I looked ahead, my entire body shaking at the sight of Jaebum and Jackson. Jackson had disappeared somewhere leaving me and JB alone. I looked around hoping none of the boys or Yoongi were looking at me.

I sighed in relief when I saw Yoongi laughing as he talked to a man, completely unaware of my presence at the bar.

"How are you agent Y/N?", Jaebum started. All this time both of us looked straight ahead so that our backs were faced to the rest of the crowd and no one could see we were talking.

"What are you doing here?"

"We came to make sure you were okay. Everyone was stressed when you disappeared. The bureau is impressed with how you converted this kidnapping into a mission. Your aid has helped us draw them out and in no time we will catch them"

My heart clenched in fear and guilt as I heard those words. My attention was diverted when Jackson walked in with my drink before handing it to me.

As his hand brushed mine, he slipped in a bluetooth device. I grabbed it, keeping a neutral face as I hid it deep within the pocket in my dress.

"I don't know what you did or how you got Yoongi to trust you, but looks like we have lured the fish to the bait. Just give us a couple of days and we will get you out of there. Take this bluetooth somewhere private and listen to the recording. The entire plan has been put on it"

I gripped the drink tightly as I downed it in one go before standing up.

"Be safe Y/N" were Jaebum's last words to me before I walked out of there towards the restroom.

"Lily". I stopped as Suga sneaked behind me before placing a hand on the small of my back. "Where are you going?"

"I am just going to the restroom"

"Let me wait for you there". We walked hand in hand as we made way to the women's restroom. Yoongi waited outside while I went inside and took an empty stall before putting in the device.

"On the 22nd, Bangtan is set to meet Ikon and MonstaX for a business deal at the Choi Shipping yard. The Bureau of Crime that day will raid the yard and catch them in the act. A separate sub unit of agents will be sent to the Bangtan Mansion to uncover evidence of the drugs which will be instrumental in helping us file a case with the prosecution against the mafia. Agent Y/N you will be in charge of getting the leader arrested. At the day of the mission, agent Tzuyu will be undercover at the meeting as a server girl who will aid you in the mission. As per guidelines of the Bureau, the members have to be brought unharmed. I repeat, at any point do not shoot at sight."

A single tear rolled down my eyes as I realized they had put me in charge of capturing Yoongi. I only had a week before they would take him away and my secret would be exposed to them.

I removed the Bluetooth and disabled it before flushing it down the drain. Just as I turned on my heel to leave, I felt a gag. My hand instinctively covered my mouth before the familiar sensation of wanting to throw up came back and my body jerked forward in response.

I bent over the toilet as the contents of my stomach came gushing out. Beads of sweat formed on my forehead as the sour bile taste lingered in my mouth.

I walked out and splashed my face thoroughly with water not caring about the streaks of makeup that were washing away. As I looked up to face myself in the mirror, I realized something.

I was late on my periods.

Yoongi waited for Lily only to realize that she was taking too long. After much contemplation, he finally went in to see the girl supporting herself against a wall. Her face was wet and she looked extremely pale like she was sick.

"Lily, Lily.. are you okay?"

"Yoongi what are you doing here?", I snapped out of it as I realized he was inside a female restroom.

"I got worried because you weren't coming out. Let me get you out of here, you look sick. We are going home. I am calling Jin Hyung now"

"No, no, I am fine. Let's just go home. Can we please stop at the pharmacy?"

"Yes, let me get the car"

He helped me out as we both took an exit which directly helped us get out of the party without having to pass through the crowd. As I walked away with Yoongi, my eyes fell on Jaebum at a distance who was looking at me.

The entire ride home was silent except for when we stopped at the pharmacy.

"What do you need? I will go get it. Tampons? Pads? Any medicines?"

"Wait in the car, I will go myself. Give me your wallet", I said putting my hand forward.

"Lily, you are not well. Let me go"

"Yoongi the wallet please"

"Lily.."

"YOONGI GIVE ME THE GOD DAMN WALLET"

The man stopped at the sudden raise of voice before he removed his wallet and placed it in my hands. Without a word I opened the door and walked into the pharmacy. The chemist at the front counter watched in surprise as a woman in an expensive gown came in.

I took a pregnancy kit and a couple of medicines for my nausea as I placed it on the counter. The man looked at me questioningly but a glare from me had him quickly bill the items.

"That will be 33,000 won"

I placed the notes in his hand before walking out with the bag. Yoongi waited in the car as the door opened and she sat. He started the car as they drove back home.

Back at the mansion, Yoongi had some work so he went to his office while I went to our room. I fastened the lock on the bathroom door as I looked at the pregnancy test in my hand. I took it and waited for 10 minutes for the result to turn up.

Those 10 minutes were the hardest for me as my mind kept wandering from one thought to the other. What if it was positive? Would I have the child? How would Yoongi react? What will I tell the people at the Bureau?

I realized it had been long enough so I stood up from the floor I was sitting on and walked to where the test kit was. With trembling hands I picked it up and peeked.

Two faint red lines.

I gasped and it fell from my hand, straight into the trash bin below. My breathing became ragged and I used the wall to take support. Tears started rolling down my eyes. Yoongi was the father of my child and I was going to hurt and betray him.

I collapsed on the floor as I continued to cry. I felt like screaming all my anger and pain. What was I going to tell Yoongi?

I cried on the floor while tightly clutching my stomach. A thought formed in my mind. None of this would happen if I am not there. If I am dead, no one would suffer. Yoongi would escape easily and I wouldn't have to choose between anyone.

I stood up hastily, tripping over my dress twice as I opened the shelf right above the sink. Yoongi's shaving knife was rested there, the silver gleaming as light hit it.

I removed the knife as I looked at it.

Maybe the end of me would end everyone's suffering.