Chapter 12 Getting Back my Love
And here comes the next chapter, I know many won't agree or like the way I chose to reconcile Om and Gauri but I had to stay true to myself and the way I see the characters, the way I built them up. Nevertheless I hope you will enjoy the chapter very much because in the upcoming 2 chapters Tej's truth will finally be revealed and Jhanvi will take a stand for herself
Omkara what happened between the two of you? Why is Gauri still at her maternal house?" Rudra looked at his younger brother and sipped from his drink. After a week away from the Family with Bhavya and Kavya, Rudra finally managed to solve his own problems in his marriage and intended to give Bhavya another Chance, to give both of them the chance to start afresh.Both had done a few things which almost destroyed their marriage but they did love each other and they finally realized they would do anything to keep their marriage alive. He had returned with the thought of having a chat with Gauri and a drink with Om but to his surprise he found out Gauri was staying at her parents' house for obvious reasons. He knew Omkara must have done something wrong, like always. Why couldn't his brother see how much Gauri loved him? How she always put his happiness before hers? Rudra thought sadly. His brother was truly an idiot.
Both were now sitting in Om's Bedroom, watching some TV when Rudra had asked the question Om was afraid of. He knew he had some explaining to do.
It has been almost one and a half week since that terrible night and Gauri was still on not talking terms with him. He had sent her thousands of sorry messages, roses, even went by her house camping in front of her bedroom window just to apologize, he tried everything but she stayed firm in her decision of staying away from him for a while. After that night he realized that he had done a terrible mistake and he regretted it truly. Never in his wildest Dream did Om think he would stoop so low and would try to force himself on her. He knew that this time he could lose her forever. Because he had questioned her character and her Love. He had accused her of infidelity knowing she couldn't forgive him that easily this time- and she was right in that. How could he even utter those words? What in his mind made him be so cruel? There was nothing that could justify his words and he knew that.
I just hope she will forgive me, he thought and drank his drink in one zip.
"I asked you something." Rudra said again. He knew Omkara avoided to answer but if he didn't open up then how could he help him? It was his duty as a brother to ensure both his brothers and his sister in laws happiness.
"I have done the unthinkable Rudy. I questioned her character. Questioned the Character of the Woman that loves me more than anyone else that woman that carries my child. The woman that forgave me everything, each heartbreak , each ounce of pain and what did I do? I accused her of something so dirty...How can she ever forgive me? I wouldn't forgive myself either." Omkara closed his eyes and narrated the whole story of how Arjun came to office and after that he and Gauri went on a Lunch Date and he had kissed her forcefully. He even told him about the Night in which he had almost forced himself on her. He left no stone unturned.
"Om..I. know Gauri! She could never do something like that, kissing someone else than you. She loved you! It was always you for her. I mean think about it she endured you even when you were taking your revenge on her and hurt her so much. SHE STAYED Omkara: She stayed because she loves you and she could have had married someone else but she didn't! Why can you not trust anyone completely little brother? Why do you have to sabotage your own marriage time and time again? What it is about your past that you can't let your future untouched."
After listening to Rudra, Omkara felt even more miserable. He felt like he had done the gravest mistake in his whole life.
"I know that Rudy...I know you are right and I know how much Gauri loves me and that she would never cheat on me but in that moment I was blinded by my wrath! It was like I wasn't myself. And after seeing those pictures I felt so insecure and vulnerable like I was stupid enough to fall in love again and to have my heart broken again. That Gauri once wanted to marry Arjun didn't help, it actually fueled my anger. It was like I realized there was someone who actually deserved her, I never did and knowing that he was willing to have her I was scared she would leave me...She would just go and be happy."
They looked at each other and then it hit him. His brother was waiting for him to realize what he wanted him to do.
" I need to get her back, right now. No Words or Flowers will help. She should be with me; always. The past days I felt so incomplete because she wasn't here. I felt like I couldn't breathe because she wasn't here. I-I-I felt like I would die If I had to live another moment without her Rudy. I will get her back, right now."
"Why?" Rudra asked; testing him. He knew that one reason was their child. Maybe that was even the only reason. He wanted Omkara to realize that Gauri was a human being with feelings; he couldn't play with her emotions like that. They were not alone anymore there was a tiny life they had to think of and If Omkara ever repeated something like that he could say for sure that Gauri would leave him- with the baby. And he would understand her, would help her. That is why he tried to test if his brother really meant his apology or whether he just desired her. Marriage is not just based on Love, trust is needed. Something he realized his brother still needed to do.
