Hello my lovelies
I'm not going to lie I'm nervous to post this, it's a bit of a rollercoaster of emotions.

Probably not want any of you are expecting either!

Please be honest with what you think!

Baekhyun's POV
All to soon the the white stone facade of the manor comes in to his line of vison, he's never hated anything more in his life. He can still smell, the harsh smell of gasoline, still hear the awful whistling bang bang bangs of guns firing, the sound of brakes accelerating, glass cracking and splintering falling like dangerous little daggers of torture around them. All that carnage whilst terrifying was nothing like watching the man he loves getting shot! Baekhyun knows he screamed like a terrified school girl, and is pretty sure the sight of a bullet lodged in that bronze muscled arm has shaved a few days off his own life.

Baekhyun has very little to compare his experience with Chanyeol too, but is pretty sure from the way his lips were assaulted and claimed that whatever is between them is about to get even better, he has never felt the emotions he felt when Chanyeol kissed and caressed him before as he felt those big calloused hands push him to the car.

Baekhyun felt the love, the arousal and the fear for his life and for a flash he saw Chanyeol's vulnerability and something that looked like regret. He was so proud he said what he said, and is not afraid to say he loves this glorious Mafia King! How could he not, Chanyeol has done more for him in the short weeks since the night he walked in to his life then anyone has ever done. Chanyeol has saved him from the failings of the University and his dire living situation, personally protected him from a perverse predator disguised as a manager and shown him just what nirvana can look like. Chanyeol may be dangerous, but to him Chanyeol despite being the king of his empire is to him that strong predatory Lion defending his mate, willing to risk his life to keep him safe. He fully intends to tell his mafia king exactly how much love he feels for him, as well as slam his fists in to his chest for not getting in the car as well.

Leaving him to bash on the window and beg the driver to turn around and go back in such a undignified manner! The driver will probably think he's some neurotic child with how loud his begs and screams were. Baekhyun doesn't have to look down to know he's been left with bruised knuckles, a hoarseness to his voice and tears eyes. He's pretty sure he looks the exact same embodiment of a frightened little lamb.

Somewhere deep in his heart he is touched that Chanyeol thought of his safety, his brain will catch up and tell him he had no place being involved in something like that, and will remind him to not to involve himself in that side of Chanyeol. The less he knows the safer it will be. At the same time he's never felt the despair he still feels as the door to the escape car slammed behind him without his injured king following. He has entered a dangerous world and knows not everyone who Chanyeol does business with will be above board, he knows fully well who was behind this sneaky attack. He hates the push and pull of his heart telling him that he should be angry Chanyeol didn't trust him enough to tell him what's going on, yet loves that protective side that he knows didn't tell him so as not to worry him the scum of the earth is walking the street. He has so many questions but right now as the car finally comes to the stop at the entrance, he has to find Yixing and save his man.

He gets out of the car, wanting to sprint to the entrance, buts stops dead in his tracks. A thick full body shudder runs through him, as the sound of a car screeching, he has just enough time to watch some a white luxury four door super car, charge out of the barely open garage and speed down the driveway. Leaving nothing but a puff of exhaust fumes, the car he was been driven in too does a 360 turn and follows the white car. The rational part of him knows that those driving the cars are heading back for Chanyeol, he should be relieved yet his heart and soul can sense that having two cars speed away is not a good omen. Neither is what he sees the other side of the heavy oak doors to the manor.

Yixing stands beside a portable style hospital bed already set up, already preparing two bags of fluid! One is clearly a a bag full of clear saline, probably fluids and antibiotics. The second one, that makes Baekhyun stomach drop out is a deep maroon red thick liquid, the blood bag has Baekhyun striding across the floor. His nerves peaking when he notices the large oak dresser is covered in that same green stuff you only see in operating room. A selection of medical tools, gauze, bandages and a tiny bottle of morphine complete with an injection already set to go.

He remembers hearing Chanyeol say he was shot, but this seems to be a bit over kill for a GSW to the arm. "Yixing, I heard Chanyeol say his wound was not serious!"

