"Suga?"

Yoongi sighed. "Took you long to recognize me Lily"

"You are not Suga. Is this some joke? How do you have his book? Did you do something to him?"

She dashed at me and grabbed the collar of my shirt before smashing me into the wooden closet behind.

"I am Suga", he said.

"YOU ARE NOT. YOU CANNOT BE. THIS IS A LIE, YOU HAVE DONE SOMETHING TO HIM AND NOW YOU HAVE HIS BOOK. WHAT DID YOU DO TO HIM?", she cried as she punched my chest.

"I AM SUGA, THIS IS NOT A LIE. I AM THE GUY THAT LIVED ACROSS YOUR HOUSE IN DAEGU. THE GUY WHO TOOK YOU TO THE CREEK. THE GUY YOU SAVED FROM HAESUL. THE ONE YOU PUT ALL YOUR BROCCOLI IN JUST SO YOUR DAD WOULDN'T SCOLD YOU FOR NOT EATING THEM. I AM THAT SUGA - THE GUY YOU USED TO LOVE AND THE ONE YOU LEFT 14 FUCKING YEARS AGO"

"No, no, no", I chanted those words like a mantra. Tears wouldn't stop falling from my eyes.

"You cannot be him. That Suga he was a child at heart. He loved writing poems and music and wanted to be a rapper. He enjoyed eating lamb skewers with me and every night he used to sneak into my room just so we could cuddle and sleep. You are not him. You are a monster. You kill people. The Suga I knew wouldn't even dare to hurt a fly.."

My heart shattered into a million pieces as I heard this. I knew this would happen one day. What I had become, Lily would never accept me.

I stood while she stepped back away from me staring at the ground. There was silence until she spoke.

"Do it now, what are you waiting for?"

"What?", I asked confused.

"Kill me. I lied to you. My cover is blown. I am not Yura. Don't you hate liars, so kill me then"

I was taken aback when she walked up to me and removed the gun from my back and placed it in my palm. She wrapped my fingers around it and placed it on her head.

"Do it", she said.

I closed my eyes as I felt the gun between my brows. I waited for it to happen. For my brains to blow out but instead I heard it fall on the ground.

I opened my eyes to see he had taken a step back, the gun on the floor. He had tears in his eyes. I lunged at him.

"Killing is so easy for you, then why hesitate with me?", I said grabbing his collars. "Just pull the trigger and end this mess"

He looked at me with bloodshot eyes. I knew I had him cornered.

"What happened for you to change like this? Remember why I used to call you sugar? Because you were sweet. You were the purest person I had ever seen.. now... why?", I sobbed into his chest.

"I am sorry Lily", he managed. "I am sorry"

I looked up to see his eyes. Now I knew why he felt like a memory. Why that gummy smile attracted me so much and why his touch felt this familiar. It was him all this time.

"Tell me, tell me everything", I said.

I took his hand and got him out of the closet as we sat on the bed.

"After you left, I did something which triggered this all"

"What did you do?"

"I killed my mother", he said in a blank voice. I gasped as I heard this.

"She got drunk one day and tried to kill me. In self defense I picked up a bottle of alcohol lying there and smashed it on her head. She died that instance. The police found me and I was sent to juvenile. I met two other people there. One was Namjoon and the other was a boy three years elder to me call Jaehyun. Jaehyun was killed by my inmates and the last thing he told me was to find his younger brother when I left. That is how we found Jimin. Jungkook and Taehyung we found on the streets. They were running away after murdering their step father. Do you know they are both half brothers? Hoseok and Jin joined much later through mutuals. We started by doing petty theft to fend for ourselves and soon it became a full fledged Mafia"

I had my breath in my throat the entire time he spoke.

"I used to cry myself to sleep because I knew you would be disappointed. But that was the only thing I knew and I was so deep into it, there was no going back now"

He broke down again and right then did I see the Suga in him. The one that put his head in his palms and cried like when I gave him the birthday gift.

"Why did you leave? If you hadn't, none of this would have happened. You would have saved me like you always did. Where did you even go?"

"They killed Appa. The Mafia members from Seoul killed him", I said.

Yoongi looked at me with wide eyes.

"He did not die of an accident like they told the neighbors. He was killed and I was no longer safe. So they took me to Seoul where they could keep an eye on me"

"Mr Kang was killed?", he asked in shock and I nodded, tears rolling down my eyes.

"I couldn't see anyone or interact with anyone. They just took me away. I couldn't even say goodbye. And then two years later that incident happened, that fucked me up.. the therapy... it made me forget things...", I broke down so bad and Suga put his hand on my cheeks.

"What happened? What Therapy?"

"12 years ago.. something similar to yesterday's events happened. But there were 4 of them, they raped me for 6 hours... and I was put in a hospital... the therapy they gave me was so intense, it fucked my memories.. I saw things that never happened and those that happened seemed like my imagination..."

Yoongi looked at me in shock. He had no words as I narrated everything to him.

I choked on my tears as I tried to speak and he wrapped his arms around me, pulling me into his chest. I cried as I remembered everything.

"Yesterday... I thought it would happen again.. his touch felt disgusting... It reminded me of everything that had happened to me.. "

"No one will ever touch you again. I am here for you, You don't have to worry about anything ever again. I am just so glad I have found you, I will keep you safe forever and protect you"