"What kind of stupid question is that? I will get her back because I can't live without her. She is my everything, my Life. Even though I did a mistake I know she will forgive me because I will rectify it! I will give her the one thing she always had asked for: My trust! Because that is the only way to get her back.I would give her anything she asks for Rudra...Anything. I just want her back. She is my Life."
"So you don't just want her back because she is pregnant? You want her- Gauri, your wife Gauri? A Person with feelings and with selfrespect." Rudra smirked and drank a zip from his Glass. Somehow it amused him to see how sweetly his Brother tried to explain him why Gauri was the reason of his life.
Om got irritated not realizing that his brother was mocking him- What was Rudy even saying, He thought, How can he think so low of me? I want gauri because of her not because of the baby. I can have a thousand babies but no Gauri.
"Ru...Do you really think that low of me? Or are you mocking my Love? The Main Reason is Gauri and not the baby. I can have a dozen of them but only one Gauri. She is my Gauri, only mine." He stood up and looked for his car keys. Now wasn't the time to talk it was the time to act.
"I know. I was just teasing you a bit, testing you. Because women are ...very insecure. They would think that way. Anyway good Luck bringing back my Sister in law little Bro."
Omkara thanked him and left to bring his tiny wife back.
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At the same Time Gauri was sitting on the swing in her parental house in the garden when she felt a male hand touch her Shoulder. She didn't recognize the touch and knew it wasn't him! No Matter what the circumstances may are she would always recognize his touch.
Gauri turned around with a half-smile only to see Arjun standing behind her.
"Just go...Please! You ruined everything. I considered you my friend!How could you just force yourself on me like that?" She pushed him away and tried to leave but slipped over her chappals. Before she could hurt herself he prevented her from falling; his hands on her hips steading her. She looked at him with anger and took a step back. She didn't feel good with him so close to her. It felt wrong, like he was trying deliberately to come closer to her, even if he just had tried to save her.
"You need to be a lot more careful now. After all you are not alone anymore Ri, you are not anymore the little girl I knew once. You grew up into a beautiful and mature woman." Both looked at her abdomen and somehow Gauri smiled; caressing her baby inside her. She felt her baby kicking and bit her lip. Her beautiful baby was the only reason she hadn't left yet.
"Right...I am not alone anymore but actually I would have had my husband by my side wouldn't it be for you. He thinks I cheated on him with you...just because he thinks you love me and want to win me back..." Her voice trailed off.
"because I do...he thinks that way because I do love you- I loved you ever since the day you stood in front of me with your mouth full of ice cream wearing your PJ's standing in front of my door asking me whether we would always stay together. Do you remember that day? That is the day I realized I love you Gauri and I have loved you ever since."
"What...? Why now? Arjun why? I mean are you willing to sacrifice my love for yours? You know how much I love you as a friend. You are an important part of my life but Omkara is the one. For me it is him, like you remember the day you fell in love with me I still remember the day I fell in love with him." Even trying hard not to she came closer and cupped his face. Tears were pricking in Arjun's eyes and he smiled at the woman that yet again broke his heart.
"I know Gauri that is why I won't come near you again. But I have to tell you as to why I did it in the first place. A Tej called me and asked me to do him a favor. First I didn't know what he wanted but then he mentioned your name 8 Months ago and I thought...Maybe...Maybe she isn't happy with her husband and I would get my Love but I was wrong and I am sorry for that. Please I won't ever do it again." Slowly he folded his hands in front of her, getting down on his knees while asking for her forgiveness. Gauri knew that he was really sorry after all she knew her former best friend very well. When he said something he meant it.
"I forgive you! Really I do. I pray to God to give you someone who will love and cherish you. Someone who will fill your life with Love, Happiness and the Colors of Life. The Way Om lighted up my World. He is my very soul."
"Thank you Ri that means a lot to me. I couldn't have left without you forgiving me. Now I can leave but only after I talked to Omkara. I have to apologize and I have to bear whatever he wishes to do to me."
"No..."She whispered, "There is no need for that. If I forgive you, he too forgives you. We are one." Gauri tried to smile. She didn't want him to know that the Moment Arjun would meet Omkara he would be beaten up blue and black for misbehaving with her. After all her husband was a possessive and very jealous man, something that was frighting but made her feel loved in a twisted kind of way.
