Dear readers another update and I hope you will like this Chapter as well. Don't hate Omkara for his reaction, he is a human with his weaknesses. he will make it up to Gauri and I know nothing can justify his actions but maybe you will understand him with the next Chapter.

He is not in his clear mind and with his behavior he is on the verge of losing his wife.

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Chapter 11

The Love I don't deserve

Please pick up! Please!" Gauri was constantly crying and tried calling Omkara but he was not picking up the call. She needed to tell him in person what happened else he would feel cheated on, and wouldn't he be right? She cheated on him...even though unwillingly.

"Ma'am we arrived." The taxi driver said and she paid him. Gauri didn't even wait for the man to give her, her return money she ran inside the Oberoi Group building and hoped Omkara would listen calmly to what she had to say. Gauri was shaking and asked Omkara's PA to tell him that she wanted to see him right now.

"Mr.Oberoi your wife is here. She wants to meet you and to be honest she looks a little bit pale."

Omkara's assistant walked in and brought in a teary eyed Gauri. She immediately hugged her husband and began crying. Her sadness broke his heart and he tried his best to console her.

"Khanna you can leave." He said to his assistant and as soon as he left he pulled Gauri away a bit to look into her face. She looked everywhere but in his eyes. Something was terribly wrong he knew it the moment she started crying. What happened to make her that emotional? He was used to her emotional mood swings ever since the beginning of her pregnancy but this was something else. Something he couldn't quite fathom.

"Look at me Gauri."

She finally looked up to him and started kissing him passionately. He responded automatically and she pushed him on the sofa in his office. She came after him and started untying his tie. He was pleasantly shocked but knew why she initiated the love making: She was afraid and vulnerable. Whenever she felt that way she would try to get closer to him physically.

"Gauri..."His voice was soft andd brought her back to her senses. She blushed and he pulled her into his arms. He kept hugging her for a while; caressing her hair. Gauri sighed against his chest and finally her heartbeat calmed down. She had to tell him everything.

"Talk to me. Kya Hua? What is wrong? Did something happen? Or is that the Pregnancy?"

"Wooh...Arjun...He...We...We were talking and had fun and relived our childhood when he suddenly tried to..."Her eyes darted away and she didn't know how to say what she wanted to. How could she explain to him that some other men, someone she considered her friend broke her trust and kissed her? How could she tell him that she was kissed by someone else besides him?

"When he tried what?" Omkara asked with anger visible in his voice, almost immediately his relaxed posture was gone and she could feel him tense up. He could only guess what Arjun could have done and he prayed to God his Guess would turn out to be false but seeing his wife's state he was sure that bas***d did something unforgiveable.

"He tried kissing me..."

"Did he succeed? Did he kiss you and if yes why didn't you stop him?"

"I did but..."

"But what?" Omkara stood up and started to throw everything around. As always his anger was disastrous and Gauri held her abdomen in shock. She knew he would be mad but this mad?

"Tell me did you like it? Was it good? I bet it was since he was your first Love. Did you finally fulfill one of your wishes: Kissing your Ex-Lover? Hmm? Come on tell me dammit! How was it kissing someone else? Do you feel good now? Do you feel sexy enough?" He yelled and grabbed her forearms. She winced in pain and looked at him in utter disbelief. How could he manhandle her? How could he accuse her of loving someone else? Of enjoying someone else's touch?

"Do you really think I could do that? Kiss someone else? Do you really think that low of me? Does our Love mean nothing to you or our Baby?" She wanted to cry; cry for her bitter fate but she wouldn't give him the satisfaction of seeing her weak. In the end he would believe he was right and she was regretting.

"Oh ho stop this Drama. I bet you regret marrying me hain na? If you want you can go back to your Lover. I won't mind." He pushed her away in his anger while turning away from her and she stumbled and fell on the floor. Gauri couldn't believe that he really pushed her even though knowing that she was pregnant. She was hurt beyond imagination and all she wanted was to rest and to be away from him and his accusation. Omkara suddenly realized what he just did and tried helping her up but she refused his help. He could see her pain in her eyes and for the first Time during their conversation regretting for speaking like that with her.

"I am sorry..." He heard himself saying and tried to hug her but she pushed him away gently but also firmly. She couldn't bear his touch right now, she needed time to think.

"I don't care. I will leave now we can talk as soon as you realized what you just have said to me." With these finale words she stormed out the office, leaving a dejected Omkara behind.

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" Did you do what I asked you to do?" Tej asked and looked at the framed wedding picture of his Son and his daughter in law. After hearing the answer from the caller he smiled to himself.

"Thank you. One last thing: Did you send the pictures to my Son? Yes? Alright. Bye"

Jhanvi heard the conversation but could find any rational reasons for her Husband's happiness. What did the caller do to make her husband smile? And what photos were they talking about?

Did he again plan something to separate Om and Gauri? She needed to find out what was going on.

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"Beta? Are you alright?" Kalindi turned to her daughter who was sitting on her bed. She wasn't looking happy; her hands constantly caressing her abdomen. Kalindi was happily shocked to see how far her Daughter was in her pregnancy. Soon she would hold her first grandchild in her hands. That Thought immediately causer her mood to get better.

"Haan Maa. I am fine...I guess." Gauri looked at her Mother and smiled under tears that fell unchecked on her cheeks. How could she tell her mother that the man she adored was the cause for a major misunderstanding in her fragile marriage? She would feel responsible for encouraging Arjun in proposing her. If she would only know what he had done, Gauri thought sadly and looked at herself in the mirror. Her Eyes were red and swallowed and she looked pale. The only color in her face was the Sindoor which she carefully wiped away. She didn't feel worthy of it anymore. Though she was not at fault knowing someone else touched her with the rights of a husband sickend her.

