Zahra's POV

"How is he?"

A soft voice snapped me out from my thoughts with my finger wiped the dried tears on Damien's cheek.

A sighed escaped my lips,"He's fine now but I know there's something else he hide from me."I replied to Katherine as my hand fixed the quilt that covered him.

I cleaned all the messed on the night stand before got up from the bed slowly. I didn't wanted him to wake up again. And seeing that I wasn't there on his sight.

My hand washed all the dishes before arranged it nicely."Katherine?"I asked, wiped my wet hand on a small towel.

"Hmm.."she hummed, picking up an orange juice in the fridge.

"Did you know who was the one he doesn't wanted to leave? He keep mumbling that while he was sleeping."I asked, wanted an answer why was he behaving like that.

She frowned,"I'm not sure but I think that was for his mother."

"His mother?"I asked again and she nodded her head. Was that the woman on the picture that he kept in his wallet?

"Zahra.."she called my name when I was daydreaming.

"Did you already told him about your pregnancy?"Katherine asked me but the question making me sighed.

My hand unconsciously touched my stomach that was already showing a small bump."No. I don't know how to tell him."I sighed again as my eyes became blurry.

"Everytime I wanted to tell him, my voice stuck as if something blocking me."I said honestly because when I wanted to tell him before I can't expressed it.

She rubbed my back when a tear dropped from my eyes."Arghhh...why am I crying."I laughed and smiled awkwardly at Katherine.

"It's okay."she embraced me,"You can tell him later."I hugged her back tightly.

"Thank you for understanding me. It's just I'm not ready yet."I said honestly to her because that was exactly how I felt.

She nodded before hesitated,"Zahra--"she asked me and I looked at her questionly.

"I want to ask you something--"she bit her lips while I just waiting at her question.

"Did you love my brother?"she asked after a few seconds of silence.

A smiled formed on my lips when I heard her question."Well--" I trailed off, thinking about her question again.

I love him or not?

I breath in,"At first I'm not--"all the memories since the first time I met him were playing in the back of my mind.

I continued,"But then sometimes when I near him my stomach errupted with butterflies, when he touch my skin it was tingling, when I saw his smile my world dissappear."I didn't realised when I was talking I was smiling happily.

"Is that love?"I asked Katherine back, maybe she can answered why I felt liked that.

Katherine smiled, patted my hand,"I felt like that too when I was fall in love with someone but ask your heart if you're trully love him."

I smiled at her words, if I really love him then it's good because I have reason to stay on his side forever.

My hand mixing the soup in the pot and tasted it to make sure it doesn't too salty."Maya where is the chicken I think it's time to cook it."

"Here you are."she stood beside me and handed the chicken.

I put all the chicken into the soup carefully and mixing it again."Oh I forgot something!"Maya said,"I go get it first okay."she told me and I nodded.

I closed the pot using the lid before washed my hand. I cleaned all the mess on the table and washed all the dishes.

As I washing the dishes, my hair kept closing my eyes so I pushed it with the back of my hand. And again it was closing my eyes making me irritated with it.

When I heard footsteps,"Maya, can you tie my hair up it keeps interrupting me." I called out her before I felt a hand gathered all my hair softly before tied it neatly.

"Thank you."I told her, smiling when my hair wasn't interrupting me anymore.

Suddenly I felt a kissed on my neck and muscular arms wrapped around my waist tightly until my back met a warm chest.

A gasped escaped my lips when my eyes met Damien that was smiling to me ear to ear.

"Damien!"

I squealed when he tilted my head using his fingers on my chin and kissed me right on my lips making me breathless. My hand punched his shoulder softly when he bit my lips.

He let out a breathy chuckles against my lips.

"What are you doing here? You should take a rest."I turned my body to face him and scolded him because when I felt his skin it was still burning.

He shook his head and pulling me into his embraced. His head snuggled on my neck making me sighed.

He doesn't wanted to hear what I said."Come on Damien let's go to your bedroom and sleep, okay?"I told him, patted his head.

He shook his head again,"Our bedroom."he said before pulling me more into his body.

"Alright, alright. So, shall we go?"I asked, wanted to look at his face but he hide it more into my neck.

I smiled like an idiot at his behaviour. He looks like a child needs him mother care. But it was opposite he was the father to my child.

He groaned before pulling away, before I can took a steps suddenly my body was floating in the air. He was picking me up bridal style.

"Oh no! My soup!!"I shouted when he walked out from the kitchen.

He ignored when I told him to put me down. But my eyes caught Maya so I called out her name.

"Maya!" I shouted and she turned her head to see me. She smiled when she saw us, "Don't worry I will take care of the soup." she winked her eyes and walked towards the kitchen without helping me.

I gasped when she did that and I heard a husky chuckled. I looked up at him, he was smiling.