"Are you sure?" He asked again and she nodded. She wanted him to leave for good. She hugged him tightly and he embraced her even harder.
"I will miss you speedy. I wish to get someone just like you." Arjun caressed her face gently and pecked her forehead in a brotherly manner. Reminding her of all the good days they had in their childhood. It was truly Goodbye.
"I will miss you too. Take care." Gauri smiled at him and waved him good bye as he left through the gate; leaving her by herself to fix the damage he had caused.
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"Ri?"
Gauri was still sitting in that swing when she heard his husky voice calling out her name. His voice made her go rigid for a brief second remembering how he had insulted her the last time they had seen each other. Her body unconsciously remembering the humiliation.
"Om..." She ran to him but stopped right in front of him. Her Body had reacted like always seeing him but her mind refused her to forgive him that easily.
"Gauri...Please come back to me. I can't live without you, I am a complete mess."
"Our marriage doesn't stand the chance to last if you don't trust me. Maybe I can forgive you for almost forcing yourself on me but I can't forgive you for not trusting me. Trust is the basic element for a marriage to work Omkara Singh Oberoi not just Love and Lust. You hurted my self respect and I don't know how I can ever forgive that Om...Your words will forever be in my mind." She looked away not able to meet his eyes. He would see immediately how hard it was for her to even pronounce these words; to even think of letting them separate. But Gauri couldn't stay married to him anymore if he didn't believe her. How can that work? Yes, they did love each other but for her trust was equaled important.
"So ... You already decided to leave me? Did you already decide I was not worthy your love, your trust? How easily you would just erase me from your life, from our child's life?" Omkara came closer and grabbed her Hands. She tried hard not to cry or to feel something but his proximity did wicked things to her. Gauri felt herself getting weaker by his touch and before she could say a word he kissed her lips gently. For a brief second nothing else mattered except from them. For a moment she let him kiss her, let herself feel loved and wanted. Maybe other's would judge her for the moment of weakness but she didn't care.
"I could never separate you from your child but I can't be a part of your life if you don't trust me. Can't you trust me? Did I ever do something to make you doubt me, my intentions?" She looked up to him; trying to read his expression.
Omkara began thinking about her words. He did trust her, he believed her that she would never cheat on him, would never tell him a lie. It wasn't a question about trust for Omkara moreover it was a question whom he believed more: How could he doubt his father, the one that raised him? The one that took care of him? How could he trust a woman, that was just a part of his life for 2 years saying bad thing about his Father? But how could he not listen and trust her?
Ever since He and Riddhima had broken up Omkara wasn't able to fully trust those who claimed to love him. He did with Riddhima and she had betrayed him so easily like she never truly loved him. He wasn't worthy to trust or to love or to be trusted or to be loved. All this time He had waited for Gauri to realize that and to leave him, to realize that he did not deserve her love. And after seeing Arjun and her he had believed she deserved someone like him, someone who would take good care of her from the beginning, who would love her and cherish her, someone to make her happy because ever since she came into his life she never ever had been completely happy. He couldn't give her happiness so he wanted to free her to find her happiness somewhere else.Maybe he should let her go?
"Ri..Before you decide anything and believe me I won't stop you after you decided but please let me explain as to why I reacted that way, why I didn't believe you. I couldn't believe you because I don't think I deserve you, your love or your trust. You need someone like Arjun in your life, someone who would always cherish you, treat you well and would never hurt you or make you cry. Why would you choose someone like me? Someone who always hurt you treated you badly and who isn't even able to trust those he loves the most due his past? I was waiting for the day you would finally realize that I don't deserve you, that I don't deserve happiness and someone who trusts me fully. Maybe I should set you free but I don't know If I can be that selfless...If I could let you go...Do you hate me for it? Because I hate myself for not being the man you deserve." He closed his eyes, when his mouth voiced out his inner feelings. Omkara gave her his heart and asked her to choose whether to give him another chance or not.Whether to believe him or not. He hoped she understood that he trusted her and that he would never doubt on her again.
