[Yn's POV]

This is wrong. So wrong.

I spoke to myself after that encounter with Jungkook before. I didn't stay there the moment we pulled away from each other and practically ran to my cabin. I was currently sitting here and working on the project that now I am assigned to. Honestly, I don't know what I am doing anymore. I am so lost at the moment that I am just staring at the screen, while nothing is being processed by my brain. Closing my eyes, I leaned back on the chair and massaged my forehead, trying to ease my mind and the growing headache that was literally sucking out the life out of me.

When I should have stayed strong I broke down in front of him, now he will keep this thing in his mind and will act more stubborn. The way his eyes expressed hope when I pulled away from him made it clear that he is not going to give up. No matter what I do. But I was still confused about one thing. Why is he acting so gentle with me after what happened? He should be loathing me, hating me, probably seeking revenge but no. He is doing the exact opposite.

"I should just ease down for a bit" mumbling to myself, I closed my eyes and started to prepare myself to start the work. I have to perform good in order to not look weak in front him. I will prepare myself mentally to the point that I won't express any feelings of mine in front him, I won't even acknowledge his existence. If he is being stubborn then I won't back down either. This is the only way to make him give up on me.

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I was currently at the lunch break with Rosé and Felix. I have to admit, since the moment I joined these two didn't make me feel alienated and we three bonded pretty well. I didn't see Jungkook after that encounter, maybe he left and I am actually glad that he did because I don't have the energy to deal with him anymore.

Felix: "Guess what, we will be working at Jeon's Corporations until the project is finished. I have heard that their company is one of the wealthiest ones, and even the technology. I am honestly excited to work there"

Rosé: "That's good but don't think of leaving this company" she narrowed her eyes at him to which Felix responded with a smug smile.

Felix: "You see right through me Rosé, well, who knows" he shrugged his shoulders and I laughed when Rosé smacked his arm making him wince in pain.

"How much time do you think will be required to finish this task?"

Rosé: "Probably 2-3 months, maybe more than that. It actually depends"

2-3 months?

I hesitated and concentrated on my food again while listening to them. How am I going to deal with him for 2-3 months? Too much happened in a day! I sighed and shook my head, but soon my attention diverted to my phone upon receiving a notification.

Baekhyun: "Hey, I hope you are having a good day! I will pick you up from work, mine is almost finished. When are you finishing?"

"Hey, yes it's going good, thank you. You don't have to be bothered I'll go by myself, I am finishing at 7 so it's gonna take a while" I texted back. There is no way I am telling him about Jungkook. I have to keep them away from each other no matter what happens.

Baekhyun: "It's all good Yn, I will pick you up. Aunt Sarah called me and she invited me to dinner, it's Jake's birthday celebration " I closed my eyes in frustration. How did I forget about the postponed celebration?

"Okay, I will see you" that's all I texted before placing the phone on the table. I will buy a gift for him on the way home. He didn't even said anything to me about it, I feel so bad.

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I exited the building before bidding a good bye to my colleagues. Baekhyun told me he will be here soon, so I should just wait until he comes. I took out my phone and scrolled through social media, also thinking what should I get for Jake. One of his friends gifted him that big painting, he loves them but there is no point in me giving that to him. Wait! I can give a collage of our pictures to him as a big good photo frame.

"But that can't happen at the last minute" I mumbled softly to myself and got sad.

"What my darling desires?"

I jumped upon hearing a deep voice from behind and covered my mouth. Turning around, I saw none other than Jungkook who quickly grabbed me by my waist and pulled me closer.

"Baby I didn't mean to scare you. I'm sorry" he spoke softly trying his best not to laugh while I just stared at him while breathing heavily.

"Oh God! Sweetie you scared me! I thought it was some creepy guy!" I fisted his chest but stopped upon realising what I called him. Clearing my throat, I looked away and made an attempt to maintain a distance between us but he kept his grip firm and spoke.

