE! Everything is too complicated! And I don't even understand how it got here! I wish that I could go back to the time when everything wasn't so DAMN COMPLICATED! WHY CAN'T WE JUST GO BACK??! I DON'T WANT TO DO THIS ANYMORE!!"

I... I-I... Just can't.... I-I'm suddenly bursting into tears... I-I just can't help it anymore...

"CLARKE I DONT LIKE WHAT I'M FEELING! I DONT LIKE CRYING AND FEELING LIKE SHIT! I-- I CANT..."

And I just found myself in Clarke's loving arms...

"Shhh.... It's ok... It's ok... I got you..."

I can feel his warm hands caressing my back... gently and slowly easing my pain... Unti-unti akong kumalma... Unti-unting nabawasan ang sakit na nararamdaman ko...

And I drew myself to look at him straight in the eyes... His eyes.... parang dagat na nakakalunod...

And then I felt that tension as our eyes locked, that fire... that passion... that type of comfort I need right now... And I can tell, hindi lang ako ang nangangailangan nun. Kaya hindi na ako nagpatumpik tumpik pa at sinunggaban siya ng halik na agad niya rin namang tinugon.

Something has changed... Napakabilis lang ng lahat... Napakabilis ng daloy ng init na nararamdaman ko sa buong katawan ko. Pinaglakbay ko yung kamay ko all over his chest while his hands were all over my back.

I kissed him even deeper and more aggressive than earlier... Ugh... Yes... This is what I need... I want his kisses, his touch, I want him inside of me, filling that void in my humanity...

Isa isa ko nang tinatanggal ang butones ng kanyang pang-itaas habang tinatanggal niya yung belt ko. I stripped off my jacket and lay my warm hand on his bare chest.

"UGH... Mmm"

His wet kisses on my lips are so satisfying. I love the way he pleasures me, the way he kisses, licks and bites my neck.

"AUHHH... Umm"

I felt his hands traveling through my ass down my thighs.

"OHH"

I moaned as he lifted me across the room until we hit the wall. Damn it... Ang init! I took off my top, as in everything and I never felt as free as before. I kissed him even harder and inserted my tongue in his mouth hanggang sa nagsasayawan na ang mga dila namin. Buti nalang at malakas ang kapit ng buhok ni Clarke dahil kung hindi, makakalbo na siya sa pananabunot ko ng buhok niya. His kisses went down into my breast.

"Ugh! Ahhh! Mmm...."

"Damn, I miss you... Mmm"

Ang kanyang mumunting halik ay naging supsop at ang supsop niya ay naging kagat.

"OH F*&K! UGHHHHH!"

I can't help it. He's so good.

Pero mas magaling ako. I pushed him back that he fell flat on the bed. Agad akong pumatong sa kanya at hinalikan ang kanyang dibdib... Pababa nang pababa... Pababa nang pababa sa kanyang pagkalalake.

"Oh shit... You're so naughty in bed tonight."

I kissed, licked, and suck it like it was a stress ball. Well, it's very effective for me to destress.

"Oh god... Sige pa Dulce! Please-- Dont-- STOP"

Oh his moans are turning me on. But I didn't continue. I just looked at him with a fiery while I squeeze his manhood very slowly. If you could see the torture in his eyes. Halatang nabibitin. And I love it when he looks like this.

"Ugh--"

And now, he's on top of me.

"CLAAARRRRKEEEEEE"

I called out when he inserted all three of his fingers inside of me. Shit.

"Ugh.. OoOoH! F*ck!"

Hindi ko matukoy ang sarap na ibinibigay niya sa akin. He's so fast, and deep and hard. His fingers moving in and out of my womanhood is--

"AHHH"

Napaliyad ako sa sarap when he licked the fluids out of my vag. His torrid kisses between my legs are bringing me intense pleasure and satisfaction. Sobrang init!!

I can feel his teeth sucking my clits, my soft spot, my weakness and he's devouring it, owning it like there's no tomorrow. Para akong pagkain....

I switched our positions, rolling through the bed until we fell on the floor. Agad na nabasa ang sahig nang dahil sa mga pawis namin at dahil na rin sa mga katas ng aming ari. Of course I ended up on top of him and I rubbed my ass on his cock, slowly but surely, making sure na nabibitin siya.

"Dulce... god why are you torturing me??"

And when he couldn't take it, he stood up and carried me with him, holding my thighs. My legs were wide open around his back. Nabangga kami sa pinto and he did not hesitate any further. In one swift, deft, skillful move, pinasok niya na ang kanyang pagkalalake sa aking pagkababae.

"Ahh... Ahhhm! Ahhh!! Ughh!"

"Ugh.. Ha---Ugh! Ahm! Ahh..."

Our moans filled the whole room, and probably the whole team now knows where banging each other but who the fuck cares? I'm fucking my boyfriend right now and I will keep doing it dahil gusto ko, dahil masaya ako at---

"Oh fuck!"

I deserve a fucking moment of pleasure in my life!

"Uhmmm... ah!"

He was thrusting so hard, so deep and so fast inside of me. Hinahabol ko na lamang ang aking hininga. I must say, no one has beaten Clarke's mastery in bed yet. He is such a good sex mate.

He continues banging me on the door at sinasalubong ko ang bawat pagbayo niya sa akin. Mas lalo naming binilisan ang pag-indayog lalo na't malapit na naming maabot ang tutok ng aming kaligayahan.

"F*ck I'm coming--"

Nagulat ako ng bigla niyang binagalan. He's teasing me! Ugh!

"Clarke!"

"Tell me you love me, Dulce. Sabihin mong mahal mo ako. Gusto kong marinig mula mismo sa'yo."

Whut? Nagulat ako sa sinabi niya... He's so weird. I can read guilt, despair and desire in his eyes. Napakapusok niya. But I can't deny that I feel the same... Something has changed... I am afraid... I am guilty... especially with what I did when he was gone... and sex seems to be our way of filling the gap... Yea, right... This aggression was all a product of guilt, desperation, and misery.

"Tell me you love me and promise me you'll never leave me. Promise me na akin ka lang. Promise me na hinding hindi ka mawawala sa akin."

"Clarke..."

I can't... I can't find the strength to do as he asks...

"SAY IT."

And natakot ako. Natakot ako sa nakikita ko sa mga mata niya. He is so possessive. I don't know where this is coming from. I know where I'm coming from. Pero si Clarke? Is he just playing along? Or is there something else? I can feel it.

"I--"

"TELL ME NOW."

Shit. I can't talk but him moving so slow when I'm on the verge of orgasm is killing me. He's moving even slower and I can't take this anymore.

"I-- M-mahal kita, Clarke.... Ugh..."

"Sabihin mong akin ka lang. Tell me you're mine and mine alone."

Oh god, dahan-dahang bumibilis ang kanyang paggalawa sa loob ko. I can't help it. I have to tell him because I'm about to explode!

"S-Sa'yo lang ako, Clarke... I-I'm yours... and y-yours alone..."

At ngumisi siya sa narinig niya. When he was satisfied with what he heard, he moved even faster and faster and faster until finally--

"UGH!!"

We reached satisfaction and we raced our breath. I can't remember what happened next... I was too tired to remember.... But I was happy and relieved... but only ephemerally...

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