Somehow she felt ruined, how could Arjun do something like that? He knew how much she loved Omkara and even though she wasn't at fault she felt like she cheated on him. She didn't feel pure and innocent anymore just because of a mere Kiss. A kiss that fueled her Husband's insecurities even more.

"You are the worst Liar on this world. Tell me what is wrong with you? Did you and Damadji have a fight?"

"Nothing happened Maa, I am just very tired and... I would like to stay here for a while. "She closed her eyes. It was evening now and Om hadn't called her once. She would bet her life that he was drinking somewhere to drown his pain. She knew him, he would drink and would then try to apologize to her but she was hurt. Gauri needed some privacy to lick her wounds.

Kalindi looked at her daughter and suddenly had a bad feeling. She was sad and something bothered her but she wasn't ready yet to talk about it. She caressed her hair and sat beside her.

"Do you need a Hug dear? Sometimes a hug can do more than a thousand words. I know something is bothering you but you don't want me to be sad- What about sharing that pain?"

Gauri started crying and hugged her mother tightly. She felt a lot better, somehow she felt that there was more to come but for now she could just share her pain silently with her mother.

"Sir your drink" The waiter handed Omkara another drink. He was still fuming with anger. How dare that bas***d Arjun kiss his wife, his Gauri? He was literally seeing red and was afraid what he could do to her in his anger. He wanted to beat Arjun blue and black for what he has done! But violence was never the solution, Gauri wouldn't want him to use his fist to sort out a problem.

"Sir there is a letter for you." Omkara turned around to see what his assistant was talking about. He handed him envelope and left as silently as he came in. Confused he opened the envelope and a handful of photograph fell on the table. Photos of Gauri and Arjun. Both were laughing and hugging each other. One photo showed her holding his hand smiling into his Face. Arjun smiling at Gauri and kissing her while her eyes were closed. Omkara felt like throwing up. Did she lie to him about the Kiss being unwanted by her?

There was a note too stating: "Looks like your wife isn't as innocent as you thought".

He turned the note around. No name, nothing.

Om wasn't sure whether to believe his Wife or this note? Could he just judge her by the content of this photographs? Shouldn't he give her the chance to speak and to explain herself? Should he believe what he just had seen or should he believe his wife, the woman that never lied to him, the woman that never hided anything from him? The woman that would rather die than be touched by someone else?

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"Ri?" A soft Voice woke her up and she opened her eyes with great difficulties. She felt someone caressing her cheeks and instantly knew who it was. Her body would always recognize his touch.

"Om..." she whispered and he switched on the light. He was still wearing his suit and she could smell the alcohol even before he kissed her. Angry with him She pushed him lightly away. Why did he have to drink whenever sad? It was seriously pissing her off.

"You are drunk" She hissed and sat up straight. He had to help her a little since her stomach was in the way.

"Yes I am wifey and that because of you. I saw what happened between you and Arjun. It didn't look like you were against him touching you." She looked at him blankly;hearing these words felt like someone stabbed her in her heart.

"Did you just accuse me of infidelity?"

The silence between them could have killed anyone. That could have been one of the worst things he had ever said to her.

"No..."He stumbled "No I-I am just a little drunk and confused. I have seen pictures and it looked like you liked it." He closed his eyes in pain but this time Gauri did not care that he was in pain. He had hurt her self-respect in the most terrible way: by questioning her character and her fidelity.

"I don't care that you are drunk and I don't care what you think you saw but what I care about is my self-respect. You hurt me a lot with what you said in the office and now again. I never thought you would fall that low. And just for your Kind information: I never would cheat on you since I never even could think of another man the way I think about you, feel about you."

She looked into his eyes and he could see her pain, her honesty which his drunken mind failed to recognize. He wanted to say something but he didn't know what.

"You are my Husband Omkara Singh Oberoi, my everything and the father of my child so why would I cheat on you? You just proved that you don't trust me or my Love even after everything we have been through, after everything you made me go through and still I accepted you open heartedly.Did you ever think about that? That you I let you in even after all the torture and the pain you made me go through?" Her voice broke away and he saw her trying to swallow her tears away. He knew she didn't want him to see her broken state because even after accusing her she still did not wanted to see him in pain.

He tried to touch her face but she jerked his hands away. His drunken self-got angry at her rejection and he forcefully kissed her. She protested and tried to free herself."OMKARA! You are hurting me please stop." But he didn't hear her. He started tearing off her clothes and kissed her jawline, her neck and the base of her throat. Gauri stiffened and couldn't understand how he would be able to force himself on her so she let him have his way. She closed her eyes and the sobs that cracked through her body were noticed by him. Suddenly Omkara became aware of what he was almost about to do: He almost had forced himself on his own wife, his pregnant wife. He stood up and covered her semi naked body with a duvet. His eyes didn't meet her.

"I am so sorry...I don't know how.. why.." He started but did not know how to end. How could be do something like that to her? How could he not respect her rejection, her will? What was wrong with me, he thought bitterly and turned away. Omkara felt the tears on his cheeks and wiped them away angrily. She failed to see his tears and just said in a shivering tone:" Just leave. Please I can't see your face right know. We can talk tomorrow when you are sober but not now and definitely not like this." Gauri was still shivering while putting back on her Night gown. For the first Time she detested his touch on her skin, his lips on her neck. He had insulted this part of their relationship badly and She felt like throwing up remembering the way he had kissed her forcefully. How could he do that? She understood his pain and his anger somehow because of his deep trust issues but this? This was unacceptable!

"I am sorry Ri." He left because he knew he had done the unthinkable and that both of them needed Time. A lot of Time.

Suddenly he Realized that He truly did not deserve her Love.

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