"Say that again baby, please" the desperation in his voice instantly made me look at him. His eyes were shining as a thin layer of water coated them. My heart broke into pieces, I can't look at him crying like this in front of me.

"Don't cry sweetheart" I couldn't hold back and wiped off the tears from his face. He closed his eyes and placed his forehead on mine firmly.

"Again" he mumbled in a soft voice and I didn't realise when tears made their way into my eyes. I am so bad, so selfish, such a horrible person. Knowing how much he loves me I broke his heart and broke him completely, made him vulnerable. I am myself broken from inside, but I can't see him becoming like me, I can't be the reason.

"Why don't you hate me Jungkook? Please hate me so that you can move on and live a good life. Please forget about me Jungkook, I can't see you hurting yourself anymore"

"That's the thing Yn. I can't move on. And I never will" he opened his eyes that were now red. "And hating on you? How could you even think of asking me that? And why should I hate you?"

"Because I am a horrible person!" I replied while screaming and stepped back. Jungkook looked at me calmly while I stared at him with red eyes. "I left you when you needed me the most, I tried to save the one who hurt you, I am still refusing to be with you because I can't! I can't keep my happiness above my family's! So please, stop being so good to me. I don't deserve it. I don't deserve your love. I don't deserve-"

"Don't. Don't finish that sentence" he cut me off by speaking with so much softness that it made me shut my mouth instantly. I stared at him with a defeated look. What is he made of? Why is he doing all this? I fail to understand. I confessed, I made myself look bad to make him hate me, I did everything I could yet he is not backing away. Why?

"You thought I wouldn't know?" He continued as he walked towards me while maintaining the eye contact. "You thought I wouldn't know that you tried to reach me but was stopped by your family?" My body froze when he confessed. Gulping the lump in my throat, I stumbled when he held me by my arms and gave me a sad smile. "You really thought I wouldn't know why you did all that?" He spoke and wrapped his arms around me in a protective way.

"I-I don't understand what you are talking about". I tried to defend myself. How did he know about all of this? Memories of that day flashed in front of my eyes.

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"I need to see him! He is in coma!" I screamed and cried more upon receiving the news about Jungkook. Jimin oppa told me on the call since he couldn't risk coming here, and I lost my control the moment I got this news. It's been two days since I got back home, and two days since he's been lying on the hospital bed. He needs me. I can't leave him alone there. I don't care what he did but I love him and my love needs me now!

"You are not going anywhere Yn! Did you forget what he did? How he treated us!" My mother yelled while I stared at her with disbelief. How can she think about herself at this moment? I know what he did was wrong but he is in coma for God's sake!

"Have some conscience mom! He is battling with his life at the moment and you are thinking about what he did? I love him! And I am going to the hospital! I don't care what happened but I need to see him!" I cried and yelled and walked towards the front door but stopped when my mother spoke again.

"If you step out of that door Yn you will see my dead body! I can't lose another child of mine!" And that's when I got numb and fell on my knees. My eyes never left the door in front of me, my body refused to move. My expressions went numb and tears continued to flow down my cheeks. I want to go, I want to see him, kiss him, hug him and let him know that I am here, that I am not going anywhere but my mother's words stopped me and broke me completely. I smiled sadly and cried, my life has become so pathetic. I have become so pathetic.

"Forget about him. Do whatever you can, but you have to forget about him!" Her voice got faint and I continued to stare at the door while sitting on the floor. My father didn't speak a word and gave me the look of pity before leaving. Jake tried to convince me to go to my room but I refused and continued to sit there.

"I am sorry love. I am so sorry"

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"It's okay baby, I am back now. I will make things right" he spoke and tried to reassure me. I shook my head while speaking.

"She will kill herself" I whispered.

"She won't. And she can't do anything about it. You are mine. And I am yours" he replied and kissed my forehead. "No one can separate us. I promise"

My whole body froze when I heard his next words.

"What happened to your sister, won't happen to us"

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To be continued