Entry made on thirtieth October 2012, 10:00pm

Dear Derek,

Yes,
I have finally come up with a name for you and I want you to be a boy. I haven't understood why, but I have found that boys are more willing to listen and better friends than girls (even if I am one) so I thought you should be a boy, having all those qualities.

Alot has happened over the past few days, and it seems ever since I have bought you, life has gone into fast mode. The spice I was yearning for seems to have come, but in a more twisted way.

It might seem odd if I just ranted about things which are totally random and new to you, so I will summarize things for you a bit.

I am Daryl, with a bookshelf full of problems and a dad who doesn't care.  Mom died in childbirth and I think- though I can never be sure- that he hates me because of this fact. I have never, and I mean never had a proper conversation with my dad. Our only talks consist of "My result's out tomorrow" and "I will be out for dinner".

Yep. That's it. We have never shared words like normal people would do.

And that brings me to my second problem. This one again,  is dad oriented. Father, as he is formally called, has taken up drinking.

He never did this before, but with passing time he has turned into an alien, whose mere actions are a puzzle to me. I am sure he knows that I detest anything to do with alcohol, but he persists going to the bar, without giving me a second thought, which isn't new, but still.

I know, all of this seems petty, and I have a better life than most, but hey, don't judge me. You haven't yet experienced a day as Daryl, or you would take your thoughts back.

To bring a change as I had told you I will, I have taken up the social service class along with poetry writing. It has just been two days since I started with the above mentioned so there is not much to tell you about, but I am sure they will help somehow.

This took a lot of time to write and it is quite late at night so the rest of my rants will have to wait till tomorrow. Sleep well Derek.

Your friend
Daryl