"Why are you always so strict with yourself? Why do you always think so low of yourself? you deserve everything this world can offer you: Love, Trust and Happiness. You need to believe the people you love that they love you too despite your flaws. That they trust you and you too should trust them as well. Trust is important for any relation honey. I love you and you deserve every bit of my love but you have to prove that you trust me and that something like the other night doesn't happen again.Do you think it was easy for me? It never was and it never will be but if you don't change I will leave you and I will take my child with me. And Maybe it will kill me but It would be for our child Om. Look maybe for now I can forgive you somehow...Because I can see in your eyes that you finally believe me, trust me...and that you will try your best to continue to trust me." She smiled at him the way she always smiled. Smiled the way she did to ensure him she loved him; only him.
Omkara grabbed her gently and pulled her closer to himself. For a moment she became rigid but then hugged him back. His lips kissed her cheeks, her nose and finally her forehead.
"I will trust you dear; From now on I won't ever give you the chance to doubt my trust in you. But I would fight for you if you would ever choose to leave me Baby. I am too selfish to let you go. I would rather die than see you leave me."
He smiled at the woman that had changed his life yet again. Gauri had made him rethink his character, his beliefs and now he knew for sure that he did deserve her as long as he trusted her.
"I have a request. Omkara said; caressing her face, his thumb driving over her lips. She shivered and moaned a: "What is your request?".
Her voice was merely voice able; she had lost herself in the storm of his desire. She never knew how easily she could trust him again. How easily it was to cross the bridge that could save her marriage and her self-respect. Maybe she was wrong but in Love there was no right or wrong. She knew he trusted her but not when it came to his father. She needed him to trust her, to win her completely back. To get back her Love he needed to prove that he would listen to her no matter what.
"Come back home."
"I will but only under one Condition: You will allow me to prove to you that I was right all along about your father. You will listen and trust me, only then I will forgive you."
Both looked at each other for a while; Omkara nodded slightly.The pain evident in his eyes.
"I will...I will try to but Gauri I am afraid I don't want to know whether you are right or not because no matter what the result would be I would be shattered. But I know how much that means to you and to get back your Love I would do everything: So yes I will listen. For you I would kill, for you I would do anything."
"I know Baby but I won't let you break. I will always be by your side okay? As long as we both are together nothing bad can ever happen. Believe in God and in me. And thank you for trusting me"
Again she hugged him tightly, she could sense his sadness. He believed her but still he hoped that his Father, the person he knew and loved was the way he thought he would be and not the way Gauri tried to tell him.
After telling her Mother she would go back home, she did her packing and both of them left to get back home. To get the truth unfold.
( Something that was not included in the original version but was added in this one :) )
"I saw Arjun leave before I came here. Omkara said while they drove back to Oberoi Mansion. Gauri looked at her Husband and waited for him to talk. When she realized he wouldn't say more she asked: Did you talk to him?while lowering the Sound of the radio.
"Would you hate me for punching him in the face once?
To say Gauri was surprised would be a lie, she calmly looked at her Husband and tried to surpress a smile.
"Let's just say I would have not expected anything less than a punch. You know I hate violence but if it helped you... She stopped.
"We also talked..
"You did? now she was surprised and he stopped the car. He turned to face her and her Hands found his.
He apologized and told me that it was all him but I didn't want to hear more. I told him I believe you and that you would never cheat on me. I told him that if you said he kissed you without your consent that I would not ask again nor don't believe you." his voice was trembling a little and she knew it was because he was scared of her reaction. Omkara Singh Oberoi was a lot but not a liar- especially when it came to her. Yes back then when he had tricked her into marrying him she knew he had loved her but his past kept him away from her. All this time she never doubted his love and his honesty when it came to his Feelings for her.
So you trust me?" Her eyes found his and Gauri saw him in Tears. He nodded before kissing her Hand.
I swear I do Gauri. The whole world could be against you but I would not believe anyone. I know my Wife, the Mother of my Child. Maybe it took me some time but I finally understand what you meant when you said a relationship without Trust is nothing. Knowing that I could lose you all I felt was emptiness and I realized how foolish i had been for not trusting your word."
Though they still had a long way to go before she could truly forgive him, that was a nice start.
DId you really just punch him once?" She said examining his hand. While Omkara smirked at her. I swear just once...but that should be enough to remind him not ot mess with us..." He pulled Gauri closer;who stiffend a little and placed a chaste kiss on her forehead.
He knew after what he tried to do to her they needed some time. He was willing to wait till eternity.
Let's go home." Gauri said turning away from him with a faint smile on her face. Om started the car and they drove home in silence.
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