"Baekhyun! That idiot driver was supposed to call me with an update on you! Are you hurt? Do you have any wounds? Your pupils are dilated too, and your trembling."

"Yixing I think it's just an adrenaline come down, Yixing please I'm not stupid and your mumbling what's going on! Has Chanyeol been shot a second time?"

"I need you do to something for me Baekhyun, i need you go down to my office, a private hire nurse will be waiting to asses you!"

"Yixing!"

"Please Baekhyun I know you have questions, right Now I need you to go to the nurse, go with the man over by the staircase."

"Yixing please!"

"Now Baekhyun or I will drag you to the panic room down there myself and lock you there until morning!"

Baekhyun can feel the tears already forming in his eyes and the heat rising on his face, at the sharp way Yixing just shouted and bossed him around. He almost sobs when Yixing turns back to the Gurney he's preparing, effectively dismissing him. Baekhyun swallows down the burning lump in his throat, having to close his eyes to calm the tempest of emotions storming through his veins. He sees it now how his love for Chanyeol has blinded him to the fact he's been deliberately kept in the dark, and he doesn't mean what ever is going on now, it's everything! He doesn't care for the business Chanyeol runs, he will never have an interest nor want anything to do with it! His heart clenches over how he's been deliberately kept in the dark by Chanyeol and everyone else in this house about Jimmy and now no one is bothering to tell him if the man he loves is ok!

Its just opened his eyes to his situation in the most devastating way and has him all lost amongst a sea of confusion. Right in this moment all he feels like is the plaything Chanyeol promised he wouldn't be, the brush of silk and lace on his thighs just embarrasses him. Visions of Chanyeol's dark laugh at the reveal of what he hoped would be something sexy just have his insecurities flying. Why did he think he could convince himself this Mafia king would want him is beyond him, a vey small part of him as known all along that this would never work. His brain effectively smashing his hearts desires as it pleads for him to remember what Chanyeol has done for him. The devil on his shoulder telling him, his so called glorious man is just trying to get in his pants and would do anything to claim a virgin.

He needs to get these knickers off and now turning away from Yixing and his spot by the door, he stalks towards the stairway. He should follow the goon that's probably been ordered to be his shadow by Suho, but right now the last place he wants to be is anywhere in this manor! Baekhyun goes to stalk up the stairs to his bedroom expecting the man to follow him, but Yixing barking in to an ear piece he hasn't noticed before stops every thing! It's so silent you could hear a pin drop when he suddenly hears it! The far off roar of a huge engine, breaking through the silence of the night! It snaps everyone in to action, Yixing with the two people in scrubs in scrubs he never noticed before, and at least half a dozen men in suits all descending towards the door, including his bodyguard. His heart lurches he longs to follow and make sure his strong brave lion is ok, hold his hand and tell him everything will be ok, that he's not mad. That he knows why he kept such a unbelievable bit of news secret, but so much of him wants to be taken seriously and not have secrets between them, especially when his own life is involved! Allowing his tears to fall he let out a chocked sob, as he races up to his bedroom.

It takes seconds for him to make it too his bedroom, quickly closing the door, he leans back against the cool wood! He can hear door slamming and the muffled shouts from the entrance way causing his heart to lurch. He is so conflicted and needs a some guidance from someone who doesn't reside under this roof and is not on Chanyeol's payroll! The sudden vibration against his leg, makes him pray to the heavens it's not his trusty old flip phone but the smartphone Chanyeol left on his bed when he first arrived. The one he had forgotten was in his pocket, taking it out with trembling fingers, he lets out a shaky breath it's one of people who has has always has his back.

I'm hoping that Chanyeol has already ripped off those knickers, but I know you buttercup don't flap about you are going to be sex on legs go get him tiger!

Lulu do you know the way to the manor?

Not really sweet cheeks I know it's off the highway, towards the mountains!

Yes it's on the road that takes you past Nongsam, please can you head that way, I will meet you by the rest house that has the frying pan flipping an egg on its roof!

