"N-No no it can't be." I shook my head.

"Guys tell me this is just a lie..."I whispered shakily.

Silence

That broke my heart even more.

"Guys! Carol! Emily! Kath! Answer me!" I shouted at them when they just kept silent.

"Z-Zahra we're trying to tell you but--"

"You knew, and yet you didn't even try?! You guys smiled in my face when you knew about all of this for all this time!" I cut off Emily's words, can't believed that they kept all this secret from me.

Not just a small secret but a big secret that will made my life turned upside down.

Oh my Allah.

What have I done? I'm already married to this man.

I shook my head, fisted my hands that were already shaking before got up from my seat.

"Zahra we tried to tell you but he will--"

"This is all about him only?" I hissed angrily, "Then what about me? What will happen to me? How about my life right now?!" I added, shutting my eyes tightly as I tried not to cry.

"Yes we know Zahra. But--"

"Shut up. Just shut up." I whispered, doesn't wanted to yell at them. I know that wasn't their fault. It was his fault.

So I turned my body around before ran to the outside ignoring their calls as I picked up the bicycle before cycling it as fast as I could.

"Zahra!"

I cycled very fast, leaving them behind as my mind still can't believed that words.

"He is the Mafia King."

No he can't be!

I stopped cycling when his house was already in front of me. I didn't wanted to meet him now. I wanted my space right now. I wanted to clear my mind from all of this.

I turned the bicycle before cycling to a place that I wanted to since there's no other place that I familiar with in here. My mind still can't believed all of this.

No.

He wasn't a Mafia, right?

No.

I stopped cycling when I arrived a place that I familiar with. I parked the bicycle at the side of the horse stable.

My heavy stepped echoed the stable, as I made my away towards my favourite horse, Kai. The corner of my lips twitched slightly when Kai snorted as I stopped in front of it.

I patted his head with my hand still shaking until a voice interrupted me.

"Queen?"

My hand wiped quickly a tear that escaped from the corner of my eyes that I didn't even realised it before turned around. My eyes met Max, the horse guard looked at me with a confused looked.

"Ummm where is King?" He asked but that name making me clenched my jaw. I didn't wanted to hear that name.

"He's not here. I came here by myself." I replied turned my body again towards Kai.

"O-Okay." He said, not sure what to talk to me anymore,"Alright if you want something just call me."

I just nodded my head as he turned his body but I called him when I remembered something.

"If anyone ask where am I, don't tell them I'm here."I told him before turned my attention back to Kai.

I heard him said 'okay' before he walked away. I patted Kai's cheek softly, doesn't wanted to think about anything. I just wanted to clear my mind.

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"Kai, do you know how much it hurts  when someone that you already fall in love lie to you?"

I asked Kai, even though I might be looked like almost insane talking to an animal. I wiped my tears using the back of my hand as I tried to calm myself but I can't.

"You don't know right? But I do." I sobbed, "It's hurts too much. It's like someone stabbed your heart multiple times and you don't know what to do to save your heart. The pain.... will not disappear until there is a cure."

I slowly looked up, my lips trembling as another sobs made its way to my throat. As much as I wanted to hold in, the pain came out liked an uproar from my throat in the former of silent screamed.

"But this pain doesn't have any cure."I whispered.

My throat choked on my sobs as I pulled my knees closer to my chest and hugged them tightly. Suddenly Kai snorted and nudged my head as if it tried to soothe me. The gestured making me smiled weakly against the cried.

I looked up to Kai and patted his cheek. I wiped my tears and smiled at Kai, still trying to clear my mind.

Suddenly something wet touched my palm and I saw that was his tongue licked my palm. That gestured making me smiled and laughed.

Well at least you made me smiled Kai.

My hand kept rubbed Kai's hair until a voice called my name that made me wiped my tears quickly using the sleeve of my shirt.

"I'm sorry Queen but King ask where are you." Max told me.

I shut my eyes tightly, clenched my jaw when I heard that name again.

"No. It's okay." My voice sounded rough as my throat horse because of crying.

I stood up from the bench inside of Kai's stable before stepped out after kissed his cheek. My leg stepped slowly as I looked to the ground, clenched my jaw when I saw the familiar sheer black Lamborghini.

"Baby there you are! I tried to find you everywhere, but you are here. Why don't you--"

I walked past him, ignoring him before entered the car and closed the door. I didn't wanted to hear him talk or his voice near me.

I heard the other side of the car opened and closed. I turned my body looked to the outside with my hand fisted when it trembled again.

No don't cry!

Don't cry in front of him!

My jaw clenched when I felt his hand touched my hand and brought it to his lips. Before his lips touched my hand I pulled away and put it on my lap.