He was happy. It was good to see him smiling. It seems nothing was happened between us. All the problem suddenly disappeared.

"You can take picture of me whenever you want."

I snapped from my thoughts when he talked. He chuckled again when he saw the blushed on my cheek and I blushed more when he kissed it.

"I think you're become more heavy."he said making me glared him. Well that's because I'm eating for two person.

"What? I'm just saying."he chuckled when I still glared him. "You still look gorgeous to me even you're gaining weight."he winked after saying those words making me speechless.

I didn't even realized that we were already in our room. He put me down on the bed slowly. I sat up when suddenly he kneeled down in front of me.

"What are you doing?" I frowned when he hold my hand on my lap while kneeled in front of me as if he was asking for forgiveness.

"Don't move. We need to talk." he replied and I can felt the seriousness in his voice.

I stay quiet when he said that. I'm ready to hear what ever he wants to talk about.

"I don't know where to start. I don't want to keep any secrets between us." he said with his eyes staring at me.

I squeezed his hand when he seems to struggle to tell me. "You don't have to tell me if you can't. Past is past. I---"

He shook his head and cut me off, "No. I want to tell you. You're my wife and I don't want to keep more secrets."

I can saw he clenched his jaw and felt his hand trembled when he wanted to talk making me worried. I wanted to stop him but if he wants to share I will heard what he wants to talk about.

"I know you see the all the scars on my body." There's a slight trembled on his voice but he continued, "All of this happen when I was still a kid. I was still 6 years old at that time when I started to ask my father about my mother. I was asking him where is my mother than I found out that she doesn't want me, she throw me away."

A mother never did that to their children unless there's reason behind it.

My heart clenched when I heard that, "Then I heard from my father again, I was a illegitimate child. That's why she throw me away. My father also doesn't want me. But he needs an heir, an heir to his gang. He used me---"

He closed his eyes, took a deep breath before continued. "If I said I don't want, he will beat me, starving me. He told me that I was the only heir to him and when I was already grown up I will take over his gang. My childhood was terrible. I grow up without love, without beatiful memories. Maya is the only one who care for me."

"I envy to all the kids that have a normal life. There's time I wanted a normal life and I tried to escape from my home. But my father's man caught me before I can. Started from that day his beaten became worse."

My hand wiped the tears that dropped from his eyes making me hurt just by seeing that.

"I still remember how my father and his man beat me
I've been told never show your weakness in front of others, show that you're heartless and now here I'm I show my weakness in front of you easily. I show that I have a heart just in front of you."

He put his head on my lap with a shaky breath, "I'm glad I found you."

I pulled his body as I kneeled before him. My hand wrapped around his shoulder and pulled him to my chest when I heard a sobs escaped his lips. I never knew he had a dark childhood. He just a child that need someone's love and care.

His hand tightened around me, I can felt his hand fisted my shirt. I didn't realised it was also crying with him, feeling how hurt he was.

"Please forgive me, baby doll."

My heart clenched more when he asked that. He's not the one who should asking forgiveness. It should be me because I didn't listened to him early.

"You have my forgiveness. Don't worry I will always by your side." I whispered against his ears as he nodded his head.

Everyone deserved their second chance. And I'm giving him another chance to fix our relationship.

My hand rubbed his back before I felt his body relaxed against me. He snuggled into my chest making me smiled. I kissed the top of his head and rubbed it softly.

Everyone has their own past. Past is past. It become memories. You can't turned around to fix it. You should looked forward and live your life happily.

After a few minutes, his breath became calm and his body more relaxed. He pulled his body out of my embraced and rubbed his eyes.

He chuckled, "I'm such a cry baby."

I smiled, "You're my big baby." My hand ruffled his hair making him groaned ,"But now you're the father of our baby."

The smiled on my lips disappeared the moments all the words slipped out of my tongue. He frowned when he heard those words.

"What?"he asked again.

My eyes blinked a few times, sighing. I think I should told him right now before he knew from someone else.

"Damien..."

I took a deep breath, "I'm pregnant." I bit my lip when I saw his eyes widened.

"You---- you're pregnant?"he asked again as if he doesn't heard what I said just now.

I nodded my head, "Oh you're pregnant."he said, suddenly his eyes widened again.

"I'm gonna be a father?!"he gasped before looking at me. I chuckled, nodded when he was looking at me with admiration.

Out of nowhere, he picked me up making me squealed as he spun us around.

"We're having a baby!"

I laughed against his embraced after we stopped spinning as he hugged me tightly. He kneeled down in front of me before pushed my shirt upward so my small bump showed him.

He put little kiss around my stomach and whispered something around it but I can't heard what he said.

I ran my hands on his hair as he still talking to our unborn child. He looked up at me and smiled happily making me also smiling at him.

I wished our days before just liked this. But I'm glad when all the misunderstandings has been solved.