Buttercup, that's a 40 minute drive away what's going on!

Please Lulu, I need to get out of here, I will pay you for fuel I just need you to take me to my apartment I still have the lease until next week.

I will do no such thing, you can stay with me I won't tell Sehun either I will be leaving in 5!

Thank you I will explain all when I see you!

You better.

Baekhyun takes a deep breath, the rest stop is still quite a walking distance, letting out a second sob he feels so guilty for doing this! He should be here for his man, but that devil on his shoulder keeps whispering that he's only here for pleasure, and because Chanyeol felt sorry for him it's all is messing with head. Grabbing his hair he pulls at the Smokey locks he needs to get out of this house to clear his mind! No one will expect him to leave the safety of the manor, perhaps and it's totally twisted if Jimmy catches wind he has left, The Manor will not be targeted and Chanyeol can recover in peace.

Taking a deep cleansing breath, he quickly rushes to strip down completely naked, leaving a pile of clothes on the floor. First he grabs his boxers, his old jeans his one decent pair of shoes, Chanyeol's t shirt that he stole after his attack and his almost threadbare university hoodie. Quickly changing he then grabs his back pack, he should grab the box of all his possessions too as his apartment is bare shaking his head no he just needs space! Grabbing his laptop and his tattered mongrongie he goes to leave the room. Yet stops dead in his tracks when he spies the pile of clothes he left,  he doesn't know what possesses him it he quickly tidies away everything save for the maroon red lace knickers those he leaves atop his bed, it's not the way he wanted them to displayed but perhaps it's better this way!

Rushing out to the hallway would be the obvious way out? He knows there are several cameras, a high tech security system too, but too his complete surprise the usual myriad of laser beams he seen at night are not there and the door is open not fully but enough for him to squeeze out. The fact that no one is here causes him to falter in his steps, Chanyeol must be gravely hurt for the normal order of the manor to be so array! The mere thought of taking a step across the fresh hold and leaving Chanyeol wide open for attack just makes him  that bit more of a plaything! He gently traces his lips as memories of that heated kiss he shared with Chanyeol fill him with warmth and a hint of neediness, at how his lips were claimed and that pressure on his neck well it made him weak at the knees.

That kiss is not a kiss of someone just after a bed mate for a few nights. Perhaps if he takes charge of the manor Chanyeol will trust him to tell him what's really happening! He quickly texts Luhan that's it's all a false alarm, the crude emoji he gets and the message that's follows makes him feel better. He is not the plaything that devil on his shoulder is whispering to him, he is special and he will not run from this! He shuts the massive double oak doors that make up the main entrance, he doesn't know any of the codes but is positive there is some sort of fail safe as he heads towards the room he knows Chanyeol will be in!

It only takes him a couple minutes to find exactly what he is looking for, and what he sees has his feet moving no running before his brain has even caught up! His very special love, his shining Adonis is lying atop a gurney, pale and almost lifeless! Wearing just his white singlet which is splattered with droplets of blood, bright white cables poking out under that singlet where Baekhyun can see the outline of round blue pads affixed to a chest. A grey monitor on one giant finger, and even more wires  connecting his other arms to thankfully just that meat saline like drip! What has him gasping is Chanyeols arm, it's almost triple the size it should be, it's bright red from elbow to the shoulder. He's desperately trying not to be sick at the mottled almost blistered skin around the bullet hole wound.

He hadn't noticed Yixing to the side, rubbing a swap over black lumps, Baekhyun's never seen a bullet look like that! Suho he notices is pacing at the base of the bed, a dozen or so of Chanyeol's men standing around the perimeter of the room. Taking as deep a breath as he can he musters the sternest voice.

"The security system is not armed, the main door was opened and I don't see anyone checking to see if any of us were followed!"