He kept silent when I did that before I heard him sighed. A few minutes later, he drove with a silence in this car until we entered the gate of his house. When he parked in front of the main door I stepped out before he can stopped me.

But, of course he stopped me by grabbing my hand.

"What's wrong with you?" He asked again making me clenched my jaw.

He asked what was wrong?

For all this time he lied me. Throughout this month I lived with all the fraud. He never told me anything. I shook my wrist roughly that he held until he let me go.

I turned my body to confront him before hissing ,"You tell me what's wrong?! Everything is wrong! This marriage! Your so called fake love! This Ring!" I pulled out the ring from my finger before threw it to him,"Everything was wrong!! Yet you ask me what was wrong?!"

I shook my head as the beads of my tears started falling down, one after another, without any sign of stopping.

"Why?"My voice came out as a whispered,"Why you lied to me?" I looked into his eyes searching if there was still hope that he wasn't the Mafia King.

Tell me you're not lying.

Tell me that you're a normal person.

Tell me that you're not The Mafia King.

But I found none. He just looking at me with those delicious eyebrow furrowed with his palm holding the ring that I threw away.

"W-What... I-I don't understand what you're talking about, baby doll."he stuttered, tried to hold my hand again when I slapped them away.

His face looked like he was in pain when I did that and the words came out from my lips. But, I guessed he still doesn't knew that I already knew his secret.

"Baby doll!!"

I shook my head, turned my body around before walked away and left him with many questions. When my feet touched the last stairs, I heard a small voice called my name making me stopped.

"Zahra..."

I inhaled deeply, wiping the tears that spill my face before turned my head to looked at them.

"I don't have a mood to talk right now. Don't worry I won't mad at you guys. This is not your fault. You're just keeping his trust." I told them, smiled weakly before walked away.

I turned around the corner until my feet reached the first stair to the third floor but I stopped. I didn't wanted to near him. I didn't wanted to stay in the same room with him.

My body turned back again as my leg took me to the room, my own room on the second floor. The room that I stayed before I married to him.

I opened the door with a trembled hand as I stepped inside the room. My hand pushed the door closed and locked it before I leaned against the door.

Why?

Why all of this happen when I already accept him?

Why it's happen when I already fall in love to him?

Why?!

Suddenly I heard someone knocked my door,"Baby doll?" I heard the voice of the man that I already fell in loved with called me,  making my tears dropped.

"Tell me what's wrong?" He asked,"Tell me why you mad at me. Tell me what you wanted to hear. Tell me... Baby doll..."

"Shut up! Just shut up and leave me alone!" I yelled angrily,"Don't even try to talk to me! Go away and leave me alone!" I told him as tears more tears continued to spill down my face and I didn't even care to wipe.

I heard him sighed on the other side of the door before I heard the sounds of footsteps walked away.

That's when I felt myself broke again.

The tears burst forth like water from a dam, spilling down my face. I felt the muscle of my chin trembled like a small child. My kness can't handle myself from standing until I fell down to the ground.

I closed my eyes, hoping for everything to dissappear. For myself dissappear. There was static in my head. I heard my own sound, liked a distressed child, raw from the inside.

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My eyes stared to the window with my body laid on the bed. I stared to the moon that shining brightly as the light illuminated this dark room.

"Zahra?"

I heard a soft voice called me and knocked the door. But my mind can't worked properly. My body won't moved. My mouth can't say anything. My eyes staring to the moon.

"Zahra? This is Maya. Can I come in?"she asked, not sure if she can came in or not.

But then when I didn't replied her, she opened the door softly as I heard her footsteps before the delicious smelt of food around the room. But my stomach didn't felt hungry.

Suddenly the dark room became bright when she switched on the lamp. My eyes didn't even flinched at the brightness of the lamp. I heard her gasped when she saw my condition.

"Oh my god! Zahra!" She walked towards me as our eyes met when I looked at her with a red eyes.

"Are you okay?"she asked worriedly with her hand pulled away the strands of my hair from my face.

But when she touched my cheek, her eyes widen."You're sick!"she said, touched my forehead and my neck to check my temperature.

"Your body is very hot."she said before ran towards the bathroom.

When she came out I saw a wet small towel in her hand as she wiped the sweat on my neck and my forehead softly.

"You have a fever. I call Damien first."she told me but when I heard his name I grabbed Maya's wrist to stop her from calling him.

She turned her head as I tried to get up and sat. "D-Dont t-tell him."I said with a shaky voice.

I sobbed,"D-Don't tell him. I don't want to meet him."I whispered shakily.

I looked up with a blurred eyes to see her,"P-Please don't tell hi---" Before my mouth can finished the words, suddenly my head spins and the dizziness making me shut my eyes as I felt my self fell backwards.

"Zahra!!"

Poor baby 😢😢