Baekhyun watches as Suho turns and stares at him slightly resembling a goldfish before almost blinking in shock! Baekhyun watches as he shakes off the shock of own tone before a proud smile covers his face! Suho them simply nods to the men behind them all but one leaving, the one remaining closest to the only entry way, Suho taps into his phone must be setting an alarm before Yixing's voice comes out in it's usually soft tone. "Go I got this, he will have our heads regardless of what's on that tape!"

Baekhyun doesn't get chance to ask what Yixing means, before Suho is squeezing his shoulder and rushing out of the room! What ever else he is thinking soon short circuits when he hears Chanyeol groan softly, he doesn't think any more and rushes to his side, taking the cloth a nurse was dabbing across Chanyeol's forehead. If any one is going to be assisting to look after this wounded soldier it will be himself! He sees Yixing fist pump the air before rushing off to what must be a store cupboard! He doesn't get to question it when Chanyeol starts to groan again!

"Shh my strong mafia warrior everything is going to be ok, you have to stay still you have stay still!"

Before he can comprehend what's happening Chanyeol still completely out of it manages to push him away. Pushing him with a strength of a lion in distress would have, Baekhyun can feel his back careen in to the bed next to his. It absolutely kills him to see a red mark already blooming where Chanyeol slapped his own hand away! Baekhyun gingerly gets to his feet and takes a step back from the bed, his heart and soul breaking over how Chanyeol calms down the further he gets away.

"Baekhyun!"

Everything hurts, not just where his back collided with the metal of the bed next to the man he loves with every fibre of his being! But at the pain of that love not being strong enough to calm his wounded warrior,  his heart and brain are once again battling against each other. One saying the man he loves is hurt and his vicious insecurities telling him his presence is nothing but a nuisance to every one.

"I promise you he didn't mean it Baekhyun he's not himself!"

"Whats wrong with him Yixing he was walking and so so  in charge when he forced me to leave!"

"Baekhyun!"

"Please!"

"Baekhyun you need to breathe!"

"You won't do it will you, you won't tell me what's wrong!"

Baekhyun waits what feels like a lifetime but is just mere seconds, but yixing remains stubbornly silent! he turns automatically to the man on the bed as he groans once more, this is more then just a gunshot to the arm. His Mafia king has been laced with something that's making him suffer, he wants to go to him run his hands through that sweat soaked platinum hair but he doesn't want to be a burden! Taking one more step back he spots his backpack, he doesn't want to do this but being out of the way is clear at the moment is the the right thing to do so Chanyeol can fully recover. Noticing that Chanyeol seems once again to slump back against the bed just as he spots the flappy ear of his stuffed corgi teddy out of his bag! He may need to leave right now but a part of him will remain here always, in the form of his mongrongie. It will be the first time in his life he's not had the stuffed toy with him, he's leaving it for Chanyeol on the hope it will make him feel better. Kissing the almost threadbare fur he quickly places into on the bottom  of the bed, he doesn't want to startle him again. Even if he does want to reach over and over kiss those lips arms prey that a true loves kiss will
fix this!

Turning around he sees the man that's been standing bu the door way also this time, he knows he going to kick himself doing this, but he needs air and space! The man who's been standing silently watching his every move will ensure he gets his space!

"Take me to the city!"

Baekhyun is not surprised when the bodyguard looks over his head to Yixing! Who has been silently observing his every move, "Do as he asks, Chanyeol he will come for you Baekhyun when he realises your not here I can promise you that!"

Baekhyun does understand abs perhaps that's what he's doing is beyond reckless. He is fully aware of what can happen if Jimmy gets wind of him being away from Chanyeol, but this between them will never work if he's not trusted to be told the truth! Unable to trust his own voice he simply nods and leaves the make shift hospital room, confident in the knowledge that the bodyguard will take him wherever he asks.

Our poor Baekhyunnie
Please don't be too harsh on him, he's so confused and hurt by the secrets.

Honestly please do tell what you think, even if you all hate it. I promise this will make them stronger for what I have brewing, this was always going to be highly charged sexually and push at the norms

I think too much insta love in this would not match the plot-however do tell me if I have completely lost my marbles

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